September Hope's and Dream's

AuntyPebbles · Post by **AuntyPebbles** » Fri Jul 07, 2006 10:51 pm

Lauralou welcome to the thread it looks like we are going to have many of us and tons of BFP's for september....

Our Group So Far.....

Jackie ........Start date tbp

Lisamaire ..Start date tbp

Souris .......Start date tbp

Niffie .........Start date tbp

Aunty ........Start date tbp

LauraLou...Start date tbp

jackoa21 · Post by **jackoa21** » Sat Jul 08, 2006 2:24 pm

Hello laides

Laura I am with you I would probably try anything at this point.. Well not anything but maybe close...

Ok so how are we going to stay sane.. I was thinking this morning if we are all early to mid september that is still really far away.. I am glad I have you laides because maybe we can all try some new health kicks like one a week..
By our next cycle we will all be so healthy.. like for example maybe no pop/coke/pepsi one week and no choclate another week.. Now you all may just be really healthy and already on this tract but not me...

thoughts????

love and hugs

AuntyPebbles · Post by **AuntyPebbles** » Sat Jul 08, 2006 3:45 pm

Jackie thats a great idea,
as for me the pop (soda)thing will be easy i dont drink it anyway, i cut out coffee last cycle so im cheating there too my bad thing is my diet slipped in a big way during my sulk so i need to drop 40 lbs before end of august, i would welcome any healthy options anyone has...

i have taken to drinking 8x8 floz of water a day... theres my contribution...ooo yeah confession i started smoking again too not like i was but ive had a few so i have to quit that again now...

my hubby has mentiond acupuncture any advice on that?

love and hugs Debz

souris · Post by **souris** » Sat Jul 08, 2006 4:06 pm

Lauralou welcome!

Hey Jackie, I always had problems with my weight, always been on the chubby side. No matter what I do I cannot loose weight, I guess i will never be skinny!
I dont drink sodas, my fav drink is water. No coffee, no alcohol. I wanted to loose a bit of weight before my next cycle, because I put on weight with the meds, but i just cant so I have decided not to stressed out about it... Summer in France means loads of fruit and veg, which I love!

Oh Auntie! my only vice was ciggies... I stop before each of my cycles but evertime I get a BFN I start again... not as much though

So I am like you, we have to stop again!!

I really would like to try accu, but there are no IVF specialist around where I live. For the stress, i rather do a bit of meditation.

Jackie September is NOT far away!! I have been waiting 9 frigging month for the cycle!! And the previous one as well! So only 2 cycle in 1&half year... I have to be patient!
But this is why I have decided to stay in France until the end of the year. If I go back to Angola and get a BFN, I wont be able to afford the ticket back home for a new cycle. So I rather stay in France and see..

Ok guys, hope you are having a fab week end. Tomorrow is the final, no need to say I am for France!!

Take care ladies
xxx
souris

jackoa21 · Post by **jackoa21** » Sun Jul 09, 2006 12:24 pm

Hello ladies
Well I think we really will be able to help eachother.. You are both doing the healthy eating and drinking tons of water (I really need to work on that one) and I quit smoking right before my last et.. I was close to a pack a day and I have not had one since May 24th. I think it is because I got the postive but even during that second week (when I knew it was going to end I did not light back up) trust me ladies I will never be one of those "reformed ex smokers" if you told me today that I could be healthy and go through this whole process and smoke I would do it in a heartbeat but my thoughts were this.. The IVF ttc thing is so hard on us mentally and physically I cant throw in withdraw too..That is just me because honestly DH almost lost his life a couple times when I quit.. I started with the gum but I dont even use that anymore.. I have smoked for 16 years and this is the first time (ever) that I have quit.. So I will try to help you ladies with that (by providing support) and you guys can help me with the drinking water thing.. Deal

Aunty I know people who used acc to quit smoking.. I started acc but more to help with stress and healthy body etc..

