Pheonixes Rising

[MLG]

Hi Ladies

Gail - Sending you hugs and buckets of PMA!
Please don't worry too much , but don't punish yourself for being low once in a while, it's normal! And remember AF-like pains mean nothing.

Dear Lis. Please don't read too much into DH's worries, it is a hard time for both of you. You still have plenty of time till cycle is supposed to start for DH to come to terms with things, I'm sure he'll be feeling more positive by then.
I do understand your feelings though. Big hugs and PMA to you too.

xxxxx

[NickiMark]

Lisa, I know where ur DH is at, my DH offen feels down when I am excited, but you have to see it from their veiw,

We are getting excited about getting pregnant with another mans sperm, it's gutting for them, so now I try not to get SO excited, even though I might be, I try not to rub his nose in it, if that makes sence honey.

You have to re assure him that the baby will be his baby and he will be the DADDY, if not the Father.
We have adopted those words, so it makes sence.....

He will be the Daddy and not teh father, and to have a Daddy is more important than to have a father.
A father is the supplier and the Daddy is the carer and lover of that child.....

Hope that helps, I know it's hard, but I am here for ya if you want to vent anything out xxxx

As for me, I am going ahead with clomid next IUI cycle, but scared of cancellation and BFN....(read my other post re, cancellation)

Take care and love to you all xxxx

[NickiMark]

where are my buddies???

Hope ya all ok xx

[luby]

Hi my lovely phoenixes

Well its my first scan tomorrow to see how many follies I have, tomorrow will be my 5th day of stims so not expecting too many...! Not really getting any side effects now from them, the headaches have subsided which is good cos they were horrendous..!

Lisa sweetie I really feel for you and DH, when we go through this we seem to be the ones that get all excited and seem to forget a little bit of how DH is feeling. I can understand you are getting excited, who wouldn't after there consultation went well and knows they can get on with things in the next couple of weeks. I can also understand how your husband must be feeling, your going to be pregnant with another mans child, that must be so hard for him, but you both need to talk this through (sure you have already) As much as you both talk about it and he knows he's going to be the baby's daddy and be the best daddy in world, deep down he must be hurting like hell.... When I was told I might have to have Egg Donor, I couldn't take it in, I did not want another women’s baby, I wanted my own, your hubby is feeling the same way. What ever you do or feel you should not feel bad, maybe it was just a shock for him that things are moving faster than he thought. You are not wrong for getting excited though Lis, it is only natural. Take care babe.

MLG - How did the scan go..? I hope its good news, can't wait to here....


Kate - Good luck for tomorrow... may Friday bring us both good luck.!

Gail - I hope your feeling better - not long to go now Hun. Hope the waiting isn't too hard for you.

Nicki - great news on you starting the clomid next IUI, I suppose we all go through the worry of cancellation or BFN. I am absolutely petrified of what the outcome of this cycle is going to be, I would rather get a BFN than have to go through a miscarriage again, I really don't think I could handle that. Your IUi will not get cancelled, because all us phoenixes are going to get BFP this year...........!

Lola - Hope your exam went OK?

Julie - How’s you huni, hope your alright.?

Jen - Hope your OK? You'll be going visiting DF again this weekend won't you? Hope you have a nice time.! Take Care hun

Hello to anyone else that I have missed.

Lucy

[MLG]

Hi Phoenixes

Got good news at last - it's a real BFP. Went to have can today and have a 7-8mm beanie witha a heartbeat!
Can finally use my favourite little smiley

Feeling exausted from the stress of the last weeks, but happy.

xxxxx

[luby]

MLG - JUST READ YOUR NEWS..................

CONGRATULATIONS...









I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU MLG..!

Lucy

[Julie2039]

Hi Girls

Just a quick one to say MLG I am sooooo pleased for you!!!!!!!!!!!


CONGRATULATIONS!!!!! xxxxx

LUCY & KATE - Hope everything goes well today - Let us know xx

GAIL - Hope you are doing ok - nearly your time to celebrate!! x

LIS - Hope you are ok too darl x

JEN - How you doing? x

Hi to everyone else - have a fab weekend!!!!!

[luby]

Hi girls

Well I had my first follie scan this afternoon. I was quite surprised at how many I had, it is only my 5th day of stims and I had follies, the biggest one measuring 12mm, others quite small, so back on Tuesday for another scan, she said I might be going for EC Friday depending on how things go next week.................getting nervous now, but very excited, I actually can't believe I am here again, it has come round sooooooo quick.
Lets hope I get lots of nice eggs..

Had a bit of a crappy day at work, a girl was leaving for maternity leave and another girl has just had a baby and brought him today, he was soooo cute, he was crawling all over the place and she kept saying stuff like "kids, who'd have em" and "God Lucy I bet your glad you don't have any aren't you, they take up all your time" I said "actually I'd love a baby". Went to the loo and nearly booed, but I kept it together. She did upset me though, cos people that have children just don't know how lucky they are, they should treasure it and not say stuff like they do... I can't understand it, I would never say a comment like that. Even if she was just joking around.

