The Sisterhood of the Blue Stilettos

[amy]

WOOO HOOOOOO!!! Girls!!!

I am almost ready to start shooting up!!! I just sold a Gorham Crystal bowl today. It sold for $.99. Come on people... help me here. 99cents?? It was new in box!! Never USED!! Yes, it was not attractive, but come on! If I have about 9000 more of those sold I am in business. I might need to start piling on my statements that all proceeds go to "medical treatment" and maybe I will have someone give me more than a buck!

[patie]

Good Morning all you beautiful ladies....

Well to all of us ladies who ever thought of quitting or giving up....please read the thread posted by Dagny...titled "Dreams really do come true!!!"
she's an inspiration...i am now committed never to give up...not before my menopause...

Which reminds me...did you ready about that lady who had twins last week and guess what she was 67 yrs old....she had to lie to the dr about her age, she told him she was 55 so he accepts treating her....

Hats off....

Anyway...

Wannababy... I loved you rant!!!! but she needs to lighten up a bit, come on!!! i am calling her miss NEGA (as in negative)... i guess she's leading herself do depression...email her the stiry of Dagny....she'd need that as a lecture!!!

Vicky...the cruise looks great... now i am sure they'd find a solution but.... although i know how agonising the wait is... just in case you couldnt start this month (god forbids)... think of it as a refreshing boost... make it a worry free trip, enjoy it to the max...dance, eat, drink till u drop and release all the tension in you...so when you go back to the cycle you'd be fresher.... what do you think???

Sass, Did you get more supplies of pies??? it sounds yummy!!! how was the lost party...
You reminded me of my nephews, I have 3 boys... 2 for my sis (ages 16 and 12 back home in lebanon) and one for my bro who also lives in Dubai... but i miss the boys in Lebanon...they are going through the teenage mess and my sis is going mad... she suggested sending me her eldest to live with me as a training.... how i wish...

Amy, i want to do the immunology test... i already emailed my dr about the test i want to do, but he ignored me for the last 2 days... i should give him a call today and get done with it!!!!

Angie, Good luck with your stims..we are for you lady for any rant or firinf you feel like doing.... btw how was your wax appointment, i've been postponing mine for few days now...and its getting ugly!!! poor DH

Meg, how's work... I hope you are taking it easy!!!

Mia, Good luck with the scan...let us know!

Fee, yes we will send her the hunky guy instead of us as a support message to our sista... imagine!!! and that boss thing... who does he think he is???? ugly gut!!! i am sure he's jealous... shmuck

Anyway ladies... got to start work.... a bientot!

[FionaA]

Hello fellow ranters

Just a quickie as i am off home early, have to beat the traffic. I have been enjoying the rants of a blogger I found a few months ago and thought I would pass on the link..... www.herveryown.typepad.com/

This girl knows how to rant like nobody's business. I recommend her to you...

Fee

[wannababyIVF]

WOW---I missed a lot.

Okay, to update you all on Ms. NEGA (thanks Patie)…I’m not even sure if she has an id here. I know when she was going thru her IVF she was all over different sites, talking to fellow IVF'rs. Not sure if this is one of them. She recently told me that she stopped hanging out on IVF sites to help with the healing process. She said she has to accept her fate (not being able to have children) and move on. She’s probably now on adoption sites. I still speak to her (via email), thank God I don’t have to see her face to face! I give her VERY limited information about DH and I. Recently we’ve been talking more about our dogs than anything else. Probably because I refuse to give her any information and there’s not much else to talk about. lol I don’t want any added stress or negativity in my life right now. I need positive vibes and PMA for my future babies!


