December-January Cycle Buddy's Our New beginnings

[Haylie]

Ssalgado - am sorry tohear about your dad. Like others have said, no-one can tell you what to do you just have to follow your heart and also think what your dad would want for you. Many people have BFP's whilst being under immense stress so it is possible, what is meant to be will be. You are really brave and I'm sure you'll do the right thing take care of yourself. x

Susan - I also hope you and James can sort things out, as much as men go through this with us it is still not the same and I don't think any man will ever know the intense yearning for a child and to be a mum that we have. I do believe it is something that only a woman will ever know. I know what you mean about having a plan and having a break just leaves you in limbo but you need to grieve for what you have been through. I hope things work out for you.

Mominwaiting - it's the same for you, men just don't realise. I don't think they will ever understand the full impact of our situation. You must be in bits! I pray that things work out for you.

Carolyn - keeping busy is good but so hard cos your mind is else where. Hang on in there! Thanks for AF jig and Aunty thanks for the dance, she is still keeping abay but think she will arrive tomorrow or day after - fingers crossed.

Bec - Hope the nurse phones you soon. ER in 4 days - wow bring on your BFP!

Christine - Hope DH is better soon. Enjoy your party.

Everyone else I've missed take of yourselves. The weather here is dire, the wind and rain is awful. My poor dog is waiting for his nightly walk but I keep telling him tonight is definitely not the night to be out and about!
Hxxx

[Welshgirl38]

Carolyn:

Hang on in there hun - this might not be ur AF, this cud be summit else - ur in my thoughts and prayers every day. I know its hard and that u feel like its all over - but it isnt. U must keep up ur PMA hun, its tough but u've made it this far. U are a very brave stong woman, dont give up the fight yet - PMA PMA PMA

Keep hanging on to ur dream .....

Talk soon

Becky Xxxx

[veronika]

Hello everybody on this wonderful thread,

this is once more Veronika from the April/May thread. I am feverishly following Carolyn through her second cycle, and once in a while just have to pop in here to cheer on her.

But I also want to cheer on all of you great ladies, who are going through this together. I hope each and everyone of you will one day hold her little baby in her arms! I wish I could be with you THIS moment, but I am on a "little IVF break"... Sending all of you tons of PMA!!

Carolyn,
I am so so sorry to read that you had a little breakdown. I so know how you feel. But you're saying it: it aint over till the fat lady sings... Please know that you are not alone, and that I and so many women on this forum hope and pray for your BFP. It will work, Carolyn!

lot's of love, Vero

[ssalgado]

haylee and Carolyn thank you for the words, Carolyn keep positive... don't give up just like i'm not.

quick update: just have the nurse called me and said that my linning is in effect a little in the thin side it does have the triple layer which is good and she said that woman has become pregnant with measurement of 5 but the right # is between 7 and 9 so they are doing another us and blood work possible on Sunday am, and they postponed the transfer to Thursday dec 14 so will see finger cross, hopefully everything will be good for Sunday i then i can start my progesterone.

no major changes on my Dad.

[babyblue]

Susan - So sorry hun on your BFN. My prayers are going out to you and DH. The ups and downs of IVF are so extreme.

Carolyn and Angie - Hang in there. Be strong but make yourself relax. Angie, the walk sounded very relaxing.

mom - Your situation has to be very difficult. My friend at work was in the same predictament. However, she is 43. She had never had any children and he has two boys. She talked to him about IVF for 2 or 3 years and he didn't want to do this, so she scheduled them for counseling to work through this. She finally gave him an ultamatium of his own or donor sperm. She said she was not giving up on her dream of having children because he had changed his mind. He relented and they just finished 1st cycle in October (BFN). They are now ready to start next cycle and it was his idea this time to go again. A major change of heart. I'm not sure I could have given an ultamatium. Another option is having your eggs frozen, that way you have 32 yr old eggs even if you both agree to postpone for a little while. Sorry, don't know that any of that helps.

Hopeful - Hope they got lots of mature eggies!! Now relax and let them grow.

SS - Your dad continues to be in my prayers. I agree with Shantala that dealing with your dad may keep your mind off of IVF cycle. That is a tough decision, you know better than we do your dad's condition and the window you are working with on ET. Personnaly, if I had just got back from ET and I needed to be with my dad, I would be there no matter what my Dr. orders were. God carries us through many times when we think there is no way. I wish I could offer some better advice.

NP meeting Tuesday was good. I start BCP as soon as AF shows. If cycle is back to normal it should be 12/12. I start MicroLupron on 1/3/07. EC will possibly be 1/17/07 and ET on 1/22/07. Dr. plans on being more aggressive this time. DH said he feels much better about this one. This is good since this is his first positive comment since the BFN on 9/28.

