NEW YEAR buddies!

[KellyL]

Hi girls,
Sorry I've been away so long, no excuses really, just work, busy at home etc. Have been trying to get loads of things done so there is nothing to think "I should really be doing that" about once I get to 2ww.

Go for baseline scan on Friday 28th and then should get dates etc for ET - everythings crossed.

Sue - your sitting on the loo with a bucket beside you made me giggle -my Sis-in-law told us 2 weeks ago that she's PG - due Nov 01 and is having the same problem! She should have expected it as she was the same with my niece 3 years ago!! I did feel quite sorry for her though as she found it really hard to tell us - they're the only ones that know we are doing ICSI - now she's hoping this time works for us so she can have someone to be PG with!!

Huge hugs to all of you that have had bad news.

Eminde - I know Wroxham well, I work about 30 mins the other side of Norwich and live about an hour from Norwich. All the farm building you see as you travel through that part of the country were probably constructed by the company I work for!!

Anyway, take care all I'll let you know how Friday goes.

Kelly x

[Cla]

Oh Sophie - I'm so sorry to hear your news. It's so unfair. I wouldn't rush into any decistions just yet, but give yourself time to heal (and vent anger - v.important!) before you take the nest step.

Hi to all!

Cla
xx

[lynne]

Hi All,
Sorry it's a while since I posted. I haven't had a very good few days I'm afraid. Terrible hormones!!! I've just been crying for no reason and I don't usually cry ever. Not good!
I am terrified of needles and really felt strong about being able to overcome it, but the last few days I have just been heartbroken about the prospect of having to do it all over again. But I know I will be alright and I have every faith that this time will be THE time for me.
I think it all started on Thursday. We were watching The Bill (DH is addicted) and a kid had gone missing. DH pipes up "It must be your worst nightmare" (he has 3 kids and 3 grandkids). I was flabbergasted and reponded with " NO my worst nightmare is not having a child at all"! He just looked at me.
Friday was extremely stressful. I was on my way out to sing at a party and the phone went. My friend who is pregnant was on the other end. I said "how are you?" she said PREGNANT! It was on the tip of my tongue to shout "I know! you selfish unsympathetic cow"! But I didn't. I was meek and mild and listened to her complaining about the fact she's knackered, her clothes don't fit and how there is never a right time to be pregnant. Then my mad colleague arrived to give me a lift and she is less than sympathetic towards the situation. Then my Mum rang as I had my foot out of the door. As usual her conversation lasted 30 seconds and was in the form of a command rather than an enquiry.
I got through the evening quite well, but the next day I was an emotional wreck. It's not like me at all. I'm usually pretty good at picking myself up and dusting myself off. I have been living this nightmare for so many years and I know I am so close to the goal, but it is getting harder and harder.
This time I'm telling nobody about the treatment as my parents were just awful about it and the friends I did tell didn't really try to understand. Maybe it's just me. Twice this week I've been asked if I want to take children away with me because they were getting on their parents nerves.
Sorry to rant on, but I know you girls are the only one's who really understand. Even DH called me a misery last night. That is not the type of reaction I would expect from him. It's as though because he has had TESE his responsibility is over. Aagh...... I'm stopping writing now, because I'm doing my own head in!!!! I could go on and on for pages.

Sophie, sorry about your bad news. I said I'd keep going until I was 40, which is another 3 years, but I'm not really sure that that is realistic as I'm finding it very hard. I think you'll know when you're ready.

[Cla]

Lynne, What a s***y time you've had. God sometimes I really feel like banging people's heads up against a brick wall. Or a metal one. Steel one would do. Wooden might hurt. foam most definitely wouldn't hurt enough. What about one made of samurai swords - that would deffo do the trick.
Sorry - back to earth! That was just far too tempting!
When do you start again? I know it takes all our strength to start over but somehow that inner strength shines through and gets us through. Plus we're all here to help!
Sending cyber hugs your way!

Cla
xx

[sue e]

Lynne - sorry you seem to be surrounded by people who don't really understand your situation. Really hoping that this time is YOUR time and those dreaded needles will soon be a thing of the past. Will be here cheering you on.

love

sue e xx

[lynne]

Cla, you made me laugh.
I start again on 4th May. Don't want to think about it in case I start crying again. I've spent the day trying to get some more work. Think I have failed miserably. Nothing is ever easy! Thanks for giving me a smile. I like the idea of a metal bar!!!!!!!

[christine202]

Hi All

Just to let you all know that et went ahead yesterday. They thawed out two embryos and they both survivied and they chose the best one. Fingers crossed!!!

