Surviving the two week wait

jstrandlund · Post by **jstrandlund** » Tue Oct 24, 2006 10:19 pm

Hey bubble, okay so maybe we have more in common than just our ivf cycle. I rub and talk to my tummy all the time. I don't know why really other than I think that maybe they need a little extra encouragement in there. My hubby also pointed out that I always have a hand on my tummy. My subconcious must think that I can hold them in there or something. I will be stating the vivelle patches tomorrow so we'll see what side effects those bring on. I have been very lucky however that the progesterone shots have not bothered me at all. I give them to myself since my hubby with a needle sounds scary and other than the injection site aching I have no side effects. Oh and the food thing I can only eat small portions or I feel sick but I eat all the time. Weird huh.

Bubble · Post by **Bubble** » Tue Oct 24, 2006 10:27 pm

GOD its funny.. we are like instant messaging! Like you, for me also the PIO shots are not bad as I thot. I can hardly feel it. I use a lot of heat before and after the shots with lot of massaging from hubby. Dont know if I will start seeing all those bruising after all 70 shots ...

And hand s on the tummy part!

mine are always right on it. Only my hubby and myself know abt the procedure as i want to surprise everybody later. But I think If keep on touching my tummy and walking as if I dont want to hur t he floor , I guess everybody will know it before I know it

jstrandlund · Post by **jstrandlund** » Wed Oct 25, 2006 12:54 am

Walking like you don't want to hurt the floor is hysterical and so true.

We now tend to glide instead of walking, anything to keep those embies right where they belong.
We have told our friends and family about the IVF as they all have been great support during this infertility period in our life. We have been trying for about 4 1/2 years now. I even told my boss and a few of my co-workers so that I am now able to work when I feel healthy and stay home when I don't. My coworkers and boss cover my clients if I can not be there and they has reduced stress soooo much.
Well I am going to let my hubby have his computer time now so I will check in agian tomorrow.
Sweet dreams to all and sticky vibes, sticky vibes, sticky vibes!!

bekkie31 · Post by **bekkie31** » Wed Oct 25, 2006 9:20 am

I think the whole process turns us all into paranoid loonies!!! and we are ALL the same!!!

I have given up on analysing symptoms. Last year when I was pregnant (before I knew it was an ectopic ) I had all the symptoms of a normal early pregnancy and all the symptoms of a normal early pregnancy are just like those before a period - large, tender breasts, moodiness, hunger, cramping. We just will not know until the pregnancy test.

Now, over one and a half years later in the 2 week wait following IVF, I have the tender, large feeling breasts - infact so sore that if my hubbie touches them I end up saying something like "gooo away!!! stop, it huts!!! ". They are not feeling so tender today though (which just like you guys leads me to think the worst ). Yesterday I had slight mild cramping and could not stop eating!!! Today I am not feeling so hungry. It just varies from day to day.

The pitfalls of the two week wait!!!!! Bekki xxxxx (just thought I´d try to make you feel better

) !!!

Bubble · Post by **Bubble** » Wed Oct 25, 2006 8:28 pm

You are defeinitely making me feel better bekkie! Its good to know that its just not me who feel the same way. Its been 6 yrs since we got married and I used to wonder how time flies. I dont even feel like its been that long. but now , there is only 6 more days for me to get that preggy test done and it feels like the time is static. Hey js, another coincidence.. we have been ttc for 4 yrs too. did not do any treaments as my gynec kept on telling me i was young to get worried abt infertility. But my mind kept on saying there is something wrong. anyway it took us this long to get to IVF clinic. I didn't even try any other treatment, staright away went for IVF. I still dont know if it was the best decision and sad part is that my insurance doesn't pay a dime.well.. everything happens for a reason.

Bubble · Post by **Bubble** » Wed Oct 25, 2006 9:00 pm

Ladies, one more thing that is new to me today- sharp pulsating pain around the navel area! It started this morning on the right side of my tummy and then in 10 minutes it disappeared. Now its back but this time around my navel.You know what.. maybe I had these pains even b4 the ivf and i just didnt notice it and like bekke said being a paranoid loonie , everything feels like its the end of the world!

bekkie31 · Post by **bekkie31** » Thu Oct 26, 2006 8:26 am

Bubble I do not believe this... !!! I have also been married six years - we married in on September 30th 2000!!! We have also been trying to conceive for atleast the last 4 years!!!

