February Has My Heart - February Cycle Buddies Wanted

[mominwaiting]

CONGRATULATIONS WISCONGAL AND MYNAYA
I wish I could post for everyone but I can't today but I am thinking of you all that I can!!!
As for me, I had a huge scare that is still not completely over!, My numbers looked so badly on Sat that we thought we were going to have to cancel, but I went in on Mon and I had one follie on left that went from 9.7 to 15.7 and there were about 6 or 7 follies on the right 4 of them at least at 11mm so we are going to proceed, I have to stay of follistim for a few extra days my numbers are still low 292 on day 9, but Dr said my uterine lining looks great, he hopes to do ER this weekend or maybe Mon, not for sure I have to go back 2morrow and retest again to see if follies are doing any better, Dr thinks we might be able to get at least 8 follies.
My biggest fear is that I will be dropped by share risk because of poor response to med, that would be the worst, cause if I don't get preg on this try then I will be lost. I hate this cause I have been so calm through everything knowing that I had 5 more chances, now I am so nervous, but trying to keep PMA the best that I can.
HOPES AND PRAYERS TO ALL OF YOU!!!!!!

[WISCONSINGAL]

MOMMYINWAITING: I'M GLAD YOUR TAKING IT EASY...I SWEAR AFTER 10 YEARS OF EVERYTHING I'VE GONE THROUGH THIS "LAST" TRY FOR US WORKED, BUT IT WAS BECAUSE I WAS CALM AND NOT SO STRESSED ABOUT STUFF. I REALLY REALLY REALLY BELIEVE THAT WITH ALL MY HEART. I EVEN DID ACUPUNCTURE THIS TIME TO HELP WITH ANYTHING THAT MIGHT SET ME OFF AND GET ME WORRYING ABOUT SOMETHING. MY JOB SUCKS, IT'S A FAMILY OWNED BUSINESS AND IT'S RUN VERY POORLY. HOWEVER, THIS LAST JAN. THE BOSS WAS GONE (ALL MONTH) AND THE OTHER PERSON THERE THAT CAUSES ME GRIEF WAS LAID OFF.......SO I HAD NO STRESS.......I KNOW IT HELPED. PLEASE KEEP THINKING POSITIVE AND TRY TO RELAX THROUGH ALL THE REST OF THE TESTING. HUGS AND PRAYERS TO YOU AND YOUR DH!

[Jen1d]

Congrats to Wiscongal and Mynaya
Hope you are the start of our BFP's and we all follow

Dex - Good luck for your ET. Brilliant news about your eggs.

99 - Good luck for tomorrow

Carolyn - You sound so busy, you have to chill out a bit girl. So good you will be off and running soon. Chanting for AF to appear quickly

I'm feeling ok so far, only a few twinges in my ovaries. Do you guys think its ok for me to continue running every second day, i'm only taking the hrt just now?

Hey remember one of our friends, friends was getting married, already has a child and announced to me "married in a month, pregnant in two". We saw her on Saturnday night and it's nearly a year, she's still not pregnant and was asking my advice about doing an ovulation kit. Don't like to be nasty and wouldn't wish infertility on anyone but just have a tiny bit inside me saying hahaha serves you right for being so in my face and boasting---ouch that was nasty eh

Ok away to chill, had a run in with a social worker today and put her in her place big time----am stressed and need to relax

Hi to everyone as always

Love Jen x

[kswann]

Hello All,

I'm glad to see a list starting for February and to read all the lively emails!

DH and I are doing an FET on Feb. 13th. It is the last frozen transfer we can do before starting up a fresh cycle (duh!) probably at a new clinic. I am doing my level best to stay open in that way that used to be so easy in the beginning -- open to receiving an embryo, to feeling pregnant, to growing a baby. I look back now at my early optimism as naive, but it is just the elixir I wish I could preserve and give myself now.

