Pheonixes Rising

[Lis]

MLG posted on your test thread. Good luck for Monday??

Lola how are you??

Julie glad your tummy is sorting itself out! How was curry?

Nicki - whats new with you doll??

Lucy, guess what? I'm off to buy shoes this weekend? Any tips on good shoe shops - need them for christening and looking for a pink pair!

To everyone else, have a great weekend. Was about to go out for a jog but its raining so not sure what to do.

See you soon!

[luby]

Hi Ladies

Having a really boring weekend. The weather is crap, so nothing to do, just been out for tea and had a few cheeky glasses of wine, well I might as well while I still can.

Lola - Hope your doing OK.?

Nicki - Hope your ok and not working too hard.

Julie - Hope your feeling better? I am feeling a bit better, still quite stressed, which I know isn't good when I have my tmt so close.! Only 3 weeks - OH MY GOD...... Can't believe it has come round so quick - I am getting nervous.

Lis - hi Lovey - Hope your doing OK. Good on you for doing the Glasgow 10k - You must be fit..? Hope you and DH are feeling better. As for the shoe's, well, I just bought some GORGEOUS shoe's from Flannels, expensive but worth the money.! Not sure what shops you have where you are!? Good Shoe shops are: Moda in Pelle, Flannels, Office, can't think of anymore, I just shop and if I see some I like I usually get em.! Good Luck with the shoe hunt.!

MLG – Hope your numbers rise – Try not to worry, everything will be fine. Good Luck for Monday.

Jeni - How's you? Hope you’re doing OK?

A big hello to everyone else.

Lucy

[Lis]

Hi just popped into say hi to all

Lucy got my shoes!! From Office - pink ted baker sandles - just perfect for my outfit (although maybe a bit skimpy for christening ) but have long wide trousers to wear with them so should be ok

Good for you having a few cheeky wines - quite right.

MLG - hope you still ok and keeping up that PMA girlie!!

[NickiMark]

Shoes sounds great Lisa.

I have 2 x weddings to go to in summer and looking fwd to buying new out fits!!

Anyway, havin a slouch sunday, more drinks last night, oh now the last3 weekends I have been drinking, cant seem to stop now, not good as I was living a healthy life before in prep for iui in summer.....But just feel like life is too short.... Do u understand??

we r going for a walk shortly so that'll clear my head and get me in the air!!!!

Love to all x xx

[gailp]

Hi

I seem to have been off the boards for a while and now im struggling to catch up

Im feeling a bit emotional today, dont know why, guess its just hormonal I have got 5 working days in my old job and then I start my new one 5 days after ET At least the new job will keep my mind partly occupied on the 2ww.

Sending PMA and hugs to everyone, sorry no personals today

xx

[NickiMark]

Gail, I have agood feeling about u getting BFP......

I think I missed yournews, about new job, wow, 5 days. but u are right new job will keep u ocupied on 2ww.... Hope its not stressful for the 2ww... Are u doing same job different location, or do u have to learn new job too???

Good Luck! xx

[gailp]

Its the same company Nicki, just completly different department. I don't think it will be too stressful and it wont be any longer hours than I did before. I did what you did and was honest from the start about the treatment, I didnt actually expect to get the job

Hows things with you

[Julie2039]

Hi Girls

Hope all ok. The weather is horrid!! Go away on Sat so hope it gets better....don't fancy being kept awake all night with hailstones (golf balls here!!) bouncing off caravan roof! Looking forward to the break. Going with 3 other families, have our own caravans, so should be fun.

Can I just ask - have any of you experienced friendships changing while going thro all this? Have close circle of long lasting friendships from school (20 - 25 years) and we do most things together as girlies/couples. I am just finding the changes all very hard, and not sure why. They have always been supportive but have at least one child of their own and know they don't/can't understand how we feel. Think I may expect too much tho - if the shoe was on the other foot I would be interested to see what they are going to go thro i.e. read up on it or maybe watch the odd doc but they don't and if the subject comes up in convo it is short lived. Know they prob don't know what to say but now I am at the stage where I want to stick two fingers up and wish I hadn't confided in them.

It feels terrible to think that way because I love em loads but can feel I am distancing from them already and know I will need them more than ever. Have you felt like this???

MLG - Good luck tomorrow babe

Gail - Buckets of PMA for you hun

Lis - Shoes sound fab! Very fitting for the godmother!! Hope it goes well. x

Lucy - 3 weeks to tmt. It has come fast. Don't know where this year is going!!! Try and chill - do more shopping if necessary! Whatever it takes..x

Nicki - Life is too short!! My motto exactly kiddo. Live it while you can...You will get back on track soon enuf.

