Oct 05 Cycle Buddies

[Jen1d]

Hi gals

Little R - Where are you today, i need some more friends. Hope your feeling ok, i have been thinking of you.

Walshy - Are you ok? Have been worried about you and hope your taking it easy.

Lola - STILL away. You dh must be irresistible

Steph - Are you still working, you have to relax more girl. Hope you've managed to find a comfy chair to watch Grey's or you will have withdrawl symptoms.

Camilla - Yep its a new build and so big for a 3 bedroom house. We can't make up our mind, there is just too much going on at the moment. How are you feeling? You are a lucky girl, enjoy this time. I hope all my Octo Buds will get the same good fortune and happiness as you, plus me or course.

Had to buy a pressie for my friends baby today and came across all emotional in the shop. Managed to hold back the tears---just, but i want to buy my own baby some cool clothes not always for other people. I always said i wouldn't get like this but this ivf lark is starting to take over my life. I'm not quite obsessed yet but just so worried it never works .

I have the Doc tomorrow and will get some answers hopefully.

See ya tomorrow

Love Jen x

[Walshy]

Hi Ladies,

Well my planets seemed to be aligned at the moment to dish out continous amounts of crap to me....

Got the call on Friday that seeing as though the embies still had not moved for 2 days they were not considered alive and viable so they were not put back in. I was a bit of an emotional wreck on Friday to say the least. I thought I would be OK but wasn't. We had friends staying with us all weekend with there 2 children (they are unaware of me and IVF). Got up this morning with the flu from hell and just when I thought it couldn't get any worse AF has decided to pay a visit. Oh the joys of being a baby making challenged person Other thatn that though I am doing OK except my head feels like it is going to explode.

How are you all going?

Jen Thanks for the well wishes and I wish you luck today when you go into the Dr. Pretend your some TV host and fire the questions at him before he gets the chance to talk...You could even give him a buzzer so that and pretend it is fast money on Sale of the Centruy (do you get that tv show)

Steph are you in some sort of Greys zone and not wanting to leave the TV incase Mr McDreamy comes on unexpectantly...

Little R have you started your drugs yet??? I have passed the torch onto you and feel you will be the first of us to get the BFP and pave the way for us other 4 to follow....

Lola still away hope you and DH are enjoying yourselves.

Camilla thanks for logging back on and your thoughts for me while I was doing my last round. It is good to know that this can happen as we sometimes lose the focus after a while.

Ok lovely ladies i am back to bed to try and get rid of whatever has taken over my body... Walshy

[little R]

Morning my Octoshines.... heaps of apologies for not logging on yesterday...please know I was thinking about you all, but was just wrapped up in admin stuff for the house .... and later in my DH's arms...
He's leaving tonight so we wanted to spend some quality time together

Walshy....I have noticed one thing lately... a bad event never comes alone...it always brings its friends... So sorry to hear about your embies...and your massive headache, flu and last but not least the wicked witch....I don't know how you managed to put on a brave face for the visitors...I would have gone ballistic... thinking about you so very much this morning. Virtual hugs to you my dear! Sounds like you need some TLC.
Not sure about the pressure involved in getting a BFP for the group...

Jen, I have not abandoned you..crazy Ipod girl...so what type of mp3 gets you into walking mode then? Wow... house sounds perfect....more decisions... Thank you for thinking about me for Day 1 of stimming. I needed it... they have given me this time around an injector pen (have you had this before)? I know in my heart of hearts that it is pretty much idiot proof, but for some reason it completely flipped me out as I am so used to mixing my potions myself (have been for the last 6 cycles). Anyway, DH luckily was there and calmed me down...he read the instructions (the nurse was extremely evasive when showing me how to use it) and told me exactly how to do it. It's a breeze compared to self injecting with the needles...but still...I got flustered...a little highly string lately, I wonder I see how I do today... it certainly hurts a heck of a lot less than the regular needles...
It's your big day today... fingers crossed that you will be a lean, mean questioning machine I agree with Walshy...her strategy sounds pretty effective. Good luck and I hope you get the closure that you need to move on to round 3 and some useful answers to give you HOPE
This is just too ironic that our Jen has a tat ..so pray tell, what is it of?

