Pheonixes Rising

[Julie2039]

Kate - Hi - sorry I forgot you in my last post . Meant to as really interested in the phsycic/hypno stuff. Glad it was useful and made you feel better. Best of luck for Friday x

[MLG]

Hi Ladies

How are all of the brave Phoenix ladies?

Kate – It’s so good to see you so positive. Keep it up, it’ll bring a BFP on!!!!!

Julie – Glad holidays went OK. I understand what you’re saying about friends. I guess I felt it in a bit of a different way a while ago – got tired of hearing all about the children and all the child-related excuses for not doing things. Now that we want children too and are having a hard time of it, it’s worse – it saddens as much as it irritates. But it is normal. Priorities change and lives are different, which makes it harder on friendships (even without fertility problems and tmts).

Lis – Hope your consultation went well and you have some answers and maybe some dates to look forward to.

Gail – How are you going sweetie? This waiting is the worst, isn’t it? I read that you don’t do bloods but a HPT. Remember that if your levels are low you might have a false negative.
You’re almost at BFP day!

Lucy – Great news – glad cyst decided to disappear!

Jen – Hope you’re having a lovely time with DF. We’ll be missing you.

Nicki – Hope work is calmer this week.

Lola- Hope test went well and you're feeling better.

Hope everyone else is feeling good.

I’ve been quite positive most of the time. Besides days going by really slowly and being a bit nervous (but that’s me on most days anyway), can’t complain much. However I just don’t seem to be able to concentrate on anything else. Even work doesn’t distract me, it irritates me for “wanting” my attention. They gave us the day off at work today so it’s been worse because I’m alone (DH working) and I’ve had complicated phone calls from my parents. They have had a hard time with a family member being sick and his life being on the whole complicated, but I just wish they’d leave me out of it! I have enough to think about!! Then I feel really selfish because who else can they talk to but me. I feel rotten either way!
Sorry about that, just had to get it off my chest.

xxxxx

[Julie2039]

Hi MLG - Glad you are feeling ok and its nice to see your colourful pic posts!!! Can relate to what you're saying totally, re the friends issues I too get sick of hearing the total children convos and then get the statement of "you'll understand when you have your own" and thats from friends who know our probs !!!!!! F**K Off, (sorry!)

As for family probs I too am the emotional crutch in our family and have already started insinuating they will have to find a different shoulder come Summer time, purely because things lie heavy on me and I am a total stress bunny at the best of times and yes, I too am then guilt ridden!!! Hey ho, life is such a bowl of cherries.

Keep up the positive thinking girl. Should take up knitting to pass the time - very theraputic and you will be in need of loads of woolly booties real soon! lol xx

[MLG]

Thanks Julie for making me smile. I needed that!

xxxxx

[luby]

Hi girls

Gail [/color]- Hope the pains have gone, and you've managed to get a better nights sleep. Not long now until the test day, only 10 days to go. For me yes injections aren't that bad actually, must be so use to them eh.? Good Luck for tomorrow, you'll be fine..! But remember take it easy, you are pregnant..............

Lis - hi sweetie, Good luck for tomorrow with consultation, you will be feeling anxious but everything will be fine. Is DH going with you.? Love to hear you’re buying shoes, I love ballet pumps, they're soooooo comfy. You'll be going out now buying different colours (or is that just me that has a mad obsession with shoes..?) As for me, I have been getting really bad headaches with the drugs, last night was soooo bad I had to take a few pain killers and go to bed... Today has been OK, doing injection after I've wrote this so no doubt it'll come back tonight, oh well hope it’s all worth it... Once again good luck for tomorrow, you'll be fine.

