BFN - Scarlet Letter

[luvbabies]

Had my pg test today BFN... Y-nobody has an answer...Y Y Y ???
Dr. said "we may never know, but we will try to figure it out"

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3yrs ttc when when when is it my time my turn am I to be only an "aunt"?
We have a consult w/the Dr. next week - scared confused
Is it selfish if I don't want to grasp the option of adopting.
Is it wrong to want to feel the child grow in me, be part of me. I want to see what this "miracle" would look like feel like-
my eyes DH mouth or my curly hair am I freaking out!!! Will my mom live to see a grandchild from me (she's in her late 50's good health) but I get anxiety attacks just thinking it for whatever reason, like time is running out. Not only do I have my own clock ticking but I feel like I have my mother's too.
I feel like a scarlet letter BFN tattooed on my forehead for all to see

[Jackie A.]

Hi Luvbabies:

I just read your post and I am so so sorry about your BFN. I know exaclty how you feel. I am so tired of being just an AUNT (even though I love all my 17 nieces and nephews) I have actually been an aunt since I was 1 year old.

I have had 3 natural pregnancies and m/c. one IUI and BFN and did IVF last July and again BFN. I have done all the tests and both me and DH are ok. I guess I can get pregnant but I m/c. I guess m/c has to do with my age.

I am usually pretty positive and strong but today has been difficult since its my birthday (turned 42) and I kind of feel down.

Tomorrow will be a new day and I'll probably feel better. I know its hard but please try to stay strong. I always say good things happen to those who wait. I am sure there is a good reason for all this.

Anyway just wanted to say you are not alone. If you need to talk I am here for you. Please smile and try to fell better. It will happen when is the right time.

[Luchia]

Luvbabies I'm so sorry!

((BigHugs))

There IS a baby out there waiting for all the love you have to give.

Trust this! Stay stronge!

~Lisa

[ampmed1]

Luvbabies, I am so sorry to hear that the transfer was unsuccessful. I am frightened of the same outcome. A part of you feels like it will never happen. When will it be our turn to go through this wonderful experience that EVERYONE is talking about and experiencing. Your mind just wanders. I truly believe that it will happen when it is suppossed to. My transfer is in 2 weeks. Hang in there and hope to hear from you soon.

[asante]

I am so sorry luvbabies. I know exaclty how you feel.. Please do not give up hope you know. I know one day it will be our turn.. Just keep praying. Adoption is a good thing too...