Oct 05 Cycle Buddies

[little R]

Hey Octofriends... well you have all been busy posting.
I won't say sorry again because you must be tired of the broken record I have become. Things have been hectic and don't have any time for myself but it should be getting better in the weeks to come as 75% of the work is done. I can't wait for this to be over now so I can move on to other things

Oh Lola... Je suis là...I missed your big day... shame on me... so when is your test date? You mentioned 13 days... sorry, hopeless at math. Brilliant little fighters you have, dear Lola... love the names...in not too long we will finally have some GOOD news for the Octoteam...about bl---y time!
You need to rest up and take care of yourself... lots of dvds and slutty novels I am sure Steph has plenty to recommend.

Sorry Jens... you're having a really hard time... one thing after the other. You sound like you are coping with everything at the same time. Let's hope that Xmas will be a day to celebrate for you and your family. Take care, sweetie.

Steph....yummy Thanksgiving...you sound very sereine....I always think of you when I go to my yoga class (the only thing I have time for now !) You are so right, DH will be happy when the studying is over. I won't neglect him anymore. Miracle of miracles...he is here for Xmas day....he never usually is...first time in a long long time. I am pretty excited about that I still can't believe you are hatching the little one SO very soon.

Camilla... first Xmas with your little one...very sweet.

Walshy...looks like you will be with Jen on the 4th raft... I guess you are feeling the moments of doubt about what you really want to do....it's so hard. Enjoy Xmas I say..forget the weight issue It's funny listening to you girls talk about weight... because I am thin as a rail and DH had to convince my father-in-law during my last visit in Switzerland that I wasn't anorexic.... a wild concept for me because I actually stuff myself at the dinner table. I am the other extreme and am often on the receiving end of comments like, "you'd get pregnant if you were fatter"!. I wish... doesn't work that way... Take care of yourself and heal during the holidays

My news really briefly... as dinner needs to be cooked

I am in the middle of my cycle and DH was briefly around so you never know (hahahahahaha, I can always dream ). Anyway we tried...if it failed well, I have a backup... my next cycle is mid December (13th) and I am planning on the FET. I have to go in for a scan around that time and then if given the OK, I start the meds...I am going to take it one day at a time and not stress as a lot could happen to impede the cycle. To be honest, I don't have much faith in the FET as our embryos are Day 6.... We shall see...

I must dash ...I will try and check in more often as Lola needs distraction according to the Stephmeister

Take care all of you....

Much love and sunny hugs for you all

Littles

[lolajones]

Hola chicas

Well, 2 down 11 days to go..........
No examination of feelings, twinges etc BANNED. Oblivion. Head in sand ignornace is the only way to go I opine.
So where is everyone? Eh? Eh?

Littles - almost done with the study? So you plan to have fet at the end of the year - we could yet turn this year around! And Christmas in Dubai with dh! Lots to look forward to lovely! Hope you have made extensive list for santa...

Steph - I worry when you don't check in that you've gone into an early labour so post! I can't afford the extra stress girlfriend. How you? How's little faith?? Demetrio is being good ivf buddy and popping to Starbs for healing hot chocs and treats. His santa costume is going down a treat on the mean streets of london and the local tanning shop is profitting madly from his tanorexia. Oh Demetrio, how your hulking frame gladens my heart.

Jemla Motown - slow down! Hope you have Christmas off???? About donor - why not? Like steph said, there are lots of things to think about if accepting eggs off family members. I know people (friends of friends) who did just that, the niece donated eggs and there doesn't seem to have been any problems. My friend is using donor eggs. She was on waiting list for about 2 years. Her ivf failed. She went to her dentist just after and got chatting to the dental nurse and blurted out what had been happening to her, Long one short, the nurse is donating her eggs! They've been through all the counselling and they're doing it in January! Some women are so generous - gives you faith in the sisterhood.

So I'm dawdling my way through this here 2ww. There is no tv prog so ass that I will not watch it. Goggle eyes. Almost can't wait to go back to work - who'd have thought?! Not thinking about outcome. have made list of all the good things I can do if its neg - its topped by latte and cocktails.

OK lasses, take it easy buenos
Lola
xxxxxx

[Inhale, Exhale]

Hey Yummies!

nope, no early labor for me. although I passed a window today and happened to look over at myself... I realized I am having twins... one is growing where it should, the other has decided to grow on my backside... wow, it's getting big back there. I am glad I don't have to look at it all day! Feel sorry for hubby... he must think I am storing up for the winter. 5 and a half weeks left to just keep getting bigger... will worry about the extreme size of my *ss after Babygirl arrives.. for now.. let them eat cheesecake!