Steph, you still glued to McSteamy's or McDreamy's frozen TV face.... give it up girl....come back and join the real world Hope you're okay Octobuddy. Grey's on tonight here....it's the last episode of Season 1... luckily I only have to wait a week before they show Season 2

Lola, love...you vertical yet?

Have decided not to leave my Octobuddies and sign up to another thread... I don't know... I have come this far with you..and I am not sure that I want comfort from anyone but my Octochicks....
You understand me and know who I am...

Much love to you all...will check back later,

Little R

[Jen1d]

Hi girls

Walshy - Yep we got Sale of the Century about 20 years ago, its ancient. Thought it was very funny you get it now. Am so sad about your cycle, you didn't even get a chance, its so unfair. My Doc prefers to do fresh cycles as she says they have more chance of working. Hang in there, blast that cold and start afresh. Huge hugs to you.

Little R - I use the injector pen all the time, its much easier than having to measure up all the medi. Jab away, you'll be fine.
I do speak to the girls on the April test dates but my Octos are my real Buds, we will be together always. Abandon you lot--------never. My tat is on the bottom of my back and is a yellow flower with two smaller ones at each side and greenery around it. Its really cool and a lovely shape but hard to describe, you'll see it when we all meet up one day. Would you ever have one?

Lola and Steph - We miss you, reeeetttuuurrrnnnn nooowwwww.

Me - Well had a crap appointment with the Doc. She is so lovely and understanding though. Basically she can't understand why i have not had a proper AF this time and once i explained that it was only spotting i was ushered into the loo for another pregnancy test. As we thought it was still bfn but its amazing for a few second how you start to hope it might be positive. Anyway she answered lots of questions and feels this cycle was really good as we had great Grade 2 embies, 7 and 8 cell. She has said its just a case of "keep trying". As if we didn't know that one eh?
Anyway she then decided to scan me to check out the cyst but low and behold Jen has no cyst, its my b****y stupid tube. On my left side the tube is curling round where my follies grow and there is some fluid in it so i have to go back in 5 weeks for another scan. If its not gone then i have to have a Laparoscopy to remove this tube. So i burst into tears, not bothered about the op although i could do without it. All i could think about was months rolling by before i could do the Big 3.
Basically if its gone i can cycle again round about August, if not then it will be about October--------------life is just s**t.
But there is more. My left leg has been hurting for the last couple of days and i can hardle move it. Last night in bed i couldn't even turn over for the pain so we popped into A&E. I have pulled some muscles in my upper leg and have been put on strong painkillers. So Lola, how can i possible have done this when i have only been for a walk???????????
To make things even worse i am on a sleepover, its a holiday so noone is available to cover so i have to go in to work. I am going to try and get away in the morning if i can get cover.
The only nice thing is that its my anniversary tomorrow, lets hope the day runs smoothly.

Catch up with you all then

Love Jen x

[lolajones]

Oi oi!!!

Hola ladies - man oh man what a stack of posts to read! I've missed you!

Phew, well, where to start?

Walshy - I'm so sorry about your embies, the disappointment is just numbing. We all need to get together like a vigilante posse, hijack ivf and whoop it lardy ass until it gives in and plays fair! THATS ALL WE ASK!!!! Hope your weekend wasn't too stressful. I know its early days but have you thought what you'll do next? You can join me and El "Tatted like a MoFo" Jen on the third time lucky liferaft (T2L2 (TM)) for we will be victorious!!!!