Souris you are right our time is not that far off and you have shown remarkable patience.. Maybe you can help me with building some of that too.. I am very very impatient..

love and hugs
Jackie

jackoa21 · Post by **jackoa21** » Sun Jul 09, 2006 6:58 pm

Hello my friends...So I have read a lot of these post and it seems one crazy lady is the overly emotional one ( I think that will have to be me)

DH had to work today (they called all last night and as he is the boss he had to go in) it is a beautiful sunny Michigan day (that is an oxymoran itself) but none the less he has been gone so I decided why not get some sun,excerise,and help DH and cut the grass.. Well I cried the whole time.. The last time I did cut the grass DH was out of town. This was the week of my stimming (late may) I told him this will be the last time as I will be a mom......well not only did that not work out but as I was crying and cutting the grass (not a safe combination) I ran over a small little frog.. than I cried harder I cant even mow the lawn without something going wrong.. What a day.. The grass looks like a drunking sailor cut it...

I came in side had a cold beer (no smoking so beer is my current vice) and sat down to watch the food network.. Ok I am a little obsessed with cooking you would think that I think I am martha stewart..

Poor DH has to deal with me being the crazy scientist in the kitchen he will like something and ask for it again but I have no idea how I made it the first time.. I just put in whatever looks good...

Ok so enough of this I just needed to rant.. So I call it I get to be the crazy irrational one of the group

or I can share that title if any of you like.. I am willling to share

love and hugs...
Jackie

AuntyPebbles · Post by **AuntyPebbles** » Sun Jul 09, 2006 10:08 pm

Oh no Jackie you cant have that title all to yourself, your going to have to share at least with me not sure about the other ladys,

but yep im a bit of a reck sometimes, it's hard isnt it when things that we didnt notice before can have a whole new meaning, i did things like clean and wax my car before ET last cycle thinking well i wont be able to do this for a few months soon ...

your not ranting your sharing in the best place possible we know exactly where your coming from too

lots of love Debz

jackoa21 · Post by **jackoa21** » Sun Jul 09, 2006 10:43 pm

Aunty thank you so much.. I feel much better..
I will be happy to share the title with you and any other lovely ladies that would like it also..
It is funny how the smallest things can set us off....
we will all be here for one another..

And Some day we will be able to look back on these moments in life and laugh

I truly belive in my heart we will all be holding little bundles I just think our trip to them is a little longer than most

love and hugs
Jackie

AuntyPebbles · Post by **AuntyPebbles** » Mon Jul 10, 2006 12:13 am

aw jackie thats great your feeling better,

i am emotionaly ok right now hyping up the PMA we are all going to need

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thing is today im really swollen just like i had with the hypo stim im a bit worried i will wait and see what tomorrow brings.. maybe its because i didnt have a full AF after my neg ooo i hope my body doesnt freak out

ive always been so regular a straight 26-28 days 4 day AF no pain slight head spinning tendancys

well i say slight hubby may disagree

LauraLou · Post by **LauraLou** » Mon Jul 10, 2006 12:28 am

Not a happy day here in Texas. My cycle is usually 29-30 days. Today is day 31, so of course I run out and buy a HPT, even though I know I'm not pregnant as I have absolutely no symptoms. But I can't help but get excited and think maybe this month we'll beat the odds and conceive naturally. Well of course the test was negative, I'm sure AF will arrive tomorrow.

Why do I do this to myself? I get my hopes up and then get disappointed every month. I've been doing this for years and it really takes an emotional toll. I know the only way I am going to conceive is through IVF, so why do I still torture myself this way?

Sorry for being such a big blob of negative energy. Promise I will be more upbeat next time I post. Thanks for listening to me feel sorry for myself.

AuntyPebbles · Post by **AuntyPebbles** » Mon Jul 10, 2006 1:06 am

Hey LauraLou,
Dont beat yourself up so much we are here for the good and bad times and for the next few weeks we are allowed some down time.
im sorry your test was negative but im the same i have i think more chance of winning the lotto than conceiving naturaly but if im ever late i get my hopes up too i think part of us needs to keep trying (the old fashiond way) because you just never know ......we can dream we are allowed
please dont feel you cant post if your down thats when you need us the most.... we are here for you as much as we can be.. know we are thinking of you ...sending big hugs your way

love and hugs Debz

jackoa21 · Post by **jackoa21** » Mon Jul 10, 2006 3:04 am

Laura ( I posted this on April/May but I was not sure where you would read this first)

You are not feeling sorry for yourself you are just hopeful
I am the last person to take my own advice but I am happy to give it out.. You have been through so much and you are an amazing and strong woman.. Don't beat yourself up because you have hopes.. That is what gets us through.. I am like you and when I started reading your post I crossed everthing that you were going to say you got a BFP... Here is the thing though you will get that BFP.. I truly belive in my heart that you will.. I dont understand why we have to go through this but I thank God every day we all have one another...

