December-January Cycle Buddy's Our New beginnings

Discussion group for all topics related to infertility including preparation for pregnancy, causes, investigation and treatment of infertility.
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AuntyPebbles
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ImageCongratulations BFP
Image(Becky cyber GM)
ImageJaby...BFP
Beta ??? ?Dp5dt...
3rd January .....First US???
ImageBecleo...BFP
Beta 141 ?Dp?dt...
26th December .....2nd Beta 194
11th January .........1 Perfect beanie
Imagelisag999...BFP
Beta ??? ?Dp?dt...
17th January .........First US
Imageamcsmith...BFP
Beta 134...
15th January ......2nd Beta 496
29th January......First US

ImageTESTING TODAY

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My2LnT...Test25thImage2 Perfect embies snuggling in Image
Raintree...Test26thImage2 perfect embies snuggling inImage
TansRN...Test26thImage1 perfect embies snuggling inImage
AMD...Test??ImageTransfer TodayImage
Vickie...Test??ImageEC TodayImage
Jodic...Test??ImageEC TodayImage
SilvaCharm...Test??Image17th EC Image
phxivf...Test??ImageTrigger Shot Tonight(EC 18th) Image

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ImageGROW FOLLIES GROWImage
ImageWISCONSINGAL...IVF...18th January...ImageTrigger Shot(EC 20th)
ImageFed...IVF...17th January...ImageFollie Count(??EC)
ImageEms1971...IVF...17th January...ImageFollie Count(19(EC 22nd,ET 24th)
ImageMacca...IVF...??th January.......ImageFollie Count?(EC 22nd jan)
Imagecookholmes...IVF...??th January.......ImageFollie Count?(EC 20th? jan)
ImageFionaA...IVF...??th January...ImageFollie Count(?? EC)
ImageTony...IVF...??th January...Image Follie Count
Imagekislany...IVF...??th January...ImageFollie Count

"Ovarian Vacation"
ImageAngie65...IVF...16th January......ImageStart BC
Imagemominwaiting...IVF...16th January......ImageStart Lupron
Imagecharlie78...IVF...16th January....Image(D/R) Baseline(17th start stimms (29th Poss EC)
ImageSSalgado...IVF...17th January.....Image(D/R) Start Lupron
ImagePMApsy...IVF..18th January......Image(D/R)Surpression Check (19th start Stimms)
ImageEmma27...FET..18th January.....Image(D/R) Start Stimms?
ImageAnge...IVF...21st January......Image (D/R)Start Stimming?
ImageArizonaKiwi...IVF...23rd January......Image (D/R) Start Stimming (5th feb follie count)
ImageAunty...IVF...24th January......Image(D/R) Suppression Check (25thStart Stimms)
Imagebeachbaby...FET...24th January......Image(D/R)Surpression Check
Image Hopeful-in-LV...FET...25th January.....Image (D/R) Transfer
Image CINNY1...IVF...25th January.....Image (D/R) Surpression Check(26th start stimms)
Imagesassynlv...FET...25th January...Image (BC) Transfer
ImageLara312...FET...29th January......Image(D/R)Baseline
Image Haylie...FET...29th January......Image(D/R)scan
ImageSanny...IVF..??.......Image

COUNT DOWNImage
Shantala...IVF...16th January.......Image Open Day at clinic
BigWhiteHapyDog...IVF...20th January.......Image start BC dep on AF (Baseline 2nd Feb)
Becky...IVF...7th February.......ImageFollow up with new clinic
Jemima...IVF...20th February.......Imagestart BC
Meg12...IVF...??th January...ImageWaiting on AF Image(Waiting to start E2)
JackieG...IVF...??th January.......Imagewaiting to start ?? Feb

ImageIN OUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS AS YOU MOVE FORWARD
Dory so sorry wishing you well in the future
Gbnut in our thoughts and prayers
Tex in our thoughts and prayers
TCBalgord in our thoughts and prayers
Sokru8 in our thoughts and prayers
Jordan sadly lost im so sorry in our thoughts and prayers

Prayers for a baby belly for you
Nimble cycle Jan/Feb
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Aunty..8th February,Nimble.....7thMarch,Shantala.....9thMarch,Angie.....20th March,Becleo.....3rd April
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Post by Ange »

Hi Ladies,

Just some quick personals so I can finish packing for mine and DH's mini getaway this week.

