April/May Buddies??

[sarahface]

Hi Everyone, just thought i would come back with an update. I have been around the forum but havent been posting and the last one i made was on page 15, this thread is certainly growing by the day!

I began Down Regulating on the 9th of may and taking my daily injections in my tummy. I went for a scan on the 6th April and found out i was Inactive so i began stimming that morning. I have a scan on the 16th and 19th of this month to see how the stimming is going.

So far its going well and it has taken me a day or two to get used to the pen injection, i went into a mad panic yesterday as i couldnt for the life of me remember how to put a cartridge in and was almost in tears lol. Ive been doing ok and managed to keep my grumpiness to a minimum, i do find with the Puregon that im starting to bloat just a little and im experiencing moderate headaches and feeling a bit tearful now and again.
For the past couple of days ive been feeling a bit lonley. DH is wonderful my true mate, i know im not truly alone but at the minute it feels that way. Its funny how you can be in a house full of people and still feel a bit lonley. Im usually quite bubbly, bouncy and full of beans, but i know it shall pass and its all worth it to get a BFP!

I shall keep all of you in my prayers and im sorry for not posting much.

[vessi]

Carolyn,
I am soo sorry about the bad news.

Muyself, I don't feel very well either.
ER was yesterday. They manage to retreave only 6 eggs. Only 4 of them were mature.
The embriologist called 5 mon ago- only 3 fertilzed and are at stage 1 cell right now.
I feel sooo down.
I was at max dose of Gonal and yet could not make more than 4 mature eggs! Damn, some make 2-3 mature on their own.
it's so depressing when you just cannot control your body.
Well, some will say 3 is better than nnothing, it takes only 1. I know all that but statistically some of the fertilized embrios stop developing. So, I might have 1 to transfer on Saturday, maybe nothing.
Grgrg, i hate going through IVf but I keep doing it.
Sorry for the rnt, just cannot stop my tears.
GL to all!

Vess

[Natalie Anne]

Hi Vess

please don't worry. I only produced 2 eggs this time and although both fertilised, only one divided so i only had one transferred yesterday.

Even though this was all a bit of a shock to me and i felt very disappointed, i am now trying to be positive about my one little embie.

I am sure that you will embies for transfer. thinking of you.

Natalie
x

[jackoa21]

hello laides
I hope it is ok for me to join you. I started Lupron on Tuesday and I start the IVF stim on 05/16.

I am very very very nervous and exctied at the same time.. It is nice to not be going through this alone...
baby dust to all

[CYOT]

HELLO EVERYONE--------------ONE WEEK DOWN AND ONE WEEK TO GO----I'M GOING OUT OF MY MIND WAITING------I JUST NEED TO KNOW----EVERY CRAMP,TWINGE ECT I GET NERVOUS----I HOPE EVERYONE ELSE IS HOLDING UP----GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE STILL WAITING FOR EC OR ET-------GOOD LUCK TO US ALL

[jackoa21]

CYOT
I have never been through the IVF 2ww but I have been through IUI 2ww its tough but just keep thinking of the wonderful BFP at the end
baby dust to all

[Xrayem]

Hi guys,

Man I missed a lot in the last 4 days! I had to go back 3 pages to catch up!

Tash - Thanks for your thoughts. DH's that travel are awful. Mine is back today but leaves me again on sunday for another week. I had my mum with me this week but alone next one.

Ellie - welcome to the board. I'll have my fingers crossed for you on the 15th.

Carolyn - I am so sorry. I know how you must be feeling. But on a selfish level, and please do not see this in a negative way, but I'm glad you'll be sticking around with us for a while longer - you are such a comfort to all of us.

Jackoa21 - Welcome! Hope we can help make your journey easier.

My test is tomorrow but I did another HPT (Never again, I swear!) and it was -ve. Doesn't help that test date is the 13th and the day before mother's day here in Oz. DH has to fly out at lunchtime so I'll be alone.

I feel like AF is coming. Several times today I had to do mad dash to loo, thinking it had arrived.