I had a pretty big revelation yesterday. Somehow I think I have handed my body over to the medical system through this! It's as if once my body started failing, I forgot that it had it's own life, power, capacity, potency. Dr.'s became the ones who made my body do this or that -- I forgot that my body is STILL an agent in all this -- and not just a passive, failing instrument to be manipulated. Somehow that helped me feel strong and closer to myself. I went to my appt. yesterday with a sense that I owned the body that was getting the ultrasound... I am in charge here! I hope I can keep that feeling -- it's a good countermeasure to the humiliation you can feel in this process.

Like Souris and Nimble, we had to have a D&C after our first pregnancy. But that was, gees, over a year ago now. So sorry you had to go through this guys. That's sooo upsetting after all the time waiting for a BFP. We had the miscarriage early in this process after trying naturally for two months! I am DEATHLY afraid of getting a BFP with IVF after trying for so long and having another miscarriage. But I must NOT think of that!

Hope everyone is hanging in there and keeping spirits up!

Kswan

[REACH-AEJ]

Hi Everyone,

I have been gone for a long time...partially work and then I forgot my login id ---!!??? I got it confused with my work login ID and was very frustrated! I guess these meds are affecting my mind as well as my body!

I'm back and want to say congrats to Wiggal!! Wow!!!
Great for you and DH, you certainly deserve it.

Sassy - I'm so sorry to hear your news, but take some time for yourself and we are here for you. You have a great positive attitude - don't lose that because your time is coming girl!

I've missed a lot, but to everyone getting ready for ER and ET's...good luck and lots of baby dust your way! I will keep watching and praying for you all.

I am still waiting for AF to begin the process....I started spotting today and hope to start very soon. I am scared that I will have another cycle that drags on and they will say we have to wait again . I'm trying to stay calm and doing acu - hopefully this will help.

I will catch up on you all soon and good luck to all!

[Dexter]

Congrats WISC!! How exciting. I don't know you that well but we are all connected in a bizarre way via this forum. How excited you must be..WOW, a wonderful time you xx

Had my ET this morning and out of the 11 ferties, 3 had progressed to day three 4 cells, so they put one back in me (day 3) and we have the other 2 on ice. I got a lovely surprise from the lab this arvo when they called to say we had a little late developer that had grown to 4 cells and another one hey could freeze. There's one other they are giving til tomorrow to see if it develops to a 6 cell. All aside, I am wrapped that we got to save 2 and my specialist said the one they transferred today was a "very good looking embryo" which of course made me smile.

Had to go straight back to work this arvo, so not as stress free as I'd like, but from tonight onwards it's all about me and I'm taking the next couple weeks off. I really hope we get that sticky dust that you guys all talk about.

How did the rest of you go with your ER and ET's? I'd love to know your news...

Til Feb 21 (pg test day), I will stay away and not bother anyone with my obsessive thoughts and what ifs... Lots of praying to do...Who am I to talk ey...I don't feel as if I even deserve success, it's only our first go!!

Luv Dex xx

[CarolynB]

Wiscongal - Huge Congrats! So pleased for you

Sassy - huge hugs. I am so sorry hun

mominwaiting - hoping that it is all going to work out and that you can stay in the shared risk programme. If they accepted you - can they really turn around and then say no??? Thinking of you

Dex - great numbers and sounds like you have a fab one back on board. Take it easy over the next couple of weeks

Jen1d - rushing - that is rich coming from you with your sleep overs and running. Sure that running at this stage is cool especially if it chills you out.

Kswan - sorry to read what you have been through. It must be so rough after the high of the bfp. I can only imagine

Bed time as I have to go to work very early tomorrow in the snow!

Cannot believe that it is likely a week tomorrow when I start tmt. Think that I am in denial. I'll worry about it next week or the week after when it is really happening............

Love to everyone.
Carolyn xxx

[Minerva]

Sassy So sorry to hear about you. Do stay strong. We are all here praying for you.

Wiscongal a.k.a Mynala, Congratulations !!!

wannababyivf How is your stims coming along ?

Dexter, Good to hear about your ET. Do stay on and keep us posted. Every one here deserves a BFP

mom in waiting, I am hoping for you that it is all going to work out fine.