Lisa... good luck with your US this week. Keep us posted.

Fed, EMS, Cookholmes.... good luck with EC this week. Keep those follies growing!

Angie.. let the down regging begin!

mom, SS.. Welcome to the lupron party!

Sophie... Good luck on your suppression check. Stimming around the corner.

Shantala... Good luck at opening day at the clinic.

Aunty... thanks for the wonderful job you do on this board. HUG

Everyone else... Hope you are all feeling good and keeping the PMA.

hugs,
Ange
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Post by sassynlv »

phxivf: i do believe that i have failed to welcome you to the thread (aka looney bin :D ). congrats on triggering tonight! 17 follies is fab! wishing you the best for EC! The girls here are great, so if you have questions, ask away!
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Post by SilvaCharm »

Wow! a lot goes on on this board in a day, doesn't it? Well, hubby pulled the trigger at 10pm tonight and I'm set for EC at 9am on Wednesday. They will call me on Friday and let me know whether the ET will be on Saturday or on Monday (day 3 or 5) I'm so ready to get this all over with and be pregnant already!!

Cinny - as far as how many appts to expect: I started appointments 4 days after I began the stims, then I had to go every other morning for u/s and bloodwork for about a week. Then the past 3 days, I've had to go everyday for u/s and bloodwork. I go tomorrow (day b4 EC) for bloodwork only. I've been fortunate to be able to get all of my appointments at 7am, so that I don't have to miss any work. I haven't told anyone at work. I get PTO to use however I want, so if I need to take a day from work, they don't need to know why. I've already scheduled Wednesday off and told my manager that I may need next Monday and Tuesday off as well, but I didn't offer any details as to why. We actually haven't told our families yet either. I just don't want to get through the whole thing and get a BFN and have to relay that to everyone. Which is another reason I'm so grateful I found this board, because I feel I can talk about what I'm going through now and if God forbid, I should get a BFN, I can relay that info to the girls here and I know I will be supported, whereas with these other folks, I'm not sure everyone will be supportive and I'd have to face them everyday- and I just choose to not put myself in a situation to have to deal with that stress on top of everything else.

jodic - Sorry your MIL isn't supportive. Some people can be complete assholes! See, I don't want to deal with these types of reactions right now. I don't think we'll mention anything until we get that BFP. By the way, hope everything went okay with your trigger and you get lots of healthy eggies tomorrow.

PMA - Hope you're feeling a little more energetic today. I know that lazy, lay-around-the-house feeling...not really sick, but no energy or will to do anything.

Ange - You and DH have fun on your getaway. Relax and enjoy the time away from everything else and the time with each other.

Shantala - I didn't know you could choose to get a nasal spray instead of injections...interesting! I just assumed injections were the only way to get from point A to point B., But seems like it would be an awful lot of stuff you'd have to suck up your nose though, no? Anyone with info on this, I'd like to know as well...I'm just curious how this works.

Haylie - I hope you received the call that everything is perfect.

AMD - Good luck with the FET.

AMC - That Beta # means absolutely nothing to me :-), but looks like the experienced folks think you have multiples. Wow! Congratulations, again!

By the way, what's the Beta # range for a singleton?

phx: I hope you get lots and lots of mature eggies as well. We have EC on the same day. I'll be thinking of you...

Good luck and lots of baby dust to everyone else.

Catch you girls l8r!

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Post by meg12 »

Silvacharm: I think anything over a 6 is considered pg, but obviously the higher the number the better. Actually, the important thing is that the number doubles within a 24 hour period. For it to go from 100 and something to 400 and something in that time is pretty indicitive that there might be more than one baby in there!

This thread is so hard to keep up with right now--there's sooo much happening for so many of you! I'm just going to give you a blanket 'wishing you a well" and hope that you'll excuse me for my laziness!

