Carolyn, argh, the HPT

Still, dear, you don't yet know, and should it really be a -ve you are warned ahead in time. This hoping game is just so evil. But you're so right, it was the very first time - and you can take every month until the potential start of the next IVF as a "free chance" and gift. After the surgery I had this thought: everything is different now, it could really just happen now... In any case, it's only so horribly dissappointing for the first days. After that you can start looking forward to the next cycle again. I am thinking of you and feeling with you. We all are.
Wow, Em. You're really good with your body. I never got to the level of knowing when I ovulated. I did do the whole temperature curving, but I still felt insecure when exactly ovulation took place. I think I know better sine I did the IVF, because what I felt was so exaggerated that now I suppose those little twinges probably mean the same thing.
I am so much looking forward to tomorrow's accu session. This one is five days after ovulation - meaning that it is supposed to improve implantation. Whether or not it does, it makes me happy to just be actively doing something again. I am still trying to figure out exactly what could be my bodies "imbalances".
My accupuncture lady gave me a book about traditional chinese medicine and infertility. As it is the first one I am reading I cannot say whether it is such a great read or not, it's complicated enough.. What I like about it is that - once you understand the whole concept of thinking - you can find out so much about your own body if you watch it carefully. The author is trained in both eastern and western medicine and I think she really tries to put the two approaches together. Here is the title, should you be interested: The Infertility Cure (Randine Lewis).
Laura, I would really try and push the doctor to put back more than two embryos as well. It should just be the woman's decision and it makes me mad to think that they would not let me do it last time because of the high risk of multiple pregnancies (although it meant that my last high quality embryo was just wasted, because they didn't freeze only one...) When I talked to my doctor during the review appointment I insisted on three embryos for the next cycle and it was possible to convince him. Maybe they are less strict here in Canada, though.
Hope AF will come soon

or else doen's come for the best resaon.
Sending you all my hugs and hoping you're having a good tuesday,
Veronika