December-January Cycle Buddy's Our New beginnings

[PMApsy]

Sassy: *hugs* You're welcome. Actually, the post before yours was the second I posted about that issue (the first mentioned a few points I didn't repeat in the second). Glad you saw at least one of them. And I'm also happy you're planning to stick around. I think you've made your point even clearer. Feel free to PM me whenever you want to discuss anything. Take care my friend, and hang in there.

Sophie

[hopeful-in-LV]

thanks aunty and tcb for your thoughts. I have a few more hours of waiting. should get the call btween 1 and 3 pm.

[sassynlv]

Mia: posted to you on the other thread... everything crossed for you!

[cookholmes]

Charlie78, that is wonderful news!!! Great job!

Shantala, I am sorry to hear about your DH, but now that he knows what is wrong he can get better.

Becleo, I am just getting more and more excited about Monday’s beta. And I am driving my husband batty with all of my demands, so needless to say, life is great! Lol Thanks for asking

That was funny about the virgin comment!! I should use that!! LMAO

Nouna, congrats on your 14!

Ssalgado, thank you for sharing your wonderful story. It really gives us hope GREAT follie count!!! WOW

Ange, I felt your pain!

Hopeful-in-LV, I think all will be ok, do not worry. I will pray for your good news.

[Welshgirl38]

I will respect that you are all in a place where pictures of children on the board are not a problem, and may actually be helpful, but can you also respect that I am in a different place (which as far as I am concerned is just as valid)?

Of course its valid Sassy, i do understand, i really do. When i got my BFN back in September, i found it really difficult to come here some days and see everyone going thru their cycles and getting BFP's. I was (and i am being honest) jealous, pleased, sad and happy - these feelings some made me feel that i shouldnt really be feeling this way as i have already given birth to 2 lovely girls, so i should be greateful yes? It just doesnt work that way, and altho some women will sit there and say - well u've got 2 i have none, im hurting more than u bla bla bla, that is really hard to take - what i try and explain to some of these women is this - If u have a child weather it be by IVF, naturally or adoption etc - does that mean that u wont want anymore in the future? Does this make me different than u (now u personally - just in general). I kept away from the board because of these feelings - I even said a goodbye posting - DH and i had decided not to go thru another attempt because of our feelings, and i didnt feel strong enough - i did keep in touch with a few ladies here, but through myspace, not on this board cos i couldnt cope with my feeling towards all what was going on.
As much as i want another child i have said this before and i will say it again, i would give up my fight to be a third time mum to give it to someone to be a first timer. As much as i want another child - and altho my want is (i feel) just as strong as a women who hasnt had a child - hen i would still give it up so that woman could experiance what i have. I do hope u get ur so much wanted BFP Sassy (and everyone else here) it is a wonderful feeling to have a life inside you, i will pray every day ....

Love to all
Becky Xxxxxx

[ssalgado]

hello there!

Pmapsy- totally understand your opinion, like we all have to respect each other's , all that i am saying is that her daughter is a live proof that IVF works just like my son ,no matter how long it'll take, today i met someone that did 9 cycle of ivf and Finally she is Pregnant!, YOU NEED TO HAVE THE FAITH !!! AND NOT THINK THAT YOU MIGHT SUCCESFUL!

Any how just want it to reply to your e-mail. Good Luck to you!!

cookholmes- Your very Welcome i am glad that it helps some how..

Sassy - good luck to you ... I am glad that you decided to stay.

Aunty -my next follie count is sunday- and retrieval possible on Tues, Wed i will know more on sunday.

susette

[bigwhitehapydog@aol.com]

Hi girls, I've missed so much, that I've been reading pages full. We have soooooo many BFP's. It's soooo awesome. I jump on and off cause I'm so busy at work. I feel bad when I miss so much. We even had a little heated tension going on. That's ok girls. This is a very hard place in our life to be in. We got on these boards to support each other no matter what. There may be some disagreements sometimes as in any family!!