I still haven't started AF, but from what I understand that's fairly normal after IVF (all those lovely hormones). I'm okay with that---I guess if my body needs to time to heal, it should have it. I'll let it be in control for a little bit---but once AF hits, watch out because I'm going to start dumping those hormones in! I'm ready for my little frozen embies to get back to me!
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Post by jemima »

Hi Ladies,

Just quick post.
I hope everything goes well. Sending you my prayer to each of here. I'll catch up later. Still busy being DH's driver, hope he can drive soon so i can have my life back :D :D

Sticky baby dust to all of you. GBU

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Post by mom20 »

just wasnted to wish you luck for this evening shantala im from the north east of England Hartlepool and im getting treated at my local hospital here in Hartlepool
anyway good luck mom20
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Post by Welshgirl38 »

Shantala,

Just wanted to wish u all the best for tonight :D i will be thinking bout u, let us know how it goes AS SOON AS U GET HOME - :lol: :wink:

Vickie: Same for u too hun, let us know how many lovely eggies you got.

Im in work at mo, so cant personalise. stay well ladies, talk soon

Becky Xxxxxx

1 IVF=BFN 2 IVF=BFN 3 IVF=BFP :) m/c @ 8 wks :( 4 IVF=BFN
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SHANTALA- good luck sweetie, I am so excited to hear how it goes!

Erin- sorry for your belly! have you tried a heating pad (ON LOW) at all?? I found it helped, and it is such a comfy feeling, GO PATS!!!!

MEG- shaking my ever growing booty for AF to come for you!!!

Silver- GOOD LUCK with ET!! you have done awesome, now is the "relaxing" part!!!!!! when I had my test to see if I was BFP, my clinic told me a range of 50-100 was consdered pregnant, if it doubled in 2 days then yup pregnant. and if numbers were really high indicated a pregnancy. BUT my SIL tested at 199 on day 4 and she ended up with triplets so who knows!

PHX- GOOD LUCH with EC we are here for you!

AMD- all the best for your EC too!

Momin waiting- I started accu a while ago but more to deal with my IBS symptoms. and it just kinda helped everything else. I did go in right before ET and right after ET this time and I am BFP?? so I really think it helped??

ok gotta fly back to work!!!!
but i wish all of you inall your different parts... THE BEST OF LUCK!!!!!!
hugs and baby dust!!!!
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Post by beachbaby »

Hi all, I'm still trying to catch up just want to reply to
Shantala, I am obviously too old for IVM but i am under LGI in Leeds and they are involved in this study, and i agrred for any of my eggs unsuitable for my use could be used to help the study. I think it will be a much better protocol as there is little strain on the reproductive organs. They are all hoping this is the future of IVF.
going back to my catching up now.
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Good morning ladies!

How are you all doing? I'm fine; still fatigued, but fine. We had quite a snowstorm yesterday; I almost decided not to go to work because the roads were real bad. But today it's all nice and white everywhere! January finally kicked in!

MY ABS ARE KILLING ME though! LOL I decided to take my Pilates DVD out on Sunday because I didn't feel like going on the stationary bike. Oooooooow! Hehehe but at least it means I did it right. I'll do it again this morning.

My energy is a little bit better, as I said. I had a big flash on Sunday evening and I wrote a long plotline yesterday. It will be nice to go back to my keyboard and write again. My friend/editor will be happy to receive chapters again; it's been almost a year since I stopped writing. Looking forward to get that Pilates out of the way, shower, and jump on my keyboard again! :)

I don't remember who brought up the OHSS prevention tips; I know Aunty talked about it, too. I checked various sources and they are somewhat contradictory. Some articles suggest using a different trigger shot for women who are at risk. Some clinics suggest drinking 3 to 5 litres of water per day during stimming helps, some suggest to avoid Gatorade because it's high in salt and potassium; they suggest Pedialyte instead... Others suggest nothing other than drinking lots of water and checking the blood tests very close, but are very clear about how drinking too much water can worsen the symptoms AFTER you've started OHSS. I guess one should simply ask one's doctor and see the rationale behind his/her answer. That's what I'll do.

Aunty How are you doing? You don't talk about you much; how are the headaches? Hope it cleared up a little bit...