I think we will take a month off. I know its just my first time, but I wasn't really prepared mentally for how tough it would be. Its my 30th birthday on the 28th May and DH is throwing me a cocktail party. We chose a "Cocktail party" not because we are mad keen drinkers, but because we wanted to dissuade people from bringing their kids. I'm ok about turning 30 - I have a great career, have travelled the world, own my house and have the most loving husband. The only thing missing is a baby all of my own and I felt having everyone else's kids in my face might push me over the edge.

Well, I'll cling to my own 5% chance, Carolyn, but my heart really isn't in it. Next time, I promise, no HPT and nothing but positive thoughts!

Em

[CarolynB]

Em

Just read your post and it brought tears to my eyes. I so feel for you. Did not cry at all yesterday as kept myself busy all day and we went to a charity event last night. We just agreed that we cannot pull out of everything and need to carry on with our life. I am sorry that your dh is going to be away next week. He will be there for you tomorrow & Sunday which is good.

There is still a chance but you are also quite a bit younger than some of us. Only 30. I am going to have such a crisis at the end of the month - when I hit the big 4-0. It may still be positive tomorrow. If not we will be here for you. We'll have to cycle again together..........

I guess none of us really know how it is going to be until we actually go through it. The charity dinner though last night was for young people who have spinal injuries. It was truely inspirational when these young people have so much taken from them at an early age. I was so glad that we had both decided to still go. It really made me & dh think how lucky we are. Like you say, we both have good jobs, we have a lovely house, we have loads of friends, we have nieces & nephews on both sides who adore us & we have reasonable health. dh had a very serious motorbike accident some 4 years ago. It was touch & go for days whether he would make it. It also came within milimetres of his spine so there was concern for 48 hours that he would be paralysed. We both just looked at each other and even managed to smile when one of the youngsters was talking about their bike accident. We have so much to be grateful for & it made me think that.

I will think of you tomorrow. My fingers & toes will be crossed. Will log on tomorrow morning and given the time difference your wait will be over.

Thinking of you.
Carolyn xxxxx

[CarolynB]

Dear Vess

I think that you are due for ET tomorrow. So hope that you little ones are doing well and that you will have a good transfer. Remember then to get lots of rest over the weekend and drink plenty of pineapple juice so that they hold on tightly.

Thinking of you.
Carolyn xxx

[CarolynB]

Dear Vess

I think that you are due for ET tomorrow. So hope that your little ones are doing well and that you will have a good transfer. Remember then to get lots of rest over the weekend and drink plenty of pineapple juice so that they hold on tightly.

Thinking of you.
Carolyn xxx

[WendyW]

Hello Ladies,

Went for EC today and pleased to report that they were able to retrieve 8 eggs Me and DH are really pleased as I only had 8 good size follies and some 'tiddlers' to start with.

Just crossing my fingers that we get a good fert report tomorrow. If all goes well will be going in for ET on Monday.

Sorry this is a short post, my tummy is a bit tender so I'm going back off to bed for a rest.

Thinking of you all.

Love
Wendy x

[DaniaBB]

Hi everyone!

Caorlyn- I'm sooooo sorry Its so hard to go through all the tmt steps - I feel for you and how dissapointed you must feel. Your DH sounds loving and I think you will support each other to move on to your plan b- once the clinic knows how your body responds they'll give you the best possible tmt . I think it was a great idea to go out to the fundraiser. You can stay on as long as you want, you're a compassionate person and you've given all of us so much support remember that we are here for you. God bless & don't lose hope.

tklmoser- I'm so sorry about your news. It sounds like your plan B is a god idea. Good luck and God bless.

Cyot- my cycle buddy- hang in there- only a week to go.Try to get your mind off thinking -ve thoughts- You deserve this and you should focus on that. I know it is easier said than done but Dr. Domar's book says to counter act each -ve thought sentence with its opposite positive version. I've tried it. t has made me feel better but the -ve thoughts still pop in my head. Unavoidable. So we're testint only a day apart. I'm sending you baby dust!