Anyway I will be taking my baby into work next year (or babies)

MLG - I just want to congratulate you again....... I am so please for you sweetie..

Hope everyone is OK? Sorry no personals, I am so tired, going to go read in bed for a bit now. I am reading Martine McCutcheon's mum's autobiography, it is really good, but very very very sad.

Take Care all and have a nice weekend.

Lisa Huni, I will probably be on again before Sunday but just incase I'm not, have a fantastic day on Sunday.... hope your new shoes do you proud.

Lucy

[NickiMark]

Hi girls.

How is every one??

My Af is due Im on CD31 today, but i know it's coming!!!

Lisa, did ur AF ever arrive???

[gailp]

Hi

MLG just wanted to say congratulations again, you have finally got that BFP, it must be the greatest feeling in the world.

Nicki thanks again for the PM. Hope your AF arrives soon, once you know its coming you just want it there and then its that much sooner to your treatment.

Lucy 8 follies already that’s great news. EC possibly Friday, fingers crossed. That comment you had at work, I had a very similar one, someone asked me if I had any children and when I said no, she said aren’t you lucky. Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!! What made them become Mums and not us

Julie how are you doing it will soon be your turn to start treatment

Liz How are you? Hope you managed to sit down with dh and have a real heart to heart. It probably just suddenly seems so real to him now having to ensure that you have a good donor match, maybe he is a little scared. Hope you got through the rest of the day at work ok.

My 2ww is going on forever, it seems so long ago that I went in for ET, I actually found myself checking the calendar the other day to check that I hadn’t missed a week. I have had symptoms on and off. I had period pains on and off since ET, but today no pains just very very tired and my legs really ache. The problem is though im using pessaries and taking Estradiol so I think some of it is side effects from them. Oh well not long to go now.

I started my new job on Tuesday, its not going well!! The work is fine, hours are flexible and my colleagues seem nice but my bosses boss is a complete w****r. He came over to my desk on my 2nd day there and in a very loud voice had a real go at me, over something that someone else had actually told me to do!! I couldn’t even retaliate because I could feel myself getting all emotional and I would have either screamed at him or burst into tears. He seems to be like it with most people, but I suddenly decided that life is to short, even when I am not on these drugs I don’t think I can cope with someone like that, I would end up saying what I thought. So I went to human resources on Friday and said how I felt and then burst into tears (that’s not like me!!) I don’t know what I will do, I have asked if they can transfer me to another department and they are going to get back to me. Trying desperately to stay stress free for my 2 little embies, dreading going back in on Tuesday. - sorry to bore you all about work there!!!!

Hope everyone is having a great weekend

xx

[lolajones]

Hey phoenixins

How's everyone? Firstly....

MLG!!!!! CONGRATUBLINKINGLATIONS!!!!! I am SO PLEASED that you've got your bfp proper complete with scan n heartbeat!!! WELL DONE!!!! Lets hope you'll be a good luck mascot to the rest of us on here
Take it easy, youngster and enjoy repeating to yourself, I'm pregnant!!! Until it sinks in.

Secondly - Gail - 2 sleeps!!! I have all my parts crossed (nothing saucy ) hoping that you'll get some fantastic news on Thursday. I'm sending you roughly 4 tons of baby dust mixed with some TNT for extra woof. As for your job... its difficult to be objective when you have this huge important thing going on in your life -frankly they're lucky you're in work at all. Good luck!!!

Lucy - your cycle has gone really quickly! Probably not for you but for this shameless viewer anyway Good luck for Friday - hope you get a bumper crop of top notch eggs and then be number three on our good luck streak!

Lis - its hard. Y'know, talking about it is the only way to get through but its so tricky. I've always thought that I'm pretty open with dh and can talk about anything but thi ivf lark has shown me that sometimes some things are just too painful to talk about or they mean so much and are so fraught with potential mines that its is too scary. Have you tried counselling? It really helps to have a bit neutral space and someone else asking the hard questions. Me n dh went twice, once before we started and again after the ectopic. It really made me understand things from dh's side. Hope things are better - if not - THEY WILL BE!!! People just need time - I know thats not easy.

Nicki - I'm confused - when is your next cycle??

Julie - how're you?

Kate - I didn't realise that you were doing another cycle now. Or did I? I am a bit thought disordered today. How was scan?? was it the ?suppressed scan? Are you doing a full medicated cycle? How many embryos have you got left? I seem to remember you've got stacks like me. Are you going to grow them to blast stage? I hope this works for you!! Is wierd - I've got this feeling that if it works for you it'll work for me -no pressure!

Jen - how are you? When are you starting treatment??

Hello to anyone I've missed!

Well the exam went ok unless I am deluding myself to protect me from the full horror of failure that was the easy one though - the real beatch is in June
Given me and the dh have had a rough few months (years?) we went away at the weekend to the South Downs to get some fresh air and have a break from working our asses off. Was lovely - but too short! like me!