Meg---I never even thought of it like that. You’re right; I don’t see why we can’t be both. That’s my plan! How’s your little one? I thought about you last night. DH was looking in the mirror at himself (which he seems to do a lot) and says…."man, I’m going to the gym tomorrow. I need to lose weight. I think I’m just going to have cereal for dinner." I thought to myself. WTF?? Is this an epidemic?? Since when do MEN care about their weight? It’s not a bad thing but I was wondering if our DH’s are somewhere on a forum discussing their weight issues. lol

Angie—Yeah, it gets a little carried away when it comes to baby showers. But that’s just some of my friends. Not all. A couple of them have had a normal baby shower in someone’s home where the family cooks food. I’m not from Beverly Hills or anything like that so I have no idea what’s up with the $500 car seat. But needless to say…It’s still on the registry. LOL Funny thing is…she already has TWO!! Looking forward to your upcoming rants. I’ll be looking for it.

Vicky—I’m still dancing for your AF…in my blue stilettos. But honestly, this doesn’t make any sense. They can’t work with you. Do something to stop your period? Do something to bring it on? I’m mean…they are doctors. But regardless. You are about to have a wonderful vacation. Enjoy and take this much needed break. You so deserve it!

hopeful – I need your pregnant a** in here to give me hope and inspiration. Don’t go anywhere!

AMY---I am in tears!!! You are so f*cking funny! Not “Holy Batmobile”!! LMAO Then the receding hair, bad teeth, bad breath….THAT IS Classic! Your comments are hilarious!! It took me almost an hour to stop laughing. lol But I think you should be the Attorney General when you make that phone call for Vicky. Also, I believe there is an organization that gives grants and loans to women who can not afford IVF. I’m sure there is some stipulations and fine print, but it’s worth a look-see. I will see if I can find the link for you. I’ve never done the immunology test. Wonder if they will give it to me if I get a BFN this time around. OUCH…wanted to cry after I typed that. Damn, these hormones are a killer. I almost cried over a music video last night. It was an old love song. Can’t remember it for the life of me. Probably a good thing. I might start to cry.

Fi, I agree with Amy. Find his weakness and hit him where hit hurts! HARD! If that doesn’t work, spill coffee or soda on him by mistake. Trip and hit him with some really HOT coffee. Then say….Opps, sorry, Couldn’t see over my ugly, white gut! Then use the IVF defense if he takes you to court. He doesn’t know who he’s messing with!!! Thanks for the site. I’ll check it out, since I love a good rant, if I can tear myself away from this site.

Angie & Fi –I am also guilty of a round belly. The crazy thing is I secretly wish I would hurry up and get pregnant so I can have an excuse for the big belly. I also use my IVF cycle as an excuse not to diet or exercise. I tell myself it’s not good for the future baby. I’ll use any excuse not to exercise and diet. lol

Mia—Hope everything goes well with your Scan. Keep up posted.

Sassy—You are such an inspiration and a strong cookie! Keep your head up and start looking forward to that new plan...that will succeed. Good Luck and sending you PMA and a country loan of baby dust. But can you explain what a 2pm is? Couldn’t find it on the list of abbreviations. lol I was excited about the needles this time around also. Glad to see I'm not the only psycho. lol I think we all have warped personalities now. Would people consider us junkies? Addicts? "Hi, I’m wannababy and I’m an IVF-aholic. It’s been 12 hours since my last injection."

Patie – Love the Nickname!! THANKS! I did just hear about the 67 year old lady on the news having twins. Hey, I wont give up hope. Obviously anything is possible. lol But I didn’t know she lied to the doctor about her age. I guess doctors don’t verify your date of birth. They just ask you for it. Obviously she didn’t use insurance because they have your correct date of birth or they should. Will she get in trouble for lying? Guess it’s too late. She already had the babies. Don’t really need the doctors anymore. lol Oh yeah, and no hunky guys at the shower from us. Hey, I would want to see the hunky guy also and since I’m not going to the shower…then they can’t have that type of fun without me (yeah, I’m selfish ). So instead I say as punishment, for having a baby shower, we send over a big fat nasty guy with a nice huge belly. With receding hair, bad breath, missing teeth (thanks for the idea Amy), wearing a tee shirt with stains, Speedos with suspenders, white socks and blue stilettos. That will teach them!

