April/May Buddies??

[vessi]

Sally,
I am so sorry to hear about the possible ectopic. I hope it is not. i am myslef an ectopic surviver and I know how hurtful it could be.
You are in my thoughts and prayers!

Sara, I am sorry you had to feel the ER. It must have been very frustrating. I am glad you feel better though. In my clinic I was under general anesthesia and did not feel a thing.
I also had 6 eggs but only 4 were mature. Ennded up with only 2 little pre-embryos and did 3dt. Wishing you all 6 to fertilize!!
GL!

Natalie, it is not fair, you are 7h ahead! I will be still sleeping 9or taking another HPT) while you will already know. GL!

Vess

[CarolynB]

Oh Sally

I am so very sorry to read that you may have an eptopic. Hammersmith made me test even though I had AF already.

Thinking of you & sending you big hugs. Be strong. We are here for you.

Carolyn xxx

[jackoa21]

Sally
You are in my thoughts and prayers.. Sending you a huge hug...

[Natalie Anne]

Sarah

my anasthetic didn't work and i felt egg collection too. i had a mask on too and kept shouting "Ow! have you nearly finished? give me some more drugs!" through it!! it was horrible and i was so glad when it was over.

have a good rest now and get ready for your embies.

Sally- hope you don't have an eptopic and recover quickly.

Natalie
x

[Natalie Anne]

it's a BFN for me i'm afraid. tested at 5am. seem to have so many pregnancy symptoms so thought maybe this time would be different but obviously not.

Next step for me is a laparoscopy to check out the possible endometriosis and ovarian cysts that Doctor saw at my baseline scan which were never mentioned before or since. they can't just keep saying i'm unlucky, there's clearly something wrong that they just haven't looked at yet.

if we do have another go i won't be part of another buddy group though cos i couldn't stand to have a -ive on my 7th go while others get lucky first time round. i know this sounds really bitter but i can't help it i'm afraid. will continue to check in on you all though, as we've come a long way together and i want you all to know how much i appreciate your support.

best of luck to everyone on here, we all deserve it.

Natalie
x

[CarolynB]

Dear Natalie

I am so very very sorry for you. Reading your post just brought tears to my eyes. I was so sure that this would be your time based on all of your posts.

It is so bloody unfair. You don't sound bitter at all. Just a very brave, very strong lady. Do understand a little of what you mean about joining another thread though.

We are here for you when/if you need us. Really hope that they can determine a course of treatment for you that helps.

Wishing you all the luck in the world.
Love Carolyn xxx

[vessi]

Natalie,
I am so sorry to hear that. Try to test in a couple of days, I know of cases with level 20 that had babies. Sometimes it just implants late.
In case it confirms -ve, I am terribly sorry. i was so sure we both will be happy today...
I had my blood drawn. I am waiting for the call. Should be in 2-3 hours. I will keep you posted.


Vess

[Xrayem]

hey Girls,

Just dropping by. DH has flown off to Alice Springs today (right in the middle of Oz - near Ayers Rock). Am all alone, again. Just called him and he was out for dinner with clients. Didn't want to talk and be rude at the table. Am now a little grumpy. This is now the 3rd week in a row he has been away. How on earth are you meant to have a family when the sperm factory is on the other side of the country?

Shouldn't be mean. Is not meerly sperm-factory. Also income provider for fertility tmt. Ha!!!

Serious now though. I'm sorry to hear the BFN's from Sally and Natalie. It just doesn't seem to be our month, does it? Hugs to you both.

So what happens when we all start cycling again in June? Do we continue this thread or are we going to invade the existing thread? As I'm new to this all and you guys have been my home, I'm not sure what protocol is. Do we all just decide on one day to abandon this thread and head over to the other one? advise required.

ok. need some sleep.

Hugs to all,
Em

[CarolynB]

Em

Sorry to hear that dh is away again. Very hard on you.

At work today, they have tried to be really nice to me - decorated my desk with balloons & banners, got a cake - as last day at work before my Birthday on Tuesday. As soon as people are nice to me - I just burst into tears. It is so weird but still too close to the surface - guess only 2 weeks since BFN for me. I am like - why would I be happy to be 40!!!! I was meant to have a baby, not a birthday party! Sorry - I know that you are in the same boat as me.

New for me too. But look at the October thread. The ladies who were unsuccessful have stayed with their original cycle pals and just carried on posting. There are 5 Octoberonies and Steph just got the best news in the world. She is 7 weeks pregnant naturally and did not even know it until they scanned today for the start of her treatment. Amazing. You should take a look at the thread as it should give all of us a little hope. Guess that it depends whether you prefer to stick with those who you have got to know or join a new bunch of people who may be cycling at the same time. Guess I would vote to stay here with the stragglers and try to support each other through the next cycle. Let me know as don't want to be left on my own at the end of the month

Hope plans for your birthday party are going well. Stay in touch.

Love Carolyn xx

PS - Hoping that we will have good news from Vessi very soon.

