i have my pg test on thursday , and i think about nothing else!!
thanks for keeping me half sane.
im so pleased for you jill
good luckegg collection and transfer
hi , i have been reading all your messages for the last week and a half , i am on my 2ww , i cannot express how comforting this message board has been during this time. i have particularly been following bekkie , jill and bubble's messages as every emotion and feeling you have had has been exactly how i feel, i thought i was going out of my mind at one stage .
i have my pg test on thursday , and i think about nothing else!!
thanks for keeping me half sane.
im so pleased for you jill good luck
i have my pg test on thursday , and i think about nothing else!!
thanks for keeping me half sane.
im so pleased for you jill
good luckHey Jill
CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!! I only know you from this board and its amazing how I feel so excited about your good news. It’s like I am having a baby. So, What did you guys do last night?- A nice dinner and a movie(not the scary ones anymore of course)? Bekki, you have so much will power to wait that long pal.I am just back from the blood work. Told them they can leave a message at my home number with the results. Now I don’t want to go home – what if it’s a bad news that’s awaiting me? Mmm. I don’t want to say anymore negative things today. It’s Jill’s day. A toast for Jill and her DH. So when is the party Jill?
Happy Halloween All!!!!!!!
CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!! I only know you from this board and its amazing how I feel so excited about your good news. It’s like I am having a baby. So, What did you guys do last night?- A nice dinner and a movie(not the scary ones anymore of course)? Bekki, you have so much will power to wait that long pal.I am just back from the blood work. Told them they can leave a message at my home number with the results. Now I don’t want to go home – what if it’s a bad news that’s awaiting me? Mmm. I don’t want to say anymore negative things today. It’s Jill’s day. A toast for Jill and her DH. So when is the party Jill?
Happy Halloween All!!!!!!!
Firstly, welcome to the new lady in this thread - Millie from Ireland - not so far away from me as Bubble and Vic (aka Usma ) are. I am glad our posts have been of some comfort. The two week wait is certainly, well atleast I think, the hardest part of the IVF treatment. Feel free to chat as much as you want! 
- JILL - I was also wondering what you both did to celebrate. I know that the day I become pregnant, I will feel like jumping on the rooftops and shouting!!! Quite when that day will be I do not know.
- BUBBLE - I am thinking of you aswell .. If it is positive news then you deserve it like anyone else. If it is bad news, do not disappear - stay about like Usma has!!! I have also not had my results yet - I still have to atleadt 06 November to wait. I could have bad news - who knows?
- JO - how are you and the little one doing? Did you actually have a blastocyst transfer?
LAST BUT NOT LEAST VIC!!! :
Thanks - our hubbies are pretty much the same!!! LOL. The only credit I could give my hubbie was that he did my injections. But everything else is terrible - if I start discussing the possibility that it could fail, he carries on talking about something else. Last night he said something like "I love you honey" (cant remember the exact words )and I turned round and said " hahah, I wonder if you would still say that when we find I get my period ".
I am doing well hanging on in there - the trouble with me is that my cycle is normally very long anyway, which makes the waiting even harder for me. My cycle is around 32 - 33 days long. In August before I started IVF I was on Puregon, as they tried to do controlled ovulation with me, and it made my period come two days earlier. Normally I am very slow to ovulate, but the puregon kind of sped up the process. I am expecting a similar story with this month and IVF, to come on about two days earlier (which would be Saturday 4th Nov ). If I manage to hold out with no sign of blood until 06th Nov then it could be a good sign and I may do a HPT on 07th or 08th NOV (so beginning of next week ). My cramping kind of comes and goes.. but it is fairly mild. I had it last night if I lay on my side (left or right side ) so I slept the night on my back!!
Did you all have a nice halloween. We had the kids knocking on the door for trick or treat - and I was thinking, I hope one day that will be me going out with my children on halloween. We will have to see... maybe one day in the future...
