April/May Buddies??

CarolynB · Post by **CarolynB** » Wed Oct 25, 2006 4:14 pm

Oh my dear Laura

How bloody amazing is that. You have lived such a rollercoaster over the last few weeks - make that the last few months or should that be years.

You so deserve this hun. As Jackie and Dr Vero have said - this will be one hell of a fighter. He or she must be so very very special.

Hoping that tomorrow brings even better news from the bloods if that is possible. Will keep willing your little one on. Then scan on Monday.

Lots of Love
Carolyn xxx

Em - getting close now for you too sweetie. Sticky vibes and baby dust being sent down under. By Monday, it'll just be me & dear Vero waiting to cross the BFP finish line!!!

LauraLou · Post by **LauraLou** » Wed Oct 25, 2006 10:21 pm

Not such good news with the beta today. It went from 5181 on Monday to 6872 today. I am still supposed to come in next Monday for another sono and beta.

I am sad but not giving up yet. This baby has had very strange beta levels, so this may just be another slow growth time.

I am sitting in a hotel room in Wichita Falls, TX with nothing to do until my conference tomorrow, so I figured out my beta doubling times.

10/9 - 157
10/11 - 217 (4.28 days)
10/13 - 253 (9.03 days)
10/18 - 849 (2.86 days)
10/23 - 5181 (1.91 days)
10/25 - 6872 (4.90 days)

I guess I will just have to wait for the sono on Monday and if we don't see a heartbeat then I will know for sure.

Hope I don't start sobbing in the middle of my conference on miscarriage, stillbirth and neonatal loss. May be it will be therapuetic.

Laura

veronika · Post by **veronika** » Thu Oct 26, 2006 4:59 am

Dear Laura,
this is incredibly hard. I wish you would know already. This is just too long a time to be insecure and captured between hope and sadness. I hope you do not feel too alone in that hotel room in Wichita Falls and that tomorrow will be a bearable day for you. I am still hoping and believing in your little miracle!

Thinking of you, Vero

Em,
how are you? You'll soon have made it through the horrible 2ww. I hope that you feel good and full of hope for your two little ones. Cheering you through the last days...

Carolyn,
you're approaching your new plan! It's a really good idea to use your little frosties just in case it won't work to do a frech cycle before christmas. That will mean that you won't have to waste your time any longer with just waiting.

Jackie and Dania, I hope you ladies are very very well.

I am awfully tired and will fall into bed now. Sending you many hugs,

Vero

Xrayem · Post by **Xrayem** » Thu Oct 26, 2006 7:56 am

Hi Laura,

I have had such a good feeling about this little one for you right from the start.....I feel in my heart that he/she will pull through for you. Trust your little one knows what it doing!

Hi everyone else,

2ww is dragging. I have been so busy with work and house guests that I haven't really had time to think too much about it. I can't believe that I have made it all the way to this stage without considering a HPT! I guess that I am scared to do one and get a negative result and fall to pieces. I will do one on sunday morning as DH is flying out to Darwin for a week (great timing!!!) on sunday lunchtime. My best mate flew out to NZ yesterday for 2 weeks and so I will be all alone.......except for you guys.

I don't feel anything. I am extremely tired and feel miserable but thats it. I caught sight of myself walking past a shop window today and was shocked at how much weight I have put on. I worked so hard for a year to loose 15kgs and now I have put back on over half of it in a couple of months. I know its for a greater cause but I hate myself at this weight.

sorry to be so down, I'm just having a bad day.

Em

CarolynB · Post by **CarolynB** » Thu Oct 26, 2006 4:11 pm

Ladies

have to run out in 4 mins as dh and I are off to a concert. Not sure that we have ever been to a gig together.

Just wanted to say that Laura my heart goes out to you. This has been such a rollercoaster. I so hope that the course will help you. If it is too much then guess that I would not be afraid to leave the room. We are here for you and rooting you on.

Em - a lot of the weight gain will fall off as soon as you are off the drugs. I am sure that the drugs are making you feel rather down right now too. Just the weekend and then it will all be worthwhile.

