Erin...That is great that it got moved up...My EC was at Noon & I was a big grump cause I was so hungry from fasting...I'm a 5AM breakfast eater, so Noon felt like a lifetime. You take care, and the best of luck to you...
Welcome newbies...T.C. you asked how do we go on for more treatment. I ask myself that every day. I can't speak for the other women, but for me it's hope. Hope that this time will be different. I also have to know that I've done everything in my power to make this happen before I can rest with the knowledge that I won't have children of our own. If I only gave half the effort, I would always look back, and wonder "if"...If I just tried it ONE MORE time...There's also the life you would be creating between you and your dh. To have a representation of your combined love. Not that my love isn’t valid or complete without that child there, but maybe it's at our most primitive part of my being. I have a NEED to be a mother. To nurture and care for someone that is solely dependent upon you for all. To mold and guide that life through all life's events to watch them grow into a wonderful adult that goes on to do the same. Then, of course this is getting a little ahead of myself, but there's grandchildren. To see that generation what you're union of love has created exponentially is so mind-boggling and so powerful, that it's hard to give-up on that...that hope...Again, there's that word, hope...I can only speak for myself, and everyone is different. Some people are more fragile, others are strong, others are stubborn, others are scientific, others have faith...There are so many reasons each one of us choose to continue or when we've had enough, that it's hard to say. But I thought I would offer why I am going on this torturous journey again.
On a lighter note…:)You asked about the groovy smiles...Most can be found at
http://www.cheesebuerger.de/smilie.php If you select a category on the left, they will bring up a variety. Also, you can change the selection at the top from "Smilies" to "Midis" you will get the more "polished" looking animations. Anyway, just click on one of the pics, and the box at the bottom will give you the code that you copy and paste into your message body, and it will recreate the pic when it's posted. If you're not sure if you did it right, if you click on the preview button below your message body, it will show-up if you did it right. Another way to find out where pics came from is to right click on any of the pics you see, and go to "Properties" it will give you the web page the picture came from...
Now, for a personal victory…I just got the letter from my insurance honoring my exception to allow my clinic’s fees to be classified “In-Network” which reduces my costs for this time around by a minimum of 20%. It means I’ll reach my lifetime cap of $25K quickly, but still makes this round a little less stressful. My clinic also said they would be reviewing my case at their next “fee review” process with their board, and will see if they can provide me with some discount considering the unusually poor outcome. For those that might not know my history, I didn’t have any eggs fertilize my first cycle. 15 Eggs, 3 very immature, 6 immature, and only 6 mature. We performed ICSI, and only 2 formed a second polar body, but none started meitosis. The clinic never saw this kind of outcome from a couple that appears to have healthy eggs and sperm. So, well see what this time brings…Hope…There it is again…That stupid word, that I can’t stop feeling…We’ll see if I’m singing the same tune if this round goes as poorly as last…:) I can only hope…Damn! There it is AGAIN!!
You ladies take care, and don’t loose the FAITH…There…I found a different one…Thanks goodness! Hey…Faith, Hope & Me…Charity…Okay! I know I know…I’m a dork…I’ll let you ladies go, as I’m about 20 minutes beyond my lunch, and someone might actually notice one of these hours…Take care lovely ladies…All my best…