Oct 05 Cycle Buddies

[Inhale, Exhale]

Hey fancy ladies!

Where to, eh? I know not everyone was away for holiday yesterday due to Columbus Day like I was... unless others have taken to celebratin this US holiday...not likely.

Yep, a long weekend is now over.. oh how quickly happiness comes to an end. But no fretting for me, we have Veterans Day in a month, then on to Thanksgiving (Turkey Day)... yep, I luv those holidays! any day off work is a good day if you ask me. Still haven't masterminded that whole "no work and get paid" plan. hmmm.... to make matters more boring, I am in the office all week, no playtime fieldtrips and my partner in crime at work is out all week... snoozing and loosing.

In other 'that stinks" news.. one of my best gals just informed me that hubby was offered a great job in London and that they are probably going to move there! Actually Loolers.. I told her how wonderful you are and she has decided she must meet you and is going to move over there to be near you.... Actually what I told her is that she is nuts! She is an outdoor girl and isn't the weather over there always cold and rainy.. but she didnt budge.. hm, I am selfish monster! Crazy girl likes her friends to live on the same continent.. So, give me the goods Lola.. all the things that stink about where you live.. I don't want to hear that it is great...blah, blah, blah. It is my mission to keep her here! However.. it would make a vacation to London very cheap for me...

Jens- hi diggity! what the haps crazy hormone chic? Your life sounds a blur. Take time, put up feet, eat chocolate. Rest and repeat. ... doctors orders, of course I am not an actual doctor, but I play one on tv... or atleast in my fantasys about McSteamy. ... When is your scan? I have no date.. give up the goods! Went to yoga last night and stayed in pretzel position for extra time for you!!! Cheerin you from here! whoop, whoop!

Walshy- hi schmuffin.. we love you.. how are you doing?

Littles- hmm.. just back for a tease then leave again.. wham, bam, thank you ma'am....

one for the money
Steph

[lolajones]

Oi Oi lasses

Things are pretty quiet around these parts with Walsheroo away on healing trip with lovely DH and Littles on "study leave".
Could this be the start of the end for the oct05ers? NO!!!

Steph - London is excellent! She will have such a wonderful time here. Now, I have divided my list of whats fantastic about London into categories, Excellent, Really Good, Just Plain Cool, Marvellous and Phenomenal. I will pm you the list later, it runs into 10 pages.
So you're bored without your work play pal? More time to cruise the interwebonet for funky maternity clothes and 2nd hand breast pumps.

Jen yes. Give us some dates to hang our enthusiasm on to - when is your ?supressed scan? It must be now-ish right??? Well??? Tut tut. How're you feeling? I am dreading starting but also just want it to begin, y'know?
I start down regging on 30th Oct, 1st scan 14th November. All seems so far away. I know I'm more anxious about it this time, I'm having nightmares and can't sleep already - chill out man! Have acu again tonight. Man alive, it really changed my af this time.
I hope it works for us this time love. WE DESERVE IT!!!!

Walsheroo - hope you're ok and resting. Pop in when you're back.

Littles - still love you pretty girl. Come back when its better.

Right chumbas, I'm off back to work work work, boy do i love it.

Shake it ladies
Lola
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Jen- Deregging - ?Supressed scan 2 weeks
Walsher- time to heal...
Loolers - Start deregging 30th Ocotber
Littles - Brainiac mission
Steph- Octo Babe girl due date- 9th Jan
Camilla- Octo babe Annabel arrived on 9th Aug.

[Jen1d]

Hi buds
Well just a quick update as i am off to work in an hour. Have been running around mad as my sister in law is coming to visit on Friday for the weekend.
Had to shout, again, at a few deliver men yesterday, had more hassle with table i ordered and my flooring. After a few rants they did as i asked i'm good at kicking ass.
The guy then came to fit my heated towel rail and later that night water appeared in the living room ceiling. After an hour of panic and shouting it was all sorted.
Then the men came to lay the flooring yesterday and have hammered so hard i now have to get the painter back in the living room as a few joins are visable now. They have agreed to paint it again and will be paying.
Seems everything i have ordered or got delivered has been faulty.
Have announced to dh that after this weekend when the visiters go i am changing to chill mode. Whats the point in paying £3000 and being stressed-----new chilled jemla as of Mon

Steph - Sorry but London is the best, i miss it massively and would move back in a flash if i could persuade my dh to go back.
Thanks for your pretzel position but it sounds way to painful for me

Loops - Scan is on the 16th, next Mon although we are going to the hosp tomorrow for blood screening and to fill out all the consent forms again
Says me but trynot to worry too much, were here. I'm dreading the last week but its that or no baby, hang in there honey.

