The Sisterhood of the Blue Stilettos

[sassynlv]

Woooohoooo Mia!! Good on ya'! I am so excited for you... so here is #1 AND you have frosties for the 2 siblings . heeheehee, i thought i was funny you didn't ask for hcg... TOTALLY something i would do . The only thing that really matters is that the hcg was THERE! So Tuesday, huh? Very cool. Hoping for nice, strong doubling,

So for me, things aren't lookin' real hot. Haven't given up hope, just know the chances are slim if hpt neg again tomorrow. Tried to will a second line to show this am... May or may not hpt in am (ok, ok, of course i will ). Will know for sure by tomorrow night. See, Angie... had i flown to Australia... i would probably know already .

sorry no more personals, guys... will check in later.

ok, never mind...

Wow, you guys posted 3 times while i was writing this

Hey mego! Hope you had a great wkend. I recorded the superbowl on dvr so just started watching it. disappointed to hear the commercials aren't so fab this year... was looking forward to some good laughs this pm!

Hey, Fee... also wondering about your assistant... so when she ISN'T drunk, why is she laughing at the computer (assuming she doesn't have the Sisterhood excuse)? Are you sure she isn't laughing at the voices in her head?????? Hmmm....

ok, make that FOUR posts... and i am still writing wasn't real swift in English composition class...

Wannababy: i am seconding the Punter of the Week Award to your friend. I am thinking a very appropriate recipient . Now, after i just read your info about him "getting a pass". ah, what a b*****d! Wow, men. that takes it to a whole new level. he may need to be nominated for Punter of the Month.

Ciao

[wannababyIVF]

SASSY!!! ahahahahahahah!!!! Ok, I am sitting here laughing at myself. I sat here for about 3 minutes trying to figure out what curse word you were using. I know them all but guess I haven't been using them enough. That one failed me. I'm so embarrased!! But yeah he is a f***ing B*****d!!

Ok, I think I'm having way too much fun on here. I cant stop posting!!

BTW..SASSY..Keep your head up!! It's not over until the fat lady sings and you will be the fat lady singing or screaming in the delivery room one day!! I KNOW IT!! PMA PMA PMA....that's our motto. Along with all the other crazy stuff we belive in.

[FionaA]

Hey Sassy, good to hear from you. Hope you are OK! Hmmm now that you mention it, re my drunk assistant and voices in her head, no that was my last assistant. I didn't break her I promise. She's now on light duties and recieving appropriate treatment...poor thing.

Mego come over any time and sign up for the assistant's job. I don't know where she is today...certainly not at her desk. May be a vacancy opening up real soon.

And Wannababy, your mate is an absolute P**ck. I had never heard of a "pass" before either. He makes me want to vomit! I agree with Sass, Punter of the Week is not enough. He is a strong contender for Punter of the Month. And what should the "prize" for punter of the month consist of? I have a few ideas one of which involves a circle of angry hormonal women kicking said punter with their pointy shoes...

Fee

[sassynlv]

Kicking him w/their pointy sparkly blue stilettos, that is

[wannababyIVF]

I just did the laughing at the computer!! Fee, that was too funny! I can just imagine him being kicked with pointy blue shoes. Ohhhh, how about pricking him with some needles. Wonder if men react to the hormones the same way we do. hehe (that's a siniser laugh ). I am over here laughing trying to hold it in so people wont think I'm crazy...like your assistant who is missing in action today. lol Maybe she's still at the bar?

[hopeful-in-LV]

Meg, i'm sorry.. i'm having trouble reading all the posts, feeling very drowsy right now. that will teach me to post on 4 different threads. did i miss your post where you saw a heartbeat? Congrats, that is so exciting, I can't wait for mine!

I'm sorry ladies, I'll have to post more tomorrow. I'm about to fall face first on to my keyboard, i really need to take a little nap. I expect to read some thrilling news from Sassy tomorrow. Good luck girl, you deserve a BFP just as much as anyone. I'll have everything crossed for you! Thanks again everyone, have a lovely evening!!