It is really odd, but ever since I was a child I kind of suspected I may not be able to have a child. I still remember one conversation with my mum just around the time I started my period, when we were watching a TV programme about six babies born at once to a couple as a result of IVF. and I said to my mum: "atleast I have my perios and that means I can pregnant ". The freaky answer that I got from my mum was : "Just because you have your periods does not mean to say you will be able to get pregnant".

I will never forget that conversation. As, as soon as my mum had said it I thought to myself that I am probably going to have problems conceiving when I am older!!!

Week one of the two week wait is almost over. Satuirday 28th will be the start of week two. I just try not to analyse any symptoms - as all the times I have analysed in the past, I have been wrong!!! The only thing concerning me at the moment is I have mild cramping similar to that a few days prior to having a period!!! So of course I am thinking the worst!! If I feel slightly moist, I am running to the bathroom to take a look - thinking I may have my period!!! Of course when I do come on - I will feel like a failure and feel like we have wasted heaps of money (I know hubbie wont be too pleased ).

Bekki xxxx

bekkie31 · Post by **bekkie31** » Thu Oct 26, 2006 8:32 am

ooo...and one more thing bubble- my GYN was the same - telling me I was young and should not worry about infertility and that we have many years yet to try - but like you, I had in the back of my mind something was wrong. However the years suddenly fly past and I turned 31 this year. After like 4 years TTC we finally took the step in August THIS YEAR to go to a fertility clinic. I just kept putting it off and off, especially as I am scared of Doctors!! I just wish I had taken the step about 2 years ago instead...

Bekki xxx

jstrandlund · Post by **jstrandlund** » Thu Oct 26, 2006 9:09 pm

Bekki and Bubble, Wow so our stories are all pretty much the same...Married for 6 years(Aug 26 2000), ttc for atleast 4 years and young enough according to our doctors to not have to worry about the infertility yet. Like you I am still worried and wish I would have started pushing the subject earlier. My doctor had me on so many rounds of Chlomid is wasn't even funny and then everyother month I would be on birth control pills because I had a cyst they were afraid was going to pop and therefor could not do any infertility treatments. Finally we began trying IUI and after three failed attempts got the referral to the IVF specialist. I once told my doctor that I may be young but by the time they were ready to get aggressive in my treatment I would no longer be, and that could be a problem.
So now here we are four days away from the dreaded yet anticipated pg test and over analyzing every feeling I have. But I have so far managed to not do a home test. I hope all is going well for you both and sending lots of Sticky Vibes to you!!

Bubble · Post by **Bubble** » Thu Oct 26, 2006 9:21 pm

Tell me about it! I always think we should have tried at least 3 yrs ago. Now I feel like maybe God is testing us or giving us a hard time as a punishment or something. Anyways, Iam so depressed today as I did the biggest mistake, something that is against the IVF Laws- A HPT! Its only the 5th day for me after the transfer and I know it might be too early, still couldn’t help it , because since this morning I feel so weird and negative. I started getting severe shooting pains on both the sides of my tummy , my heart is pounding , I feel like crying which I cannot do as I am at work, light headed etc. And I just had to take that long walk to Target for my lunch break and somehow ended up in the ladies section and before I knew it, I was out of the store with hpt and straight to the loo and took the test , of course to see a BFN! Now you can imagine how bad my blood pressure is. I am trying so hard to keep myself together , making myself believe it’s a false negative. But somewhere deep in my mind , I feel awful. I can’t tell my hubby about this as he will be real mad at me for taking the test and then regretting abt it. I thought the progesterone didn’t have any side effects on me until today. Now I don’t know if it’s the progesterone or if it’s the BFN that’s making me so depressed. All I have to tell you ladies is that Never Ever take that damn test . Let the labs give you the accurate results. Why spoil the good spirits b4 the truth is out. I feel so sorry for myself and feeling really scared thinking that my bad state of mind might effect a perfectly normal baby. Oh God please help us all….

jstrandlund · Post by **jstrandlund** » Thu Oct 26, 2006 9:37 pm

Bubble, Oh honey I am so sorry that you are feeling so depressed right now. I can honestly say that although it may be a false positive I would feel and react the same way. You should not feel ashamed for taking the htp even if we are not supposed to. The anticipation is sometimes just too hard! Talk to your hubby and let him know why you took the test and even if he is angry let him know that you really need his support and love right now.
Remember your Hcg levels may not be strong enough to read on a htp yet so please don't give up hope. Let everyone around you be your support right now and continue to pray for that BFP.
I will be praying for you and sending you all my love.

