April/May Buddies??

[hope4l]

hi everyone

thankyou for all your wishes, prayers etc

tomorrows test day for me, have to travel 1 hr to get test done as local lab closed saturday

so it'll either be a long day or might be good to have further distraction

feeling positive but a little negative too, so who knows ah?

xrayem - we're in rotorua, go to hamilton for treatments, what made dh move to aussie, we're thinking of doing the same, (looking at morayfield) dont want to leave embies here in NZ though especially as it is all govt funded for us. we have to sell our business first.

Laura - so sorry this one didn't work out for you, look towards your next try now and focus on that, keep up the hope, good to hear you have a good supportive DH

Hope

[jackoa21]

Hope
We will all be thinking and praying for you.. I am sure it will be a great day
love and hugs and baby dust
jackie

[LucyBucy]

Hello all,

Doing a sneaky posting from work so it will be quick!

I'm doing well, only a few twinges, levels are still high and the weird food cravings have begun! Started to really crave creamy and cheesey food, which I usually hate, but I'm just going with what my baby/ies is/are requesting

I'm finally getting the nerve up to post on the 1st trimester thread, all this still doesn't feel real and didn't want to tempt fate but now I'm going to go for it! I'm now in my 6th week and am starting to feel a little stronger, although I think I'm still holding back emotionally just in case I don't make it to the 12th week... touch wood.

I'll still be popping on here occassionally to keep an eye on how you're all doing though! I can't help but feel a bit of a fraud to get a BFP the first time round but you will ALL be following my footsteps soon! You're all so strong and I can't wait for BFPs to be popping up on this thread.

I'm sending so many positive vibes and twinkly baby dust everybody's way, you'll all be choking on the thick air . Thank you all SOOO much for everything you've done for me, and all the love and support you've shown, I would not be as calm and collected as I am now without you all!

Feeling quite tearful now, must be all those hormones

Best of luck to you all (not that you need it)

Love,
LucyBucy

[CarolynB]

Laura - your dh sounds terrific. Work sounds like it is going to be pretty tough for you with lots of pregnant ladies around. We are here if you need to rant. You'll need to take it a day at a time. I have a friend who is at my work and we have been talking confidentially about ivf. She had a couple of -ves and then last time got a +ve but then sadly miscarried. Of course she was absoluetly devastated at the time but is now really trying to see it as a very stong signal that she is able to get pregnant. We may be cycle buddies again in August if my AF ever shows up for me

Sarah - hoping that you are doing ok - big hugs

Hope & Jackie - I will be thinking of you both over the weekend and look forward to seeing good news when I get back

Em - hope that you are coping alright with the start of tmt

Dania - hope that you have a good follow up session - almost here now - hope that he will have good answers to all your questions

Vessi - Hope that you & the twins are all doing well

No signs at all of AF for me. Have some quite weird pains in my left side - nothing like I usually get before AF. Also feel really very weepy/emotional today. Not sure why? Guess it could just be that it is a month already since by BFN. Don't feel down at all as we have holiday from tomorrow - world cup starts - it is lovely and sunny in London - we had a great evening out with some friends last night (no ivf talk as they do not know) and they have invited us to their daughters wedding at the end of July - plus my dh and I just got invited to Wimbledon too. Life sounds pretty good to me yet perplexingly I keep bursting into tears today. Had 4th session of acupuncture yesterday - he said that it could alter the way that my AF arrives or it could be the meds will mean that it is late. Just hope that it does not mess up timing for my lap which no doubt it will

I know - I shall wait til dh & I get to Antigua - I shall put on a white bikini (that is if I had one) and then sure that the wicked AF will show up Then I'll have to start taking the disgusting herbal remedy that my acu cutie has given me to flush out my system - I am not sure what customs will think as I travel with my remedies and all my vitamins

Anyway, need to finish sorting out the house and getting packed - otherwise dh will wonder what I have been going all day

Hope that the next week will bring lots of good news for you all. You will be in my thoughts - though not too much as need to see this as a real break from tmt

for now. YIPPEE - HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Baby dust to you all.
Carolyn xxxxx

[Sofia]

It's me back! Yes still alive. I've nipped out to a local internet cafe to catch up on everyones news. I'm so sorry Laura and anyone else greiving at this time. It is important to take time out for yourself and to know that how you feel (whatever that is) is normal.

