at my wits end !!

[bexie]

hey this may be a bit depressing but i am feeling like the bubbliness is leaving me now , like i sed before i have had 9 misscarriages now and one of them was at 6 months through pregnancy , i know i am fortunate that i can get pregnant but my body seems to reject all the time i am normally happy bubly soul my dh is always there for me but theres not much he can say anymore, we have our fingers, arms legs . and everything crossed i know im only young but this is all me and my hubby have longed for. i think i would be a good mum and i know dh would be a gr8 dad , it makes me feel as if we have done something wrong and been punished. i think i just need to know that one day it will happen for us

[souris]

Hi Bexie,

oh dear, my heart goes to you, you have been through so much...I really hope you will find what causes your miscarriages and that you will be able soon to carry a healthy pregnancy.
I undertstand what you mean with the bubbliness... I feel the same. I dont like the new me, obsessed with the baby I dont have, tearfull, moody... I want to be the old me again, the happy bubbly girl i was once.
I am 23, going on 24. Dont blame yourself, you have done nothing wrong and i am sure that one day you will be a great mum, and your dh a great dad.
Patience is the key word to keep sane... not easy

Take care
xxx
souris

[I-1-2-b-a-mum]

Bexie, I just wanted to write to you, being a hard old shoe very few things touch me but your post did. It is of no consolation to you whatsoever to know but I lost my sister when she was 17 years old, she was murdered, I was 11 years old. One of my biggest inspirations from that moment onwards has been my parents, to say they were devastated is an understatement but they kept on going, when I was older I asked my mum how she was able to get through that. She told me every time she sat down and cried, afterwards she remembered she just had to keep going on as these things in life were sent to test us.

You have to believe, one day your time will come sweetheart and you will give birth to a beautiful creature I will say a pray for you today and ask you to keep looking forward to the birth of your first born.

[charlie77]

hiya bex
aww your post is so touching
we have our fingers and everything else crossed for you too
sounds to me like you guys really deserve to be parents and when you do become a mummy and a daddy im sure you will be great parents that im sure is one thing that inferftility does ensure
you have to try remain possitive and dont give up you have come a long way and your happy day your BFP must surely be just round the corner
when do you start?? or have you already??
make sure you keep us informed and good luck
richard charlie xxx

[Laura M]

I am so sorry to hear about your problems. It is a very difficult thing to go through.
Have you heard of the St Mary's Hospital in London? They have a unit with specialists which treat miscarriages problems such as yours. Maybe you 've been there but if not, your doctor can send you a referral.
Good luck and keep positive that it will happen one day.
Love
Laura

[bexie]

i am due to see my consultant on weds and i am been referred to hospital in bham so we will see how it goes from there.

[I-1-2-b-a-mum]

Bexie, glad to hear you're moving forward and I hope it works out for you.

[daly]

Hi Bexie,

I read your post and my heart goes out to you. I've had 5 mc (one was a ruptured ectopic) and it is so heart-breaking. I don't know how you managed 9. My biggest fear is another mc. I would rather not get pregnant at all instead of a mc at this point. But, like you, I keep walking forward towards the dream. There are so many theoretical treatments for mc these days. Of course my cause is unknown and simply attributed to "poor egg quality". (Although they looked great at last ER.) I'm very curious to see what your RE tells you. My RE said after 8 mc he would consider IVIG. Others use it sooner. I'd really like to know what you decide as I seem to have a similar history.

Much love to you and your angels in heaven. As I tell my dh, it will quite a family reunion when we get there!