Jemla - my inked up dude! You are in the wars! Sorry to hear about your tube - I am in exactly the same situation my sweet. Sounds like you have a hydrosalpinx - I have one in my remaining "hanging on for grim life" fallop. I had an HSG to see extent of it and whether it was patent. It was, so they decided to leave alone. It could be a factor in my bfn. I haven't seen my doc yet but am also worried that he'll suggest getting it removed thus putting off my next cycle for a hundred years. Jemla - these are just YET MORE HURDLES for us to gracefully jump over on our way to Up Duff success extrordinaire!
How did you get your injury?? That must have been some Xtreme walking you were doing - maybe the nano did it?? Were you listening to Aerosmith????

R!! Finally stimming!! Hoorahhhhhh So glad you're on the road to triumph!! As Walshy has said, the baton of ivf has now been gifted to you! I am hoping with every hopable molecule that this works for you!!! You can then be our good luck mascot!!! So have you got a tat? Maybe we should all have one done! Never leave the octos!!! You're right, is tricky to start another. How's Greys? I missed thursdays episode. On your advice I read that Martin Lukes book - hilarious! So many of the HR dept at work use that crapspeak. I am going to embrace all his lingual idiocy 125% going forward and get a can-do headset with my co-colleagues, I'm smiling at you! Strive and thrive!

My Stephanwch! Cod Wrestler! Miss your posts but good too you sooooo positive about this cycle!! So looks like it'll be R then you getting the wink wink bfpppppppppp. Hmmmm, question: will you being preggo make your fish friends jealous? Fish are notoriously envious creatures - watch your back!

Camilla - good to see you back on the boards, when is the baby due?

Well, got back v late last night from weekend of romance we stayed in this cute place which is a converted old railway station with Pullman carriages - each carriage has a 2 rooms - very lovely. Spent a lot of time running around the countryside and generally mucking about - was such a relaxing time after all the stress of the "_____", bfn and bloody work which is getting busier and busier - something has to give dudes! Am now revitalised and full of plans for the future! Going to get the exam out of the way in June - AND WILL PASS IT!!!!! going to go on 2 week holiday in sun and do some kayaking then going to buy a house then going to get pregnant - and that is that! I'm counting on you girls to ensure i stick to targets as I am crappolata at that.
Was sooo lovely catching up with all your news - the octos have hit a streak of bad luck lately but now R has started stimming... a positivity elephant will be sitting on our porch

Ok, I'm off to tidy our disgustingly neglected flat - seriously thinking about the housekeeper issue
Will check in later for updates!

Love like a fragrant flower of boobs

Lola
xxxx

[Inhale, Exhale]

Hello Margaritas!!!

Good news.... am back from travels for a full three days.... plenty of time to play catch me up, tie me up.

So my lovelies.. lots to read.. some sadness, some happiness. Let's begin with the crocodile tears.

Walshy- when life takes a pooh, flush it down. So sorry bunny for the embie loss... you know that I know exactly how you feel. My tough nuts didn't survive the thaw either... Only one thing to do- look for the next cycle with crazy fresh straight from the oven embies... so many we won't be able to count them all!

Jens- I think you need more than a flush... you need whole gray cloud, silver lining makeover. what rot! I think it is your turn for the
magi- bubble oh' luv... It comes free with a Demetrio to meet all your girlish whims... tickle, tickle.

Littles-- well, well. Me and you again! I will be a couple of weeks behind you luv bunny... I have exact dates because my entire cycle is controlled with shoot em up drugs- Lupron, Gonal F, progesterone and estrogen... when all you girls are runnin to the loo for a check I don't even bother because the drugs will keep nasty witch away. are you doing blasts?

Lola- I see you are back round- course I was off too so. Your weekend getaway sounds like the cherry on top. I also think your life plan sounds fantastico darlin. Will snap the whip from here to keep you keepin on.. Watch out I can be fiesty!

As for me.. still crazies with work and such. Have not told my boss about no travel allowed soon yet... will tell him in a couple of weeks.... He is on a need to know basis only. A-hole. He told the new guy in our section the very first day that he better learn to drive the airboat because I am trying to get pregnant. Again, I repeat.. say it with me... A-hole!
All the travels has kept my mind off impeding cycle-o-doom as I am now referring to it. Trying to stay positive (3rd time the charm and all that) but easier said as all my chicks know. In the meantime I am exercising up a storm while I still can... need to quit the caffiene too... Dr. McEmby is a stickler about that. oh.... greys update... all who do not want the spoiler better look away... it was yummy, but will prove to be even yummier next week. Things are heating up between McVet and Meredith.. and Derek is non too pleased- ugly green monster and all. Total tasty treat!