Haven't had an appointment with the doc yet to discuss my bfn - haven't had time - will try and organise it for 2 weeks time. Will discuss the possibility of trying to grow a couple of embies to blast stage next go. I have 12 left in refrigerino. if all well in tube department will hopefully go for FET again in August, after exams and a big holiday. Seems ages away but have to admit it has been good not thinking about ivf for a while.

Here's the list - I've added Lucy's EC date

2nd May--Lisa Little Britain
4th May-Hayley starts injections 4 FET
4th May--GAIL TEST DAY!!!!
5th May-- LUCY ?EC
17th May--JEN-- Ani
26th May-- NICKI on holiday
May--JEN---starts tmt

9th June - Gails Wedding ani - weekend away
12th June - Lola exam
17th - 25th June - JULIE - Hols Turkey
28th/29th June - Lola exam
30th June --Jens house on the market

28th July - 2nd Aug --LISA hols to Sorrento
July--JULIE-- starting 1st ICSI tmt.
6th Aug--LISA--wedding ani
8th Sept--NICKI--seeing Robbie in concert!
9th Sept--JULIE & PENNY-- seeing our Robbie in concert!
10th Sept NICKI- being god mum at mates christening!
2nd Oct-- NICKI--31st birthday!!!
21st Oct-- LISA--31st birthday!!
25th Oct - MLG - 3rd Wedding Anniv.
26/27 Oct - JULIE - Healthfarm!!
2 Dec - JULIE - Mamma Mia

Keep on keepin on dudes!

Love, Lola
xxxxxx

[luby]

Hi Girls

Thank you Lola for adding my EC date but it’s been brought forward a day to Thursday - OH MY GOD..... I went for a follie scan this morn and she said stop the stims, your ready to go, I don't have any more than 8, but they've grow lots since Friday...! I am soooo nervous but quite excited at same time, so its EC on Thurs then ET on Sat.... So my test date will be 20th May....

Here's to lots of eggs..

Lola - don't be so hard on yourself, I bet you did really well in your exam and you'll do even better in June. So a saucy weekend eh?? You sound like you could of stayed in South Downs a while longer.? Hope the break did you both some good..?!

Gail - ooohhhhhh not long now, only two more sleeps - I hope you haven't been naughty and done a HPT..??? I will be having EC on 4th but will be logging on as soon as I'm home to check out your good news..! This is going to work for you this time Gail. Sorry to hear the job is not up to scratch, I know you were looking forward to it. Yep your bosses boss sounds a w**ker, I would of been so embarrassed if that was me, but would of also seen him on his own and asked never to humiliate me like that again. Saying that though when going through this does crazy stuff to you, so actually I would of probably just ran off and cried..! I hope they can sort something else out for you hun. Anyway all the best for Thursday.! Let’s hope it brings good luck for both of us, you a BFP and me some good quality eggs..!

Hi to Nicki, Rachel, Julie, Jen, MLG and anyone else I've missed.

Not much happening on phoenixes at min..!!!!!!

Lucy[/color]

[BevT]

Hi everyone,

just popped in to wish Lucy good luck for her EC on Thursday. Sounds like you will have a good crop! Here's hoping that they all fertilize and you will have some grade 1 embies to choose from. I have just started my meds for my DE tmt. It looks like I will be going for ET the week commencing 27th May. Anyway Lucy, wishing you success this time round, and will be thinking of you this week.x

Congrats to MLG on your recent BFP, you must be thrilled.

Good luck to all you other phoenixes with your forthcoming tmts and testing.

LOL Bev xxx

[luby]

Bev bless you darl - I was thinking about you yesterday actually and was wondering if you had started meds.... Good luck with everything, this is also going to work for you. You deserve this so much. Keep me posted. I will be thinking of you.

I will let you know how many fertilized..!

Good luck Bev

Lucy

[gailp]

Lola its great to see you back on here. Im sure you have done fine on your exam. Im praying that the mixture of baby dust and TNT is just what I need. Im glad you had a great weekend away, time away is a great stress reliever. Good luck when you have your follow up appointment.

Lucy EC tomorrow, I will be thinking of you, hope it’s a great day for both of us. Ive been a good girl and not done an HPT, I wouldn’t believe what it said if I did it early so I am waiting until tomorrow morning, probably 12.01. I did think of seeing my boss on his own, but I am so emotional at the moment that I would have probably just burst into tears and that wouldn’t have helped. DH persuaded me (quite easily) to go sick at work, he said me and my embies didn’t need the stress. So I went to the Dr today and she signed me off with ‘hormonal inbalance’ until next Tuesday. I will decide what I am going to do once I have tested – hopefully BFP

I’m getting really nervous now. Lots of symptoms but could be AF, pregnancy or the pessaries. I’m just praying that this will finally be my time .

Hi to everyone else