REACH-AEJ Hope your wait ends soon

CarolynB Hang in there, I am sure you will be relieved that you are doing something productive when you start your stimms

Sorry if I have missed anyone else...still trying to catch up on the previous posts.. PMA and Good luck to everyone else. Thinking of you all

I had another scan today. I have 4 nicely sized follicles (around 20 mm) and another 4 of slightly smaller size (around 14-16mm) on one side. Another 4 on the other side, but they are smaller.

I have been asked to continue Puregon and Orgalutron for today and tomorrow. Have been asked to take 2 shots of Orgalutron tomorrow to avoid losing any of the lead follicles. I am going in for my EC on Saturday. My HCG trigger shot is set for tomorrow night. 4 injections for me tomorrow (Ooh, poor me) .

Both of my previous ECs have been on a Friday. Thank God, this is not on a Friday. Hope this does the trick

P.S: I found out that peppermint tea is not for me. So, on to ginger ale for coping with Metformin.

[wannababyIVF]

Hi Ladies!!

Carolyn- Are you excited to get started? Next week will be here before you know it. I think you will be starting Stimms when I am in my 2ww. Please keep me posted on your progress.

Mominwaiting – I have the same question as Carolyn, can they take you out once you’re already been accepted? Is there some small print that says something about your body’s response to meds may be a factor in continuing treatment?

REACH- I totally understand about the meds affecting your mind. I was so excited to find out today that a side affect of my meds are forgetfulness. LOL

Kswan- Think positive! And yes you are in charge!

Jen- Blame the nastiness on the meds. That’s what I do. LOL I am starting to feel the twinges now also. Are your clothes starting to feel a little snug? Gosh, I hope I’m not the only one suffering from this because that would mean…..THAT I’M JUST GAINING WEIGHT FROM EATING TOO MUCH!

Dex- All it takes is one. Praying that your little one continues to grow! That would be so wonderful if you get pregnant on your first round! Please don’t feel that way. We all deserve success whether it’s your 1st try or your 21st try. Please don’t hesitate to come in and share your obsessive thoughts. That’s what we’re here for.

Minerva--sorry to hear peppermint tea is not for you. Do you not like the taste or it makes you sick. Ginger tea was hard for me to get use to. It burns my chest going down. But I got use to it. I was just thinking...if you weren't a fan of peppermint tea..then you might not like ginger tea either. Try the flat gingerale and plain crackers. Also, apple cidar vinegar works for me also. But it's strong. As you can probably tell I suffer with nauseous a lot.

My stimms are going okay, I guess. Starting to feel the twinge in my pelvic area. Also clothes are starting to feel a little tighter. I hate this part. Wow, 4 shots at once. And here I am complaining about two. I’m such a wuss! You’re so lucky your EC is on a Saturday. That gives you an extra day to sleep off the anesthesia. So does this mean you will have a 3 day or 5 day ET? I’m sitting here counting the days in my head. lol Good Luck to you. Will be thinking of you and sending you PMA and baby dust.

I have a question…does anyone else have some of the liquid leaking out on their body once they take the needle out? What about bleeding? Does anyone bleed when they get the shots? Sometimes I do and sometimes I don’t. Sometimes I have a lot of liquid leaking out and then sometimes just a drop. Also, sometimes I get a black and blue mark and sometimes I don’t. . Am I doing something wrong?? I hope I’m not screwing this all up.

Sorry if I have missed anyone. I was trying to go back and read all the posts that I missed.

Hope you are all doing well an I would love to hear everyone's progress. I also want to thank everyone for being so supportive. I don’t know what I would do without you ladies. I wish I would have found you all sooner.

Okay, going to watch a movie with DH. I have really been neglecting him lately. Spending so much time chatting in here.

[Hopeful2BPregnant]

Hey ladies:

Wow Wiscongal & Mynaya -- Major Congrats! You have started a February trend of BFPs and we all will follow....

Sassy, stay strong. There is a BFP in your future, I know it. I will continue to pray for you.

99 - Hope everything is well with you. The progestrone oil is not really too bad, just be sure that you take your time with the injection (really slow - my DH took a few minutes between pushing the plunger down a little at a time and not all at once). After the injection rub the spot and that will help spread it out and keep it from getting sore at the injection site. Hope this helps! Good Luck.......prayers to you.