Ange awwww you're SO sweet to me darling! Thank you so much for what you said, and thanks for your good wishes! I have no doubt that I'll start stimming on the 19th; can't believe I wouldn't be correctly suppressed after 16 days of Lupron. I'm really sorry that you're so fatigued, and I can really empathize. I do hope that your week with sweet DH will help and that you will be pampered all the time. You mentioned how hard it is to have your PMA high and then so low... do you want to talk about it dear? I'm right here if you need me; don't hesitate okay? I find it hard too at times.

sassy hello! No, I'm not sick at all; I figure it's just the meds. 13 days of Lupron's gotta do something noticeable to my system, and I think it's responsible for the fatigue. It's not totally clearing up, but I'm trying to stay awake and exercise more. Congrats on the lining! Ooooh all these efforts were worth something! I bet your DH is all proud of himself, huh? He did take a few for the team! ;) And bravely!

TansRN yes, the wait must be killing you! I can only imagine; the 2ww are not labelled the two weeks from hell for nothing! ;) About the new test... don't you go running around trying to kill some hamsters! (well... I figured you'd have to wait less to do the test with a hamster instead of rabbit... LOL)

jodic The best of lucks for your egg retrieval! How was your sleep last night? How did it go? I'm really eager to have news sweetie. I'M so sorry your MIL is giving you guys trouble. Having a baby is such a private decision; people should keep most of their comments for themselves when they're not specifically asked to share them. What kind of trouble did she give him if I may ask?

arizonakiwi don't worry; I had a very long AF, too. The spotting just didn't seem to want to stop. I figured it's because when you normally start taking BCP, just for the normal contraceptive effect, you have to wait 5 days after AF started. With IVF, we start it so soon (day 2) that I figure the normal AF bleeding is all disrupted, being "told" to slow down and stop too early in the process to really do it properly. Hence the AF-like spotting for more days than usual. Not very scientific, but that's the way I figured it.

Shantala: Hello sweetie! You must be so excited! Are you working today? Are you able to work? tee hee hee... the ladies are right; you've been an example of patience! Please do give us news asap! Has IBS calmed down?

tc: I'm glad you took some time off this forum and had fun with your friends! What a splendid idea! I find, too, that it's good to set my mind on other things.

Haylie: I hope your scan went well and gave you good news about your lining! What's the next step for you?

mom: I can imagine that not knowing why you have to go through all this can be very frustrating. An acquaintance of mine is in that situation; they've been ttc for over a year now and still nothing. She said she loses it sometimes and gets into quite impressive tantrums. Somehow, I guess, the whole unfairness of our situation seems even greater when you're left in the dark like that. *hugs*

Wisconsingal: Hello sweetie; yes, I'm doing acupuncture. Not as comfortable as I thought it would be (tee hee hee!) but I've done research in the serious scientific literature and sweet shantala here is right; studies show that it increases your chances. It has also the benefit, when your acupuncturist specializes in the IVF/pregnancy field like mine, to help with the side effects of the meds you're taking and lower your stress level. Can't do any harm to try, eh? My acupuncture treatment will go as followed: I started down regging on Jan 3rd. I had a first apt on Jan 5th (stress, blood flow to uterus), on Jan 12th (stress, blood flow, hot flashes) I have one tomorrow (I guess he'll address blood flow and stress even if the latter is very low right now; I've only had one hot flash at all; he'll also address stimulation). I'll have another one next week (stimulation, stress, blood flow), another one right before my transfer (just stress mainly, and blood flow) and one right after (blood flow and stress). There you go. That's five appointments.

AMD: thinking about you sweetheart! How did it go? How are you doing? I'm waiting for news! *hugs*

Becleo: Hello sweetie! So good to hear from you! So nice of you to stick around here! :) I couldn't help but go awwwww about your journal! What a nice idea! I thought about starting a journal of the kind for my children, but right now... telling them the story of how me and their father met, and how I got in trouble with that stupid and clumsy resident, and how I went through the IVF cycle. However, I stumbled over an IVF parenting article on the net and they actually discouraged parents to tell their kids in details how they were conceived (they were talking about the classical "how are babies made?" question). Though of course I agree that children and teens should not be told about how much money and trouble their conception was (to avoid making them feel special, or trouble, and create a rebellion or the opposite, guilt), I still think they can be told when they're adults... if they want to know. So anyway... I might keep that part for me... and, like you, start writing after my first ultrasound. I think it would make a far more positive book! ;)

AMC: HEY! But that's AMAZING! Sounds like multiples to me too, I agree with bec here! What a nice number! oooooh I'm all excited!!! Jan 29th! I'll sure be watching that date for news of the ultrasound! How are you feeling? And your DH?

mominwaiting: congrats on seeing the start date approaching so fast! :) About acupuncture, you might want to check my comment to wisconsingal in this post. I'd suggest you make an appointment ASAP and then decide on the other appointments then.

phx: how did the trigger go? Got some sleep? I'm with you in thoughts; go girl!