Wink and a nudge,
Steph

[lolajones]

She's Back! The fragrant boob flower worked its pollentastic magic and called 'erladyship back to the boards.

Yes, I'll join the chorus - he's an uber A-hole with a bolt-on super A-hole maxi charger in situ. You could probably open up a can o litigation whoop ass for a comment like that.

As for Cycl-o-doom (TM) I think you should change its name to Cycl-o-cert (TM), get the positivo oonagi a-flowing' on the third time lucky liferaft (T2L2) Demetrio is wearing stripey T in style of Venetian Gondolierre and is planning on punting us all to the shores of gravid island - go fatso! Punt like its worth it Olympian!!!

Blola
xxxx

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Oh Lolers!
won't even let me be awash in my sulkiness for a little....

Alrighty then.... on to positives and hoo-RAHS! This will be it. I will be knocked up and oh how we will cheer. Get your pom-poms, ltiny skirts and spanky pants ready cheerleaders!

Littles and I are going to start it off then it will be BFP city for all Tubers who enter the Magic Kingdom. Welcome! Welcome!

By the by Lolas-- kayaking heh? Hubby and I have kayaks too. Great fun. The last time we went kayaking we came upon a rope swing. So we pretended to be 8 yrs old again and went off of it. (Not as easy as it used to be I tell ya) My kayak tried to escape as I was jumping, luckily DH was faster! Good times.

Off to yoga,
Steph

[little R]

It's hot, hot, hot here, my Octopals...

Wow, you have been deliriously posting
It's super....

Jen: first things first: Happy Anniversary (how many years?). You poor thing...you're in the wars... crazy girl...blame the nano for damage to leg...you must have been doing some extreme walking. I second Lola on that one I hope you're feeling better and getting some rest. You really had a blah day yesterday...let's keep the faith, love, and cross all extremities that your next scan (date please?) will show that all is back to normal and no lap is needed. Full speed ahead for the Big 3, I say
Hihihihihi I can't believe you've got a tat...and I can't wait to see it when I swing on over to Scotland
Nope, I don't have a tat....I think theylook really cute when discret, but no unnecessary needlework for me
Plenty of sunshine over to you so you can wear lowcuts and flipflops...THE lethal combination

Walshy, how are you faring? Hope your flu and massive headache are both history. Thinking of you Octopal.... virtual hugs

Lola girl! So glad you enjoyed Martin Lukes and his hilariously lame lingua...it's the strive and thrive that really tickled me pink ; the "I am smiling at you" was pathetic I would have treated Cindy's touchy-feely emails as spam My fab DH brought back a stack of books from his last NYC visit so I have some serious slush to read now. I am trying to finish Isabel Allende's House of Spirits before hitting the slush though
Your weekend has proven to be very efficient in getting you back on track May I say that your plans for the months ahead are inspiring...have you signed up for some life-coaching recently ? (opened Pandora's box, have you? ) You've got it all figured out Dr Jones. You've definitely been influenced as you have your can-do headset on and you're geared up to reach 22.5 per cent better than your bestest
Had a blah day yesterday as satellite packed in and therefore... DRAMA No Grey's...so basically missed the end of season 1. Talk about BAD timing I was so angry and frustrated

Steph...back from your fishing expedition... what a riveting life you lead, girl Yes, it feels like good ol' times, my dear Octobuddy---let's hope we have better endings this time around. Yep, am doing blasts...really nervous this time around as protocol is very different for me. I so want this to work...sounds silly saying that....because who wouldn't. Not sure I could handle a re-enactment of cycle 1.
Your boss is a complete p---! I don't know how you deal with comments like that. Boy, he had better watch out once you're drugged up to the eyeballs
Thanks for the Grey's update....lucky, lucky you... I am seething. I want my Grey's!!!

