First IVF in August,

[myhb]

Mia - I am so sorry to hear about your BFN. I was so sure that this cycle was going to be the 'one' for you. However, I am glad that your RE has a next plan of action for you. I know you would have rather have had some time to decompress but maybe this protocol might be better. Good luck with the stimming and harvesting. Please don't give up hope. You are a strong person and you will get through this.

Suzhan - I am sorry to hear that you may have pre-ovulated and weren't able to harvest too many eggs. I hope that all three that were retrieved fertilize into nice healthy embryos. Why is the RE concerned about your uterine lining? Stay strong. All you need is one to transfer. I truly hope that you have all three for transfer and a BFP as well. Please keep us updated.

Wannababy - I am glad to hear that your infection isn't anything too serious. Just keeping eating that yogurt. How is your 2ww treating you otherwise? I hope you are keeping yourself busy/distracted.

Lola - Awesome numbers! You sound as if you are progressing along very nicely. I hope you aren't missing running anymore .

Have a good day.

-myhb

[suzhan]

Thanks for all the encouragement ladies - I truly do appreciate it. I am trying to stay positive, but sometimes it's all so hard. I have been praying that those 3 egg are some strong ones and that they all do fertilize, but there's part of me that knows that would probably be a miracle. Since the MD that did the ER felt I may have already ovulated some of the eggs, they said to go ahead and have sex last night - hmmm, DH was thrilled, but right after ER for me, are you kidding??? (sorry, if tmi, but you guys are the only ones who can relate.) Time will tell.

And, thank you for all your prayers and 'keeping everything crossed' for my embies. I hope to find out a little something this afternoon. I also want to try and find out how 'bad' is the lining. Mia - I think you're right, if it's really a bad thing, why not freeze what I have and try when the lining is right. I need a more clear answer. I posted on www.sirm.com - the doctor response site - and they said 18 mm is just fine.

Again, I truly thank you - don't know what I would do without you.

Take care,

- Suzhan

[hopeful-in-LV]

Glad you're more optimistic today, suzhan. I'm sending you good vibes.

Thanks everyone for your support and well wishes, I am optimistic still. I am sure I will have my baby when the time is right.

My mom's coming into town today. I'm looking forward to hanging out with her and getting out and about. I haven't told her about my past FET. I'm not sure if I should mention it. DH told his mom we failed again and I just dreaded speaking to her about it (she called me). She was trying to be supportive, but I just can't talk to people that don't know what this is like. Even if they are family. DH even tells our next door neighbors. I feel like everyone pities me and I hate that. I don't want people thinking that I'm depressed because of my infertility if I'm just having a bad day. I feel like I have to walk around with a fake happy face. I want to have my mood swings and not have people assume they know why. My MIL says "don't worry, If you don't have your own baby you can always adopt". Yeah right, if we ever have the money and pass homestudy, application process. etc. If we even want to deal with that whole process. I can't even really think about that yet. I'm not worried IVF is not going to work anyway. We just need to keep trying. Sorry to rant.

I hope you all are having a great day. I'll be busy for the next few days, but I'll check in when I can. Happy thanksgiving week to you all!

[samandaw1]

Mia

This whole process is so hard and it is difficult for others to understand when they have not gfone through something. You are also affected by the hormones so do not discount that. Just remember that people love you and are trying to be supportive. It is like a death, no one ever knows what to say or how to make someone feel better but you usually have to say something. I am sure this is also how your husband deals, by telling people. I agree that IVF will work for you it is just a matter of time. You do need to mourn the loss of this BFN and then go forward. I think we try to prepare ourselves for the negative but it still hurts and it is crushing. It just is going to make that baby so much more special. I have a friend who has miscarried numerous times including two IVF's. Lots of emotions and money spent. Anyhow, she went through her third IVF, they put two back in and ironically (fluke of nature) one split. She is now in her fourth month pregnant with triplets. She waited years for this and now she has three on the way. I guess that is just how it was supposed to happen. Just remember to be good to yourself and allow your bad days, it makes the next day much more tolerable when you do not resist that bad ones. Best of luck and we are all here for you

Sam

[suzhan]

Quick update.....lab director called today. All three eggs fertilized, so that's one step down and a few more to go. I'm continuing to pray that they get to 6-8 cells by Thursday morning so we can proceed to transfer. That will truly be something to be thankful for.

Hope everyone's well. Wannababy - how goes the 2ww?

Take care,

- Suzhan

[Angie65]

Hi Suzhan - have been wondering about you my over 37 friend. I am so glad you have 3 embies to put back. Good luck and keep me posted otherwise I will have to come and track you down again.

your poor thing! - doing the business after EC - god the things we have to endure! I hope we are on the 2ww together.

A
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[Lola]

Suzhan --- this is so great! All three fertilized! Yupee! I am sure there is at least one very strong one in this group! So your tranfer is tomorrow or on Friday? I will pray for you! Good luck!

Myhb ---- thanks for keeping in touch. Yes, I do miss running, but I try to do a lot of walking and that helps. Do you have any news when you may be starting a new cycle? Are you running again now?

Mia --- I always tell my mom about everything we are going through. I tell my mom and my DH mom. And my best friend as well. They care the most and they understand. That's good that you will be busy now and have a chance to occupy your mind with someting else! YOu are starting so soon again!!! It will happen for you, don't worry about adopting yet!

