Oct 05 Cycle Buddies

[little R]

I know Lola.... have been refreshing this page for a while now... hoping we will hear some good news from our Octofriend....a little concerned that it's not good news..

How are YOU, Lola? How's the library going? Your brain not fried yet?
So Grey's on tomorrow night?

You know... I still haven't signed up for another thread... I love you all too much...but I know that when you have got a BFN you don't really want to hear about someone else's treatment.... maybe I should... I couldn't find a better group than this one...Heaps of virtual hugs to my fav Viking warrior....you're the best

Much love to you Jen...whenever you log on... thinking about you and Pebbles and Bam Bam...

Little R

[lolajones]

Brain completely fried


have aborted the library. too stuffy.
Now at home pretending to be interested in the toxicity of metals

have a massage booked for 6 o'clock, mmmmm. Figured as i'm using my annual leave to study I deserved some treats

Don't break up the octobuds!! You can talk as much as you like about treatment and I'll be cheering you on

It is good to be cycling the same time as others though so if you want to join the april or may thread, do it dude! Just don't neglect us stagnators!

Yes tomorrow is Greys hello Doctor

Right, back to books...AAARRRGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH

Will check in later for Jen News Update

Lola
xxxx

[Jen1d]

Thanks girls for all your help

Well after our red show last night at 7.30 and lots of tears we did a hpt and it came back negative. Wish i had never touched it. It was stupid to do as its too early to test as i still had 5 days to go. Since the show i haven't had any more blood and the dreaded AF seems to be staying away but i have terrible pains in tum and its been tumbling around like an old washine machine all day. My urine smells strong, like a period is on the way (sorry for that one, again) but at about 2.30 today i had one tiny brown spot again. THIS IS HELL.
Now we are just praying that we tested too early and the AF will stay away. Zita and the hospital say that you should only test after 14 days so the trigger injection is out of your body. I bled last time 2 days before my test so need to get through tomorrow. I have been in bed all day today as i am terrified AF will come if i stand up--stupid fool, she'll arrive when she wants, anytime.
Catch up soon,

Love Jen x

[lolajones]

Too early to test!! No more bleeding! Everything will be fine!!!
Get back to bed!!

Lots of love
Lola
xxxx

[Jen1d]

ok miss bossy boots, on my way

Hope it is too early, cant pray any harder.

Love Jen x

[little R]

Hey Jen... well good news no more spotting....
You should not have tested...but can understand that you did... you see I would have been way too scared to even pee on the stick
I am not brave...
Exactly...Zita is the Queen.... too early for testing...
As Lola, our Viking Warrior, bosses.... get back into bed girl....

I know it's hell...hang on in there...thinking about you and hoping that Thursday were Sunday

Lots of love,

Little R

[little R]

Yo Lola.... yipppeee... a massage...sounds like a perfect way to reach zen-ness

I know this may sound like a crazy crazy question...please don't be mad.. but what exactly are you studying for? Sorry if I missed a previous post or was just born dim

It sounds like torture to me....

Bye for now Miss Jones... bed time for me... DH is back, but in the usual jet-lag state... he crashed at 6pm...it's great he skipped going back to Switzerland...and stayed with me... he'll be gone in a few days again though...

I would NEVER break up the Octobuds...can't believe we are still in our prime position on Page Uno

Je t'embrasse très fort,

Little R

[Smita]

Jen,
Put feet up and stay positive!

hugs,
smita

[lolajones]

Jemla - how you doing today? More positive? I have a very good feeling about this cycle for you girlfriend When you get your positive I hope you're not thinking of escaping the octoteam?? Hmmmm.

R pequeno - how good is it have dh back for a few days? Hope you're enjoying yo bad self. massage was fantastic! Slept like a bear last night. The exam of ineptitude is a post grad medical exam. I have to do it (and pass it sadly) to become a consultant in my specialty, hence the stress.

Steph and Walsh - I think I speak for the whole cadre when I say we are bored of your absence so wise up n get postin! Steph how did you get on in the turtle wrestling competition? Do it for The Duo!!!!

Some of the va va voom is back (sure a trip to booksville will quickly cure that) and so I've decided to go n visit my best-friend-with-newborn while the fugue has lifted. Is like a special agent test. My reward? An episode of Greys and a big fat easter egg.

Okaly doke - I'm off to the you know what for some you know whence n whatfor, I'll be checking in regularlomento for octupdates

Amor amor amor
Lola
xxxxx

[Jen1d]

I started spotting again today and its all over now.

Doc said its common and to wait and still test on Sunday but i can't see you can bleed nearly every 2-3 hours and get a bfp.
Don't know where we will got from here. I feel awful, sore tum and terrible backache. This is exactly what happened last time, two days before and i start to bleed. This time we thought it was going to be different as we had a few good signs, but it's not to be.
We are so devastated and if we try this again it will be the third time and we have to self-fund again. We want a baby so much and there is no reason for it not to work so why is is not? How many times do you try and continually get disappointed and let my dh down ? I hate the fact we have to wait 3 months again and have your life on hold plus i'll be 37 by then. Our friends have just had there little girl last week and i can't even face them, i am so jealous they have everything we want---horrible ***** i am eh.
Sorry i am feeling so low, i don't want it to affect any of you guys but i just can't stop crying.

