April Test Dates

[fulloffaith]

Here you go Jackie! You'll be ending the list!!! No pressure! HAHA


Tammy - April 3rd BFN
Jan - April 3rd BFP
Lola - April 4th BFN
Jen32 - April 4th BFP
MLG - April 7th bfp
Kelsey - April 8th BFN
Jessica - April 9th BFP
Angelamw - April 11th BFN
Heather - April 11th - never made it to ET
Libby - April 12th BFP
Ren - April 12th BFN
Lisa B - April 13th BFP
AMD - April 13th BFP
Lara312 - April 13th BFN
Jen - April 16th BFN
Danie454 - April 18th BFP
Tapim - April 19th
Addison - April 20th
Bec P - April 22nd
Allison - April 22nd
Mitzy - April 24th
Caty - April 25th
Sammylou - April 26th
Sherry - April 27th
Brenda - April 28th
JackieG - April 28th

[sammylou]

Hi Girls,

Have just updated the list below - Tapim really sorry to hear about your BFN - look after yourself!

Tammy - April 3rd BFN
Jan - April 3rd BFP
Lola - April 4th BFN
Jen32 - April 4th BFP
MLG - April 7th bfp
Kelsey - April 8th BFN
Jessica - April 9th BFP
Angelamw - April 11th BFN
Heather - April 11th - never made it to ET
Libby - April 12th BFP
Ren - April 12th BFN
Lisa B - April 13th BFP
AMD - April 13th BFP
Lara312 - April 13th BFN
Jen - April 16th BFN
Danie454 - April 18th BFP
Tapim - April 19th BFN
Addison - April 20th
Bec P - April 22nd
Allison - April 22nd
Mitzy - April 24th
Caty - April 25th
Sammylou - April 26th
Sherry - April 27th
Brenda - April 28th
JackieG - April 28th

Wishing Addison and Bec P lots of baby dust!

LOL Sammylou xxx

[sammys]

Hi everyone, I just rolled myself out of bed my et was yesterday am and I'm trying very hard to rest up!! I had one 7 cell good looking embryo put back in...and now the torturous 2ww!!! can someone please add me to the list I test April 29th which is also my best friends wedding day It will no doubt be a very stressful day!!

god bless and congrats to all you BFP'S!!!!!!!!!!!

[fulloffaith]

Get lots of rest Sammy!! Let that embie get nice and comfy!
Good luck!

Updating the list:

Tammy - April 3rd BFN
Jan - April 3rd BFP
Lola - April 4th BFN
Jen32 - April 4th BFP
MLG - April 7th BFP
Kelsey - April 8th BFN
Jessica - April 9th BFP
Angelamw - April 11th BFN
Heather - April 11th - never made it to ET
Libby - April 12th BFP
Ren - April 12th BFN
Lisa B - April 13th BFP
AMD - April 13th BFP
Lara312 - April 13th BFN
Jen - April 16th BFN
Danie454 - April 18th BFP
Tapim - April 19th BFN
Addison - April 20th
Bec P - April 22nd
Allison - April 22nd
Mitzy - April 24th
Caty - April 25th
Sammylou - April 26th
Sherry - April 27th
Brenda - April 28th
JackieG - April 28th
Sammys - April 29th

[sammys]

Thanks fof, I'm headed back to my cave right now!!!

god bless

[Mitzy]

Tapim,

So sorry it didn't work this time, look after yourself.

[Addison]

Tapim: I am so sorry sweetie! Please take care of yourself.

Good luck to all the soon to be testers. I tested this morning and got a light positive. I am hoping that it is still too early for it to be real dark. Blood test is tomorrow.

Today I had AF cramps on and off. Everytime they started I took my whole fifth grade class to the bathroom so I could check for AF. They must have thought I was crazy today needing to go to the bathroom three times as a classs, not too mention the two times I went while they were at PE and the one time at lunch. She has not arrived so I am feeling good.


Good luck,
Addison

[Mitzy]

Addison,

Wishing you lots and lots of luck for tomorrow, let it be a great BFP,
its sounding like it could be positive with the test you have done already.

Fingers and toes crossed XXX

Ilona

[BecP]

Well ladies.

I think I have to admit defeat. It's day 14 post IUI today and it's a BFN.

I'm supposed to retest day 16, and valiantly I will, though I know it's all over. No point denying it. I am so upset. We were convinced this had worked. Everything to do with this cycle was going so well. DH's sperm was so fantastic.

The clinic have said they now don't want to see us, to try 'naturally'. This is so hard. How do we go from IVF/IUI to nothing? Will it work ever? I feel like giving up now. I just don't know how you brave ladies who've been trying for years do it. I'm ready to stop and start adoption now. Maybe I'm impatient, or maybe I'm a coward, I don't know. But I can't face another few years of this roller coaster.