Sam - you are about to find out the gender, right? I am so excited for you! You can start shopping then! I cannot wait to do that. My first ultrasound is on Tuesday. I hope everything will be OK. We will also get to know how many I am carrying. I had 3 embies put back.

Wannababy --- just a couple more days and your tests is here? How are you doing? I hope your infection is gone now. Do you have any symptoms?

Girls, I want to wish you happy Thanksgiving! Have a great time with your family and remember to relax!

Love Lola

[Malinka]

Suzhan, great news!!!
now you can move right along!

[suzhan]

Malinka/Lola - it is great news that all 3 fertilized - thanks for the positive thoughts. Now of course, we pray that they progress properly. Thanks for all of your support and good wishes - I know it's helping! If all continues to go well, we'll do the transfer tomorrow morning early.

Wannababy - hope you're doing well in the 2ww. Let us know how you are.

Myhb - the RE was concerned because the lining might actually be too thick - 18 mm is more than normal. I falsely assumed 'bigger is better' but apparently that is not so. However, I'm gotten some hope from looking around on the internet that it's really not that bad. And, besides, there's not much to do about it now unless we want to freeze the embies and transfer them later. But, one day at a time....right now we just need them to progress along.

Angie - thanks for the warm wishes! I've posted back on the over 37 thread - sorry I was "MIA"!

Well, time to rest a bit.

I wish you and your families a wonderful thanksgiving. Take care,

- Suzhan

[wannababy1229]

Hey everybody--

Suzhan- I'm glad your embies are progressing nicely. Continue to keep the faith!

Lola-How are you feeling? Do you pregnant yet? What kind of symptoms do you have?

Sam-Aside from a healthy baby, are you secretly hoping for a boy or girl?

Hopeful-enjoy your mom's company! Are you comfortable with your DH telling your neighbors? How do they respond to you?

Myhb--I'm glad that you still check in on us! How are you doing?

I'm eating yogurt up the yingyang and feeling all kinds of sensations in my abdomen. Of course, I am trying not to analyze every twinge, ache and pain. I am still pretty bloated and drinking tons of water. AF feels like it has been coming on and off for the past couple of days. I must admit going to work and now the holiday weekend has been a wonderful distraction. Sometimes I forget that I am in the 2ww. Monday is the big day. I am going to take a test on Sunday only because I will be getting the call at work and I would like to prepare myself for the answer. Whatever the answer is, I'm hoping that I don't fallout on the floor!

I wish each of you a relaxing and joyous Thanksgiving.
Eat tons of turkey and enjoy the company of your guests!

[Lola]

Suzhan --- Good luck with the transfer tomorrow! You will be in my prayers and thoughts! Lola

[Lola]

Wannababy --- I still feel those twingies and cramps sometimes, but nothing unbearable. My boobs hurt really bad, it even hurts when I hug! And I am very tired. I feel like I need a nap twice a day. I sleep like a log. I feel that something is happening in my tummy and still have that little bump, but that may still be from the stims.
Keep on drinking water! That's the best. I did that too. And I try to avoid any sodas or diet drinks and teas. I only drink water, natural juices and I have my decaff coffee every morning. I switched to decaf, but I just have to have that warm cup of coffee in the morning.
Good luck with your HPT on Sunday. I wish you nice BFP!!!! You deserve it after all this time. I understand you want to get ready if you will be at work on Monday. I was getting ready for my test and I was telling myself over and over I am not going to cry if it is negative. And then I cried like a baby because it was positive. I just did not get ready for the positive option, I guess. I hope it works for you this time!
Lola

[suzhan]

Hi all - typing from bed...I'm officially joining the 2ww! And, we got quite a blessing today. All three embies had progressed.....and, 2 were grade 1, 8-cells! They were the best we'd ever had - even the lab director was shocked. The third was a 6-cell, grade 2, a bit of fragmentation, but not too bad. Even my RE jokingly asked, 'what did you eat this time.' I had gone in with great hopes, but also w/ a realistic perspective that if we were lucky, we'd get one good one. I feel so happy.

Well...hope you all had a wonderful thanksgiving.

Wannababy - I can't believe how close you are - i"m sending you lots of great wishes for a bfp.


xoxoxo,

- Suzhan

[samandaw1]

Suzhan-- Very exciting news. Like I have aid before, although I stimmed wonderfully and everything was smooth for me )they retrieved 16 eggs) I only had two by transfer day. I was so sad that I had nothing to freeze. Numbers are obviously not everything. It truly only takes one. I can't wait to hear about your success.

Wannababy--Good luck this Sunday/Monday. I really really hope it works for you this time. All sounds good with the process and I believe the yeast thing was a positive sign. A sign that those babies are holding on.

I find out in 11 days what the gender is. I have to say that I will be shocked if they say it is a boy as I swear it is a girl. A mother knows these things : )

Well my baby is craving turkey and chocolate right now so I am off.

[Lola]

Suzhan --- I had to sneak out to the computer to see how your transfer went. Yupee! That's even better what I had! I had 3 embies that were all 8cell grade 2!
I am so happy for you! See, we told you you will end up having a really good quality instead. Happy Thanksgiving and Happy 2ww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This will be a BFP for sure, I know it.

Sam ---- how can you tell it is a girl? Nice to hear from you again, gotta go. Lola