Jen x

[little R]

Jen.... sweetie, I wish I could put my arms around you and take away all the hurt, disappointment and anger....
I am crying for you, for Steph, for Lola, for Walshy.... for all the disappointments we have had to face. It's simply not fair....sorry the downregging has turned me into a complete emotional disaster.
I don't think that I will be much help to you, sweetie.

My heart goes out to you and your DH, Jen...it really does. I wish I could do something and make it all better....
I know you think that it is all over...but I did hear of one lady who spotted through the whole of her pregnancy. I also know that you know your body better than us and the doctors. I don't want to give you false hope.

I am thinking of you lots.... let the tears fall if that helps you.

Never say that you are sorry that you are feeling low... our job is to be there for you and try and help you through these awful times. (great job of it I am doing!)
Besides I can quite understand the pain of disappointment...we all can...we have all been there...
I don't know what to say....we will never know whether the next time will be different...we just all hope...

I know this is not the right time... because it completely reduced me to tears when I viewed it... I found it in another thread on the website.
Send your friends this:
http://www.vocalicious.com/empty_arms/e ... s_mod.html
It may take a while to download but I didn't think it was cheesy and perfectly sums up what we are all living through.
You are probably not ready to face them and their child...if they are good friends they will understand. And you know what...you don't have to see them yet...wait until you feel ready. You come first, remember that.

Much love to you..... curl yourselves up in eachother's arms...that's the best place to be.

Sending you all the virtual hugs I can

Little R

[little R]

Hey Lola... glad the bravado has re-appeared....you never cease to amaze me..not sure how you do it

Gosh...Dr Jones... you are a brain... a walking brain. So will you have an incredibly impressive title and earn millions once the wretched exams are over?

Don't be too brainy for us Octochicks

Hugs to you....good luck with the studying....I admire your stamina...

Take care and enjoy the egg

Little R

[little R]

Happy Easter Friday

Sending you all heaps of sun to brighten up your day

Not much to share really....
So how's the out-of-office adventure, Steph?

Trust that Lola did not fall asleep last night on the books at the library, hang in there, Dr Jones! In you we trust

Walshy, any news, any dates...what's going on?

Jen, love.... my thoughts are with you.... was pretty much logging on to see how you were this morning...I guess it's too early for you yet. I'll check in later today.... virtuals hugs and truckloads of PMA for you, sweetie

Lots of love,

Little R

[Jen1d]

Well girls my body is playing tricks on me. I am only bleeding when i go to the loo so am terrified to go, don't know why as its defo over. I bled yesterday at 1.30, 5.30 and 10.45, only a drop during the night, small bit at 8.30 this morning and now its stopped again. Its probably just the drugs that have messed up my system. Life is so cruel, i just keep wondering where my little embies have gone.

Little R - Thanks for your private message, you are a true friend. I was looking at what you have been through, how do you get through it and manage to stay strong and try again? I don't want to be sitting here when i'm in my forties and have a list of failures and feel desperate.

I will log on again tonight for a chat, you girls keep me going, thanks you

Love Jen x

[Inhale, Exhale]

My girls, girl, girls.....

What has happened to the sunshines on my shoulders, heh?

Have missed minor devastation situation whilst away...

Jen Bunny- what to say, what to say.... Oh yeah... I AINT OVER, SWEET BUNS!! Try to relax until test day... or atleast until you have full on crazy river of death flow. But, not a minute before should you be telling yourself the worst has happened. NOT A MINUTE BEFORE. Am I going to have to come over there, take away little nasty pee sticks and provide a chastity belt- not to prevent luvin, but to stop the trips to Planet Check My Pants. No tears until you are sure you can drink some beers!

Lola waskily wabbit- Hi my bud! I have the craps of the studying, so can't imagine how you feel. When is the test? We will have to celebrate! Trip around the state was fun, but long. I got to watch a Bald Eagle through a spotting scope yesterday- she was sitting on her eggs in the nest. Beautiful! Care to switch to my profession? Bald Eagle watching, turtle chasin, air boat drivin and oh yeah..... no tests!! I give you mass props for being able to visit a friend with a little one. My best friend is having a one year b-day party for her daughter tommorrow, all of my friends will be there with their kids, two are pregnant with the seconds... I am still debating on whether I am going...... I know I should, don't know if I can.

Little R- hmm, emotional wildfire! Yikes a bee... How's my girl today? Still have dh home? Am desparately upset- Grey's is a rerun AGAIN this Sunday.. DRAT! Introduce cutey hottie and make a wait three weeks to see him again.....

Walshy- Hi girlie! How yu doin? (Joey style)

OK Sweets,

Made in the Shade,
Steph