Tasha- how are you doing after your 1st ww?Is your DH away this weekend? Good luck on monday!Lots of baby dust to you!!!!!

Em- How are you doing on your 2ww?

Natalie- Congrats on your successful ET. All you need is the one to be settling in cozy.I'm sending positive vibes to you!What are progesterone pessaries?

Vess- I'm thinking of you- hope your embies are developing. Keeping my fingers crossed.

Luby- Congrats on your ET that went well. Take it easy until you go back to work. PMA!

Heather - That's great that you found a friend to help you out for your ET and injections

Wendy- This might be too late but Pedialyte is very good for dehydration (1 liter per 24hrs)They give it to children for diarreah(my spelling??)

Sofia- good luck with stimmies! Lots of follies!

Lucybucy- How are doing so far?

Prissy- How are you doing? Your blood work sounds good.Hope your scan goes well in two weeks!

Lauralou- how are the stimms going?

Jess- how are you? did you start stimms?

Beth- Good luck on Sunday- Baby dust!

Ellie welcom to the board! Good luck on your test!

Hi to all- hope you're all doing well!

I have been away from the board cuz I was in the Hospital since Saturday night. On saturday morning I almost fainted, then was dizzy continuously and had a sharp chest pain and shortness of breath all day long. When I called the pharmacist he said I could have a blood clot in my lungs - so we rushed to the hospital- by then it was after supper. When we got there they said it was FATAL!!! My DH was so nervous- I kept thinking- oh no! Not now. They kept me overnight as the CT scan machine was not accessible until the next morning.The put me on heparin (blood thinner) to prevent further clotting. My DH was so anxious(but trying to hold it in-but I know him well) I kept telling him I would be fine. All we kept thinking of was the 2 embies in my belly. I tried to keep calm. Not easy...

Well, the next afternoon the CT scan confirmed it was not a blood clot, but mild OHSS with fluid that went in my right lung explaining all the symptoms- but this is extremely rare(My DH said he knew I was special- haha!). Then 2 days later I developed a terrible burning face rash and they thought I might be allergic to the progesterone injection- and they almost refused to give it to me on tuesday night. I was fuming- I was ready to fight to keep that injection- afterall this I wasn't willing to ljeopardize my chances for my babies. My DH convinced the resident DR. so he said they would do more blood testing(for autoimmune disease and Lupus)- so I have to go to get tested for allergies next wed and I am waiting for the other blood test results. I told them I was convince it was the soap they use for laundry. I only used their facecloths on my face & cuz I have sensitive skin I sometimes get irritations from make-up products(on my cheeks) I just never had it this bad- all over my face includind my forehead and neck. So they kept me until yesterday, gave me coritsone cream and I told them I would continue the progesterone injections unless I felt really ill then I would take the progesterone suppositories.

Today, I'm feeling much better (my skin has cleared up but it is very dry and flaky-yuk- They delivered an oxygen tank at my house last night and I have been using it on and off when I can't catch my breath from walking back from the bathroom- and believe me I don't walk very fast to start with and it feels like 20 mins. on a threadmill!!My poor DH has been worried and nervous all week and each night when he came to the hospital after work he looked exhausted- I feel so bad and hoping I'm going to get better soon. I tell him I'll be running a marathon by next week as a joke. We like to joke around when they other is down.

Luckily I'm home and waiting for the test date on May 17th- I did take out the HPT yesterday but when my DH saw me it convinced me to wait some more. So I decided to continue talking to my babies and visualizing them growing in my belly. It's my way of coping and having some kind of control over this situation.

I kept thinking about you guys wondering how you were doing. I couldn't wait to get back here. I feel comfort being in contact with you all.

HUGS!!!!!