Okay... gotta leave those pjs... and take that Pilates mat out! Joy! Hail suffering! ;)

Take care girls,

Sophie 8)
1st and 2nd IVF = BFN 1st FET BFP! m/c at 7 weeks. 2nd FET BFP! 3rd FET BFN
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Post by ssalgado »

Good Morning Ladies!!

I hope everyone is doing fine, i saw there is a few new people WELCOME to our spot!! I am very tired yesterday was a very long ay and night my hubby was in the hospital with a stomach virus and 3 bags of IV later and a whole day spent on ER he finally came home, this one ladies be prepare because each of you will go thru this one, i gave my son a shower in the pm around 6pm and by 7pm he was out sleeping my son usually don't go to sleep till 10pm but i guess he was tired yesterday ..oh.. ...

at almost 2 am he woked up not wanted to go back to sleep and talking about his cars mad! i was laughing he was "argueing" about his toys cars it was funny , but not too funny when he continues almost 2.5 hrs later , me and dh went to finally sleep at 4 something in the am after he finally fell as asleep an i put him back to his crib because he didn't even wanted it to stay on his crib which is very un-usual for him.

Well not have to say that i am drained here at work today this am since 7:30am and with this cold and wind chill brrr......

Ange- Thanks for the Welcome on the Lupron part , really not looking for ward to the "pinch" but yes looking forward to start , finish and get GREAT RESULTS .. BFP it is all that i need with a birth of a healthy baby..!!!! Good Luck to you too on your beggining!!

Shantala - i know i have not sent the pic but i will... i am glad that you are finally starting your dream girl!!!!!!

Bec- what the heck is going on in New England??? do you see this crazy weather with the wintry mix and how cold is today!!! brrrr.... WOW !!! we really turn on the winter switch..!! :) How you feeling how is the sleeping mood... :)

Aunty- hang in there !!!

Fed- good luck on EC

AMc- hoping for twins??? good luck and best wishes for a healthy pregnancy....



And a Special baby dust for those on TWW..

Have a Wonderful Day!!

Susette
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1ST FET-DEC-2006 1 EMBY-BFN
2ND IVF-ICSI- FEB-2007- BFN
2ND FET-BLAST-MAR2007-2 EMBIES- BFP-3RD BETA WENT DOWN-LOST PREGNANCY.
3rd IVF ICSI OCT-2007 2BLAST TRF-BFN
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Post by Haylie »

Hi

The clinic phoned and everything is on course, my lining is as it should be so I have now started my tablets and I go back for another scan on 29th Jan with a view to doing the FET that week or the week after. I had to go home frm work yesterday with a pounding head and was in bed by 6pm! Anyway it's better today thank goodness

Shantala - I bet you are all excited about tonight, good luck

Silvacharm - good luck with EC hope they get lots of lovely eggs

Sophie - soory to hear you are really tired, it's not nice is it but it will be worth it when you are holding your bundle of joy in 9 months time! Enjoy the snow, I love the snow but it's really rare over here all we get is wind and rain but the sun is actually shinning to day so musn't complain.

Anyway must get back to work
have a good day all
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IVF Aug 06 - BFN
FET - Jan 07 - BFP!!!!!!

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Post by lara312 »

Haylie what did the hospital say are you on the next stage now hope your ok
Sophie sorry to hear that you are still tired i would not have the energy to do pilates in the morning hope the snow stops we have not had any hear yet .
Meg doing af jig hope she shows up soon .
Jodic good luck today hope they get lots of lovley eggies
Phx good luck with trigger shot hope it goes well
Hope everyone is ok will try and do more personels later
hugs to everyone
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Haylie must have been posting at the same time what time is your appt on the 29th i have 1 at 8.15am hope the headaches stay away
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