Thinking of you all folks, luv Bekki xxx
- JILL - I was also wondering what you both did to celebrate. I know that the day I become pregnant, I will feel like jumping on the rooftops and shouting!!! Quite when that day will be I do not know.
- BUBBLE - I am thinking of you aswell .. If it is positive news then you deserve it like anyone else. If it is bad news, do not disappear - stay about like Usma has!!! I have also not had my results yet - I still have to atleadt 06 November to wait. I could have bad news - who knows?
- JO - how are you and the little one doing? Did you actually have a blastocyst transfer?
LAST BUT NOT LEAST VIC!!!
:Thanks - our hubbies are pretty much the same!!! LOL. The only credit I could give my hubbie was that he did my injections. But everything else is terrible - if I start discussing the possibility that it could fail, he carries on talking about something else. Last night he said something like "I love you honey" (cant remember the exact words )and I turned round and said " hahah, I wonder if you would still say that when we find I get my period ".
I am doing well hanging on in there - the trouble with me is that my cycle is normally very long anyway, which makes the waiting even harder for me. My cycle is around 32 - 33 days long. In August before I started IVF I was on Puregon, as they tried to do controlled ovulation with me, and it made my period come two days earlier. Normally I am very slow to ovulate, but the puregon kind of sped up the process. I am expecting a similar story with this month and IVF, to come on about two days earlier (which would be Saturday 4th Nov ). If I manage to hold out with no sign of blood until 06th Nov then it could be a good sign and I may do a HPT on 07th or 08th NOV (so beginning of next week ). My cramping kind of comes and goes.. but it is fairly mild. I had it last night if I lay on my side (left or right side ) so I slept the night on my back!!
Did you all have a nice halloween. We had the kids knocking on the door for trick or treat - and I was thinking, I hope one day that will be me going out with my children on halloween. We will have to see... maybe one day in the future...
Thinking of you all folks, luv Bekki xxx
hi , thanks for the welcome bekkie,
just on tenderhooks at the mo , can't think of anything else , the test is tomorrow and im getting lots of sleepless and restless nights, what will be will be !!
i guess im just preparing myself for the worse outcome ! well take care all must take the dog for a walk.
me 38/dh 39
unexplained infertility
ttc 5 years
clomid 6 months
iui 4 tries
1st ivf may 05
2nd ivf oct 06 ???(fingers crossed )
just on tenderhooks at the mo , can't think of anything else , the test is tomorrow and im getting lots of sleepless and restless nights, what will be will be !!
i guess im just preparing myself for the worse outcome ! well take care all must take the dog for a walk.
me 38/dh 39
unexplained infertility
ttc 5 years
clomid 6 months
iui 4 tries
1st ivf may 05
2nd ivf oct 06 ???(fingers crossed )
Ladies.. I don’t like to say this at all, but I got a BFN. I am really depressed, then again it’s my first attempt for infertility . I think I might be the only one here who goes backward with the treatment. We can’t afford another IVF right now. So we are thinking of doing IUI as our insurance covers this. I will keep you updated with my cycles as soon as I get to see my doc. Good luck to all of you who are waiting and my prayers are always with you. 
YUCK! So sorry. Don't know what to say. At least we all know how you feel and how bad you wanted it and you are not as alone as you may feel.
As you know, I didn't even make it to transfer but I still communicate with this board as it helps me cope. I hope you'll do the same.
Try the IUI and ask your Doc. about acupuncture the day before and after. I hear it really helps.
Best of luck! Keep in touch!!
Vic
As you know, I didn't even make it to transfer but I still communicate with this board as it helps me cope. I hope you'll do the same.
Try the IUI and ask your Doc. about acupuncture the day before and after. I hear it really helps.
Best of luck! Keep in touch!!
