JCBs Continued II

Susi · Post by **Susi** » Tue Jul 22, 2003 10:35 pm

Hi Guys Taking up Kathryns idea of new thread so have taken the liberty to start part II. Kathryn you are right the move is taking my mind off things so much that at times I feel no twinges until I sit still again in the office. In addition to all this had a call from the Tax man today that they want to audit me ( I am self employed, living in Portugal) on Thursday. Bloody hell what next !?!? I know what you all mean about the bleeding , not having any makes one wonder if we are indeed on the right track. Today I felt that really nothing is happening and that next week AF will come and all the sorrow with it. Really cannot face that that thought. Alison - how did DH take putting 3 back in ? My DH was not amused but gave in

Nicola -if you come ont this , I find putting both hands on lower belly and just 'feeling' visualising positive thoughts helps relax and eventually i fall asleep. Also do the same thing before getting out of bed. Hope this helps Do you feel that with each passing day your thoughts get more crazy and its harder to stay positive ? I certainly do ! Well one day gone, 9 to go

Kat · Post by **Kat** » Wed Jul 23, 2003 6:24 am

Morning all, woke up at 5.30 and couldn't get back to sleep so can get on here before anyone else arrives in the office! To continue from other threads - won't worry about implantation bleeding (or lack of it) any more, promise. Have also remembered that when I asked when it might implant and was told it would be about 4 days after ET, she did say 'you won't know anything about it though' so she would have said about a bleed if it was everyone that got one. Pains - have sore nipples if I squish them but that started day after EC so must be the pessaries. Slight AF pain on and off. Pain like a stitch at my waist mostly on one side, don't see what this has to do with ovaries or anything as its too far away. Also sharp pain sometimes on one side, low down, I suppose where my right ovary is. Perhaps it's just recovering from having stuff sucked out of it. Either that or appendicitis. Enough! Time to attempt to do a day's work.... Speak later, love Kat xxxx

Dawn Blake · Post by **Dawn Blake** » Wed Jul 23, 2003 7:20 am

Helo everyone, Sorry to put a downer on the thread, but I think my number has been called and it is time for me to leave the JCBs. Still got very sore boobs and stitchty-like pains, but backache is now kicking in and still spotting. Trying to stay positive until test day (Saturday), but I have been here 4 times before and it has always meant bad news. As for you silly girls worried about not bleeding - don't be ridiculous!!! It is better not to have a show than to have one, so please don't get yourselves worked up about that! I have been resting completely (apart from going to the Ivy, not exactly exausting!!) for the 2ww, DH has been home too, and just pottering round the house doing stuff, so I haven't been overdoing it, just wasn't meant to be I suppose. Going to France today, was going to chill out again, but to be honest if it was going to work it would have implanted by now, so a wander round the Boucherie isn't going to make any difference. Keeping all things crossable crossed for you, take care D xx

kathryn · Post by **kathryn** » Wed Jul 23, 2003 7:50 am

dont give up yet dawn, I know you have been here before, but many of the pg girls think its all over and its not. Are you spotting much? I so hope you wont have to go through this again and that saturday will bring you the good news that you deserve. enjoy yourself in france , kat, what time do you arrive at work??? your post reads 7.24! do you work locally? so your living in portugal susi! is that where youre moving to or are you already there? anyway take care all kathryn x

jo mortimer · Post by **jo mortimer** » Wed Jul 23, 2003 9:07 am

Dawn Please don't worry it's a strange thing we are having done to our bodies and I reckon they all react in different ways. Think about the pg girls as Kathryn stays and try to stay positive. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you. I went back to work the day after ET and I've just acted as normal (apart from going to the gym) has everyone else been off work for longer?? When is everyone testing?? Jo

Susi · Post by **Susi** » Wed Jul 23, 2003 11:29 am

Hi, I am stressing a bit as feel that I am feeling too normal? Does anyone else have this feeling . Am starting to think that this hasn't worked and am dreading the disappointment when I test ( 1 Aug). Have a HPT in the cupboard that I nearly toook out this morning but know it is too soon for a test to tell results. Trying to keep busy and make the days fly. Dawn, hope that all is getting better and that you will not be leaving us. From what I read on the other side, spotting this early really can not mean anything. Hope it works out, have a glass of wine in France - must be good for the soul and that's always positive where I come from .

Alison · Post by **Alison** » Wed Jul 23, 2003 11:41 am

Dawn - I don't want to say, "don't worry, it'll be OK" because you know yourself best, but try not to give up all hope. I hope you've had a good day in France, and brough yourself back some wine, hopefully for consumption in nine months time, but if needed for next week. I feel as if things could go either way. Had another red spot last night (second embie?!) and then very small amount of brown this morning (sorry, you really don't need this detail do you?! Particular apologies if you're reading this eating lunch!). So who knows. I guess if it all stops now then I'll be reasonably optimistic when I test on Monday. On the other hand, still worried that this could be the start of AF. Jo - I think its a split decision on the work front, but the only time I've had off was a half day Friday afternoon for the actual FET. Considered taking a day or two off this week but decided I'd rather be busy than sitting just waiting. Susi - Portugal, you lucky woman! DH is the pessimist in our relationship so doesn't think it'll work anyway, so had no qualms about putting 3 back. I'm working on the basis that having had a total of 10 embies put back over 4 cycles and no babies the chances of all 3 working at once would be slim! Alison

