im only 4 days into the 2ww and im already climbing the walls.....

im thinking back(nearly 4yrs) knowing i would have problems trying to concieve...because of damaged tubes,and endometriosis....back then was stressful....visiting fertility specialist for tests etc.. for 2 yrs was stressful.... starting treatment for this cycle was stressful....but for fxxk sake this 2ww is HELL!!!!!
im all giddy one moment...feeling ok and glad im progressing to the next stage...then i pop a pessary in....few mins later...its melted and ran out..

im a mess....have a big stain on joggers.(looks like i had an accident)

...or i sneeze and the pessary comes out.....
like everyone else, then i get cramps and think ...here it comes....(af) but nothing...just cramps...(mild)....but i must admit...i feel weird....one moment im ok the next its like a wave of nausea washing over me...then im fine again....or i get a weird sensation way down in pit of stomach...but i guess with too much time to think has the mind wandering
anyway i best be off....sorry for rambling on...errrr its getting a habit... hope everyone is doing well..... take care....kareenxxx