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Dory · Post by **Dory** » Fri Oct 27, 2006 4:11 pm

Hi Ladies,

I'm feeling very down at the moment, it's probably a mixture of the lupron, AF and this grotty weather were having.

I'm starting to get very nervous and scared, this will be our last attempt with IVF, and if this FET transfer doesn't work i have got to except the fact I can't have children of my own.
To be honest i'm not sure how i'm going to handle that......
I have been so strong through all i've been through all the lost pregnancies and failed IVF's, but facing the fact that i will never have children is a totally different thing....

We have 4 frosties left and my first concern is that at least one of them survive the thrawing, then my second concern is the Dr actually manages to get my lining right this time...That i don't hold much hope for....

I know i haven't posted much this time, but my time out seems to have grown in time, I check in nearly everyday, but can't seem to face posting.

I am so very happy for all the BFP's that have happened while i have been away, you all deserve them so much....

All you BFN's please don't give up, it will happen for you, one way or another.

So ladies, now it's my turn to ask you all for support, I won't be posting much, but i will keep you informed of the out come. my transfer is Nov 17th and pregnancy test Dec 1st.

The one question i do have is, what are the chances of at least 1 out of 4 frosties surviving the thaw.

Good luck to you all and i hope and pray all your dreams come true!!!!!!
Take Care
HUGS
Rachel OXO

nimble · Post by **nimble** » Fri Oct 27, 2006 4:39 pm

Hi Rachel,

I'm afraid that I can't answer yr question on frosties but I wanted to let you know that I'm thinking and praying for you that this time round it will work for you.

I'm sorry that you feel so down at the moment but try and keep hope that this cycle will be the one for you and that all your frosties thraw well and the DR gets your lining right. Easy said that done, but stay strong.

Good luck with the transfer on 17th Nov - i will be looking out for your news.

Hugs and love
Nimble x

vicky77 · Post by **vicky77** » Fri Oct 27, 2006 4:42 pm

Rachel, I think you are an example to follow, you are very strong to do what you are doing, I wish I had the strenght that you have, we all have a lot to learn from you, really.
I believe that when you put so much effort and love into something, sooner or later you see the fruits of it, so don't give up now, you will have kids one way or another!!!!

Regarding your questions of possibilities of at least one surviving thawing, I don't have experience myself with FET's yet, but from what I have been reading and seen so far I think you have a good chance of having at least one, or maybe the four of them survive the thawing...

I will be thinking about you, sending you lots of baby dust!!!!, I think we will have the tranfers almost the same day!!

Best of luck!!

cmoscar · Post by **cmoscar** » Fri Oct 27, 2006 4:55 pm

Rachel,

I am going to tell you the same thing that everyone told me when the RE and Ghost told me my chances were about 10% that my one surviving embie would implant, "Keep your chin up, God works miracles everyday". I believe I told you this before, but I am sending a few of my guardian angels to look out for you. I have everything crossed for your great cycle. I know everything will come together and you will be waiting for your bundle of Summer joy. I will keep looking for you! Don't give up before you have started!

Thanks for all the support you have shown all the girls in the various threads you have visited.

Vickie · Post by **Vickie** » Fri Oct 27, 2006 5:06 pm

Rachel, I really hope that this is ur time - u deserve it so much! I'll b thinking of u and looking out 4 ur posts.

Good Luck

LOL Vickie x x x

Casy P · Post by **Casy P** » Fri Oct 27, 2006 6:47 pm

hi Rachel,

I'm afraid I dont have any advice on Frozen cycles, but from what I have read having 4 frosties is pretty good odds.

Just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you and will be praying this is your time. Also if I stay on schedule my ET will also be Nov 17th, and testdate 1st Dec so we can hopefully support eachother and get eachother through all this!

Good Luck

jeck · Post by **jeck** » Fri Oct 27, 2006 7:58 pm

Hey Dory!!

I had 3 frosties for my FET cycle and all 3 thawed out!!! Good Luck with your cycle and I will be checking in on you!!!