As for me, as usual, I need advice! My last hcG shot was last Friday (a week ago today), and it was 5000 ml. So I caved this morning and did a HPT (First Response) which was positive. Now do you think the shot would be out of my body completely, or do you think that First Response is just very sensitive and is picking up the remains of the second 'trigger' shot? I feel like I've just made my 3/4 week wait even worse - not wanting to get my hopes up, but at the same time so fed up with all of this (I downregged for a month, and now instead of a 2 week wait, 3-4). If I do get a BFP, I have to say, that 5 embies is obviously the way to go (if you've got them to spare).

I'll keep you posted!

Sofia.

[jackoa21]

Carolyn
Have fun and be safe and we will miss you terribly

Sofia I have only heard of false negatives not false positives.. so I am thinking this is a great sign

Lucy
I am so glad you are with us.. I know I appreciate still having you around for your strengthg

HAPPY FRIDAY
love and hugs and baby dust

[CarolynB]

Hi Sofia

Good to hear from you - not sure whether I will be replying in time for you to see.

My clinic told me that you need to really leave at least 10 days to allow the shot out your system so you may have been a little early. However, because you had a high transfer, I guess that it is quite possible that you might have a multiple so high hsg early on.

I saw somebody else say though that what you might want to do is as follows - test now daily - if it goes -ve then it probably was the shot & then you'll know that it has cleared from your system. Don't be horrified if this happens. Carry on testing daily. If you then start seeing a line/positive then it is for real as you know for sure that the shot is out the system.

Hope that this helps. Have a wonderful time by the sea and hoping that you'll get the result that you deserve.

Love Carolyn xxxxx

[veronika]

Carolyn,
have a great vacation. Hope AF shows up in time to NOT mess up the lap! We'll miss you lots!

Laura,
I am glad you came back and that you and DH will be trying again. You know now that you can get pregnant. I do not know if this can make you feel any better, but I always imagine how seeing a positive HPT must change my irrational fears of never getting pregnangt. Big hugs.

Hope and Jackoa,
you're almost there! I'll be thinking of you and sending you the best of luck and baby dust.

Dania,
finally your follow-up appointment is coming up. Maybe, I thought yesterday, it's good to have all this time. The tearfulness goes away a bit but instead we are full of ideas how to improve the next cycle. Whenever I think about the clinic not wanting to put in three embryos because of risk for multiple pregnancies I laugh ironically and know I will insist on doing so next time.

Em,
I hope you're feeling better today. I know how hard it is to not have control in this whole "business". We are so used to being able to control our lives that, when it is all of a sudden not possible anymore (in something which is so essential for us), it makes us lose faith. I am sending you a big bundle of PMA!

Sofia,
I would do the same as Carolyn suggested. That way you will be able to follow how everything is developing. But still, this does look very promising

LucyBucy,
you go for the first trimester board You are such a lucky lady to be able to! I whish you a beautiful and happy pregnancy.


Have a great weekend everybody, I am hoping for lot's of GOOD NEWS. Love, Veronika

[vessi]

Sofia
it loos like you are pregger!!!!!!:):):):
My HCG trigger was 10000 units and was gone by the time I tested which was 10 days after it.
I am sure 5000 will clear up sooner.
Just buy more sticks and POAS every day. If the line does not get lighter, you are PG1 Do not expect it to get darker right away. ity takes up to 48h for the HCG levels to dooule. Even doubled, sometimes they dont darken the line. Mine got darker after 3 days.
I woder how many are in there:):):)
Hello to everybody else!!

Vessi

[CarolynB]

Lucy

Good for you. We will miss you be around but move across to the 1st term thread. Way to go girl.

Thanks for all your support & all the info on ARGC. Good luck for the next 7/8 months.

We will all be seriously hoping to follow in your footsteps. The weird thing is that the more BFPs that we get on the thread, the better news and the fewer of us who will be left hanging around.

Very best of luck sweetie.
Carolyn xxxx

[DaniaBB]

Em-IT is good that you do express yourself and rant to us about your feelings when you’re having a bad day. We’re all here to help each other out during this « rollercoaster » ride. We all understand each other what it feels like on those meds! Not easy! So go on and let the bubble burst when you need to!You’ll feel better and then you’ll be able to enjoy your dh’s promotion.Just give yourself the time to feel your sad/mad emotions and the happy ones will resurface.The support group sounds like its is helpful sharing together in person, but its good to hear the happy stories as well cuz I know I would be freaked out if it was sad to hang out with these couples..I agree I don’t feel I would be able to do 6 yrs of IVF. Try not to let their stories get you down- I’m am certain there are plenty of wonderful happy stories. You’re strong, you’ll get through all this!