Did you see the HEllo mag this week. Take a peek at the interview with Sharon Davies the swimmer. She has been through loads of ivf after secondary inertility and is now pregnant at 42.
WE WILL GET THERE GIRLS

Love to Walshy and Littles

See you soon

Jen x

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Hi Sugars!

how do de do? yep.... very fascinating life yere... ho, hum, boring day in cubeland today. but have managed to accomplish real work, so I guess being bored is alteast productive!

Jen- hmmm.... the raging continues. If the end result is getting stuff done the way you want it in your house and work for free.. I say keep on with it! I think you will slide right into preggers hormones ragin with no problem-o... 16th for scan- got it! It helps to have pom-poms at the ready.. will do some warm up stretches before then.. get ready for high kicks and straddles. Your sister in law visiting seems like a lot of work.. so you are like me when i have a visitor coming.. everything must be perfect! in its place, arranged, organized, clean, beautiful.. drives hubby bonkers, but I know he secretly appreciates it.

Loolers- hey turtledove! I second that motion! You do deserve it! I am so glad you are starting again soon... this is it! don't fret,,,, yah right! I am very familiar with the nightmare thing. I had a dream last night over and over again that I went into pre-term labor and my doctor was one of my bosses here at work... definitely not a doctor!! nobody else was around except him and me and all I kept thinking was- I have to go back to work and my boss is going to know what my who-who looks like! I really hope I never have that dream again!! remembering it now makes me twitch...again I ask.. why do we have to dream.. why can't we just rest, brain and all! As far as that end of the group comment.. I will have to say "what you talkin bout Willis".. NO! it is not the end.. I have cheering to BFP's to do.. until then we will continue on!

Enough about the greatness of London! I said negative comments only!!!!! So, unless you have something bad to say, don't say anything at all. Don't make me pull a Jen-style hormone rant...

little more work time left then off for fun night of yoga and a haircut make me over.... Sinead O'Conner or Demi Moore in G.I.Jane anyone?

Shake-a-doo for Littles and Walsher.... hurry back to us!

Bump and grind
Steph


The List:
Jen- Deregging - Supressed scan October 16th
Walsher- time to heal...
Loolers - Start deregging 30th Ocotber
Littles - Brainiac mission
Steph- Octo Babe girl due date- 9th Jan
Camilla- Octo babe Annabel arrived on 9th Aug.

[Jen1d]

All quiet on the western front. Where are you all?

Well my update for the end of the week is that my bathroom flooring went down and yiippee they did it all great, no complaints and it looks fab. The painter has been and gone this morning and the ceiling is back to normal. Away to do the last hoover and food shop then the in- laws arrive about 2pm.

Went to the hospital yesterday to fill out all the forms and have my blood taken again for screening. This had to be done as i had acu the last time.
All was fine but i hate having to go into the ward. Everyone smiles politely but inside they are screaming "you are just like us, wonder if its her or him who is infertile". Also on the way to the ward we have to walk past the pre-natal ward and the maternity unit so all you can focus on is all the bumps passing you, its awful.

So scan on Monday then should find out when i start the dreaded injections---must get out and buy my mountain supply of Emla-- my best friend.

Loops - Did you read the thread Hydrosalpinx??. Really nice story from a girl who had both tuberoos removed and now has twins. Theres hope for us yet babe.