Charity · Post by **Charity** » Sat Oct 28, 2006 2:51 am

Dory,

Maybe it's irony, but I have been feeling really depressed to. Thinking that I might not ever have a child of my own. The thought is so final, but I came across a book I am going out to buy tomorrow. Several women going through infertility treatment, some who have been successful, and those who have failed in their journey have reviewed it. I'm not sure if you might find it helpful, but I'm hoping it's all that the reviews say it is...The title is "Sweet Grapes: How to Stop Being Infertile and Start Living Again". Here is the link to the Amazon website. If you go to the bottom of the page, there are reviews by women. http://www.amazon.com/Sweet-Grapes-Infe ... 0944934013

I think this is good for anyone who feels like they've been putting their lives on "hold" while going through treatment, and brings things back to you and your husband and the other loved ones in your life. I am not one to accept defeat, but with our failed fertilization rate in our first ICSI cycle, there is not a whole lot of hope for us having any more success in our second attempt, but I think this book will help me prepare regardless of the outcome and get back to who I was before this whole journey started. I'm not sure about how any of you feel, but I feel like I've lost myself and some of my marriage during this whole journey and I worry I won’t get it back if I give up on the hope that we might conceive someday...Yet that hope keeps me in a state of purgatory, and I feel like I'm stuck in a holding pattern. Not sure if I'm making sense, but I just thought this might be of some help for you, as I'm hoping it will be for me. Good luck with this one, Dory...I can't imagine the strong spirit you must have to go through this three times, so that just proves the strength you possess to handle whatever the outcome is. All my best, and take care…

foster · Post by **foster** » Sat Oct 28, 2006 5:46 am

Dear Dory

I have only had one FET but all three of mine thawed and were safely transferred in. I since found after this I have an immunological disorder. However, I have always been of the belief FET's are actually stronger than fresh because if they can survive the defrost then you have strong fighters there wanting to stay!

Good luck and I wish you every success.

Foster

lara312 · Post by **lara312** » Sat Oct 28, 2006 6:35 am

Rachel i'm so sorry that you are feeling like this you have always told us not to give up and i know that this cycle is going to bring your baby into your arms this time next year you will be thinking what was i worrying about . I dont know any thing about FET has i am due to start mine soon so i cant help sorry we are all here for you like you have always been ther for us sending lots of hugs will be thinking of you on the 17th nov for your transfer .
love Rachel x x

CarolynB · Post by **CarolynB** » Sat Oct 28, 2006 8:00 am

Dear Rachel

I am so sorry that you are down. You have been through so much though that it is not surprising at all. You are just amazing that you have been so stong this far through your journey.

You so deserve this. I am so hoping that it will be your time.

My consultant told me to expect that around 50% would thaw. I think that it depends on age of eggs and also quality when frozen too. I am sure that some will survive for you and these will be such strong fighters and they will be looking forward to coming home to where they belong.

We will all be here to cheer you on and pray for you whether you post or not.

Huge hugs.
Lots of Love
Carolyn xxx

angelamw · Post by **angelamw** » Sat Oct 28, 2006 6:39 pm

Rachel

you have offered so much support to us on this thread in the past that i just wanted you to know that we are thinking of you and sending you loads of positive vibes and good wishes. I really hope that this is your time.
Angela

gdph630 · Post by **gdph630** » Thu Nov 02, 2006 1:55 am

wishing lots of luck you are in my prayers, please remember there is a baby waiting for us we have to just wait for them.

Dory · Post by **Dory** » Tue Nov 07, 2006 9:39 pm

Ladies, thank you so much for your kind words of encouragement, they mean so much to me,

Sorry it's taken me so long to reply, but i'm still enjoying my sort of time out, we have been travelling all over the place, at the moment we are in Atlanta.

I have started my Estrodial jabs and am still on for my FET 17th Nov.
Everything is going as well as it can, and it's business as usual as i'm becoming an old hand at this...lol

I have also been keeping myself busy, by starting my own business selling my handmade one of a kind photo greeting cards.

I have also built my own website, I can't believe i managed it, but i did. The address should be in my profile if you would like to check it out.

I hope you are all doing well, and there have been alot of BFP's while i have been away.

Y'all take care
Big Hugs
Rachel OXO

Dory · Post by **Dory** » Thu Nov 16, 2006 6:14 pm

Well tomorrow is D-day (as in defrost), wish me luck and pray that my little embies survive the thawing and we have at least one to put back.....

Then comes the dreaded 2ww, I'm feeling pretty relaxed and calm this time, so hopefully i can stay that way through the 2 weeks. I have plenty to do with my new business, which should hopefully keep my mind off it ...

Wishing everyone loads of luck and send loads of sticky baby dust to you all....

Take Care
Hugs
Rachel OXO

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