Yeah Vic thanks for the posts- I will get over it - just need a few days to digest it all. My fear is going beyond the funded attempts. What if it fails three times - then we have to pay the full amount.
Some how I will find a way to fight through. Maybe more will come to light after the next tests that will get done. But I will refuse to try so soon again without having more tests. I may have to have this operation done - just a samll one, where they cut a whole just below your belly-button and get the camera to have a look at your uterus and they also put fluid in the tubes to see if blocked or not. Something may come of this - but i declined to have it doen as I was too scared - but maybe that will be an important step to make before our next try beginning of next year. I hope to have it done this month, if not it will be early january - so IVF could be in Feb or March depending on if what they discover needs medication etc..
I am glad the wait is over though - and I have learned a few things along the way. One thing being progesterone keeps AF away!! It is odd because when I talk to people who have never been through infertlity they do not know about hardly any of what I talk about. I was lucky to have been able to have competed a round, and i know what it is like.
Time to move on - if the right tube turns out NOT to be blocked maybe we can also try naturally - they may be able to control my cycle again like they did in August - and tell us exactly when to have sex etc...
I just should not have chickened out of the operation - I only did vecause it sounded scary. If it means it may possibly increase the chance for a successful IVF then I will certainly do it.
Slowly feeling better already. Thanks and all this support is wonderful- without it would have thrown myself off a bridge a olong time ago
Bekki xxxx