Dr Vero - I shall be so much happier when I have a plan

Jackie and Dania - hugs to you and your bumps

Sorry this is so short. Thinking of you all. Off to see my horse tomorrow and then taking my niece out shopping now on Saturday. So may be missing in action now until Sunday.

Thinking of you all especially Laura and Em.
Lots of Love
Carolyn xxx

Xrayem · Post by **Xrayem** » Fri Oct 27, 2006 7:58 am

hi girls,

I'm trying not to get too excited but I caved this morning and did a HPT....and got a faint positive. I retested this afternoon with a different brand and got the same result! I'm 10dp2dt so surely this is right?

I am in shock. DH is being as cool as a cucumber but I am struggling to contain myself! I have bought 4 more tests and plan to do one each day! I don't know what to say!

Em

LauraLou · Post by **LauraLou** » Fri Oct 27, 2006 11:20 am

Em- I am so, so, so happy for you! That is wonderful news! It will be so exciting to see the second line get darker and darker each day. You must be thrilled!

As for me, my breasts are still really sore, so I take that as a good sign. It feels like forever until Monday.

Hope everyone is doing welll.

Laura

jackoa21 · Post by **jackoa21** » Fri Oct 27, 2006 3:54 pm

Hello ladies..
I know we have all said this before but I am so sorry I have been gone.. WORK has been so crazy....

Laura you are right to not give up yet. I know the feeling of the waiting and how it can drag but I still have hope that your little fighter is hanging on and its going to surprise you on Monday.....I have heard about ladies with a twin BFP and they loose one and their betas go all wacky.. Maybe that is the cause of all of this? Just know we are all praying for you.

Em
OMG honey you must be so excited. Doesnt it drive you mad about the DH's who are soooooo stinking calm.. We love them for being so calm but come on already jump up and down with us just once.. Just rest up honey and take all those test you already have them and it will be so fun to see the line get darker and darker..I have to say after they told me about the BFP I went and bought 2 test (yes I thought they were wrong) anyway one was pink and one was blue not on purpose this is just how it worked.. I still have them saved. Dont ask me what I will do with them but I still have them to look at.. So keep yours too...

Carolyn your weekend sounds nice.. Is this your neice that had been sick with the fainting.. It will be nice for her to spend some time with her Aunty Carolyn....Its great that you are going to have your plan so soon.. You know I had heard some stories from Ghost once that the FET cycles are acuttally better for some ladies because its closer to a natural cycle. It would be great if you could do the FET (how many snow babies do you have again) It will be nice to have some answers very soon...

Vero
How are you honey.. dont work too hard.. You must be a run run run work work work type lady. I think we all are.. Hopefully you can catch up on some well deserved sleep..

Dania thinking of you and your bump

For me Somewhere between Today and Sunday is the 12 weeks mark so I will be telling work.. I am a little nervous because there is a girl here and she is 10 weeks or so and in materinity clotes and showing and you cant even tell I am preggo.. ( I can becuase my belly is a little pushed out) but nothing like that.. Is this normal. I dont want to be a worry wart but no morning sickenss and not really any signs or weight gain.. What gives...

Love and hugs to you all
Love
Jackie

veronika · Post by **veronika** » Fri Oct 27, 2006 4:06 pm

Em,
that's the best news ever. I think I'd be testing in 10 minutes intervals, just because I would want to see that line over and over again. You just lean back now and watch it getting darker!

Laura,
sore boobs is a good sign! I am sure time is dragging... But Monday will be here soon. I am thinking of you and your little fighter.

Jackie,
don't you worry. Just look at your beautiful ultrasound to see your little one

Everything is sure to be perfectly well and it must be so exciting to soon be telling people. Most probably your belly will pop as soon as everybody knows.

Carolyn,
well, it's the two of us left having to cross the finish-, well rather the start line...We're going to get there, just need a little bit more patience, I guess. Sometimes it is just so hard

I decided to try IUI next month, it's about time for me to start action again.

Love, Vero

Xrayem · Post by **Xrayem** » Sat Oct 28, 2006 7:26 am

OMG!!!