[patie]

Salut ladies....

How are you all doing today???

Meg, how was the superbowl??? here we aren't much into sports... we'll go watch the tennis open next month...and that's much about it...we'r lazy people....

Fee...I like that "cripes" thingy...but how can we use it?? is it like "oh cripes...like oh sh.t?
btw how's ur assitant? did she find her way back to the office???

Mia...again congrats lady...this is great news...you gave me so much hope... that i am rethinking my break thing and maybe re-start soon....

Sass...you are almost there... be optimistic.... you see i bought that ring... which says in arabic... "if you wish for good...it shall happen" its all about being positive... i bought it when i started the IVF this time just to remind me to always be optimistic...

Wannababy... this punter is evil... i was imagining how to beat him with the blue stilletos and it made my day...this is hillarious...

Btw are the stilletos are they shiny blue or mat???

Vicky and Ange... how are ???

hugs to all...

[amy]

Heellllloooooo! (think Kramer)

I was just wondering if I could join your sisterhood. I do promise to uphold all of the moral and humorous articles presented in your initial declaration. I have actually read every single one of your posts and find you all so endearing. I was actually telling a "fertile" friend of mine about your thread and she told me that my ivf humor should be shared with you guys as some was wasted on her. Would you mind a third wheel?? I won't be offended if the sisterhood is full.

A

ps... you can also totally ditch me cause I do have one child naturally. but I am starting to think he might not really be mine and I might have stolen him cause with all the failures and testing I don't think he is possible.

[FionaA]

Hey Amy, nice to meet you and welcome to the sisterhood....Looks like you've been through the wringer trying to conceive #2. That should give you some pretty decent material to rant, moan or joke about...

Hey Sass, Will be thinking of you and your official test. I just can't work out when it will be in in Aussie time, right now it's about 4.15pm in the arvo (Aussie for afternoon) on 5 February 2007.

Patie, no sign of my assistant....

Well I just got more blood results in, e2 levels are improving. Phelbotomist asked me if she could grab a few extra vials of my blood so that they could calibrate their machine for the day. She told me that if a patient doesn't give them the blood then the staff had to. Felt sorry for her so told her to go for it and take whatever she needed...that's the last time I rock up the the clinic at opening time...

More bloods tomorrow - geez 21 days on stims and counting...

Fee

[patie]

hello ladies...

Hi Amy... you are more the welcome... i am sure you have a lot to vent and rant about....

Fee....good about ur test level.... hopefully things will progress to the best

Hugs

[vicky77]

Good morning everyone (well, I guess is not morning for everyone....)...

Fee, so funny about your assistant!!!, so she is MIA??........, about the blood thing....WTF???...you had to give blood to calibrate the freaking machine??.........that is definitely one for the "you know you've been doing this long enough if...".......that is hilarious!!! (sorry, maybe not for you , I just figured...), but I never heard of such a thing.......

Sassy...wishing you the best for today, will be thinking about you with my fingers crossed!!!!!

Patie.....no, I have never been to Dubai, I just read some things about it and saw some pictures, and now I really wish I could travel there!!!...yes, that was the hotel I was talking about, it is unbelievable!! (and it costs from U$7,000.00 a night!!! (wow, we could almost pay for a cycle with that!!! )...

Amy, welcome to the Sisterhood, of course you are more than welcome, everybody is!!!!, will be looking forward for some of your rants..

OK, going back to work so I don't have the same destiny as Fee's assistant....

[sassynlv]

Amy: Ahhhh, consider yourself a Sister! Having a child in no way precludes you from the Sisterhood (Heck, our own mego just got knocked up all on her own, too ). ooooo, did you guys like my use of a non-swear word????heeheehee. I am VERY impressed that you read through the whole last thread... shows some serious dedication to our cause ... and even after reading it, you still joined us! Amazing! heeheehee. I agree, our odd ivf humor really is lost on the fertiles in my life!