Never made it to the market for the ice cream but I did have a nice big piece of apple pie and vanilla ice cream at work. Office assistant bought it in for us. It was heavenly! Thought about you ladies as I was stuffing my face.

Has anyone else sat down and day dreamed about how they would tell their family when and if they get the BFP. I think I’m obsessed. I sit here and envision myself announcing at the next family and/or friend event the big news! I think I have serious issues. I’m going nuts over here. I think I need a life. lol

Well tomorrow I go in for my first appointment with the dildocam/vagiscope to see how the eggs are growing. Hope to get some nice big ones! Say a prayer. Also have to get BW done. Oh joy, I get to shoot up tonight and then get stuck again in the morning. Can’t hardly wait! NOT! Last cycle I was teetering on HYP. Hope that doesn’t happen this time.

Ok, gotta go rip DH a new a** hole. He just sent me a link about a new SUV, with details of how much our payments would be and everything. Doesn’t he understand that we need to save money for day care, my new maternity clothes and my big wig baby shower (just kidding). But yeah, here I am making preparations for what hasn’t even come yet. Maybe I shouldn’t do that for fear of the big disappointment. ARGH!!!!

[amy]

Patie - You tell them you want immunology testing before you spend another dime! I can't stop thinking about had I just known I needed to be on heparin and baby aspirin that i might have gotten pregnant 5 years ago!! All the wasted money and drugs!

Wannababy - Thank you for the props! I sure didn't feel funny, but if I brought you any enjoyment than I am happy. I think you need to make time for the store today and treat yourself to a few desserts. Worth the trouble my friend. SAY NO TO SUVs - bad emissions and gas mileage. No need for one, you need your money for more important things... like THE SHOWER. I say fully catered, hotel, limos, the whole package. Let's do it up right. I will come in some sassy blue stilettos.

Girls I just wanted to wish you all a good day. Da%n job has me going to an ALL DAY meeting today - with NO internet access!!!!! The horror. I will be home later to catch up.

A

[amy]

Oh - the theme song for today: "Suddenly I See" by KT Tunstall.... we will all envision our fertile futures today ladies.

[sassynlv]

Amy: "Shall I start by apologizing for having to work today?". Yes, please. I mean, how dare you, stand us up for the ENTIRE day! . Sounds like you have quite the interesting job there, missy. ooooo... $0.99 in your ivf account? fab. You are on your way . Since when does a gorham vase go for $0.99?? As for my cycles, they will be considered three separate, but hoping for a discount... o/w maybe will just do two. btw, nice theme song for today... one of my favorites... can't help but dance a little when i hear it... definitely a "happy song"!

Vicky: just in case you have to wait a month.... i will STILL be cycling.. so we can be cycling buddies!!! I know, more of a booby prize than anything... but it is all i've got right now . btw.. still jiggying!

Patie: ooooo, thanks, the Lost party was fab! (although i was so tired that i fell asleep and missed the last 30 min ) . Luckily it is tivo'd at home. Got to play w/my 10 mo old nieces... they now crawl to me when i walk in.... ahhhh, my heart melts .

Angie and Wannababy: 2pn is the stage that the embryo goes through right after fertilization... the pn stands for pronuclei... but i think it basically just means 2 cell stage.

Angie: wooohooo! yep, that means we will be cycling together. Your suppression check is on the 14th, right? so will you be stimming right after that??

Fee: will definitely be checking out the ranter's blog...
You asked me on the other thread why they freeze at 2pn instead of letting them grow to blast then freeze. Now that you ask, i can't remember . Know that RE explained it to me... but i think i lost in my hormonal brain somewhere (at least that is the excuse i am sticking too for today ). Will let you know if it re-emerges .

Mia: how many? huh? huh? how many?

Meg: hope you are hangin' in there!