[lara312]

Carolyn and angie this is just implantation bleeding so no more negative thoughts pma pma pma this time next week you 2 will be talking about youe BFP's so please dont give up yet like you said it isnt over until the fat lady sings and i'm not singing (not that i can anyway).
Haylie has af shown yet mine should have been here today and shes not so i will be late starting to i just want to get it started .
SS sorry ithe lining is still a bit thin but at least they are trying to get it perfect for your embies .
Bec its getting close now those 4 days will fly by .
Christine glad your feeling better hope dh is getting better to have a good time on saturday let your hair down and just relax my dh's works party is next tuesday (stupid day espically has its a free bar not that i drink anymore so i could take it or leave it i just cant be bothered to go out the girls in work are going out sat but i just cant be bothered to go . The weather here is horrible we have even had power cuts today .
Aunty you are so creative i bet your invites for the baby showers are fab if its anything like our lists .
Becky hope work is getting better
Shantala jan will soon be here before you know it you will be posting your BFP .
sorry for the ladies i missed hugs to everyone
love Rachel x x

[ssalgado]

Thanks babyblue for the words..

lara312- i know at least like usid they are trying to make it as perfect as possible.. so let's hope for the best now the transfer will be for Thursday Dec 14, finger cross...

[shantala]

ladies, ladies!! i'm really struggling to keep up and i check this board in my lunch hour and when i'm at home!! aunty - maybe me offering to keep the board up wasnt such a good idea??

gb - wow, i cant believe all the different costs you had. its surprising what money you can find when you have to, isnt it?? i was very tempted to go with ARGC because of their success rates (and with hammersmith as a friend recommended it) but decided to stay local (ish) in the end. i guess it would be ok for me as no immune issues but i'm very surprised at all the blood tests you had to pay for too. all the preliminary ones were done by the ivf clinic but on the nhs so that we wouldnt have any more to do once we start the tmt and are private. so that was very kind of them. but i think i might put it on my list of things to check. do let us know what decision your are going to make!! i'm obviously not sure what side of london you are living at but i know that oxford isnt far on the train if you want to consider it. they do have a very good reputation, like yours and hammersmith and seem to be very friendly so far. but then it just depends whetehr you want to travel or not.

ss - my heart really goes out to you. you are so strong. try and keep as positive as you can but at the same time dont forget about yourself!!! i think its lovely what aunty said and just keep all that in mind. we're all behind you!! keeping all my fingers and toes crossed that everything goes well for sunday. xx

bec - it is very suprising how strong someone can be in this situation. i just hope that i can stay like this. the closer its getting the more my fears about the actual tmt come back. i never worried about the jabs too much and suddenly i'm sh***ng it!!! lol. can you inject with your eyes closed?? lol!! it's great to hear that everything went well. cant believe you have ER so soon! wooooohhoooooo!!!

carolyn hunny - you and angie are so in my prayers. i think about you every day. stay strong and just think what this time next week could be like. the weather makes everyone miserable so you have no chance on your 2ww!!! no but seriously, we are all cheering you on here. not much longer to go!! its very true that with xfactor and xmas jan will be here soon. when you say it like that it really doesnt seem far away. and so grow the fears about the jabs!! hehe. keep up your PMA honey!!

mominwaiting - i am so sorry to hear about your situation. its a really tricky one as it takes two but i thought babyblue's comment about freezing your eggs was a very good idea. who knows, if you go through all that to get your eggs frozen he might realise how badly you want this and change his mind. its so hard. like my hubby (who has a daughter) its not quite the same as he has held his baby in his arms. but we've never experienced that and they therefore cnat possibly understand what it feels like. dont be too hard on him but at the same time dont give in and keep pushing. xx (you did make me laugh when you apologised for your post being too long....eerrmmmm....oops)

haylie - i'm with you on the weather!! what a nightmare. its dark when i get to work and dark when i leave work!! lol

becky - good to hear you're still around fairy!! xx

hi vero - its so lovely for you to come and cheer carolyn on. good luck with your break and whatever you decide to do after.

babyblue - so excited you can start so soon. you must be feeling really good to have dates. it's also nice to hear that your dh is coming round and starting to be more positive.

rachel - thanks - i really hope that i'll be posting my bfp here next year. hope you;re doing ok!!

thats it for now

bye bye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

xx

[shantala]

oh god, i truly am sorry about my long posts. i promise i;ll try harder from now on!!

x

[hopeful-in-LV]

Hello ladies, Hope you all are having a good day!
I had ER this morning. It went pretty well. I woke up in the middle of retrieval for some reason. I could feel my follicles being plucked like grapes (not really a very pleasant feeling). I heard the RE ask how many and the nurse said 15 eggs, I then fell back to sleep. When I woke up again I was in recovery and thought we got 15 eggs. Turns out we got 18 eggs! It's just a matter of how many will go to blastocyst. I'll find out about feritilization tomorrow. Feeling really crampy right now, more crampy than last time. But otherwise OK.

[Angie65]

well done Mia - what a great number of eggs - now put your feet up and relax after your EC.

Well I did HPT and it was a BFN so wish I hadn't. Did it at 5am as I couldn't sleep. I am still going to hold to a glimmer of hope that the embie implanted late (Tues/Wed) hence no hormone releasing yet . Will try again SAt and try to stay positive - to rub salt into wound, ran out of my lovely friends the pessaries, so had to go to pharmacy on way to work to pick up fresh (and expensive) supplies. Still spotting brown, not much - AF held at bay.