Julie - Great to have you back, hope you enjoyed yourself in Wales.? I still haven't been to see the baby, I haven’t had time, or am I just using that as an excuse.?????????????????????? A work colleague goes on maternity leave on Friday and I seem to be fine with her, I even went out today and bought the baby a little outfit. Strange isn't it.? Anyway I really feel for you re the friend’s thing, One day very soon you will be like all those other families playing the pool with your children. You are going to feel left out, and like you don't have anything in common anymore with your friends, and I understand that is hard, there your friends you don't want to feel like that around them. As for the statements, I know what you mean, this lady said to me last year, "your young, why do you need IVF, try for a family when your older" OH MY GOD SOME PEOPLE REALLY DON'T HAVE A CLUE, WHY THE HELL DOES SHE THINK I'M DOING IVF, JUST FOR THE SAKE OF IT.................?????????????????????
Anyway hun take care.

Kate - Good luck for Friday, lets hope it brings good news for both of us...Lets hope that physic has sent lots of good vibes... good luck and take care.

MLG [/color]- Any news from today.? I'm not surprised you can't concentrate hun, this waiting would be doing my head in. Your family need to realise you are going through the most important thing in your life and is a very stressful and emotional time, I know they need someone to talk to but you have your own stuff going on. I know it’s hard cos you wan to be there for family, but try not let too much on you sweetie. Anyway can't wait hear your pregnancy is progressing nicely...........!

Lola - Hope the exam went ok today, let us know how you got on.

Anyway everyone, need to do my drugs, I was suppose to do them at 6pm.... ooooooppppsssssss.

[luby]

don't ask what is going on with colours above, cos I'm rushing to do my injections, just updating list... with mine and Kates scan on Friday


20th April--Gail's ET
22nd April-2nd May-- jen away to visit DF
23rd April – Lucy start tmt
24th April-- Lola exam
24th April--Lisa's first consultation re: diui
26th April--MLG-- scan?
28th April – Lucy 1st Follies scan
28th April – Kate 1st Scan (FET)
30th April--Lis & dh become godparents!!

2nd May--Lisa Little Britain
4th May-Hayley starts injections 4 FET
4th May--Gail's Test Day
17th May--JEN-- Ani
26thMay-- NICKI on holiday
May--JEN---starts tmt

9th June - Gails Wedding ani - weekend away
12th June - Lola exam
17th - 25th June - JULIE - Hols Turkey
30th June --Jens house on the market

28th July - 2nd Aug --LISA hols to Sorrento
July--JULIE-- starting 1st ICSI tmt.
6th Aug--LISA--wedding ani
8th Sept--NICKI--seeing Robbie in concert!
9th Sept--JULIE & PENNY-- seeing our Robbie in concert!
10th Sept NICKI- being god mum at mates christening!
2nd Oct-- NICKI--31st birthday!!!
21st Oct-- LISA--31st birthday!!
25th Oct - MLG - 3rd Wedding Anniv.
26/27 Oct - JULIE - Healthfarm!!
2 Dec - JULIE - Mamma Mia

[MLG]

Hi

Just correscting my scan date:

20th April--Gail's ET
22nd April-2nd May-- jen away to visit DF
23rd April – Lucy start tmt
24th April-- Lola exam
24th April--Lisa's first consultation re: diui
27th April--MLG-- scan
28th April – Lucy 1st Follies scan
28th April – Kate 1st Scan (FET)
30th April--Lis & dh become godparents!!

2nd May--Lisa Little Britain
4th May-Hayley starts injections 4 FET
4th May--Gail's Test Day
17th May--JEN-- Ani
26thMay-- NICKI on holiday
May--JEN---starts tmt

9th June - Gails Wedding ani - weekend away
12th June - Lola exam
17th - 25th June - JULIE - Hols Turkey
30th June --Jens house on the market

28th July - 2nd Aug --LISA hols to Sorrento
July--JULIE-- starting 1st ICSI tmt.
6th Aug--LISA--wedding ani
8th Sept--NICKI--seeing Robbie in concert!
9th Sept--JULIE & PENNY-- seeing our Robbie in concert!
10th Sept NICKI- being god mum at mates christening!
2nd Oct-- NICKI--31st birthday!!!
21st Oct-- LISA--31st birthday!!
25th Oct - MLG - 3rd Wedding Anniv.
26/27 Oct - JULIE - Healthfarm!!
2 Dec - JULIE - Mamma Mia

[Lis]

Hi Ladies!!