Fee: i know, i am perpetually confused re: the time difference. I think we figured out once that we on the west coast of the us are 20 hrs behind you aussies. So, right now it is 8am on Feb 5th, so that makes it 4am on Feb 6th aussie-time???? I think that is right. so do feel real important and all.. a vip... that they considered your blood "pure" enough to calibrate the machines? I'm thinking we get so few pats on the back during this whole process, you could choose to see it as an HONOR. btw.... 21 days of stims ???? WTF (that would be "what the freak"... turning over a new leaf )? Is that expected? remember, i am totally ignorant .

Vicky and Patie: that burj al arab hotel in dubai is amazing! dh and i were there last yr, and that was THE thing he wanted to see (yes, in the whole country, that was all he cared about ). Do have to say... it was VERY impressive! Didn't stay, just had lunch... and that set us back a pretty penny as it was!

So will get my "real" news later this afternoon... that would be around noon-3pm aussie time, i think? Thanks for your well-wishes, doing my best to keep the faith. Its not over 'til the fat lady sings... and i ain't opening my mouth yet!!!!

[wannababyIVF]

Hi Amy!! Welcome! I see you are going to fit in perfectly fine with this forum. I had to giggle at your comment about your son not being yours and you stealing him. It's funny how IVF warps our sense of reality. I think it also warps our sense of humor. Some people might think we're a little Looney.

Welcome again!

[wannababyIVF]

Someone just sent this to me via email. Not sure what to make of it. Part of me wanted to laugh, another part wanted to cry. Guess it's the hormones. Just wanted to share.

"Moms.....

We're taking a survey," she says half-joking. "Do you think I should have a baby?"

"It will change your life," I say, carefully keeping my tone neutral.

"I know," she says, "no more sleeping in on weekends, no more spontaneous vacations."

But that is not what I meant at all. I look at my daughter, trying to decide what to tell her. I want her to know what she will never learn in childbirth classes.

I want to tell her that the physical wounds of child bearing will heal, but becoming a mother will leave her with an emotional wound so raw that she will forever be vulnerable.

I consider warning her that she will never again read a newspaper without asking, "What if that had been MY child?" That every plane crash, every house fire will haunt her. That when she sees pictures of starving children, she will wonder if anything could be worse than watching your child die.

I look at her carefully manicured nails and stylish suit and think that no matter how sophisticated she is, becoming a mother will reduce her to the primitive level of a bear protecting her cub. That an urgent call of "Mom!" will cause her to drop a soufflé or her best crystal without a moments hesitation.

I feel that I should warn her that no matter how many years she has invested in her career, she will be professionally derailed by motherhood. She might arrange for childcare, but one day she will be going into an important business meeting and she will think of her baby's sweet smell. She will have to use every ounce of discipline to keep from running home, just to make sure her baby is all right.

I want my daughter to know that every day decisions will no longer beroutine. That a five year old boy's desire to go to the men's room rather than the women's at McDonald's will become a major dilemma. That right there, in the midst of clattering trays and screaming children, issues of independence and gender identity will be weighed against the prospect that a child molester may be lurking in that restroom.

However decisive she may be at the office, she will second-guess herself constantly as a mother.

Looking at my attractive daughter, I want to assure her that eventually she will shed the pounds of pregnancy, but she will never feel the same about herself.

That her life, now so important, will be of less value to her once she has a child. That she would give herself up in a moment to save her offspring, but will also begin to hope for more years, not to accomplish her own dreams, but to watch her child accomplish theirs. I want her to know that a cesarean scar or shiny stretch marks will become badges of honor. My daughter's relationship with her husband will change, but not in the way she thinks.

I wish she could understand how much more you can love a man who is careful to powder the baby or who never hesitates to play with his child. I think she should know that she will fall in love with him again for reasons she would now find very unromantic.

I wish my daughter could sense the bond she will feel with women throughout history who have tried to stop war, prejudice and drunk driving.

I want to describe to my daughter the exhilaration of seeing your child learn to ride a bike. I want to capture for her the belly laugh of a baby who is touching the soft fur of a dog or cat for the first time. I want her to taste the joy that is so real it actually hurts.