Carolyn- I can so relate to what you were saying about not being able to see a new born. Its perfectly normal- Dr. Domar talks about it in her book- even someone who has a child and is going through secondary infertility feels similar feelings of sadness and fear that a new born creates. Its OK if you want to avoid it for now. Some websites say that if you think of the unconditional love a baby gives to you that may help you deal with your pain and be able to hold one in your arms without crying. I researched this stuff cuz I was going throught he same feelings not long ago- I have yet to try it though. Hope you have a wonderful vacation and try to get your mind off all of this!!!!I know easier said than done- but with your toes wiggling in the sand and your DH by your side it should help!! ENJOY BEACH GIRL!!!!

Hope and Jackie- sending you tons of baby dust for tomorrow!!!! BFP-BFP!!!!

Laura- I’m happy you are back on the board and that you’ll be doing IVF again. It took me three full days from the injection before I got my period.. My butt stayed sore for a week after too. I find it takes a while before all the meds are out of your body- I got moood swings also and felt tired. But now I’m starting to feel like myself again so it a good thing. So hang in there and it does get better, so take the time to feel and heal your emotions. Hugs to you!

Lucy- We’ll miss you, but it’s great that you are going on the 1st trim.. I’m sure that they understand your concerns about the twinges but come back to visit us we’d love to hear from you and how you are doing.God bless and take care! See you later hugs to you!

Sofia-I agree with the others- you should check the HPT every day. I think its your best option. Keeping my fingers crossed for you!

Veronika- Its interesting you said that because I was thinking the same thing- it does give us time to deal with the sadness and get our feelings in order before going for the appointment.I agree with you- this time I am going to insist on three-I’d rather take a chance!

I went to my acupuncture at a new clinic today. I really liked the Acupuncurist she was very warm and friendly- she says she can help with the next cycle- so I’m feeling hopeful this will help us. Just drank the herbs she gave me- not too tasty but passable- if they work then its all worth it. She said I should talk about baby aspirin with my Dr. since I have a high hemoglobin- I found that interesting. I told her I had a very heavy period after the IVF and my lung incident and she think it may have been a chemical pregnancy- now I'm cuirous to see what the Dr. has to say about all that on monday. She also said that she wants to see my DH - not sure he's willing to go back- he was a little freaked out when he went to 3 acu treatments in Feb. Hopefully I can talkhim into it- but I won't force him.

Have good weekend everyone- hugs and babydust to all!

Dania XXX

[hope4l]

WOW BFP!!!!!!!! FOR ME

HCG seems to have caught up 260 so thats great

it was a long wait today, my cellphone went dead and didnt get home until after the clinic had closed so was resigning to the fact i would have to wait until tomorrow for the results but they rang anyway so that was real nice of them

hasnt sunk in yet really

hope to hear some good news from Jackie

Hang in there everyone if it can happen twice for me, with both DH and myself with fertility problems than it can happen for you, we have had to go for the most extensive treatments, miracles do happen

Hope

[vessi]

Hope!!!!!!!!!!
That is awsome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Congratulations!!!
The HCG number is great!!!! Might be 1, might be 2:):) Come, time for another set of twins here:)
Jackie, I hope you also come with BFP!!!!

.....................
As for me, the 48h countdown has begun. I am going to songram on Monday. i hope baby B has grown and has hearbeat!!

Vessi

[DaniaBB]

Congrats HOPE!!!Your HCG is at a great level.You must be so excited.I'm really happy for you after all you have been through it must surely feel like a miracle.

Vessi- Keeping fingers crossed for beanie B!

Jackie-Keeping fingers crossed for you and sending you babydust!

Have a good Saturday everyone!

Dania

[jackoa21]

Hope
That is great news.. I am so glad to here that everything went well.. It must have been so hard waiting this whole time but it was worth it. Enjoy it sweety and enjoy a healthy 9 months

Vessi
I can not imagine how scarry this is but I am sure baby B will have caught up nicely to baby a. You will get to see BOTH hb on Monday

ok so I am loosing it now.. I think I am cramping more and I think my bbs hurt less but I cant say for sure.. UGG one more day

love and hugs and baby dust
love Jackie (and little fighter embie)