Lola - sending you hugs. Hope you and DH are ok x

Hi to everyone else - Byyyyeeeee

[rachel1]

hi all

julie and jen, hope you're both feeling better.
earaches are soooooo painful, i really feel for you jen. had a terrible one a few years back and it damaged the nerves so i'm now quite deaf in one ear. it does come in handy at times though so can't complain! know what you mean about staggering around like a drunk. it had that effect on me for ages afterwards and even now i'm still a bit unsteady on my feet....well, at least that's my story after a couple of glasses of wine and i'm sticking to it!! hope you've recovered.

julie, sorry that you're experiencing strain in your close friendships. maybe you could try telling them how you feel. it could help to clear the air and may even help to bring you closer if they really are good friends. who knows, they may think that you don't want to go into detail or to put you in a difficult situation by asking lots of questions. talk to them, they probably would be very upset to think that you feel yourself distancing from them.
that said, i'm sure they don't, and will never, fully understand what you're going through because i think no matter how sensitive a person is, it's a very difficult thing to appreciate unless you're in this situation. that's not a criticism, it's just how things are.
if you don't want your friendships to irreparably change, then just remember bob hoskins in that bt ad.."it's good to talk"! what's the worst that can happen?? things turn out the way you're predicting now??

must go as i have to shoot up. things aren't going so great, i have 2 cysts and only 3 small follies on my one and only ovary. have a scan tomorrow so hoping we wont have to cancel the cycle. it's neverending is it??

mlg, best of luck tomorrow. hope it all works out.
liz, lucy, gail and nicki, hope you're all fine. a few glasses of wine or beer wont do any harm, my doc told me to drink so there you have it, medical approval!
lola, sweetie, so sorry, take care of yourself.

hi to everyone else, hope you all had a great weekend.

take care
rachel

[NickiMark]

I needed to reply to julie about your friends, I was just logging on quickly b4 bedtime (as I am soooooo tired) but when I read your post I just had to post now, to say......

I know exactly how u feel.....

I had 6 great mates, Carly, Sarah,Cathy, Zoe, Annie and Jane. We were mates like years ago before boyfriends and hubbies,
Carly accidently got preg and Sarah also before Cathy zoe annie jane and me were even married let alown trying! So it was just us 5 then cathy had a baby, that was about the same time me and dh got married, so shortly after our wedding we decided to start trying, every thing was great with friends etc.....This was 2001, in 2003 Annie and Zoe both fell preg, and I decided to tell 'em we'd already been ttying 2 1/2 yrs, so then coz I told them we told every one, I mean every1, all my friends all dh's friends and all family, thought it would be better out, than in....

But this when friendships started to drift away.....after Zoe and Annie had their babies they went arround together and ignored me and Jane, and it was like all them with babes and just me and jane, which was cool, then Jane started ignoring me and we fell out but also her dh and my dh had issues (another story) so when she fell preg, she was 36 weeks before I was told..... not by her....by Zoe. I was gutted....Jane did call when her baby was born, but thats all.....

So now all friends have babies, and I am still waiting......I spk on the phone some times, thats it really, but the good old days have gone. I am saddened much by their ways of snubbing us because we dont fit in to their mum/toddler groups.....

It's always me to contact 1st, and some times I think sod ya, and it goods weeks b4 I hear anything, some times I get the odd txt msge.....

They were my best mates, the friends I have now are work colleuges and dh's mates and their wives/gf's (not really the same, as my friends though) I dont feel at all close to any of them. I alway say dh is my best friend.......

But yes, I am so sad by my mates over our issues ttc, it's sad.....I cry over 'em lots, not so much now, as i refuse to let them make me depressed when I am already depressed by not being able to have my own baby, and having had 3 failed iui's......

Jane, and I are currently trying to patch things up, have emailed a few times recently (our dh's dont know though!!) And we plan to meet again soon, but it's not the same, I wish could go back to the old days when we were mates and living girly nights and laughter etc......

So Julie, I hope that helps ya, you aint alone.........

I think thats why I feel the need to post so much here, as every1 here is great, and treuly understands my pain!!!!

Love and hugs to my cycber friends!!!! x x x x xx x xx x x x x

[NickiMark]

Ps, sorry for any mistakes above. I am tired. I am off to bed now!!!

[Julie2039]

Hi

Thanks Nicki and Rachel for your replies - Rachel I think you are right about it being good to talk. I must and probably will. We are away for a week from this weekend so will see what happens. Nicki - its nice to know I am not alone!

We are still in touch as ever before and spend quite a lot of time together. My two closest friends have both had their second babies in Oct/Nov and I feel we are growing apart coz I think we have nothing in common. It is not entirely true but its all baby talk and talk about people at toddler groups that I don't know and just feel I have no input and we are starting to lead seperate lives. They do listen when I talk (and can I talk when I get going!!) but because they don't understand what we have to go thro (i.e. they seem to think its legs akimbo and in it goes and thats it - if only!) i get the "oh well, you have 3 attempts so....." or "I know its hard but you will have a baby in the end...".

AAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I do think it is me that has the problem with it and not them but they just don't understand why I am scared and tell me I should be excited (which I am too). I have always thought we are like our own family and am wondering if I have over evaluated our friendships. .

Will let you know how the holiday goes.....

MLG - Thinking of you today hun! x

[Sallyc]

Hi Ladies,

just a quick one.

Hope you are all fine.

MLG-my fingers are crossed for you. Hope your levels have been rising.
Let us know how you get on.

Take care all of you and thx for the pma! I am trying to stay positiv.

[MLG]

Hi Ladies

Sorry, no personals, don't feel up to the concentration needed.

My levels doubled, but even so they are still lower than expected, so have to wait some more.
Will talk to my doc in a weeks time to schedule a scan and get more information.

xxxxx

[Sallyc]

MLG- thats good news! Congratulations. You take it easy now. You´ll see everything is going to be fine. I will keep my fingers crossed for you.

Take care.