Well I'm back from Darlington, 300 miles and 7 hours of travelling later! My appt went well. I can start first donor iui as soon as I've had hsg done and had my cmv status as well as blood type for me and dh checked. So could be startiing as early as just over 4 weeks time when next AF arrives!! She was suppossed to arrive today but hasn't yet (typical ). If I've not been able to have had everything done then it will be just over 8 weeks time.

Asked re donor shortage and there is none!! They were really surprised to learn of the situation in Scotland. The consultant is happy for my scans to be in Edinburgh as I am doing iui with meds. Apparently I have a mild form of down regging then mild stimms followed by hcg injection. So its all systems go - or nearly!!

I'm sorry no personals tonight - just popped in. Dh has got dvd for us to watch. Just wanted to say great to have you back Julie - I'm sorry about your friends and the hol. So know how you feel. I sent that link you gave us to a friend who had a baby 6 weeks ago and is totally wrapped up in her own world. She e mailed back to say she felt awful as she had been so self absorbed she hadn't even thought about how me and dh had been feeling. So I'm glad I sent it to her.

Will catch up with personals on next post

xxxx

[Julie2039]

Lis - OMG!!!! So glad the appt went well for you and things could be moving so soon . Such a long trip but so worth it x

[NickiMark]

Good News Lisa. x x

When is your HSG?

wow, am happy for ya x x

I just counted up and it'll be 9 weeks til we start so, we could be buddies if u start in 8 weeks, and if AF comes.....

Is Af here yet btw???

All the best x x x

[Kate21]

Just a quickie - meant to be working!! Thanks Lucy for adding me to the list. May Friday be a good day for scans!!

Kate

[gailp]

Hi, Sorry no personals today im knackered.

I have had period type pains on and off all day today. It feels like a bad sign but Its way to early to be AF coming so who knows. Actually feeling quite down as well, it hit me today what happens if its negative. How do I pick myself up and start all over again, I know I will but its so hard. I need to stop these negative thoughts, it won't help my little embies. PMA PMA PMA

[Lis]

Having a bad afternoon after yesterday's excitement. Thought dh seemed a bit quiet yesterday after appt but thought maybe he was just tired after a long day. He's on a day off today and he texted me to say he feels really down today after yesterday. Think hearing all about donor and having to have all our characteristics written down to ensure a good donor match was really hard for dh. I knew it would be but maybe I under estimated how much since he / we both seemed to be coping well recently. I asked him if he thought going for tmt in the next couple of months was too soon ie was everything moving too fast and he said he doesn't know what to think today. I feel so gutted I had been thinking that although I know we are still coming to terms with things, we were ready to look at the next step but maybe I was unrealistic to expect him to feel ready to actually start tmt. I feel bad now for feeling excited about starting.

For me I am trying to get through all this by putting my energies into starting tmt and its hard for me to understand how he wants maybe to hold off. He says donor is still what he wants and I have asked him so many times about that he still says it is so why is he so hesitant if he thinks its the right thing??

Help. I nearly started bubbling at work this afternoon and think I might end up doing it on the way home from here (work)

[Lis]

oh Gail sorry missed your post. Giving you big cyber hugs and sending a bucket full of PMA your way. Try and stay positive sweetie xxx

[Julie2039]

Gail - Hi - How you feeling today hun? Hope better. I can't imagine how difficult the waiting and wondering must be. Just the thought of starting tmt and failing etc etc terrifies me already!!! Everyone says positive thinking is the key, Spring is the best time and this is your time girl. PMA PMA PMA PMA!!!!!!!!!!!! x

Lis - Hope you feel better today. It is difficult if you feel ready and DH isn't. You know everything went on the back burner for us for over a year and I never got to the bottom of it for ages. It eventually came down to avoiding "another disappointment". He didn't see the point but eventually realised if we never try we will never know. Also came down to "if it wasn't for me......blah blah". I am sure you are both going through the same emotions and a lot worse. Keep talking and keep your chin up. xx

Hi to everyone else x