I did a test again today using a different brand again and got a strong positive. There's no question, guys! I'm pregnant!!!!!!!!!

I know I need to wait for the bloods on Tuesday, but I am over the moon. I never thought this would happen to me! I know alot can still go wrong but I am loving this little moment of ecstacy!

Vero and Carolyn, you girls will get your BFP's so soon, I know it! I know how you are feeling, with every BFP posted on this site, I despaired that it would never be me. You both have such good plans to get started again and it really is only a matter of time for you now.

Carolyn - Good luck for your appointment tomorrow. Be forceful with your doc if need be. Make sure you don't leave his office without getting what you want. Surely there is enough time to do a fresh cycle before Xmas?

Vero - Doing an IUI is a good plan. You have got to be giving yourself a better chance than doing it naturally. When is AF due for you?

Laura - Is it bloods or a scan tomorrow? I am praying for your miracle-baby. He/she is one hell of a fighter. How is your DH dealing with the up/down news? It would be to cruel of God to take your little angel after all you've been through. Have faith in you beanie!

Jackie - I have heard that some women go through their whole pregnancy and don't feel a thing! I actually know a girl who didn't realise she was pregnant and was wearing skimpy shorts and a midrift top when they took her to hospital with tummy pains....she gave birth to a full term baby about 2 hours later!

Everyone has been telling me that I should have sore breasts but I have felt nothing except a slighht pulling sensation where my uterus is over the last week. Be pleased that you seem to be sailing through the pregnancy.

I can't wait to get to work on Monday - I am going to try and peek and see if there's one sac or two. Twins???? I am so excited!

Em

CarolynB · Post by **CarolynB** » Sat Oct 28, 2006 7:54 am

OMG OMG Em

That is fab. Just thought that I'd pop on line before I take my niece shopping as had a sneaky suspiscion that you might have been at the HPTs by now. That is so exciting for you. Wow. You must be over the moon. I am sure that your dh is thrilled too - they just show it in different ways to us.

That line will now just get darker and darker. I'd be testing every 5 minutes!!!!

I am so pleased for you after all you have gone through. Can't wait to hear your news from the self scan on Monday. How cool to be able to scan yourself when you want rather than waiting for all the appointments.
Lots of Love
Carolyn xxx
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Dr Vero - I am still here with you holding on and hoping for our miracles. We both know how hard this is. I am sure that given my age I will be last so must be you next hun

Glad that you have decided that you are ready to do an iui. When will that be? You could always come across to Dec-Jan New Beginnings Thread where I have gone as well. The ladies there are such fun. Some are ivf, some FET and some iuis. Nobody has exact dates but we all know that we'll be trying towards the end of the year/start of 2007

Laura - Sore breasts must be a good sign for you hun. The waiting must be doing your head in. I think of you every single day & hope that the little one is going to pull through for you. Such a rollercoaster. I so hope that Mondy will finally bring you fantastic news and put your mind at rest. You myst feel exhausted with all the highs and lows that you have been going through

Jackie - 12 weeks is so terrific - I cannot believe that you are that far along already. I am sure that all is well. Some ladies have lots of signs and others just sail through. You must be one of the later! How exciting to start telling people. I am sure that they will be over the moon for you hun. Yes it is the niece who was unwell so I'll have to be sure that we don't over do it with the shopping!

Dania - Have a great weekend with the boy bump.

I saw a girl who used to work for me last night after I got back from seeing my horse run (only 4th but 1st run of the season and so needs to get fitter

). She has moved to Paris and so I don't see her v often. She did 4 ivfs. 1 eptopic and 3 BFNs. She is so strong. She has started the adoption process in France but it is v v slow. So she is thinking of trying tmt again. She is so brave. She was an inspiration to me that I need to be able to bear a lot more before I even think of giving up.