Vic
Thanks Vic ! I will definitely keep posting as it helps me out a lot and will also check about accupuncture. Do you know if it hurts? I have no idea what exactly it is except i've heard they use needles 
. BFN is very depressing but i dont want my body to reject more embies due to my depression . so iam trying my best to keep myself calm. I did cry a lot yday when I heard the message and at some point i l threw up and fainted which scared my poor hubby a lot. Then I thought God did it for purpose. What if I had this baby and there happens to be something wrong with the baby which would be a hell lot of pain for the baby and us for the rest of our life! I think we should all keep up the positive attitude and move on. I will try again and again until my body and finance say STOP! Its wierd how your mind and body tells you ahead that something is not right . I had a feeling that i will have difficulty having a baby years ago and that came to be true. and i had a feeling that this IVF is not gonna work for me and that also turned out true!
. BFN is very depressing but i dont want my body to reject more embies due to my depression . so iam trying my best to keep myself calm. I did cry a lot yday when I heard the message and at some point i l threw up and fainted which scared my poor hubby a lot. Then I thought God did it for purpose. What if I had this baby and there happens to be something wrong with the baby which would be a hell lot of pain for the baby and us for the rest of our life! I think we should all keep up the positive attitude and move on. I will try again and again until my body and finance say STOP! Its wierd how your mind and body tells you ahead that something is not right . I had a feeling that i will have difficulty having a baby years ago and that came to be true. and i had a feeling that this IVF is not gonna work for me and that also turned out true!-
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Oh Bubble, I am so sorry!! I definately understand the feeling of let down and loss when you hear those awful words. I am so proud of you for your strength and faith right now!! One major upside to the IUI is the proceedure is much less intensive. I hope and pray that whatever you decide to do next will work out for the best and will give you that dream you have been trying so hard for!!
Welcome Millie, sorry it has taken me so long to welcome you. I feel like I have not been on this site in ages and it has only been one day. I am praying that you will get a great BFP tomorrow! The day before and the day of are the worst I think. When my phone rang and it was the doctor I was crying before he even told me my results!
Bekki, You are so strong and patient, you amaze me. I did not do any Htp's only because I was too terified of the answer. The nurse even joked with me on the day of the test because I did not want her to take the blood since I was so afraid to hear the results. Obviously now I am glad I found out. You continue to be in my prayers to remain strong during you wait and to hear that BFP.
As for me I still don't think the reality has set in yet. I went in for a repeat Beta, progesterone levels and other levels again this morning and am awaiting the results. Oh the RE just called and said that my Beta numbers look great. They are now at 188 which is almost 3x the original number of 64. He said they wanted them to atleast double so things look good. My progesterone level is a bit low so I have to up that to 1 1/2 cc daily.
When I found out I was preggers I started crying so hard that I could barely talk. I paged my dh out in the shop and told him to come to the house quick. Because I was crying he thought it was a BFN. When he opened the door and seen me standing there, crying saying congratulations daddy, he froze and just stared crying. After a few minutes I said are you going to say anything and he just grabbed me and held me while we cried. Then of course came the you have to take it easy, no stress etc. After taking some time together we went to both of our parents homes to tell them in person since they have been great support for us through this whole proceedure. Now I am reading everything I can get my hands on and learning all the proper things to do to care for myself and my growing baby!
Everyone have a wonderful evening and you are all in my prayers!!
Welcome Millie, sorry it has taken me so long to welcome you. I feel like I have not been on this site in ages and it has only been one day. I am praying that you will get a great BFP tomorrow! The day before and the day of are the worst I think. When my phone rang and it was the doctor I was crying before he even told me my results!
Bekki, You are so strong and patient, you amaze me. I did not do any Htp's only because I was too terified of the answer. The nurse even joked with me on the day of the test because I did not want her to take the blood since I was so afraid to hear the results. Obviously now I am glad I found out. You continue to be in my prayers to remain strong during you wait and to hear that BFP.
As for me I still don't think the reality has set in yet. I went in for a repeat Beta, progesterone levels and other levels again this morning and am awaiting the results. Oh the RE just called and said that my Beta numbers look great. They are now at 188 which is almost 3x the original number of 64. He said they wanted them to atleast double so things look good. My progesterone level is a bit low so I have to up that to 1 1/2 cc daily.