Loo's- 2 days down.. 11 left until fab news of bfp.. then days of peachy bottom are over and you will love it. I like that you are ignoring everything.. that is my favorite way to go about life.. i recommend. When do you go back to work? not until after parentals come for visit? You have thrown me into hot chocolate addiction status. you mentioned them one day and now I can't get enough!! such liquidy goodness... liquid candy, warmed up to just the right drinking temperature... mmm.hmmm.

Littles- nice to check in.. we luv a good littles update. Luck with the rest of your work! and am so excited you will be cycling again! how are you feeling after your break from it all.. recharged? so, you are doing yoga... i will be so excited to get back into it!! miss it. luv it. need it. what type of yoga do you do?? I recommend the headstands! still say that's what did it for me! tadpoles had no choice but to hang out in there!

Walshy- well. where to luv? give us a glimpse of Walshworld!

Jen- thatta girl... you don't need no stinkin donor eggs!

off like a dirty shirt
steph

[Jen1d]

oh the madness in my life, the days are just not long enought

So have returned to work and all is fine. Have been kicking ass and sorting out some social workers as they are all ****, sorry if there are any reading this but it's true

Went out shopping yesterday in Glasgow to find a dress for my night out and feel like a big huge git----the diet must commence soon. It poured with rain and the one dress i wanted in Monsoon was not in my size. Tried to hunt it down today and could only find a size smaller so ordered it and will have to do some magic sewing works to it but its cool. Like a wee shirt dress and will wear my funky legging and heels under it---i know i'm trying to be 20 again. Wish my eggs could be to

I've been ok although this morning me and dh watched this weeks A Child against all Odds and i had a good blubber at the end of it. Still not as tough and ready to move on as i though.
My friend from London rang and her new boyfriend is a medium. Ok yes i know but he offered to talk to me over the phone and although i felt a bit of an idiot and was nervous i agreed. I was amazed--he told me loads of things but the best was that i will be a mum but its going to be a long road and before it happens i must start taking things slower and relax. He told me things about my Gran and myself, which were true and about dh and his lack of diy skills. I couldn't believe my ears and i have never met him and my friend does not know anything about my family. Weird eh but i will try anything. He then said at the end that i will have a son and my mum was told this by another medium a year ago---hope they are all right.

We have friends coming up from England today, our bestman and my friend who i met in Italy, they got together at my hen night so there is a lot of chatting and drinking to be done this weekend. Just what the Doc ordered before Feb

It brilliant to see you all back again and i promise to write to you all soon but am away to make soup, lasagne and apple crumble before the visitors come------bet your all drooling now

Lola - i really hope and pray you will be the next bfp and we have a run of good luck, god we need it. You take care bunny.

Ok off to crack open the Morgans or Sloe Gin, mmmmm which one first

Love Jen x

[Walshy]

Aloha.....

Lola- 7 days left i hope that it is going pretty fast for you as it seems to be for me I hope that you are relaxing and thinking of those little embies settling in and making themselves comfortable. All those twinges are them getting much depper in the lining to grow.. I am sittig here in the crossed position willing it to be... It is your turn....

Littles - Did i read corrently are you already started your cycle... I am so hoping that this is the one for you..... I have my fingers crossed. I will just keep them crossed from Ms Lola and then once Lola gets her BFP we can then pass all our PMA over to you... Let us know where your up to and whats happening come back and let us know.

Steph - You are so funny i read the fact that your having twins and one is growing out your arse hilarious............ Is faith kicking alot or is she still now as there is not much room?

Jen - how are you going chickapea.... Ok lets be on diets together but I think I am always on a diet....How is your mini going? And your house we haven't had updates for ages... Feb Your starting again ok good things come to those who wait so it better come to us soon...And your not going to need donor eggs we can do it all by ourselves.

As for me I have been for some reason eating like a pig it must be the warm weather or the beer I have put on all the weight i have lost. I am trying to make a conserted effort. Another firend announced her pregnancy today which again has knocked me for 6. Sh wasn't even trying for a week...... Some people have all the luck.

I have found a new liking to Ebay... I think i am going to need an intervention as I keep bidding on stuff I don't need and going higher as I can't let people win... I need to control something in my life.. I have to change my signature as I am now 29 and still no baby..........

OK I am going to have to get angry if we don;t get our photos soon......Come on Steph and Lola send us your beautiful pictures....

Til next time take care..... Walshy

[Walshy]

I just did my 100 post on the 100th page maybe that is a good sign about us........

I am trying to grasp at anything.........

[Inhale, Exhale]

Hey Sweetpeas!!

Hows the gang today?

I had very productive weekend.. christmas shopping, done. house cleaning, done. christmas tree up, lighted, decorated, done. I luv to check things off a to do list! I got the most gorgeous poincettas (sp?) from the local farmers market.. I luv flowers!

Loo-la-la-la.. how is it going luvey? are you keeping relaxingly busy? please post your test date.. I want to know which day exactly I will need to go back to my yoga roots and get this body into twisty pretzel position.. I am so excited for you to test.. I feel a BFP coming on.. much like a hot flash mixed with jitters! do tell what you have been up to.. are the parents in town and entertaining you?