Appontment now just 3 days away. Reminded dh about it this morning as have tried not to talk to him about it to give him a break. We need to talk as have not discussed the possibility of FET and need to do that with him rather than at doctors office on Tuesday. I have 6 frosties. 5 were as good as the 2 they put back and 1 was slightly poorer quality. Unlikely to survive but they figured that it might as well be frozen with the rest. I just know that these are 39 year old eggs. So was hoping we could keep as back up plan but given timings FET might have to be the way to fit in before Xmas. My last cycle lasted from 25 March til 10 May so v long protcol and as I responded well not sure that he'll consider short protcol due to rsik of OHSS. I am speculating. I'll just have to see what he says on Tuesday.

Have great weekends - especially Em & her sticky beanie(s)!

Lots of Love
Carolyn xxx

LauraLou · Post by **LauraLou** » Sat Oct 28, 2006 10:12 pm

Em- I am so thrilled for you!!! I can't wait to hear your beta number.

Carolyn- If you can fit in a FET before Xmas, I would definitely consider doing it. It could be a wonderful Christams present!

Dr V- I think doing an IUI is a great idea. You have given it a couple of months to try naturally. IUI is the next step and you also could have a wonderful Xmas gift!

Jackie- I can't believe you will be in your second trimester soon! You are getting close to being able to see whether you have a girl or a boy. Have you decided on names?

I am losing my mind! This has been an incredible stressful week. First the good news on Mon from the sono & beta, then the bad news on Wed from the next beta, then spending two days talking about miscarriage, stillbirths and neonatal losses. Not the best time to be attending this seminar!

My breasts are still very sore and I have been feeling nauseous the last few mornings about two hours after I get up. Of course the nausea could just be my nerves.

DH is convinced this isn't a viable pregnancy and doesn't want to even talk about the possibility of it being okay. I think he doesn't want me to get my hopes up. He is probably right, but it hard for me not to have some hope as my body still feels pregnant.

I should know for sure on Monday, which can't come soon enough.

Laura

Xrayem · Post by **Xrayem** » Sat Oct 28, 2006 10:17 pm

Laura - I will be praying for you hun! Its just got to be good news for you!

Em

CarolynB · Post by **CarolynB** » Sun Oct 29, 2006 2:11 pm

Laura - The waiting must be agony. I am sure that your dh just does not want to get the hopes/excitement too sky high until things are confirmed. I shall be thinking of you tomorrow and hoping that you'll finally have some piece of mind. I so hope that this is all going to work out for you

Em - Hoping that the lines are just getting darker and darker. Let us know the news tomorrow as sure that you'll be too excited to resist a bit of scan yourself activity!!!!!!!!!

Jackie - As Laura says you must now be getting excited. Must make it so real when you are able to tell everyone your news. Choosing names must be just great too!

Dr Vero & Dania - Hope that you are both having lovely weekends.

I had a lovely day with my niece yesterday and we managed to get her a beautiful dress for the party that she has next month. She loved it and so did her Mum when we got home so kept everyone happy. However I was shattered last night. Think that concert on Thursday with dh, plus 400 mile round trip on Friday to see horse run. Then going out with my friend late Friday evening. Then shopping all day yesterday. My auto immune disorder really affects my feet badly so they were v swollen by last night. So just a night in watching the tv and an easy day today other than the grocery shopping!!! Being v busy has been great as has helped keep my mind off Tuesday too much. It is so crazy. We pay him thousands of pounds to do a cycle yet I am so nervous about the appointment as it feels like he has our life in his hands. He can make the call over what I can and cannot do and when we might be able to do it. I am going to be assertive but at the end of the day, he calls the shots as without him we have no chance of realising our dreams................

Enjoy the rest of the weekend and hopefully a good week ahead - keeping everything crossed for Laura & Em.

Lots of Love
Carolyn xxxx

Xrayem · Post by **Xrayem** » Mon Oct 30, 2006 7:21 am

Hi Carolyn,

Good luck for your appointment tomorrow! I hope you get what you want. Don't be nervous about the doctor....as my uni lecturer used to say: " Doctors stilll need to take their pants off to poo".

No scan today as it is too early to see anything. Have my bloods tomorrow, so hopefully will have some indication from my Beta.

Laura, how did it go?

Love to you all.
Em

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