Well another hot and sticky day in the desert and, I have to be honest with you, I am feeling crappy....
Well AF turned up (which is good...sigh of relief!)....but one day too late...and so still can't make the July FET cycle with my doc... oh well, I am not a happy bunny at the moment. DH comes home tomorrow morning for 2 days...thank goodness, because I have only seen him one night in 2 weeks so I am getting a bit fed up

I feel crappy and want to share it with him...poor thing, no wonder he never comes home
Decided to get busy today as busyness enables me to forget about my crappy/tearful/emotional mindset...
Well not so fast... I completed all of my boring chores (I am afterall a professional housewife...honest to God that is what is written on my visa here...a far cry from my previous career path in Geneva!) and decided to go to the mall to purchase some insecticide (my poor balcony plants have whiteflies!). In Dubai, going to the shopping mall is basically one of the only activities here in the summer so you can imagine the hords....
It's the weirdest thing...I have never felt SO alone surrounded by so many bodies... I felt like I was suffocating, particularly as there were babies everywhere...all different shapes, sizes, colours... but a baby epidemic none the less! ARGH! It's the first time that I am actually thinking, "what if we never have kids?"....how am I going to cope.. how can I switch off all that longing, those emotions... how can I avoid becoming a bitter and cynical person....I think I will undertake a labotomy if infertility means no kids...
End of vent
Walshy... great to have you back.... yes, I will definitely be cycling with you in August (although there are no absolutes in life!). Way to go with the acupuncture....I think I will try that in November if FET fails. Quick question: have the docs given you any idea when your AF is supposed to turn up or are you simply waiting? I will definitely chat with you about Grey's.... it's wonderful...yummy, yummy, yummy...I have got my mother hooked on it too

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Okay ... love to all my Octopals....off to try and save plants from plague of whiteflies...argh... I have to wipe every leaf of every plant... pff you would think they would have come up with a more efficient technology for pesticides in this era!!!

At least it gives me something to do
Hugs,
Little R