nicolam · Post by **nicolam** » Wed Jul 23, 2003 12:52 pm

Well I made it to the JCB club. Alison, Kathryn and Susi, thanks for the words of encouragement. I do actually feel more calm today, think sending that email last night really helped - I haven't talked to anyone about how I'm feeling. I don't want to make DH worry more, because I know he's feeling scared enough and I decided not to tell my Mum and Dad this time, because it'd be worrying for them and more pressure on me. (Last ICSI, my Mum came with to the ET and held my hand as DH was away working! Felt so bad telling her it failed). I went straight back to work - always have done - as I need to keep occupied (no-one knows here). The butterflies feeling invariably happens at home when I'm just sitting there dreaming. 'Keeping it on the island' can sometimes be tricky at work, I noticed that I've made a couple of cock ups which I wouldn't normally have done - genuinely thought I'd briefed a project in, when I actually hadn't, but hey it's hardly surprising! No sharp pains today, but like you've said, you just need to roll with it and ignore it all. Well I'm going to nip out and get me some chocolate to cheer myself up. N x

Kat · Post by **Kat** » Wed Jul 23, 2003 6:21 pm

Hi all, Dawn - hope it's not bad news, am feeling positive today, and sending loads of good vibes to everyone for good news over this week and next week. Alison - I'm sure you'll be fine too, when do you test? Kathryn - in answer to your question I work 40 miles away, work starts 8.30 officially but I am usually there 7.30 - 7.45 to miss traffic on M25, couldn't sleep last night though so was extra early. I like being there before anyone else anyway as it's nice and quiet. Strange, I know. DH doesn't understand it , he is self employed and works at home so only has to walk 60ft to his workshop at the bottom of the garden. Susi - what took you to Portugal? Don't do that HPT yet!!!! It'll mess with your head. I am not letting myself buy one yet, but may well talk myself into it later on. Jo - I had ET Friday and went back to work Monday so not much time off. I think I'd go mad at home. Nicola - welcome to the JCB, it's good just to be able to put down what you feel even if you'd never say it out loud normally. Can't believe it's already a week since EC. Have stopped stressing about bleeeding or not bleeding but just want this 2 weeks to be OVER!!! Enough rambling, Lots of love and more positive vibes in everyone's direction Kat xxxx

Becky28 · Post by **Becky28** » Thu Jul 24, 2003 8:58 am

Hello fellow JCBs! Dawn, I don't want to be stupidly optimistic cos I've had enough people be like that to me - relax and it'll just happen blablabla - but please don't give up all hope yet. Dolly - I'm hoping you're resting at home and all has gone well - drop us a post and let us know how you are asap! EVERYONE - stay calm and happy if you can!!! I had two embies put back yesterday (I'm relatively young, 28, and this is our first go). They were both 'higher' grade (KIng's only rate them higher or lower), and one was 5 cell, one 6 cell. Got to see them on the screen - amazing! So now am sitting tight, back at work and trying to be normal. Thankfully, they've told me I can still go swimming - I find it so relaxing and am convincing myself it might increase blood flow to vital parts (or something?!) I've had that sharp stitch-like pain you were talking about, Kat, in both sides already. Other than that nothing except SORE boobs - which I've had since I started the Gonal-F really. Test on Weds 6 Aug - then straight off to France for a fortnight. Gotta dash and try and do a bit of work, but thinking of you all. Fingers, eyes and especially legs crossed. Beck xx

kathryn · Post by **kathryn** » Thu Jul 24, 2003 9:14 am

hi all, well done becky! now heres the worst bit! like kat was saying I cant believe 1 week has gone already for us! feel ok now really,feel a bit of a fraud as I feel ok to go back to work today but dh is going to go on his own again bless him!(we own a shop in our village) I cant believe everyone feels ok to go straight back to work! Although I felt tons better this time, my insides wouldnt let me walk upright and no clothes would fit over my tum. walking around feels like my insides are going to drop out of me! glad to see you made it over here nicola! hope youre ok dawn, lots of love to the jcb's kathryn x

july ann · Post by **july ann** » Thu Jul 24, 2003 9:27 am

hi girls hope you do not mind me butting in. just wanted to say hello and you all seem to be doing so well keep up the good work,and i hope all your dreams come true. have been keeping a eye on you all to make sure there are no negetive vibes or early testing.... not long to go, will be thinking of you all from july ann

gem · Post by **gem** » Thu Jul 24, 2003 10:17 am

Hi Girls Just wanted to butt in and wish you all loads of luck and lots of positives..... Lots of love Gem xx Kathryn,Ive replyed to your message on Kateg Forum,Thanks again for thnking of me. xxxx

jo mortimer · Post by **jo mortimer** » Thu Jul 24, 2003 12:19 pm

Hi Girlies Glad to see everyone is feeling ok today, I'm not doing too bad myself. Becky, I'm the same as you, 28 and this is our first go, it's all a bit scary isn't it? Which hospital are you going to? Kathryn, your tummy is going to be fatter for the next 9 months so don't worry about it! Take care Luv Jox

Grace · Post by **Grace** » Thu Jul 24, 2003 3:17 pm

Hi JCBs hope you are all doing okay.... Dawn, just wondering how you are today. Think you said you went to France yesterday, did you have a nice day? How are things now? Just wanted you to know that I am thinking of you? It is such a horrible time this waiting business, I really dread it. Talk about a living hell!! Sending you lots of thoughts and hugs. Gracexxx

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