Ok, have a good weekend, will be busy so will probably catch up on Mon

Love Jen x

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Stinkies!!!!


well, had very stressful evening two nights ago. I felt babygirl move after breakfast and once after lunch, then not again all day. I went home, ate dinner and laid on my side (as book instructs to get babes moving), Nothing haps... so I called doc. he told me to come into hospital straight away and get on a monitor... actually, his exact words were "that is not normal, you need to get in here".... I was an absolute mess!! I lost it right there... IVFer who suffered one miscarriage and still doesn't fully believe that this is going to happen... lost it! I knew that this was it.. the other shoe had dropped... but, ladies... all is well that ends well. Babygirls heartbeat was perfection and she was moving around just fine... just not strong enough for me to feel... They gave me some full strength juice- sugar in a class- and she woke up and did a bellydance! I guess she was just sleepy. BUT... man oh man! I was one shookin banana! hooo-ey... sigh of relief! I cannot wait to give birth then I might actually believe that I am having a baby...

Jens- bathroom and paint.. score! now I am sure house is perfection for in-laws to crap up... that is the thing with company.. you clean like mad before they get there and then have to clean again when they leave.. Will be thinkin of you sunshine on Monday... Scan-a-dance!! woop, woop! A BFP cycle comin up... Lucks to yas... give us a post with happy-go-lucky news! spanky pants no longer an option.. have switched to a cheer mu-mu. But, have no fear.. I sent a pair of spankys over to Loolers.. her peachy bottom looks fab for the time being... atleast until she cycles and gets her bfp ticket to BellyWorld! Pretty soon we will all look like the the Krispy Kreme girls! Have fun this weekend! relax.... as much as one can around in-laws... har, har, har.

Lo-la-la-la... hey pookey! whats the word? must be too busy at work for posts.. or away on secret blue wig mission. Any fun weekend plans? I plan to pretend the outside world doesn't exist and hide at my house.. chocolate, books, television.. ahh.. a girls secret fantasy come true! I still have not received your list of all things crappy in London... this is an emergency!

Walshy- hi button! please check in with us soon.. I think of you often. Hugs to ya. let us know how you are.. remember anything you have to say, we want to hear.. even if it is life sucks.. we all know that, not such a secret... or if you want to check in and tell us that it is overcast where you are, that would be great too.... or that you are wearing red socks... or that you have decided to steal Demetrio from Lola and you can be found on a beach in hawaii with little raft and getting a sunscreen rub down... anything.. anything at all....

Littles- you too! miss yas.

Fiddle, dee, dees
Steph and Berta (aka her rather oversized *ss, that is now so big it needs its own name)

[Walshy]

Hello Ladies,

I missed you it is funny how Jen said before although we have never met it is like we are a family, not met under the best circumstances but all in all I am glad to have found you.

Well I am back from a week away at my parents house. My DH couldn't come with me as he had work and doesn't have any holidays built up as he just started with the company. He missed me alot and I come home to a clean house he even cleaned the oven god bless him.

Ms Jen - I hope that you don't have many more hurdles with your house stuff is there anything left to do.... Hope your having fun with the inlaws. Are you going to do accupuncture with this cycle? Good luck with your scan on Monday. With your injections do they come in a ready made trigger pens or do you have to mix them? Ours are trigger pens but I know that some places have to mix and draw them up.

Ms Steph - I am so gald that little Faith is doing Ok. I started to read your post and I was going no no no no this isn't happening and then the happy ending was good to read. I wonder if we ever stop worrying i suppose that is the joys of being a parent. We still haven't heard about what your going to do when you finish work and communicating with us. Are you counting down the weeks unitl your finished work.

Ms Lola only 2 weeks to go. I think you and Jen will be on the 2ww together... How are you finding the accupuncture I loved it but havn't been back since Af come. I really hope it works this time for you also you do deserve it we all do you , Jen, Littles and Me........

Hi littles and Camilla hope your doing OK.

Well I though that I was doing pretty well and then I went out with friends and DH drinking and it was all good until I got told a girl at work was pregnant so I sat thinking about that all night. Then when i got home I just started crying and it was more than a cry more like a howl for about 1/2 an hour and nothing my Dh said would stop me. I kept apologising for losing the baby and the usual stuff. It actually came as a shock that I was so upset because I actaully thought I was feeling much better but my subconscious had other ideas. So now I feel as though I am back to square one and that I actually didn't take any ttime off to recouperate. I go back to the Dr on Wednesday for a follow up and take it from there. How long did you guys wait until you started again. I kind of want to get on the band wagon straight away to finish the TTC rollercoaster but also i don't want to do this again. DH and I before we started IVF said we would do 3 full cycles and this will be our 3rd and then you have the what ifs... The clinic have said that my body is ready to start again as my body expelled everything itself it is just up to my emotional state.