[LauraLou]

Natalie- I am so, so sorry to hear your news. I will keep you in my prayers.

I can finally get out of bed today!!! As soon as it's 11:00, I am in the shower! I feel really gross after being in bed for 2 days.

I had some cramps on Mon and Tues. Don't know if that means anything or just a result of the transfer. No spotting so far.

I wish I could fast forward to next Wednesday, my test date.

Best wishes!

[vessi]

I got the call.
It's official, I am pregnant. At 4weeks exactly today HCG=368!!!! Looking good, maybe two in there??
You girls are great!!! Thank you for supporting me throughout the whole procedure..
Thanks again.
I am beyond happiness, this is so great! I am going out to have lunch w/ DH and celebrate!!!

Little recap:
Started BCP in march, got canceled due to cyst on my left ovary (this is my good ovary which usually makes the eggs)
Started again BCP in April and althought he cyst was still there had a Go for the cycle.
Started stimming on 4-30. Poor responder, GonalF450+2 Vials of repronex- first scan showed only 4 follicles. By day 10 we saw 8. ER was 5-10. 6 follicles retrieved, only 4 mature. 3 got fertilied conventionally. At 3 days after ER got the call- 1 of them was looking abnormal. but the other 2 were looking very good. So, I had 3 day transfer- one 10 cell and one >10 cell, already compacting. I started having salivating and cramping 4 days past ET, I think implantation started then. I have been eating for 3. maybe we are 3?
OMG, I am beyond happiness, I cannot even express it!


Vess

[Mitzy]

Vessi,

Huge Congratulations to you and DH.

All the best for the next 8 months.

Well I am just off for my follow up appointment after my -neg, don't hold up much hope for me, but you never know.

Speak to you all soon

Ilona.

[WendyW]

Hello Ladies,

Sorry I haven't posted for well over a week, been trying to deal with the 2ww!

Dania, Em, Sally and Natalie, I'm so really very sorry to hear your news, this journey is such a roller coaster and you never can tell when it's going to be your turn. I wish you all well for the future, whatever decisions you make about further treatment.

Cyot and Vessi - big CONGRATULATIONS to you both, wishing you a happy and healthy 8+ months.

As for me, the 2ww is slowly driving me insane, one minute I'm full of PMA, the next I'm wondering how I'll deal with a BFN! It doesn't help that it's so quiet at work at the moment, great in some respects that I'm not at all stressed but bad in that I have a lot of time on my hands during the day to sit and think and analyse every little twinge and imagined symptom!

Good news is that I'm able to test at the hospital a day earlier than expected on 29 May. That should be my test date anyway but as it is bank holiday I didn't think they'd be open. DH rang them today to ask for a couple more pessaries for me as I didn't have enough to last until the 30th and the nurse told him they would be open for testing between 8am and 9am on the 29th, so I'll be there as soon as they open that door!

Wondering whether to test at home on Sunday, just so I have an idea of what to expect on Monday??? Don't know whether I could attend for a test at the hospital without at least having some idea of what outcome to expect. As I understand it the hospital only test with my first wee of the day anyway so shouldn't be any different to testing myself with a HPT??? Would still attend for a test at the hospital even if I got a BFN as I think it would help with 'closure'. Anyway, mustn't start thinking like that yet - PMA, PMA, PMA!!!

Thinking of all of you who are going through this journey and especially of those who have to decide whether to continue on this rollercoaster.

Love
Wendy x

[jackoa21]

hello ladies I thought I would pop in
things did not go so well.. out of the 14 follies we only found 2 eggs I dont know quality and I wont know until tomorrow if they even fertilzied.. i dont understand why this would happen and i am so distruaght.. Sorry to vent on you ladies..

Vessi congratulations that is great news

[missprissy]

Hello ladies! I want to start by saying congratulations to all of the women who have rceived BFPs since my last post and send my sincere condolences to the women who who have had negative test results. I have been REALLY under the weather lately. My high school sweetheart was recently killed in Baghdad. We had both moved on and were both married, but we were still very close friends. I keep thinking that I'm going to get a call and someone is going to tell me that it was a case of mistaken identity and he really is alive......it hasn't happended yet! Well, on a much lighter note my first scan was scheduled for tomorrow, but I had it bumped up to this afternoon! I was SO nervous!!!! My HCG results were:

10 days post 3 day transfer= 251
13dp3dt= 824
24dp3dt=40,965

My numbers looked good, but being a nurse I've seen WAY too many "missed abortions" (miscarriages) and sacs with no babies in them!
I know, I know I need to get to the point! Well, ladies I am indeed pregnant with two little cutie pies!! I saw two of the most beautiful heartbeats ever! They're measuring 7 weeks 1 day which is impossible because my ET date was April 21. Regardless of what they're measuring I love my little guys! CarolynB, I love the thought of staying here. I didn't join the "Waiting for 1st scan" forum because I felt like "I don't know these ladies." Who knows, that may change later, but for now I want to stay right here. I'll have to catch up on all of the posts.

Love,
Prissy