Sassy: So glad you are staying. I know everyone would hate to lose you.

Aunti: you are doing so awesome! I'm so happy you have some follies on your right. I'm praying for very similar. That they can get to the ones on my right. I had quite a few, just not able to get them out.

Hopeful, I'm thinking of you and keeping my fingers crossed.

MOM: Hope you're feeling better about your doggie. I know it's so hard.

Well ladies, I promise I will try to be better about keeping track. I guess because I feel like my cycle is so far away that it will be so overwhelming to be on every day. It would feel like ions before I can start my stims, etc...

I'm actually going in for an ultrasound tomorrow to find out what in the world is wrong with my AF. It's so messed up. It's been the longest in my life. 2 weeks now. The bleeding has only picked up, and seems brighter and redder than normal. (sorry for tmi) I'm a little worried as I've never had this happen. I finally called today, and they told me to come in first thing tomorrow. I will feel better to know there is nothing wrong that will interfere with my IVF cycle. I'll let you know how it goes.

I'll try to be better about the personals. I just don't know how some of you keep up with it all. There are so many people on the board. Ta ta

Janice

[bigwhitehapydog@aol.com]

oh, by the way, I went on vacation last week. I needed some r&r time before starting my next IVF. I want to share the pics since I don't have a picture of me on myspace yet.. How do I post them? I haven't finished with the my space thing yet. hee hee. I'll try and work on that soon.

[hopeful-in-LV]

I'm so relieved! just got the call, i am continuing PIO!! yipeee! now i just have to wait till sunday to find out if my hunch is right. My butt will not get any relief, unfortunately. but if i am right then it is so worth it. thanks ladies for thinking of me!

[AuntyPebbles]

Hi Lady's
Sassy i have found you to be an amzing woman you've been supportive and so many times you've made me smile through the tears bringing laughter to some very painful times and experiences, I dont even know how to respond to
"that just doesn’t seem to be how this thread works"if you have been made to feel that way then i take responsiblity for it and im sorry that was NEVER my intention to make anyone feel like that, i truly would rather step back if i am giving that impression at all your all amazing and i think the world of you all i want you to be comfortable welcome and happy to belong here(not saying i wouldnt pop in and cheer you on), this was supposed to be a place for us to journey together no matter what stage of IF we where in with respect for each other

Saying all this i think im in a similar place to you well no hopefuly not..meaning i pray you get your BFP with your little fighter...where i am right now truthfully is i have a very slim chance of this working its a long story but i know my chances given my clinics actions are next to nothing,

so does seeing other peoples blessing upset me YES it does it tugs at a place in my heart that i think you have to be in that position to know what im talking about, was seeing the picture on the board a shock at first yes it was your not alone at all in that im sorry youve been made to feel that way, i love the fact we have photo bucket so at least i can prepare to go see other peoples little miricals, and like you i am so happy when it works for others.

I think i can speak for everyone when i say your very much wanted here and a very big part of us, your feelings count as much as everyones and AMC did a wonderful thing once she knew how it affected you (hugs for that) i truly want you all to be comfortable and your right this is a place for all of us ....

well better go make my bed nice warm clean sheets...woohoo

love and hugs Aunty

[jeck]

WooHoo MIA!!!! Bring it on Girl!!!!

Can't wait to hear your results!!

Jeck

[PMApsy]

Pmapsy- totally understand your opinion, like we all have to respect each other's , all that i am saying is that her daughter is a live proof that IVF works just like my son ,no matter how long it'll take, today i met someone that did 9 cycle of ivf and Finally she is Pregnant!, YOU NEED TO HAVE THE FAITH !!! AND NOT THINK THAT YOU MIGHT SUCCESFUL!