Ok I think I have written enough of my novel...Talk to you lovely ladies later, Walshy.

P.S You guys should Pm your email addressess so I can send you a photo so you can put a name to the face.

[lolajones]

haloidus ladies of ber

Walsheroo - hang in there duchess! It takes time. as for when to do next cycle, it depends on how you feel, whether you have the emotional strength for another cycle at the moment. You just had a huge thing happen to you, it takes a while to gather the troops together for another sortie into ivf war on fertility. keep being good to yo bad self, girlfriend. Your dh - what a star! Our oven hasn't been cleaned since pre millenium I reckon. You two will be fine, I know it. You are still really young lovely and you will get the family you want and life will be perfect.

Steph - man! what a nightmare! When (not if mind you) I get pregnant, I'm going to wear a foetal heart monitor the entire time and move in to my nearest maternity ward for the last 6 months. I am going to be the most needy expectant mum they ever did see. So glad everything is ok, Faith just havin a bit of demetrio magi bubble time. Like the sound of your weekend - really wanted a quiet one but have been forced to socialise. I am in hibernation mode. BTW you still haven't expalined how youre going to keep in contact once Faith is born..... I hope you have formulated a plan of how you're going to let us know how birth went and how you're dong post birth???? Maybe you could SMS one of us? Anyway - I'll leave that to you missie.

Jemlar lar lar - scan tomorow that will show a pelvically quiet Jen ready for stimms... not long buddy until you'll have your beanos back and some to freeze for baby 2!!! If all goes to plan I'll be starting the 2ww just as you get your bfp!!! Woo Hooooooo!!! How are you feeling about this cycle? you ok?
Glad you are with me about the london situation. I have put off house hunting (yet again) I am a lazy beatch, dude. How was your weekend of in-lawness? I find having visitors really tiring.

Littles - hope youre ok my sweetbean - check in from time to time.

Cam???

well, start down reg in about 5 years or so it seems to me. Had the drugs delivered, I'm ready to go. I am a bit all over the place about this cycle - fear. If this doesn't work...... well, if this doesn't work I'll just have to do it again I guess. I'm already tired just thinking about it all. I need a psychogenic uplift. Jen you've had the right idea, I mean I know you've been thinking about it but you've so much else on, its a proper distraction for you and suddenly the last 2 weeks have flown by. Will find hobby, tout blinking suite.

Ok, I'm off my girls. I have to do this piece of research (another hoop to consultanthood) and have been trying to sort my initial proposal out by end of september (insert eye roll here) at this rate it'll be landing on their desks for Christmas - this years must read!

Take it easy
Lola

PS Walsher, I'll PM you my email. I finally got to see Littles! Que looker!

Jen- Deregging - Supressed scan October 16th
Walsher- time to heal...
Loolers - Start deregging 30th Ocotber, scan 14th Nov
Littles - Brainiac mission
Steph- Octo Babe girl due date- 9th Jan
Camilla- Octo babe Annabel arrived on 9th Aug.

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doin a little dance for the ladies......!

Hoo-RAH, Walshy is back! I missed you sweetbuns! it is so good to hear from you and to hear that you are healing as expected.. the ups and downs are crazy, but normal unfortunaltely. I thought I was doing great until I went into a friends shop and he announced his wife was pregnant and due the same time I was supposed to be due before the miscarriage.... I made it home alteast until I lost it.. sounds like you did too. It does get a little easier each time... keep on keepin... I think you are doing great! as far as the next cycle... I took one full cycle off then went right back at it. I felt I was ready and so did the doc, only you will know.. time for a Walshy gut check!

Looooollerrrrrs.... hey kitty! Don't think hubby didn't think the same thing you did.. he said he was going to pull a Tom Cruise and buy an ultrasound machine to keep at the house... yeah, he's exactly like Tom Cruise, except without all that money and the strong belief that aliens have taken over his body. My weekend plan was a winner, but of course never works out that way.. ran round and round all weekend... little butterfly steph... floating form here to there, no rest for the weary. Your work sounds so tiresome and so much like homework.... but I guess that is why you get the big bucks! mizzz consultant specialist! My, what a big brain you have..... You got your drugs... fab! I am so excited for your cycle.. all a jittery, this is it for you.. so says the crystal ball, magic eight ball and Rembaldi artifacts!

