
I haven't posted on here for ages for a number of reasons as I thought it was tempting fate etc but now I feel able to share a long and difficult journey with you all.
A brief history...
7 years of IVF hell...
1st IVF - Neg
2nd IVF/ICSI - Neg
3rd - IVF/ICSI - Pos - A beautiful daughter Katelyn Alexia born too soon at 24 weeks weighing 1lb 6oz and suffering with a rare and congenital heart defect. She went to heaven to become an beautiful angel ^i^

4th ICSI - Neg
5th ICSI - Pos - Missed miscarriage at 9 weeks after seeing a slow heartbeat. Now a twinkling star

6th ICSI - Pos - Twins! Another beautiful daughter Leah Marie but sadly she was still born at 20 weeks weighing 6oz and then a gorgeous son Kieran David born at 22 weeks weighing 1lb who tragically joined his sisters to be in heaven Two more beautiful angels... ^i^ ^i^


Rest in peace Katelyn, Leah and Kieran we love and miss you all.
7th ICSI - Pos...
At last our dreams came true on a very snowy Wednesday morning on January 24th 2007 at 10.29am our miracle daughter Chloë Mae was born by c-section at 38 weeks weighing 7lb 5oz.

She is amazing and I can't believe after all we've been through we have our miracle sleeping in her moses basket infront of me in the lounge as I type.
I never thought it would happen. After burying our 3 babies together in the graveyard and visiting them each day, week, month and year after year I really believed that visiting a tiny grave was my lot...
I knew I couldn't give up and I didn't. It was hard, bloody hard. The treatments the stress the tears and heartache have become worth it. The pregnancy was a nightmare. Getting to each milestone... 6 week scan, 9 weeks, 12 weeks, 20 weeks, 22 weeks, 24 weeks, and once we passed those milestone weeks the stress became unbareable. I spent Christmas and Boxing day up at the hospital on a CTG machine with major paranoia... I bought a sonicaid to listen to her heartbeat on a daily basis sometimes numerous times a day. I was on the phone to the fertility nurses and midwives, GP and councellor constantly with worries and scares. It was the longest 8 months of mine and DH's lives not to mention our friends and families lives.
But what I am trying to say is that if you have the strength and feel able to keep going please don't fall at the first, second or third hurdle, jump back on that rollercoaster and hopefully, just hopefully your dreams like mine and DH's will come true.
I hope by reading my story it has given some of you the hope and courage to keep on going.
God bless you all and I hope and pray that your miracles are just around that corner...
Much love Dagny, David and baby Chloë Mae xxx
