One step closer .....

[michelle_in_scotland]

Hi all,<br>We had another appointment on Monday, just for my Fiance to give a sample but we have to go back in 2 weeks to go over the results, so hopefully we'll find out soon when our ICSI treatment will be starting. It has been a long, slow process (almost 3 years) of Michael getting loads of different tests at the Dr's and hospital, then getting referred to the clinic to go through them all again, but it now feels like we are actually getting somewhere in making our dream become a reality.<br>So yesterday he said he'd take me into town and treat me to some retail therapy. It was just so typical, the one time he takes me to spend money on myself and i don't see a single thing i liked, 5 hours of going round the shops and all i buy is a hair dye, lol. Oh well, at least i'll feel a bit better when i get rid of the grey, lol.<br>It was great just getting away from everything for a few hours, that was until we went to get our grocery shopping and i saw the front page of a local newspaper. The front page story was about a 12 year old girl giving birth to a baby boy. I actually felt sick to the stomach and couldn't believe how cruel and unfair the world can be. Why can a child, one who's not even reached her teens yet at that, have the one thing we all want so much?<br>I know i don't post much, but i do like to read everyone's messages, you have all given me hope that one day my dream in having a baby will come true.<br>I would just like to wish everyone all the luck in the world that your dreams will come true too.<br>Take care<br>Lots of love<br><br>Michelle<br>xxx<br>

[SusieV]

Hi Michelle<br><br>My husband and I have been in the same position as you in that for the last 3 years my husband has had to go through so many tests and we have been told that for him to father another child naturally is like 6 million to 1. I am currently on treatment for ICSI. Procedure arranged for next week.<br><br>Your story about the 12 year old girl caught my eye. My husband's sister is pregnant with her fourth child all who don't have fathers. The father of her unborn child has also done a runner. She has considered abortion and adoption and actually said to us that she wished that we were having the child not her. Well I wouldn't've disagreed !!!! : (<br><br>My own sister constantly takes the morning after pill and thinks nothing of it.<br><br>I have friends who talk casually about abortion and when you are trying so hard for a child of your own everywhere you look you see teenage girls pushing prams. I find myself getting very upset when I see a child being mistreated or not being given the best start in life. It can make it so much harder.<br><br>SusieV x

[Di]

Hi Michelle,<br>Good to hear from you again! And so glad that things seem to moving for you - let us know how you get on in 2 weeks time.<br>Like you and Susie I too feel that life is very unjust - through my job I see alot of mistreated kids and it breaks my heart that more isn't done to help them. But you've gotta try and not get too wrapped up in it all and concentrate on yourselves with all that PMA!!<br>Di

[michelle_in_scotland]

Hiya Suzie,<br>I'd just like to wish you and your husband all the best for your treatment next week.<br>I know exactly what you mean about others getting pregnant and not being happy about it. Michael's younger brother became a dad in May but when he first told us his girlfriend was pregnant Michael asked him how he felt about it, he said he wasn't happy about it. I could've just smacked him one there and then, he knew what we are going through but still said it, i thought it was most inconsiderate. The baby is now 5 months old and i still can't bring myself to have anything to do with her, i know that sounds horrible, i'm great around other children just not new born babies but i suppose it's just my way of coping.<br>The sister of a friend of ours got pregnant 2 years ago and decided to have an abortion because they couldn't afford a baby, a couple of days after they decided to get a kitten and a puppy instead. I couldn't believe it, how could someone do that and then replace it with animals. It turned out they couldn't afford to keep the pets either and got rid of them within a couple of weeks, we took in the kitten as i love cats and already had 3 of my own, they are my babies.<br><br>Like you, i also get upset when i see young girls pushing prams or even hearing the way some people talk to their kids, i just think, why should people ike that be blessed with children. Where i live it's classed as the "rough" area of town, it's not my ideal choice but it's not that bad, anyways, most people in my culdesac are the sort that never go out to work, have loads of kids and yet can buy all the top gear, it's also those same people that talk to their kids like dirt, they think nothing of standing out in the street and shout and swear at full volume at their kids.<br>It just makes me so mad and upset that these people see their kids as a burden and not a blessing.<br>Well, i think i've rambled on long enough, i've a bad habit of doing that, lol.<br>Take care and i wish you every success for next week.<br>Lots of love<br><br>Michelle<br>xxx<br>

[michelle_in_scotland]

Hiya Di,<br>Sorry, didn't see your post until after i finished writing my last one.<br>I know what you mean about trying not to get too wrapped up in others, but when you see and hear about it all the time it's kinda hard. But now that we are getting closer to our treatment things are looking more hopefull.<br>What line of work are you in?<br>Take care<br>Lots of love<br><br>Michelle<br>xxx

[Di]

Hi Michelle,<br>I still can't take anything to do with DH's nephew and he's 5!!!! So I can fully understand where you're coming from with your partner's brother's wee one!!<br>I'm a community nurse and have worked in a few places around the country - and have seen quite a few sights to make you cry!<br>Di