Jens- report in please! give us the great news of another cycle beginning!

As for me... no frets luvs. Hubby and I are thinking of breaking down and actually setting up our computer... if all else fails my parent have the net and live three miles away.. I will be checking in with my bunnies! I have to, I have to hear all about your expanding bellies!

Hey Littles!
Camilla- baby, baby, baby...

Will be checkin in for full status Jen report!

Shake, shake, shake
Steph

[Jen1d]

Am back

Well the in-laws have gone and i'm whacked. They were out the door and the whole house was cleaned. Just like my house in order and it was like a bomb for 2 days, should have walked around with my shades on so i couldn't see. Anyway we are now back to normal but it was great to see them.
So my table has been delivered, the flooring is down and the painter rapaired my ceiling. Everything is finished just the fence to build and the house looks fab but i'm exhausted and everyone keeps telling me i look it too . So its back to taking it easy and concentrating on my bfp

Walshy - So pleased to hear from you. Your emotions must be all over the place just now so try to take it easy. I thinks you should maybe have a month or two off this rollercoaster and then see how you feel but if your ready now then go for it. My doc recommends 2-3 AF's then zip on to the next cycle but if your strong enough and you feel its the right thing to do now then go with what makes you and your dh happy. We'll be here whatever month it is

Littles - Tried to email my photo but cant get the stupid thing to work. Will get my dh to take a look at it for me. So hows the studying going, what is it your doing again, did i miss that? My mum has just returned form Dubai yesterday and said its still roasting hot but she loved it.

Steph - You poor thing, what a nightmare and a panic for you to go through. I agree with Doc Loops, bang on a heart monitor and get to the nearest hospital now You take care honey.

Loops - Oh its so close for you now. We seem to be going through the same feelings at the moment. I'm terrified of the 2ww, well more the second week as everything seems to go wrong then. I even went to the loo today and got a flashback of the feelings you get when you worry everytime you sit on the loo or think about going, oh i'm dreading it but i've no other choice now my gorgeous fluid tuberoos are are gonner
So what part of London ar you looking for a house? We lived in Victoria, 10 mins from the tube. SW3, very cool eh but not as cool as Chelsea or Belgravia although i did work there so does that still make me cool?

Ok, so wont keep you in suspense any longer. We had the scan and a 5 mins panic at the same time. The nurse took a photo of my ovaries and then went to talk to the Doc. She came back saying everything was ok. In my right ovary i have 2 follies already but they are very small. I though they only grew when the injections started but the nurse assured me they can stick around the ovaries anytime and that as long as they are very small before stimming then all is fine thank goodness for that. How true it is that every cycle is different. At my last scans i always had clear ovaries but the nurse said it can be good as they may develop into nice big woppers for my EC ------------ or they might not.
Anyway we have now been given all the injections, which are now snuggled up in my fridge awaiting Friday night for their first guest appearance aarrhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
One of the good things so far this cycle is that everytime we have had to go into the acu unit we seems to be the youngest there by far, that always makes me feel better. So dont worry Loops you are not too old haha

Oh ye, my Zita book is packed and i cant find it. I know i have to eat healthy during the cycle but can you tell me whats best during the 2ww. Can you guys let me know what the esesential things are to eat and whats not, i cant remember them all and the library doesnt have the Zita book in. Thanks girls

Ok, its back to work tomorrow for me so will log in when i get home

Love Jen x

[Jen1d]

Oops forgot

Jen- Stimming starts - 20th Oct
Walsher- time to heal...
Loolers - Start deregging 30th Ocotber, scan 14th Nov
Littles - Brainiac mission
Steph- Octo Babe girl due date- 9th Jan
Camilla- Octo babe Annabel arrived on 9th Aug.

xxx

[Jen1d]

Wakey wakey girlies

I need my buds, where are you all

Will pop back later

Jen x

[little R]

My Octofriends....

I have been naughty and left you all to your own devices ... multos apologies...