Well gotta dash.... pen time for me....will check back later...

Much love to you my loyal friends,

Little R

[lolajones]

Just popped in quickly to say....

Happy Anniversary Jemla!

have a top day!

Lola
xx

[camilla]

Now I'm back I can't keep away! (even if I don't know what you're gabbling on about.... Gray's goings ons!, I haven't watched any of it so it's whoosh right over my head).

Walshy - Crap I know, it goes without saying I'm sorry you had a sad outcome. I don't know how you managed to book guests at that stage in your cycle! Tip for the future - leave weekends free. I hope you're bug goes soon and you'll be able to think with a clear head.

Jen - In five weeks the fluid may have gone. Try not to think past that at the moment. We will all use our magic to send it packing. And now you've done your leg in! Happy anniversay hop along.

Lola - Your plan sounds good, sounds like you're a woman on a mission. Keep saying to yourself "I'm going to get what I deserve". Kayaking sounds v energetic but then I'm an exercise wimp and v lazy. Your weekend retreat sounded v original and romantic!

Steph - So excited for you and your next cycle. You know you can do it. Hope you can slow down a bit when you have to though, work can take a back seat.

Little R - Your injector pen sounds good, especially when your dh is not there. I hope you're feeling confident. It's been warm here - even took off my jacket at the weekend! Would love some of your hot weather, especially as have been self-tanning in the hope that I can get my legs out of jeans and start painting my toenails again.

Right have got to get on now. Remember girls what you are all going through is a means to an end. Hope you don't mind me adding my thoughts but I just can't leave you girls.

Love across the miles.

Camilla xxxxx

[Jen1d]

yyyiiippppeee all my mates are back

So good to see you are all in happydome and have plenty of plans for our Big 3, its weird we are all at the same one.

Anyway went in yesterday for my sleepover and its was fine. I came home at 8am this morning instead of staying for my early shift as i feel crap. Sore leg, on painkillers, slept bad and ovaries hurt a bit (thinks thats from the prodding yesterday) and not sure if boss believes me. Can't beleive i practically run that unit with her and only stay off sick when i am on my 2ww, not any other time and still get the guilt trip. Might stay off tomorrow too just to p**s them off.
Ok my vent is over, you can all come out to play now again.

Keep desperately hoping i don't have to have Lap so we can cycle again soon. Yep Lola i do have hydrosalpinx but its never caused any problems before. Will find out at my next scan, Little R, its on 29th June.

Away to have a bath and feel sorry for myself. Thanks for your anniversayr wishes, 14 years and still mega happy, must be one of the lucky ones. DH gave me lovely flowers and his card made me cry, all about glad he has me and he only needs me but he will try as long as i want to, i'm a lucky girl to have him.

One good thing about tonight, LOST is back for the second series. Steph don't tell me what happens or its over between us,ok haha.

Love, hugs and stuff

Jen x

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Morning Glories!!

Hows the girls today? Heh, beautiful day here in my part of the world. The weather has been perfection for 4 days... sunny, mid 70s- can't ask for better! Anyone want to join in the sunny fun? Unfortunately I am in the office for the next 2 days... so I just get to look outside with a pathetic longing expression on my face singing softly to "It's a Beautiful Day in the Neighborhood".....

So.... on What About Brian last night... it's the show that none of you girls can watch but has in infertile couple... well, anywhos- she began her drugs last night.. too friggin funny. She was a bit hormonal to say the least. Her car kept saying- door ajar, door ajar.... so she went around the car like 20 times slamming all the doors and ended with a complete rage meltdown... The next minute she insisted that every inch of her house get clean, then she tore her husband a new one, then she was all lovey.... Oh it was so true it was hysterical and sad at the same time.. funny because that is what happens, but sad because I saw what the DH had to deal with.. but hey, they still have it easy. Anyone else get to see this gem of a show yet?? 4 stars in my book!