Wannababy - you might be taking the needle out too quickly. Take it out slower and see if that doesn't stop the leaks. Sometimes I bled too. If you are on any kind of children's asprin, it is likely that will happen. Don't stress. Black and Blue marks are part of it, maybe you might be jabbing the needle in to hard if not you may just be prone to brusing. Don't worry you are doing fine!

Dexter - Good to hear about ET. Here is to a BIG BFP.

I went to dr today and everything is on track. We are doing Flare Protocol and I am praying this will work. Started subcontaneous microlupron shots today and tomorrow and begin the Repronex on Friday. Exciting! Thanks to all for all your kind words that have kept me going. I'm really happy now and I'm trying to help DH stay focused too -- giving him lots of attention.

tcbalgord - I am in the same position you are with a DH who has had a vas too. I don't have any children and we want one together. Can you give me any advice on how things are going or went for you. The dr is giving me all kinds of mixed feelings about the pesa procedure. Any advice.

Prayers to everyone, Julia

[Angie65]

Hi Ladies, mind if drop by? I lurk all over the board and already know some of you here. I am currently down regging for my 2nd attempt (3rd if your count the ET) and hopefully start stimming next week, after I have my scan on Valentines Day (great timing!)

Carolyn - you and I will be in sync again - lucky you missing the down regging. Here's hoping we can bring each other lots of luck this time.

Dexter - another Aussie - HI!

Sassy- you have been so positive this week - good for you. Look forward to hearing about the f/up appointment and your next plan of action.

Will try and get up to speed with everyone else and look forward ?!?! to sharing the next few crazy weeks with you.

[99]

Congratulations on the BFPs!!!!!!!! You gave me chills reading your story about how you found out! I know when we find out, either way, it's going to be a moment we'll never forget. My ER went really well yesterday but this morning the dr. called and said only 5 of the 11 eggs were mature or fertilized... So I hope they'll make it, it's amazing how much I already love those tiny little embryos! Please keep praying for me, everyone!

[mominwaiting]

Hi ladies i am in a hurry tonight so I will try to post personals 2 morrow,
the shared risk can drop you at anytime if they don't think you are worth the risk, with me not responding to meds well, they have the right to drop me if they want, RE said if I did not get preg on this try he would beg and plead with them to keep me because my med protocol was not right.
As for me I went back to RE today and my level has went from 292 to 453 which isn't great but it is still climbing I have to go back 2morrow and test again we are trying to get follies as big as possible so as long as level is rising I am going to stay on meds a few more days. I had one follie on Left at 19MM WOO HOO!! there were 5 on Right 16,15,11,11,8 so maybe looking at ER on Sat or Sun.
Praying and Thinking Of You All!!!!

[REACH-AEJ]

Wannababy - I never had a lot of liquid after giving an injection in the stomach area...maybe a drop or two. I did have blood sometimes (hitting a blood vessels I guess) and some bruised while others didn't...some stung badly while others didn't hurt at all. I guess it's all about the right spot.

Minerva - Good Luck on Saturday! I know it's exciting and you are ready. Relax as much as you can this week and let those follies grow!

Welcome Angie!

It's late I couldn't sleep...my best friend called tonight and she just had her baby Sunday. I'm so excited for them - their first - but, now I just keep wandering what it must be like or will I ever get to...to feel that type of...I don't even know what to call it. Anyway, she kept talking about the sense of importance she has knowing that it's her job to keep this little baby alive, etc. For some reason, that stuck with me as if the things I deem important really aren't compared to that...
Enough of that! Going to try and get some sleep....

Sweet Dreams to all and lots of prayers for success this month...

[REACH-AEJ]

OH!

99 - I hope your embies are growing and you have lots of luck for your ET!!! My doctor took a picture of our blasts and I had them framed during my last 2WW! It's amazing that we get to be a part of this miracle from such an early stage...that's one positive to the whole process!

Mom IN Waiting - That's awesome about the 19MM!!! Perfect! And I'm sure the lefties will catch up by the weekend! !

Wow, this is a BIG weekend...I will be thinking of all you guys and saying a prayer for each.