JCB'S continued AGAIN!!!!!!!

kathryn · Post by **kathryn** » Mon Jul 28, 2003 6:56 pm

hi all, susi, you said a new thread was needed, so here it is. Lets hope the loss of the boards isnt going to get any worse! such a sad start to the week. We are all thinking of you Alison. You have the right idea with booking that holiday. the whole board is here for you! Susi,surely af cant be with you already? Isnt it a little early? how is everyone today? Feel very flat after reading alisons news. couldnt sleep last night for imagining what fridays going to be like if its a -. Like you say kat, its ok to pep up others but we cant take the advice for ourselves. I hope youre feeling a bit better now. I still feel way too normal and I dont like it. 2 more days to go for you Jo and 3 for us. sending everyone lots of love and a huge hug. Life can be so hard! thank god for the board! take care kathryn x [Edited by kathryn on 28-Jul-03 12:00]

Dawn Blake · Post by **Dawn Blake** » Mon Jul 28, 2003 7:01 pm

The JCB's are here, and here to stay! Totally agree with your message Kathryn, and I was gagging to get back to my computer to see Alison's news, and too feel completely deflated, but as I said on the other thread, we are here for you if and when you need us. So come on ladies, you were right there for me when I was hitting my head against the wall, chins up, and don't give up, otherwise you are admitting defeat, and that won't do! I am off on hols all this week, but just catching up with friends, more lunches etc, so will be posting on and off throughout the days, if you want to chat log on and I will respond if I am here! Thinking of you all D x

kathryn · Post by **kathryn** » Mon Jul 28, 2003 7:21 pm

sorry, didnt mean to forget, claire, youre testing next on Wednesday arent you? and nicola youre also testing friday as well! becky youre next wed and dolly, when are you testing? I hope Ive not missed anyone out now! thanks dawn for still being there for us all! kathryn x

Clara 1 · Post by **Clara 1** » Mon Jul 28, 2003 7:52 pm

Hello everyone I'm so sad for you, Alison - glad there's so much support on this board for you. I do hope you can really relax on holiday and get away from it all for a while. Not having a good day, just had little row with dh, and feel bad. He's been a real angel this last month and so I feel like a pig. I know we're just both so tense waiting for Wednesday when we test. Only 1 more full day and 2 more sleepless nights to go! I know I posted a message yesterday but it seems to have disappeared! I still feel very normal physically too, Kathryn, apart from my feet which have been like blocks of ice for the last two weeks. Has anyone else had this? I keep making hot water bottles to warm them up! Lots of love to everyone Hope you're all feeling OK Claire x

Susi · Post by **Susi** » Mon Jul 28, 2003 10:07 pm

Kathryn, does AF date move with all this treatment ? I thought that AF would come if there was no positive? I did one IVF in the autumn and AF came on the expected day and that was it. Since today is when AF is due and there is spotting, not much, and sort of cramps me thinks that the fat lady singeth ! Well, am off to bed and some form of oblivion. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. Claire all the best for Wed. Hope you manage to sleep

Dolly · Post by **Dolly** » Tue Jul 29, 2003 8:12 am

Hi Guys, Kathryn, I test next Thursday (7th) - so still a long wait for me. Claire, good luck for your test tomorrow. I will be thinking of you. Susi, spotting (and bleeding) is not always bad news so please try not to think the worst. When is your test date? Becky, I did reply to your post yesterday - but it disappeared in the crash. I have also succumbed to the daydreams.... I can't help myself... I have it all planned out - names, what furniture will be in the nursery, what colour the walls will be.... all I need now is the baby/ies! I have pain when I pee as well - is this normal - or do I need to go and get it checked out? Luckily I have finally managed to snap out of the depression I was in over the weekend (being back at work has probably helped - less time to dwell on things!). I realise that I have done everything I can and it is now in the hands of the Gods. Love to all Dolly

kathryn · Post by **kathryn** » Tue Jul 29, 2003 8:14 am

how are you today susi? af is different with the tmt, but everyone is different, but then we still have a few days to go yet. Last time I didnt get af until 2 days after test day.I was led to believe by my dr that it would most probably arrive on test day. I hope you are ok today. look at dawns story, she thought it was all over with spotting and now look! claire if I dont manage to post again (however Im sure I will!) all the best for tomorrow! yikes! feeping fingers toes and eyes crossed for you! hows everyone else? Im really jittery now! Jo, what did you decide about thursday? are you taking the day off or holding out until you get home? take care for now, kathryn x

kathryn · Post by **kathryn** » Tue Jul 29, 2003 8:19 am

hi dolly, our posts must have crossed! dont worry about the wee pain! I had this, its going off a little bit now. I put it down to massive swollen ovaries over taking my body! kathryn x

Susi · Post by **Susi** » Tue Jul 29, 2003 8:32 am

Feeling better today. When I spoke with Dh last nite he reminded me that I had bleeding when I was pregnant last year ( it was a spontaneous one ) and so this may be happening again? Maybe, I hope so. Am trying to keep busy and not stay home too much. Like Dolly says it can do your head in having too much time. Dolly , test date is Friday,but may do a HPT before..or AF comes in. Claire all the best for tomorrow.