Since this was addressed to me directly, I'll be direct, too. You're talking about mutual respect and indeed that's the key. Again, that example you give here can be taken both ways. Yup, shows that perseverance works and IVF too. Always reassuring to see that some women do get pregnant with IVF. Also shows that that woman had a lot of money to afford 9 cycles. What use is this info if one doesn't have the money to afford that many cycles?

That being said, Susette, I do have faith. If I didn't, I wouldn't be here cycling in the first place, would I? But even if you scream it, sing it, hush it, dance it, write it in all the fancy characters you can find, draw it, I'm just not someone who will believe things at all costs (and literally in this case!). I use my realism to protect myself from being destroyed by disappointment as much as I use it to cheer me up. Others use strong faith to be able to keep up their courage and determination.

Hey, that's fine with me. But please stop screaming, okay? That post didn't read like you respected my attitude that much.

Good luck to you as well, Susette, and I wish you and I big baby bellies and healthy little monsters.

Sophie

[PMApsy]

Mia What a relief! Yay! Doing a happy dance for you sweetie!

Sophie

[sassynlv]

Aunty: i in NO WAY meant to imply that because you lead this thread, you are responsible for my feeling isolated. If it came off that way, i am truly sorry and please accept my apology. I was typing in pain this morning, and I was feeling attacked at the time. So i apologize for my tone. If typing it now, i would word it differently. Most importantly, though, how others react to me is not your responsibility. I know i am doing a horrible job explaining... but please know i am reaching out to you from my heart. You cannot leave us! I appreciate the hours that you put into the list, not to mention the time you take to remember us all and support us. I am so sad to hear that you, too, have similar struggles, as i would not wish it on anyone. Each of us has our own tortured IF history, and lord knows you certainly have your share. I know you are worried about your chances, and i will not minimize your concerns. I do, though, like everyone else, pray that this time works and you get your own big baby belly. How about a pact? Neither of us leave, and we all move on from here?

To all of you: i will do what i can to repair any damage i may have caused to the thread or relationships. My wish was sincere that we can move forward, supporting each other, in a non-judgmental way, so that everyone can be comfortable. We all are in pain here, and I am hoping that you will overlook my weaknesses. I have put the olive branch out, don't know what else i can do.

btw: after reading through everything, i think i came off as a "child hater" . I am anything but. My nieces and nephews mean the world to me and i have them at my house a few times a wk. if anyone is interested, pictures are on my website .

So, a few personals?

Mia: soooo excited for you! we know that is a good sign! good on ya'.

Wisconsingal: in case you come back... if not i will hunt you down over in Feb ... i can have my beta drawn btwn 0630 and 0830 on Mon, but don't expect results until that evening (since RE will be calling). Keep me posted!

nouna: glad to hear ER went well. 15 eggs is fab!

miw: sorry to hear E2 not cooperating. Was it better today?

oooo, Ange: sorry to hear about the underwear problem just means you can go out and get some pretty new ones, no?

Charlie: i think your ET is tomorrow, no? sending you tons of luck.

Shantala: Congrats on downregging tomorrow... here you go!!!

Sorry no more personals. WAY behind on prep for my even tonight (might have something to do with the hours i have spent on the forums today).

[Welshgirl38]

Sassy,

I dont think u have done any damage here hun, hopefully people will see this as a discussion - not an argument. Without having to go back into this discussion again tho, i want u to know that i DONT think for one minute u are a child hater. Your pain is not a weakness hun - its real and ur feeling it. And for that im sending u great big bear hugs <hugs> xxx

Lets just scrap the past 2 pages and start again

For now tho, i need my bed - i have a horrible taste/burning in my mouth (yuk!) i get this every few mths - its called 'Burning Mouth Syndrome' i dont know what brings it on or how to stop it - anyone know of any ideas? DH cant taste it when i kiss him either, so its just me (that is WHEN we kiss lol)

Right im off up the wooden hill ..... my bed is calling

Nite Nite everyone - tomoro is another day ...

Ohhh Shantala: Good Luck with the sniffing

Becky Xxxxx