I am now worried about DH - I am mentally prepared - but he is taking it badly. He's quite stressed and not sleeping well. Mominwaiting - men are funny. My DH took years to come round to the idea of getting married and having kids - some kind of fear of losing his youth I think - but once we started trying and then found out had we had all sorts of problems, he really wants them. Crazy really. He also has told anyone what we are doing, so he has no-one to talk to about it except me - which is not healthy.

Dear Carolyn - I hear everything you say too and literally feel your pain. We are this together. God what a horrible week we are both having.

I guess I should be grateful it is beautiful weather and hopefully tomorrow we are going to the beach. But I don't want to go with friends but if it is just me and DH, I wonder what we are going to talk about.

Sorry everyone - will stop feeling sorry for myself. Don't won't to frighten you all away.

Love to all.
A

[ssalgado]

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[ssalgado]

sorry about a few crazy e-mails just trying to change my dates on my rule

Thanks

[AuntyPebbles]

TESTING TODAY

TWW
Angie65...FET Testing 11th2 Embies Snuggling in
Carolyn...IVF Testing 12th3 Embies Snuggling in
Jaby...IVF Testing ???? Embies in waiting
Hopeful-in-LV...IVF 18 Perfect Eggs

IN OUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS AS YOU MOVE FORWARD
Dory so sorry wishing you well in the future
Gbnut in our thoughts and prayers

STIMMING

Sokru8...IVF...9th December... EC WooHoo
Becleo...IVF...12th/13th? December... Poss EC WooHoo
Sassynlv...IVF...9th/10th December... EC 17 Follies so far
SSalgado...FET...14th December... Transfer(10th scan)
Jordan...FET...21st December... Transfer
Julie2039...IVF...7th December... Start Stimming


HAVING WARM MOMENTS
amcsmith...FET...2nd December....... Lupron (4th/5th January Transfer)
Sanny...IVF...22nd November.......
TransRN...FET...26th December....... Start stimms(On Lupron)12th Jan pos ET)
TCBalgord...IVF...13th December still praying.injection class(On BC)(24th start stimming)

COUNT DOWN
BabyBlue...IVF...12th December....... Start BC(Lupron 3rd Jan)
ArizonaKiwi...IVF...13th December....... Planning Appointment at clinic
Vickie...IVF...15th December....... Start Down Reg
Macca...IVF...16th December....... Start Down Reg (4th Jan start stimming)
Fed7281...IVF...18th December....... Start BC (20th Dec NP meeting)
Haylie...FET...??st December....... (waiting for AF)Start Downregging
Ems1971...IVF...21st December....... start Buserelin
Lori...IVF...24th December....... Start Stimming
Lara312...FET...28th December....... Start Downregging
JackieG...IVF...29th December....... Start Stimming
Mominwaiting...IVF...??th December....... Start Downregging
Aunty...IVF...2nd January....... Baseline
Paula...FET...10th January....... Possible Transfer?
Shantala...IVF...10th January....... Open Day at clinic

WAITING FOR START DATES
Mrs M.......??? November ......waiting for app from new clinic
HelloKitty.....Dec/Jan ....... FET
Mom20....11th December ..Appointment at clinic
Sully.....8th January....... Meeting with Dr
Jemima.....?? January.......New Cycle start
Tony.....?? January.......New Cycle start
Michela.....?? January.......1st Cycle start
Nimble.....Jan/Feb....... Start new Cycle
Souris.....Jan/Feb....... Start new Cycle
Charity.....Jan/Feb....... Start new Cycle
BigWhiteHapyDog.....Jan/Feb....... Start new Cycle

BABY DUST TO OUR FEBRUARY BUDDIES
Charity
Bigwhitehapydog

Birthday Count Down
JackieG..23rd December,Lori...28th December,Aunty....8th February,Nimble.....7th March,Shantala.....9th March,Angie.....20th March,Becleo.....3rd April

[AuntyPebbles]

Hey Lady's im so sorry ive been MIA ive been sooooo busy got hubbys party tomorrow night so of course ive been getting everything ready...

Angie im so sorry your still spotting i wish it would stop it must be driving you batty as if the TWW wasnt enough to deal with...im not giving up hope yet and i think your right it may have been to early for your test..fingers and toes crossed for saturdays ...hugs

TC have a fab time at the party..i know im going to on Friday woohoo....i see a hangover in my future

Jackie thank you for the birthday update...fab about the accu i knwo everyone raves about it

Shantala id love to do your invites im cant wait...i saw you withdrew your offer to fill in i dont blame you thank you for offering anyway im sure you will all forgive me if i miss a couple of days....hugs

SS sweetie its getting there and slow is good nice level build better than too many hormones....

Bec what an exciting time it sounds perfect come on eggies grow

Carolyn your also in my prayers everything crossed for you i think your doing really well with keeping away from the HPT's

Babyblue im so excited you have your plan

Mia 15 woohoo oooo i cant wait to read your fert post tomorrow come on swimmers do your thang.....prayers tonight for your littleones

im so sorry this is a quick one im pooped been on the go since 5 am bed is calling me...love to all Aunty