Dawn Blake · Post by **Dawn Blake** » Tue Jul 29, 2003 8:42 am

Claire, just a quickie to wish you a big fat +++++ tomorrow!! Hope everyone else is OK, don't pay ANY attention to the bleeding (being a hypocrite I know), it doesn't always mean AF is rearing her ugly head. Thinking of you all as ever, so much so that can't even bring myself to post on the other side yet, it still seems too early. Lots of Love D x

nicolam · Post by **nicolam** » Tue Jul 29, 2003 1:03 pm

Hi Kathryn and everyone Yes I test on Friday as well, but like I've said, unless AF arrives, will wait till Saturday morning, as I don't think I'll be able to keep it together at work if its -ive. I'm also really busy so can't afford to take time off. The office here is small, there's nowhere to hide - even sobbing in the toilets would be heard. I could go running out in the street or sit in my car I suppose... I haven't had any pains today, so it's helping me to feel calmer. I think that I've fretted so much over the last week or so, that's there no way the little things would want to stay inside though. Unfortunately DH will be away when I test which is a real pain, but actually, I've been a right ***** at times, so perhaps time on my own is what I need. I use all my energy trying to be normal at work that by the time I get home I'm either exhausted/tired or completely wound up. Poor DH has no chance, despite trying to cheer me up (so you're not the only one Claire!) Alison - so sorry to hear the news, you have a good holiday, just think, you'll be able to chill out and have a good drink and be your normal self again. (I'm certainly going to have a bottle of Cava chilled ready in the fridge!) N x

Clara 1 · Post by **Clara 1** » Tue Jul 29, 2003 2:29 pm

Hiya everyone Thanks for all your best wishes for tomorrow - this board is great, such a massive help. Not feeling great today either - I've had a little bleeding and AF pains in my stomach and back so not feeling very positive at all, although I know it doesn't necessarily mean it's all over - I keep reading your words Dawn and thinking of you! But I guess I'm preparing for the worst. Just had a big cry and feel a bit better! My poor DH is being so wonderful and is cheering me up. If we don't get good news tomorrow we're going to have a curry and lager! Ohhhh, can't believe this waiting in limbo land is nearly over. I'm so impressed with all of you who are working and appearing sane to your colleagues! Thanks again, all the best to you all, and will be back tomorrow with the news Love, Claire x

Becky28 · Post by **Becky28** » Tue Jul 29, 2003 3:55 pm

Hi, I wanted to dash in and say GOOD LUCK Claire! Only one night to go. Think positive, you've done so well to get this far. I really hope you can only have curry tomorrow, and no lager! Am about to rush off into town to try and buy a suit - I've got a job interview tomorrow (great timing!) and have only just realised I have zilch to wear. My mind is elsewhere! The upside is I can't be bothered to get nervous - bigger fish to fry and all that. I've had to laugh wryly at the arguments - especially yours with your mum Susi. I've had a couple of little run-ins with mine over the last few weeks. Keep smiling all - one day we'll look back fondly on these stressful days as we try to get a fretful baby off to sleep. Yes we WILL! Beck x

Dawn Blake · Post by **Dawn Blake** » Tue Jul 29, 2003 4:42 pm

Claire Keep reading my messages then, if they give you even the slightest bit of positivity! Will be crossing everything possible! Good luck with your interview tomorrow too Beck, talk about timing! It does put certain things into perspective doesn't it? I have been keeping a diary since I started this treatment cycle, and I read it back earlier, and wow! talk about a whole range of emotions from day to day! I am going to continue logging stuff into it, so I can read it back in years to come. Am getting all domesticated now too and looking up all different soup recipes so I can consume as many veggies as possible in one sitting, may bake some scones too - well, it is rude not to! Feeling a bit sickie today (yes, already), very excited about that! tell me to **** off, if you really don't need to hear those sort of things please. Thinking of all you testers both this and next week, hoping and praying your dreams come true. Bug (((((hugs))))) D x [Edited by Dawn Blake on 29-Jul-03 10:24]

Kat · Post by **Kat** » Tue Jul 29, 2003 6:01 pm

Another day gone, I suppose us Friday testers could do one of Dawn's first response ones tomorrow could we? Not going to though, too scared. Still convinced it will be negative and just waiting for AF to appear. Don't know why I am so convinced, DH reckons I'm just doing it so that if I do get a negative then I will be prepared. Have on and off AF pains, feeling bloated but no bleeding. The thing that just makes me think AF is coming is that I felt OK last week with only a tiny bit of pain/discomfort, and now AF is actually due, I have all the usual symptoms. It seems from reading other peoples posts that if they have had bleeding or AF pains they have had them all the way through the 2ww and not just in the 2nd week. Am I just being cautious or just plain paranoid? Sorry for rambling, haven't been able to get on site all day, too many people around at work. DH's birthday tomorrow and am SO hoping AF does NOT arrive as I'll have to wait till the day after to tell him and will have to try and be cheerful. Kat xx

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