Aunty
I dont want to sound dramatic but please make sure you keep an eye on how you are feeling.. I am never normal so for me a little bloating off cycle would be normal but it sounds like you are pretty regular..
This OHSS thing is serious so please make sure you tell the doc if it continues..
Please also tell your sweet DH that he make think the headspinning is just you being overly in love with him but he needs to take care of you right now..

p.s I told my DH about the grass cutting frog situation from earlier I really think he wanted to laugh but he saw my tears and held back and just said he was sorry for what happend.. SMART MAN HE IS

love and hugs
Jackie
_________________
me 32 DH 32
ttc from 03/05 dx with PCOS
3 rounds of clomid (o'd but no success)
2 IUI negative
3rd and 4th IUI March 7th and 8th
1st ivf 06/06 + lost at 5 weeks

LISA@BELLASALES · Post by **LISA@BELLASALES** » Mon Jul 10, 2006 3:24 am

Hello ladies,

Souris- of course I remember you. It has been a while. I had to take a break though. Way too emotional the 2nd time and I needed to fix my mental health before anything else. I am glad to see you are here. Alot of the girls who cycled with us have had great success so hopefully it will be our time.

I am shooting for the 3rd week of September to go back. I still have 1 frozen left but I am doing a whole new cycle... The PCOS is a drag. I have been reading alot about it and apparently the insulin has a negative effect on the quality of embryos so I am doing all I can to get that number down. Hopefully this will be it.
I am really trying to stick to the no sugar thing I am on Metformin now and that has really been helping me. My last test was in the normal range so I guess it is working. We are going away this month so when I come back I have 6 weeks till I start again. We are not telling anyone this time around, too much pressure. My mother was so sure last time it was going to work that I think it was more a a heartbreak for her than me. She feels for me and being a mom, it is part of her duty as she says to worry for me. I guess we will learn that someday.
We had a huge block party yesyerday, 70 people at our house, and my girlfriend came with her twins , Who are by the way a result of IVF, they are beautiful healthy 2 year olds, they are my inspiration. She tried for years and it finally happened so we all have o keep faith and pray for our turn.
loads and loads of baby dust to all.....
Buonanotte....
Lisamarie

jackoa21 · Post by **jackoa21** » Mon Jul 10, 2006 12:44 pm

Lisamarie
I have PCOS and I have also heard that it can really effect quality etc.. I have been on metformin for about a year.. I have heard great things about it and success. What else have you been doing (low sugar) just staying away from it??
I am like you with not telling many people this round.. The last time was so hard..
My mom is also like yours. I think this last round was harder for her and my dad (we did get a positve but than sadly we lost it) I was and have been devestated but I think they have the pain for me and DH but also the pain of wanting to be grandparents... They try so hard to just be positive....

I think for me I will be starting (hopefully) around 2nd or 3rd week of September.. I am just trying to be as healty as possible and doing accupuncture while I wait..

HAPPY MONDAY TO ALL

love and hugs to all

LISA@BELLASALES · Post by **LISA@BELLASALES** » Mon Jul 10, 2006 3:03 pm

Hello,

I am staying away from sugar and exercising. I lost 42 LBS. I went for the test back in june and was back in normal range. I am hoping it stays that way.
I am actually testing on friday again to see how it is. I just called the clinic and they said it was okay to come in just for the test.
sounds like we will be cycling at the same time. I am doing the entire procedure over even though i have a frozen left. My insulin was 17 when I made those eggs and none of them implanted.
I actually had 41 eggs, 30 fertilized and only 6 were viable. I could not believe I had all those eggs and only 6 were good.
praying everyday.....

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