When I found out I was preggers I started crying so hard that I could barely talk. I paged my dh out in the shop and told him to come to the house quick. Because I was crying he thought it was a BFN. When he opened the door and seen me standing there, crying saying congratulations daddy, he froze and just stared crying. After a few minutes I said are you going to say anything and he just grabbed me and held me while we cried. Then of course came the you have to take it easy, no stress etc. After taking some time together we went to both of our parents homes to tell them in person since they have been great support for us through this whole proceedure. Now I am reading everything I can get my hands on and learning all the proper things to do to care for myself and my growing baby!
Everyone have a wonderful evening and you are all in my prayers!!
Jill
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Me 29/DH 29
1st IVF=BFP M/C
2nd IVF=BFN
Femara
4/7/09 Start first cycle
5/4/09 BFP!!
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Me 29/DH 29
1st IVF=BFP M/C
2nd IVF=BFN
Femara
4/7/09 Start first cycle
5/4/09 BFP!!
Oh Boy .. That reminds me ... Hey Millie nice to meet you! I was not in a good mood last couple of days and you know what the reason is!Anyway , Iam really really really hoping you got the best news today. Jill, I know that IUI is not that effective as IVF and thats the whole reason we opted IVF without even trying the basic clomid treatment. And also with IUI there is a good chance for multiples(well I like to have twins ). I will do IUI this cycle as my job contract would end in january and I dont want to let that free chance slip away. If it did not work, we will do FET - payment out of our pocket. There is a time for everything and our time to have a baby is not here yet!Hey Jill, eat lots of fruits and veggies . Also drink lot of milk. Iam already planning for an online Babyshower. We all should play games and stuff.
). I will do IUI this cycle as my job contract would end in january and I dont want to let that free chance slip away. If it did not work, we will do FET - payment out of our pocket. There is a time for everything and our time to have a baby is not here yet!Hey Jill, eat lots of fruits and veggies . Also drink lot of milk. Iam already planning for an online Babyshower. We all should play games and stuff.Oh well here I am again, another day has dawned over here in Germany. Still no AF - but also official AF date is 06th November. It could all go downhill for me - but if that is the case I will be determined to stay strong like bubble and Vic.
At the moment I feel like I am in a race - I can see the finishing line - but it is still far off and of course I do not want AF to win!! It is a nightmare and because of my long cycle, one hell of a long wait too. It is now 15 days since egg retrieval, and tomorrow will be two weeks since transfer and although my AF is not due until Monday, the end of the two week wait is also officially tomorrow. Assuming I see no sign of AF, I will test with a HPT probably beginning of next week - Tuesday 07th Nov.
I am still too afraid to be positive - as so far in my life - if I ever think positive the worst always happens. I am having restless nights - and last night was horrible. If I lay in bed with the duvet cover on, I was burning up with heat, when I tried sleeping without the duvet I was too cold. Halfway through the night, I kind of sat up in bed to look at the alarm clock and I got really bad AF like cramps - so I rushed to the toilet as I also felt damp, but nothing. Something is going on with my body but I do not know what!!!? all will reveal itself within the next few days. Its pointless I guess trying to analyse. In general the cramps I have been having seem lighter and not so deep as pre-menstrual cramps - but it is dangerous if I start to think positive now.
Millie good luck with the test.
Bubble - sorry to hear the BFN - but alos glad you are determined to stay positive. Like I say, should mine fail, I will be repeating the IVF in January.
Jill - was nice to hear from you again after so long!!! I bet you are excited about your first scan!
Vic - when does your hubbie have his OP?
Speak soon, Luv Bekki xxxx
At the moment I feel like I am in a race - I can see the finishing line - but it is still far off and of course I do not want AF to win!! It is a nightmare and because of my long cycle, one hell of a long wait too. It is now 15 days since egg retrieval, and tomorrow will be two weeks since transfer and although my AF is not due until Monday, the end of the two week wait is also officially tomorrow. Assuming I see no sign of AF, I will test with a HPT probably beginning of next week - Tuesday 07th Nov.