Walshy- I hate it when people try for about 6 seconds and whamo.. preggers! everyone should have to work as hard as we do! No fretting the 29... 29 was lucky for me! I found out one day after my 29th b-day I was pregnant... may the 29 force be with you! as for pictures.. I feel your rage all the way from here.. good news! hubby and I purchased a digital camera over the weekend. picture will follow.. as soon as I am not big as a house so first I have to have the baby, then lose about 40 lbs. so as you can see, you will have your picture of me in about 2008. just kidding.. no hate mail! I will send one.. promise! as far as faith moving around.. she is moving as much as she's ever been.. she is not a very active baby in the womb.. think it will continue when she comes out and will be all nice and calm? doubt it.. that would mean it isn't our kid!

Jen- how was your weekend with friends?? did you party like it's 1999?

work calls
Steph

[lolajones]

Hola chicolas

Yey!!! It was getting a wee bit quiet around these parts but now you're all back!!! Well, almost (no names no packdrill littles)

Stephalady and her green fingers - you are so organised!! Dude I salute thee. I got a few gifts at the weekend and spent 2 hours of smugness at my planning skills...you've blown me out the water. We're not having a tree because I hate my dwelling. Also, we'll either be at in-laws (bfp) or in New York (bfn) so quelle punto? I do miss trimming up and stuff though. So are you all sorted for the birth? Got all your pampers, baby gros etc etc? I can't believe its so soon!!!

Walsher - congratulations 100! I hate women that get preg after 2 seconds - so selfish! I've also had friend pregnancy news. Its amazing how wierd "congratulations" sounds when uttered through gritted teeth. Ach, blow the diet! Enjoy the beer! have one for me - man, I could do with a glass of vino to relax. My dad is addicted to ebay - its a slippery slope youngster. Yes youngster!! For that is what you are!!! How dare you parade your sad 29 at my decrepit 37. Yes 3. 7. You could be my daughter! Except for my infertility issue of course....

Jemla - pan pipe breathes Calamity! Oooh spooky about predictions! Does that make you feel more hopeful? So when is your big night out? I love getting dressed up and hitting the town. Not done it for roughly a decade but the memories! Ah, the memories.

Well, 7 days left AARRGGHH!!! I'm back at work and have busy week ahead, interviewing for a new nurse for my team and random tomfnoockery. I've had wierd pains in my downstairs all day today - constipation or implantation. There is also pant wierdness that i won't go into. I doubt this is going to work loves. My folks are coming to stay for a bit, y'know, visit the big smoke and that. The 2ww is going quite quickly really, already half way through. I'm still in positive/negative limbo.
Oh, Steph my test date is 11th december. I've taken a day of annual leave, don't want to be at work when i get the call. Will not do hpt, I am an obeyer! You guys will be first to know. Please, oh capricious fertility goddess, lets finish 2006 on a high note!!!!

Righto gorgeous girls, I'm off to finish cooking, veg curry tonight - yummmba
Love
Lola
xxxxxxx

[Jen1d]

Where has everyone gone. I thought i would be coming back to loads of mail to catch up on.

So the guests are away and we had a great time. Its starting to get really cold here but the sun is shining and we took the kids on the beach to fly the kite. They were so well behavied---lucky people.

Anyway haven't had much time to think about our situation, just wishing my life away again until Feb when we can try again.

Is it just me and dh or does anyone else want Chrimbo to be over? I feel there is nothing to celebrate and it's not the same if you have no kids. Sorry am being a bit of an old Scrooge.

Am away back to work today for another s/o and i need to sort my Keychld out or he is going to end up in the secure unit for his Chrimbo

Come back girls.

Love Jen x

[camilla]

Hi,

Will endeavour to read the last lot of posts this eve but just wanted to log on to say Lola - thinking of you love. Please, please let it be a BFP this time.

Catch you later girls.


Camilla xxxxx

[Cla4]

Hi guys!

Sorry for barging in! I rarely get a chance to look over here but I always liked to sneek a peek at you girls - you always make me smile!!!!

Just realised that Lola has 2 snow leopards on board and wanted to wish you the best of luck. My maths sounds about as good as Little's but if I've worked this out correctly you test 11th dec?? yes?? Wanted to wish you the very best of luck. Will be cheering you on from afar and will make sure every inch of me is crossed!

Keep smiling all! you're fab!!!! sorry again for being nosey!!!!!

Cla
xx

[Inhale, Exhale]

Hello Oodles my Noodles!