Just resting up now for the next couple of days. Test on the 13th may.

Hope you are all ok.

Thinking of you all

lots of love christine xxx

[Cla]

Christine - fabbo news! Put your feet up and take it easy!!!
Lynne - How you doing today? (Jeez I sound like Joey off Friends!!!!).

I went for my app. with consultant on Tuesday. All very routine - bloods, BP, urine etc. and all fine! Heard the heartbeat for first time (sounds very much like two coconuts being bashed together! Sure there was someone stood the other side of the curtain making the sounds!). No scan now till 1 June (should have been week before but they cab't fit me it - aargh!!) so will be here waiting for your news as I don't have any myself!!!!

Happy Thursday to all! Yeah - long weekend this one! Boo - have workmen starting on house so will be a pigsty for next few weeks!

Cla
xx

[lynne]

Hi all,
Cla, it's so good to hear your news. Two coconuts hey? I was trying to imagine the sound, but just got an image of the wiry coconut man who sells coconuts on the beach in Ostuni. Not a sight to behold before breakfast!
Christine, good news about the embies. Rest, rest, rest now.

I went to the hospital today about my thyroid. I took myself off the medication 2 months ago as the doctor refused to respond to my messages. I was interested to know if I was okay as I didn't want anything in the way of this round of ICSI.
When I told the registrar she immediately said "Oh, so you're pregnant" and for the first time in my life I didn't fell threatened or upset by the question. I said no and she said "Oh but it will. My sister got pregnant on her 4th round of IVF".
I was gob smacked. I'd never met this woman before in my life and she really wanted it to work for me. She went on to say her sister was 39 when she started treatment and her little boy is 3 now. My spirits were so lifted I even stood up for myself against the consultant (who is an arsey sod) and came out feeling so positive. So much so I'm breaking my 5 units of alcohol a week rule and having a lovely glass of white!
I just wanted to share that with you in the hope it will lift our spirits as this journey is very hard.
Tons of baby dust to you all.

[AMck]

Hello Ladies

Hi Kelly, good to see you post. Hope scan went OK yesterday and you are on track for your ET.
Lynne, sorry to see you were feeling like poo. Keep ranting, we are here! We have all been there and we are all, unfortunately, surrounded by people who really don't understand how we feel. Glad to see the apptmt went well with the consultant. Sending you extra strong PMA in a huge bucket
Christine, fab news. Hope the 2ww flies(flys?) by. Look after yourself and enjoy being pampered. Will be watching for your BFP!Cla, hi , glad to see your news! How exciting to hear the heartbeat. Hope workmen do their thing and get out of there double quick!
Sophie, hope you are OK and taking good care of yourself. Thinking of you x

Our list, hope it's OK
- Eminde - BFP - Twins
- Stacy - BFP
- Cla - BFP - next scan 1st June
- Sue-e BFP scan 10th May
- Souris - appointment 4th April to discuss next steps
- KellyL - baseline scan Fri 28th April
- Anna - egg donor tmt soon, 1st apptmt 3rd May
- Lynne - starting injections 4th May, EC beg June
- Christine - test date 13th May
- Sophie - cancelled cycle, hugs x
- Lisa(Macca8) - cycle planned for July

Have just got back from school residential . YUK... it was hard work but the week flew by and had no time to dwell on things IVF. Starting to get excited about Barcelona now!

PMA to all here, have a great weekend
Anna x

[christine202]

Hi Anna

Just wanted to wish you loads of luck for your appointment on the 3rd. Not long now.

Will be thinking of you.

Hi to everyone else hope you are all doing well and had a great bank holiday weekend.

Kelly Hope your scan went well yesterday and you are ready to go.


Take care
luv christine

[AMck]

Christine, thanks. We are flying out tomorrow. Back on the roller coaster of excitement, anticipation and hope!

Back Thursday, will catch up with everyone then.
PMA all round
Anna x

[sue e]

GOOD LUCK anna, can't wait to hear your news.

all the best

love

sue e xx

[Macca8]

Lynne,

I've been specifically reading your posts as I can't believe how many
similiarities we have. Our ages, DH's ages, failed vas reversals, insensitive friends, etc, etc...

Really hope this next IVF works for you. I am going to do my last one in July/Aug this year. If that doesn't work, then I'm giving up. It's took so much control of our lives for far too long now.

All the best to the rest of the girls too.

Lisa XX

[Cla]

Oops - think I'm too late, but wanted to wish you luck Anna. Hope the app. goes swimmingly!!!!!

Hi to all - sorry am out the door so must dash!

Cla
xx