Welshgirl38 wrote:She's not gonna get to find out:
Sadley my AF arrived this morning, i feel like my heart has stopped - its funny isnt it how the world just carries n as normal, people doing the same things as they did yesterday and the day b4, i dont think i will ever be the same again.
I dont know how im supposto feel - i dont think im angry - im sad that my two wee ones never got the chance to say 'hello' they were loved so much already .....
Welshgirl38, I'm so sorry....
Are they going to test you anyway to make sure? I heard some people still get periods in the begining of pregnancy.
ME: 30 DH: 47
TTC: 3 YEARS
MALE FACTOR
2 IUI FAILED
FIRST IVF(ICSI):
1. Cancelled - Cyst
2. BFP!!!
It is really really rough at the start but I promise that the pain does ease a little as the days go by. Then something it just hits you..........and it comes back again.
At the beginning you do feel all over the place because of all the emotions but also because of all the weird drugs that are inside you. After the drugs wore off, I started to feel a little better.
We all feel different when it happens. It is ok to feel - sad, angry, jealous, disappointed, whatever. I remember that I felt a bit of it all. Just go with how you feel and be nice to yourself and give yourself some treats.
Mostly I also felt just so sad for my dh. He was so upset but tried to be so strong for me.
The day after my AF arrived, he bought me 4 tickets for me and my friends to go to see Robbie Williams. We are going tomorrow. It was his way of saying that you will be able to look forward again and be happy again too. I so wanted to see him and never have. It was the sweetest thing that he could have done for me.
I also determined that I would do everything I could possibly do to get in better shape for attempt 2. I stopped drinking. I cut out all the coffee and tea. Went onto 2litres of water everyday. Organic food. Loads of fish and chicken. I started acu. I started vitamins. I lost some weight.
It just helped me to feel that I was doing something constructive to give it a better chance the next time around.
I hope that this helps you a little We are all here for you.
Thinking of you & sending you big hugs.
Love Carolyn xx
AWWWW, Welshgirl,im so sorry for you (((((((hugs)))))),when my first ivf failed i took my dog for a walk,went into a field (we live in small country village)and just SCREAMED,id cried hard for hours and i felt it wasnt helping i had so much rage inside me,and thinking WHY,so i screamed and screamed,the cows were slighly startled!! Just do what makes you feel better,and i will tell you it does get easier,just deal with it hour to hour to start,then day to day..I wish i could take your pain away,because i know what your going thru..
Thanks everyone for your kinds words and support - we dont know yet if we can go thru this again, but we are taking time out and going away next weekend. We just want a bit of 'us' time before we start thinking about it again.
Thank again
Becky Xxx
1 IVF=BFN 2 IVF=BFN 3 IVF=BFP m/c @ 8 wks 4 IVF=BFN
We must now let go of the life we had planned, to live the life waiting for us..
m/c @ 8 wks 
4 IVF=BFN