Alicia - I'm sooooo excited for you and sending every ounce of positive energy your way during your ER this morning! I hope you have some really wonderful, healthy eggs/embies very soon!
It seems like time has gone so quickly and we're all back in our next cycles. One minute, it seems like forever and before you know it, the time has come to start again.
So, Lola, I see you're starting stims on 10/20. Great news! Hope you're doing well with the down-regging. I guess that's still a pretty easy part of the process, but I'm glad you're able to proceed ahead!
Wannababy - Great to see you back again. I think your feelings are so natural. On the one hand, we all are excited to keep trying and hoping this one will be the successful one, but on the other hand, the possibility it might not work still lurks in the back of our minds. I guess we just have to keep trying to visualize the positives.
I found a neat site that actually will give you a free guided imagery download for fertiliity. It's at
www.anjionline.com. You download the .mp3 for free once you register. I'm going to give it a whirl.
Myhb - Thanks for the good wishes. I did have a relaxing weekend with the girls and it was good to just get my mind off of everything and focus on something completely different. How are you feeling? When do you go for your first scan?
As for me, AF officially arrived (finally
)...on Sunday. So, that means we can start another cycle. I'd start the BCPs on Wednesday and stims in November. The ER/ET would be the week of Thanksgiving, though. My nurse said she talked with the RE and he is fine with it - he says he can avoid ET on the actual Thanksgiving holiday - it would probably be the day before or after. But it means we wouldn't be able to travel up to Northern CA to be with family. And...therefore, it also means telling everyone why we're not coming. We had considered not telling anyone this time, just because of the added stress of everyone else. Also, I was wondering 'what if' the best day for transfer was Thanksgiving day, but they transfer early/late just to avoid the holiday? Have we paid all the $$$ and taken all the drugs for nothing?
So, as you can see, we are debating. Either way, I have until Wednesday to decide.
Hugs to all and best wishes in this next cycle!
xoxoxo -
- Suzhan
My ER is scheduled for Tuesday morning. Keep your fingers crossed and hopefully all goes well.
I want to thank all of you again for the support. I would have lost my mind and my faith long ago if it wasn't for all your supportive words. You truly don't know how much you have all helped me become stronger through this process.
I am heart broken that out of 7 follies we only got 2. I wish I had everyones strength but I feel emotionally drained at this point. The chances of them surviving til the transfer are probably slim to none, so as much as I would like to be positive, I also must be realistic. As hard as you all try to bring me up, life keeps pulling me back down. 
Suzhan is right, please don't lose your hope yet. Maybe those 2 are really strong and that's why you only had two. You never know. I will be praying for you as well! I was thinking of you today. I know you must be feeling so sad, but please take a good care of yourself as it is the most important thing now. You have to get your body ready for the ET. I wish I could be with you now to support you and help you go through this... Love Lola