Infertility has changed me. I'm so sad all of the time and preoccupied. I'm no fun to be around. I don't want to socialise any more. I like the safety of my own home, as at least there's no pregnant women there reminding me constantly of what I'm not sure I'll ever have again??

How can we get pregnant first time round on honeymoon and 16 months later we're still not pregnant. Was that our only chance and I blew it? That's so, so, so unfair. Poor DH and I have been grieving throughout the whole of our marriage. What a crap start to a life together. Maybe I need to stop this for my sanity.

x

[Mitzy]

Bec,

I am so sorry for you, but do the re-test, and see what happens.

I know how you feel, I spent years trying to get pregnant, and then nearly died from an ectopic that rupterd.
I didn't want to go out, and everywhere I looked there was babys and pregnant ladies, family parties were a no go.

It does get easier, and you do get your life back to normal. I then came to terms with not having children, and we were not in a position for self fundin IVF.

18 years down the line I found myself being offered an IVF on the NHS, and it took my husband to talk me round, I just want this to be over now, and if it all ends in a negative we can at least say we tried.

Things are against us, and we won't be doing any more treatments, that was something that we decided from the start. That way I can get my life back to normal.

See what the Docs say, you might be suprised, I am sending you loads of hugs, and hope you feel better soon.
Just give yourself time.


Thinking of you both.

Ilona.

[Smita]

Bec,
I'm gutted for you.
Its so unfair of your clinic to wash their hands off this especially at this moment.They must be more concerned about their stats.
Have you considered counselling?
This journey is a really tough one and there are so many days that are dark and seem unending.
Counselling should be able to help you through this-I wish I was there to give you a hug.
None of this is your fault- please remember that.
We just have to keep chugging on- some people catch a flight to their destination and some are forced to go by ship- but we'll all get there in the end and hold hands on the way.
Are there any venues not looked into- as in have you been tested for NKC's?There has to be an answer somewhere.
Dont beat yourself up about this.We're here if you need us.

Having said all this, I'll keep you in my prayers for that glimmer of hope that still persists in all of us to see that elusive BFP.

Many tight hugs,
smita

[Smita]

Just popped in to wish all the upcoming testers Lots of Luck!

Keep thinking positive!

cheers,
smita

[sammylou]

Hi Bec,

I'm really sorry you are feeling so bad - your post really rang a cord with me and I had tears welling up!

The fact is that no matter whatever anyone says, this is really, really tough and the truth is that all we can hang on to as Smita says, is hope, our faith and each other.

I feel like this cycle hasn't worked for me (all the AF symptoms are here, even if she isn't) and I woke up in a panic this morning saying to my DH that I never want to do and HPT again as I CANNOT cope with seeing a BFN. At the moment I feel like I couldn't possibly go on and its a desperate feeling......

I will be praying for a lastminute BFP for you and if its not to be, at least a little peace to get through the next few days and weeks until you feel strong enough to open your eyes, take a look around and decide which path to take next.

Sammylou xxx

[BecP]

Thanks so much ladies.

I am so sad.

Not at work this morning. I had some immunological tests done on the NHS. The gloucose one came back slightly high, so I've just had more tests at the docs. Doubt I'm diabetic and doubt it's affecting my fertility but it's good to have another thing crossed off the list. I tested negative for anti nuclear bodies and I've got one more result to come back in.

The reason my clinic doesn't want to see me again, is only for good reasons. My doc reckons we'll conceive naturally and she says we're wasting our money having things done now DH's sperm is good (it was bad before, hence our treatments). I asked her outright if she thought we'd get pregnant and she said 'more than that, I think you'll go home with a baby'. So she's very positive. But I can't see that right now. All I can see is it never happening.

I'm going to take a bit of time out to think about things.

Thanks to you all and really hope your dreams come true.

x

[Mel_P]

Hi Bec_P
Was sad to see your post. Since we first met with same test dates last yr and then met again in the Feb cycle, I have been thinking about how you are doing and keeping an eye out for you, but just didn't feel right after the bfp to butt in on the test posts to check with you.

As for others readers, your post, gave me a heavy heart. That pain has been a familiar old friend-slash-hated enemy for me too. With the longing , the vunerability, exhaustion at carrying on, and the resentment at how this thing rips a hole out of your life, I know how it feels like there are times it feels so incredibly hard and unfair that its hard to keep faith.

Your strong and brave, and I just really feel things are going to work out. Its great news that you have another avenue in trying naturally. Its a shame once we are on the hamster wheel its hard escapting the eternal 100,000 hour long months, and though time and trying can be blood sucking, this now means you now have MANY chances for this to work.

Bec_P, it IS going to happen for you. I have such a strong feeling in my bones. And when it does you will feel so much more blessed because of all the love, determination, energy and heart you have both put into getting there. No one will be able to experience that, who hasnt had to work so hard for the result.

Am sending you lots of heart felt positive vibes and bagloads of baby dust. Big hugs to you and your DH. Take special care of yourself
Mel