Dania

[CYOT]

HELLO EVERYONE

DANIA------I CAN'T BELIEVE WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN THROUGH-----THAT WILL MAKE A BFP ALL THE MORE WORTH IT----I FEEL SO BAD-----I HAVEN'T REALLY HAD MANY COMPLICATIONS-----I DID GET BAD WELTS FROM THE STIMMS AND MY RISE IN ESTROGEN CAUSED ME TO HAVE A CONSTANT RED NECK AND CHEST----MY SKIN ALSO TENDS TO BE SENSITIVE------I DO FEEL BLOATED STILL---I THOUGHT THAT WOULD GO AWAY AFTER EC------I HAVE GAINED A GOOD 6 POUNDS SINCE THE BEGINNING AND CLOTHES ARE RATHER TIGHT------I AM STILL HAVING MILD CRAMPING------IT FEELS AN AWFUL LOT LIKE AF CRAMPS-----I'M TRYING TO IGNORE THEM AND KEEP POSITIVE

I'VE BEEN RESEARCHING ON THE WEB EARLY PREGNANCY SIGNS----I DO HAVE SORE BREASTS BUT THIS COULD BE FROM THE PROGESTERONE------I GUESS THERE IS NO WAY OF KNOWING TILL THE DREADED 2WW IS OVER------DH AND MYSELF AGREED ON NO PEE STICKS-----I HAVE CONVINCED HIM WE SHOULD TAKE ONE THE MORNING OF THE BLOOD TEST------THAT WAY WE WILL HAVE SOMEWHAT OF A HEADS UP------I WAS AT THE STORE THE OTHER DAY AND I ALMOST BOUGHT ONE BUT HELD OFF FOR FEAR I MIGHT USE IT TOO SOON

WELL I HOPE EVERONE IS DOING WELL----ALL THAT WE GO THROUGH WE ALL EVENTUALLY DESERVE TO HEAR THE WORDS BFP

[tiffichels]

Just wanted to update everyone that we had to cancel our treatment. My ovaries apparently are low in tissue mass and that's why I wasn't making many follicals and the larger ones were dominating and basically killing the smaller ones. Doctor did not feel they were worth trying so we just quit. My butt feels like leather and I'm just so tired of the ups and downs. Thanks to all of you for your support. I do wish everyone luck and pray for a BFP for you if not this time then next. Because of the news, we have decided that either donor egg or adoption is the only choice. Good luck to everyone.

Lots of love.

[lyceemangin]

Hello Everyone!

Heather -I'm so sorry to hear your news. I'm thinking of you both and wishing you lots of luck for the future.

Dania - What a shock being rushed in to hospital like that you must have been terrified. I hope your skin rash is getting better. Take it easy and relax all weekend and stay positive as I'm sure I read somewhere that OHSS after ET is normally a sign of pregnancy. I really hope so - you certainly deserve it after what you've been through! Good luck with the rest of your 2WW!

Cyot - hope you're getting on OK with the wait! It's hard isn't it! I have cramps like AF on and off all the time now. It is driving me utterly bananas! Just try to ignore them and hopefully they will go away. Stay positive!

Natalie- hope you're getting on alright in the 2WW and those pessaries aren't causing you too much grief.

Wendy- good luck on Monday- 8 eggs is brilliant. Just take it easy now!

Vess - hope your ET went well and you're resting lots

Jackoa- Hi and welcome. Good luck with everything!

Em- thinking of you today. I guess with the time difference you must have already tested and am really hoping for a BFP to prove those evil HPT's wrong. Hope you are OK

Carolyn- Thanks for staying on here to support everyone else - you are amazing!

Ellie - lots of luck for Monday- will be thinking of you!

Everyone else hoping you are all OK and wishing you a great weekend!

I have just waved off my husband and won't see him until after I've done the test now on Monday. He has been so amazing and supportive throughout everything and I would just love to give him news of a BFP on Monday but however positive I try to stay I really feel it hasn't worked. Whatever we will at least have each other to comfort on Monday night. We've already decided to relax over the summer and enjoy ourselves before trying again in October. We're going away at the end of june to the south of france so it's good to have something to look forward to, whatever the result.

Look after yourselves everyone!

Tash x x