It sounds like you are all respectively doing as well as expected...
special thoughts to you all...

Steph.... what a scare.... happy ending though for little Faith
Jen... you're in the middle of the BIG 3.... yipppee... up the duff you go..
Lola... soon to start from what I gather....

Last but not least...how are things for you my Walshy? Did your trip away help you?

Please know that I am often thinking of you all....wondering when we will ALL be happy...

Life's HECTIC... DH has new responsibilities and is not often around (which is actually helpful since I hardly have time to take care of myself !) and I am in full-blown study mode....
I never felt that working was this hard and I put in extremely long hours when I was working in Switzerland....
I guess after doing "nothing" for 3 years... the pain has to start somewhere
I am knuckling under though ..hopefully will be able to keep it up until Xmas.
It feels likes my brain and eyes are fried by the end of the day.
I spend hours in front of the machine.... it's given me a much needed goal and has kept me distracted from the ups and downs of infertility, but when AF comes and rears her ugly head, all the emotions come rushing back: I can't believe we still don't have a baby.... sigh.

AF is closing in on me soon... and so am feeling down...

Anyway... I wanted to send out some PMA... but I guess I have gone through my stock already

I am going back to Switzerland for 10days on Thursday... to check in on family and friends...mainly because I don't want to spend my 32nd Bday alone whilst DH is off working in Melbourne
Too depressing....another year without a baby can't face it alone...need my mummy
I'll be studying during the day...as all I need is an internet connection

WISHING you all the best.... I do read the posts quite regularly... but sometimes feel so empty and tired that I don't have the energy to post...sorry, I know it's lame...

MUCH MUCH love to you all,

Littles

[Jen1d]

Hi Littles

Great to hear from you. You sound so busy which is great as January will be here before you know it.

Just sent you a photo, it finally worked.

Catch up with you soon, let me know when you birthday is.

love Jen x

[Walshy]

Where has everyone been this week??? Only a few posts good for me though so I don't have to read as much.

Ms Jen 1 day to go before you start the stims. Are you ready my friend. I am ready to squeeze into my spanky pants to cheer you on. This has to be your turn. We need some happy things to happen around here. By the way you need to send me your email address so I can send you a photo.

Ms Steph thank god you have put a plan into place about you and your computer. I was starting to worry that you would not have a computer to be able to log on and cheer on the rest of us getting fat with a our baby bellies. I hope the photos i sent the other day wasn't too big. I have not worked out properly how to send them without making them big. I am still waiting for your photo. Same goes for you Ms Lola.

Ms Lola how are you doing? What do you mean you had the drugs delivered do you not go and pick them up? I know you said that we are only young but we have been doing this for 6 years already and I don't want to be one of those couples where it consumes your life and you look back and go we spent so much time on TTC that we forgot to live. If you know what I mean. And yes my DH is great cleaning my oven he knew I was going to come home and do it. He really is my rock and I wouldn't be able to carry on without him and I imagine all your Dh are the same they have to be going through this hell.

Ms Littles I hope you are enjoying your break away and it will be me and you in the new year my friend. We will be getting BFP together...Happy Birthday and make a great wish that you get what you want....

Went back to the Drs to have a follow up. He couldn't really tell me much as to why the embryo didn't keep sticking as he said my levels were going up the way that they should be. He said it wasn't a viable embryo there was something wrong with it so it was better it went out now then later on. We talked about starting now and I thought I would be ok but I am still very raw so we have decided to wait until January 2007. I am having not so good days so am immersing myself in work so that I can forget about it but also acknowledging it so that I don't have another repeat breakdown. I can not believe that it will be 2007 before I start again and that I have been trying since March 2001 so in March 2007 I will be trying for over 6 years into the 7th....Hopefully by then I will be up the duff....

A new list for us.....
Jen- Stimming starts - 20th Oct this will work
Walsher- Starting round 4 on January 2007 this will work
Loolers - Start deregging 30th Ocotber, scan 14th Nov this will work
Littles - Starting again January 2007 this will work
Steph- Octo Babe girl due date- 9th Jan
Camilla- Octo babe Annabel arrived on 9th Aug.

Take care lovely ladies who keep me sane......Walshy