My daughter's quizzical look makes me realize that tears have formed in my eyes. "You'll never regret it," I finally say. Then I reached across the table, squeezed my daughter's hand and offered a silent prayer for her, and for me, and for all the mere mortal women who stumble their way into this most wonderful of callings.

Please share this with a Mom that you know or all of your girlfriends who may someday be Moms. May you always have in your arms the one who is in your heart."

[amy]

Thank you all for your warm welcome! I appreciate it and can't wait to chime in with a few things:

First, I have never referred to the "wand" as a dildocam, but coined the term "vagiscope". I have been at it so long I think I actually believe that is its scientifically correct name.

Second, when faced with adversity and frustration in this whole process I tend to belt out my theme song... in the wise words of Ace of Base, "All that she wants is another baby" (she's gone tomorrow boy, all that she wants is another baby, ah yeah yeah). Again, some don't understand but it makes perfect sense to me.

Lastly, girls do I have some reproducer stories for you. I have had some CRUEL and UNUSUAL punishments from some pretty nasty fertiles. Please let me quickly share one that I probably need to see a therapist for:
In the beginning of August I had them transfer my last 4 frozen embryos. I was literally putting all my eggs in one basket. My "final" hurrah. This is of course what I stupidly tell DH, but have of course gone to selling our worldly goods to convince him of "just one more time". Like an addict. So it is a very busy time for us, we are selling our house and moving (like an idiot I continue the FET) but I can't stop cause I am an addict. So might have been a bit of a stressful time. I go through the whole ordeal and get the most annoying positive on my first test - a 2! Which any HCG count below 2 is negative, but they can't rule it out cause it is a 2. So, I think - maybe I have a chance. The next one is 21. Then 46 and then 75. ...that is like a week and a half later of thinking I am finally making a come back and then the not so doubled number... and then is continued to not double and we all know where it goes from there. I end up moving (a whopping mile) and am DEVASTATED. Knowing I am having a miscarriage and have recently moved and am on the midst of a wrist slashing... my very close friend stops by. Thinking she might be there to console me, I let her in. Oh no my sisters... she is stopping by to announce to me in person that she is pregnant with her THIRD. She will now have had 3 in my futile attempts at another. So she sits me down on my couch and gives me the "I am not sure there will be a good time to tell you..." speech. I quickly want to throw up... but then my minds shoots to more violent scenes, and proceed to listen to her tell me that "I must have gotten pregnant right when you did your transfer cause my due date will be the same as what yours WOULD have been and I can't believe that I got pregnant the first try AGAIN. We are so fertile I think we are going to turn out like some show on TLC with 18 kids cause every time we try I end up pregnant." Ladies I wish I could day I was embellishing, but I am not. In fact I am probably leaving out a few cold comments. She knows mind you that I am currently dropping embies and not even done with my miscarriage, but thinks that she has waited as long as she could. Girls, I mean Sisters, I could go on for days cause ALL I have heard from her since August is a daily recount of how tired, sick and fat she is. She feels the need to CONSTANTLY complain about all things wrong in her (to me) perfectly fertile life. So what I ask of you know ladies is if I snap, will the IVF defense cover me?? Cause I am close to the edge....

Thank you for reading... getting that off my heaving bosom was better than any therapy session I could have ever attended... and it saves me some money for my IVF fund.

Sassy - can't wait to hear about your results today. I have been following your adventure and think you should think positively with them adjusting your progesterone levels.

Fiona - where I can I read about the adventures of your drunk assistant. Think you could sell a small screenplay to someone in Hollywood. PS... did you get a kickback for assisting them with the calibration. I have NEVER heard of such a thing!

Mia - Congratulations on the news. You must be so excited right now! Enjoy it!

Patie - Is Dubai as pretty as it looks on HDTV?? I see it on the golf channel all the time. That is as worldly as I get these days. PS... my DH and I were just talking yesterday about it and can't understand how it gets a "hallpass" from all the fighting around it. How can it be so majestic and serene in the midst of all the wars?

Wannababy and Vicky - thank you for the warm welcome!