Well, had doc appt. yesterday... it seems Babygirl is being stubborn little gal as she has decided she will not flip into proper birth position.... yup, she is breech and having a grand ol' time with it. She has 2 weeks to flip, then decisions need to be made.. either have a version at 38 weeks where they attempt to flip her by pushing on me from the outside or to schedule a c-section for the 39th week. Decisions, decisions... I was very upset at first, wanting the birth experience, not a surgery.. but all that really matters in the end is a healthy bundle.. not how she gets here! 3-4% of babes are breech... lucky us. I guess she likes hanging in Stephland and wants to stay.

Loo- back at work heh. keepin busy. just make sure to prop up those feet when you get home, take a chill. I know- who am I to talk.. but I assure you one day I will do it! No tree this year for you? I considered doing the same thing, but everyone insisted I have one.. I let them talk me into it.. silly girl. but I have to admit, it does lighten my mood to turn on the lights.. gets you in the holiday spirit.. now that the weather is cold here, it does feel alot more like the holidays. December 11th is marked as Lo-la-la-la feel good day.....

Jens- glad you had a grand time with guests.. I have a "family that I actually like to spend time with" holiday dinner this weekend with my girlfriends, our hubbys and the kids... we call it the anti-family dinner.. the boys watch sports of course, kids play in the playroom and we girls chat and wine.. it is the holiday dinner you actually like to go to..

Walsher- to knockered on beer to post? still celebrating birthday?

Camilla- you are such a "only time for a quickie girl".. luv em and leave em.

Littles- finish up the work and come back for fun time.

shake your groove thing
Steph

[Smita]

Popping in to give a big hug to Jen- I read your news earlier but was tied up in stuff- I hope you are coping better.
Why is all this so unfair?

Lola,
This octo thread needs some good news soon- Keeping everything crossed for the 11th for you.

hugs,
smita

[Jen1d]

Hi girlies

Oh i am whacked, just back from work with a keychild missing again last night and kept me out of bed he got a right telling off this morning, and i got him up early-------i know i'm evil

So we're all back, except Littles. Her life must be so busy now but thats no excuse, get back her now with some news.

Loops - oh so near, i can't wait for the 11th and BFP day. Any signs yet, has this cycle been any different to the last couple? I would hate to sit waiting on a phone call though, we get to take the test ourselves at home. Have you been watching Child against all Odds, what do you think?

Steph - Not long now girls, don't you dare complain about the pain or we will all be over to America and give you a big slap. Hope Octoprincess does a double flip soon. She must be having too much fun in there and doesn't want to come out just yet. You chill and enjoy the sleep---long lies will all be over soon.

Walshy - Great to hear from you. Don't be too hard on yourself about the diet, it will fall back into place after Chrimbo. I know how you feel though, i am constantly moaning about my weight and punish myself for gaining---why do us girls do it eh? I have been trying to watch what i eat although not dieting at this time of the year plus i've started running again a few times a week, which i actually enjoy. In Jan we will help each other and lose the pounds together.

Smita - Thanks for your hug, i've been needing lots of them lately.

Cla - Nosey away we don't mind. Thanks for your wishes.

So how am i feeling------not sure really, just sad its Chrismas without a child again and feel like i want it to be over. Even my dh said he can't be bothered to put the tree up and thats not like him. His attitude was "there's nothing to celebrate". Shame i feel so awful for him.
Did i tell you about our friends who visited, the guy was adopted, which i knew but had never spoken to him about it. He has never wanted to look for his birth parents and said it has never affected a day of his life as he has been loved. Made me think of adoption in a different light but thats a long way down the road i hope. First No 4 then if eggs are not up to scratch then its off to Barcelona for a donor but hopefully we still have the chance of having our own.

Ok luv ya and leave ya.

Jen x

[lolajones]

Hola my lovlies!

Sorry only time for le quick one - work mental and parents have just come to stay for a few days.

Cla - so good to hear from you - I still remember the little song you wrote when I got pregnant last year! Thank you for the body crossing - I need it!! So lovely of you to pop in. And congratulations!! How's motherhood?
And Smita! Thanks you too, your good wishes really mean a lot. I can't believe your daughter is almost 10 months already! Its gone so fast - you'll be ready to start for number 2 soon.....

Jen - love, wish I could happy you up. But you're right - number 4! Don't give up hope!!!

Steph - will send twisty vibes to faith, Can't blame her though - stephland is probably a fantastic place to live - when she leaves, I'm moving in. Not in a wierd way.

Walsher - check in dude, need Sydney sider update.

So, I'm really busy! today has been crazy but managed to find my new nurse. Regarding cycle - it hasn't worked, I can tell, I just don't feel pregnant. Its so different to both the other times. Well, I will keep trying as long as there's money in the bank and hope in the corazon dudes!
Test date 5 days away - so Jen, are you advocating the use of hpts??? Bad girl! The phone call is hard but would rather have blood test. Lets face it chicas there's no easy way to get bad news.

OK my sweet sweet girls
Hasta luego and take it easy
Love
Lola
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