Hello ladies ... I am so sorry that I didn't reply sooner ... I was really down and didn't even have the energy to turn on the computer. But I was very thankful with all your encouragement messages, prayers, and thoughts. It's all so sweet of you ladies!

It really touch me deeply in my heart. Special thanks to those of you ladies who were not writing on this board and purposely drop in to give me these encouragement messages ... I am so touch!!

All those stories that supported my decision are a definitely encouragement and made me feel much better. Thank you so much!!!

I am so glad to have you ladies supporting me ... I felt so lucky!! Tt's really difficult for others to understand how I feel and why am I doing this.
I am feeling much better now ... I went in for my last appointment in Tue. Both the beanies are doing great, size is a little bigger than the gestation estimation. I was 10w and the babies measured at 10w6d ... I was very happy. On the scan, I can see both of them being so active ... kicking and moving so much. One of them gave a big kick and was flowing all the way to the top of the sac ... looked like he/she was praticing ballet in my belly. It was really amazing to see them doing that in my belly.
I don't say that I have gotten over this already ... but like all you ladies said, I need to look at the positive side and take care of myself for the 2 beanies in me. Thinking of all of you!! Prayers and lots of baby dust to all of you!!
My next appointment is approximately 2 weeks later when beanie will be 11w6d.
Cheers,
Ophee