Bubble · Post by **Bubble** » Thu Oct 26, 2006 10:25 pm

You are such a sweetheart! Thankyou for all the comfort and prayers.I don't won't to talk to my hubby about this because it might make him sad too and he won't be able to express it to me as that would make me feel worse.when I said angry, i meant in a loving way , you know how our parents scold us when we do something stupid. Poor thing , don't even watch football (his fav)these days , so that he can sit with me all the time.He even watches "Ugly Betty" with me! Thats what I luv abt this site.. you gals would know excatly what Iam talking about and would totally understand it the way things are. where as , if iam talkig to my hubby, I will have to explain and sometimes spice it up a notch about the hormones . I wonder if there's anybody here who had the dirty old negative and still got preggy b4. then again, Iam also trying to prepare myself for the worse , so that I will not have a melt down.

bekkie31 · Post by **bekkie31** » Fri Oct 27, 2006 8:59 am

Bubble - I am surprised I have not succumbed to a HPT yet myself. I know how disappointing they are. Even before starting IVF I used to buy HPTs when my period was like 10 days late. I just hate taking them now, because my heart starts pounding and I get way too nervous - and going from the past and my luck, I just know they seem to always bring bad news.

5 days post transfer may have been a bit too early? I will keep my fingers crossed that things change. I have also read other posts where ladies have had negatives turn into positives when they took a HPT too early and vice versa positive tests turning to negative!! I dont think with the time you took the test you could be 100% sure you are NOT pregnant. I guess when your period comes you will know for sure.

I have decided to wait until atleast a day or two after my period is officially due before having a pregnancy test with the doctor or before buying my own HPT. As much as you have to try to think positive, I just know that I will probably come on and will also have to repeat IVF again. I just know my body really well after all these years and so far I am showing all the signs that I will come on. It is the kind of luck I have. However, assuming are IVFs have failed we will all be coming on at around the same time and will be here to cheer eachother up. Keep us all informed and even if we get offcial negatives - it is only another 6-8 weeks before we could try again.

Big hug from me, Bekki xxxx

jstrandlund · Post by **jstrandlund** » Fri Oct 27, 2006 12:25 pm

Hey Bubble, I totally understand about not wanting to tell your dh and make him sad! And I think it is great that he watches Ugly Betty with you so does mine! He never fails to remind me that I am spoiled! That's okay I never fail to remind him that so is he!! As far as the negetive goes there was a gal on the October buddies thread that took a Htp on I believe day 10 and got a negetive again on day 11 same result and on day 12 got a positive. I seached for an entry(which I couldn't fine) I had read that explained how long the trigger shot stayed in your system and how long until the Hcg was strong enough in your body to show on a htp and I believe that your testing on day five post transfer maybe too early to show on a Htp! So I will keep praying for you and sending you lots of baby dust!!
I am still to scared to take a Htp. I test with the RE on Monday and honestly I am scared of that. I do not know that I am ready for the answer. We all invest so much of ourselves and our emotions into this process that I am not sure how I will handle it if it is negetive. One part of me says you can take it, it's nothing new to be let down, and the other side says yeah but this was different. I don't know if I will even be able to believe if it is a positive. After years of trying and always getting the BFN it may be hard to believe anything else. See I am not ready for the results. Thankfully I have a few more days to worry about it!
Stay strong and know there are lots of people rooting for you to get that BFP and if you don't we are all hear for you !

bekkie31 · Post by **bekkie31** » Fri Oct 27, 2006 12:35 pm

Bubble and Jill,

I agree - we think we can handle the worst outcome of IVF - but I do not think anything really prepares us for it. Just like Jill I also think that I could handle it because of the let downs in the past but on the other hand IVF is different. But hey - whatever our results we will pull through together. We need eachother. And if one fails, as much as it may seem like an eternity, the next try would be possible in 6 - 8 weeks.

Hugs and praying for the best, bekki xxxx

Surviving the two week wait

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