Jen- happy, happy luv day! ah shucks. About work- do what I do- pretend your boss doesn't exist. Works like a charm. As for the leg pain- I recommend you prop up you leg, watch Lost, enjoy the painkillers and a margarita! Doctors orders.

Walshy- The above prescription should work for house guests too! Have a lovely lovely.

Little R- I am trying to ignore the nerves for this cycles- completely swept them under the rug! But, knowing that they have changed to a flair cycle and McEmby reserves the right to cancel if I have a low follicle response.. well.. gives me the jitters when I think about.. therefore I dont! Sorry you missed the Greys. I would be absolute ripped if that happened to me... especially a season ender. Man-o-man!

Lolers- well my chic-a-doo! Hows little miss upper today? I think you are on a high from having crapper test over and dun. Sailin the high life now my sweets. By the wayside- your post earlier does not count as a post- I will need another dose of Lola Luv before the day is thru- I might get the shakes otherwise!

Camilla- welcome back! Don't worry about the sun.. go albino white like I do! Paint the toes anyhow! And yes, work will definitely take seconds once the cycle starts... I will hit the pause button on crazy life. No worries. Grey's is Grey's Anatomy- very clever, sexy, smart, sexy, funny, sexy show... did i mention the sexiness that oozes from the guys on that show?

...beautiful day in the neighborhood...
Luvs to my bugs
Steph

[lolajones]

Haloidus Octobliques

14 years Jen? Man! Thats pretty cool. Hope you have a good'n and as for taking a sickie - do it! Are you going to watch Lost? I got so assed off with the last series I might not bother, it's so frustrating!

petit R - House of Spirits is great, I am now banned yet again from reading non medical books, sheesh. I think its having the knock on effect of making my dreams really action packed. Last night dreamt I was Buffy and had huge long saucy snog with Spike temperature raising stuff amigos, plan to eat lots of cheese before bed tonight in hope of a repeat Send more sunshine! Its getting better over here but I'm still 3 layers

Stephanwch - we don't get What About Brian yet - sure we will though. So have you got lots of Lost spoilers then???? Shh don't tell Jen but you can tell me......
So you're doing a flair cycle this time? I like the sound of those, is like a firework!

Camilla - hola, hope you're making full use of the many self tanning products around at the mo Have you tried any of those moisturiser ones that are supposed to build up a light tan? Innovation or waste o money?

well y'know, my positivity has done a bunk. I am once again in a study fugue, a motivation-free zone. The end of this particularly dank and yawner tunnel seems too far away no. pants!!!!!
As Susan Jeffers would say I need to put some effort into my me, friends, family and hobby boxes. Well then, I suppose I'd better slink off back to my desk of horror - Noise At Work Regulations since you ask zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

I've done a list of stuff going on because otherwise I'll lose track, can you add stuff I've forgotten por favor? Man, anything to put off the books

Little R - May 6th scan to see the 1 billion follies
Lola - ?May 17th appt with doc to discuss the bfn
Steph - May 24th - baseline scan
Steph - May 26th Gonal starts
Steph - June 6th - Mega egg retrieval
Lola - June 12th examinabomination
Lola - June 28th n 29th clinical humiliat-o-xam
Jen - 29th June scan "furtive fallop looksee"
Camilla - ? EDD July/August?

Okaley, I'm off,

adieu sweet pals

lola
xxxxxx

[Jen1d]

Well just out of the bath, had a great soak and feel better. DH joined in but only for a chat------ easy girls------- no action due to bad leg, but he always cheers me up and makes me laugh.

Am i watching Lost, of course Loopy Lo, its my favourite and its worth checking out just to see Matthew Fox----yummy.

As for fake tan, its got to be St Tropex all the way, i swear by it. Isn't it funny to see all the real Belters who come out at this time of year with their tango bodies, the feet and legs are the best, so beware Camilla.

Thanks Lola for our little update, catch you later.

Love Jen x