I am still too afraid to be positive - as so far in my life - if I ever think positive the worst always happens. I am having restless nights - and last night was horrible. If I lay in bed with the duvet cover on, I was burning up with heat, when I tried sleeping without the duvet I was too cold. Halfway through the night, I kind of sat up in bed to look at the alarm clock and I got really bad AF like cramps - so I rushed to the toilet as I also felt damp, but nothing. Something is going on with my body but I do not know what!!!? all will reveal itself within the next few days. Its pointless I guess trying to analyse. In general the cramps I have been having seem lighter and not so deep as pre-menstrual cramps - but it is dangerous if I start to think positive now.
Millie good luck with the test.
Bubble - sorry to hear the BFN - but alos glad you are determined to stay positive. Like I say, should mine fail, I will be repeating the IVF in January.
Jill - was nice to hear from you again after so long!!! I bet you are excited about your first scan!
Vic - when does your hubbie have his OP?
Speak soon, Luv Bekki xxxx
Oh holy cow. holy cow, holy cow!!!!!!!!!! - excuse the language. The post has just arrived... letter from the fertility clinic with a bill!!!! OOO noo I know my hubbie is gonna be mad when he gets home from work. It was a bill for the remaining half of the IVF treatment that we have to pay. My hubbie knew it would cost about 1,500 UK pounds, but we kind of hoped we would not receive this remaining half to pay!! GOD!!! I am terrified now for a BFN!!!!! SHI*T !!!!
ooo nooo!!!! Bekki xx
ooo nooo!!!! Bekki xx
sorry I am back again - just an after thought - but dont you find the timing of the bills like really inconsiderate???. I am fortunate that my cycle is long so I am unlikely to get AF today, but imagine if my cycle was 28 days and today I got AF on the same day as the bill!! That would have been horrible. Not only would you have to think of having AF but also having to look at the bill at the same time. I think the whole thing is dreadful for us...
Sorry had to say it folks!!! sorry if I sound mega-stressed but I probably have a touch of PMT!!
Bekki
Sorry had to say it folks!!! sorry if I sound mega-stressed but I probably have a touch of PMT!!
Bekki
I am back again - just purchased two HPTS!!!! - but will not take one until the morning - as it says best to use with morning urine.
Jo or anyone - when is best to take a HPT? Would it be best to wait until Monday when my period is due?
I am all in a panic now, because I read on another board that your period does not come when you are still taking progesterone - is this true???? So once I read that I realised how much of a fool I have been thinking it is best to wait to AF date. If progesterone prevents your period coming then I have been fooling myself all along... therefore I rushed out and got two HPTs. I would like advice please- help!!!!!
Bekki
Jo or anyone - when is best to take a HPT? Would it be best to wait until Monday when my period is due?
I am all in a panic now, because I read on another board that your period does not come when you are still taking progesterone - is this true???? So once I read that I realised how much of a fool I have been thinking it is best to wait to AF date. If progesterone prevents your period coming then I have been fooling myself all along... therefore I rushed out and got two HPTs. I would like advice please- help!!!!!
Bekki
Hi Bekki,
I'm not sure about when your period should come, but I was told that the HCG shot will give you a false negative on a HPT and that you should do a blood test at the Doc. If it has been 14 days since your transfer, I would get the blood test ASAP. It does not matter when your period is due as your cycle is "fourced" this month and your transfer date dictates when your period is due.
GOOD LUCK!!!!
vic
I'm not sure about when your period should come, but I was told that the HCG shot will give you a false negative on a HPT and that you should do a blood test at the Doc. If it has been 14 days since your transfer, I would get the blood test ASAP. It does not matter when your period is due as your cycle is "fourced" this month and your transfer date dictates when your period is due.
GOOD LUCK!!!!
vic