Wannababy: i am w/you... i think i, too am an ivf-aholic. (and don't they say admitting that is the first step in recovery? ). I find i go into cold sweats if not injecting for longer than a couple weeks (oh, maybe that would just be the lack of massive hormone levels my body now believes is normal ).

Ciao sistas!

[hopeful-in-LV]

We saw them, there are 2!!!! And they are developing very quicky. My RE was surprised and happy to see they both already have yolks. He says that they should have heartbeats within the next 48 hours. We are thrilled and estatic. My official due date is October 13, but since they are twins, will probably be born a little earlier. I'm only 5'1", I'm going to look huge!

don't give up hope ladies. If your intuition tells you to go for it, then do. We seriously were thinking about taking a 5-6 month break in Novemebr. But I convinced my DH to go ahead with it in Jan because I had "a feeling". we are soooo happy we did!

[wannababyIVF]

HOPEFUL!!!! That is so great! Awwww, twins! YIPPEE!!

Aren't you glad you didn't give up! You give me so much hope!

Can't wait until you hear the heartbeat for the first time! Keep us posted on the progress of little "hope" and "ful".

CONGRATULATIONS AGAIN!!

[FionaA]

Hey Ladies

Have been working my bum off this morning and so have not spent my usual first thing in the morning couple of hours on this site....

Now Amy thanks for your suggestion re the boss. He does have a receding hairline which will be fertile ground for much teasing...it's a fine balance as I rely on him to accommodate my many requests to be in late or absent due to IVF....How does one tease but not push him over the edge......

Your job certainly does sound interesting. I think we could get a Hallmark movie out of it...or wait, haven't I already seen a movie about a teacher in some down and out school with Michelle Pfeiffer???

Congrats on your EBAY success, you must be over the moon. I think you may just be able to scrape up the funds before menopause (or age 67 if you like...). Definately put in the medical treatment thing, how about "life saving" medical treatment...lay it on thick buddy...

And what is the immulogy testing about? I had heaps of blood tests at the start but I'm not sure that any of those were immunology...and what is herparin???

Wannababy, good luck with dildo and BW...did you almost have OHSS last time??? Have they reduced your meds??? I like your idea of violent reprisals for boss, I guess he couldn't hold a little "accident" against me could he???

Patie, I agree with Wannababy's stripper idea for the baby shower. That's revenge...quite the vision, speedos and suspenders....

Hey Sass, don't worry about not remembering stuff, my mind is like a sieve at the moment...I keep losing my sunglasses...found them in the garden the other week only to lose them again within days. How's it all going. Starting shots again next month eh??? I quite like the shots myself, couldn't quite figure out why, must be a sicko...

Mia I am very happy for you and DH, didn't know that embryos had yolks???? Wierd!! Keep us posted with progress reports.

Ang and Mego, where are you two "founding sisters"????

[vicky77]

Mia......wowwwwwwwwwwwwwww, so twins it is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, congratulations!!!!!!, I remember in November when you were thinkig about not doing it again for a while, thank god you did!!!!!!

Sassy.....thank you for offering to be my cycle buddie, it would be our 2nd cycle together actually, maybe this is the one for us, who knows!!!!. BTW, I love Lost!!!!!, but I don't watch it on TV, I wait until the season is over and watch it as a movie on DVD by Netflix........it is amazing not to have to wait till the following week (although you do have to wait a whole year for the season to end.....oh well...)

Wannababy, good luck tomorrow on your visit to the dildocam!!!, remember you should paint your nails nicely or wear nice stilettos as a good sis.....

Amy....that was so funny, I agree with Wannababy, you should be attorney general when you call my RE!!

Today, had my first acu session, ouch, you can actually feel some of those needles...., but I kind of liked it (I guess is part of the sickness of being an IVFaholic ).....the acu dr said she would put the needles in spots that should trigger my AF, so hope it is true!!!!!!. She also told me I should drink more water....that is when I told her I was a Diet Coke addict, and she gave me "the look" as if I have just told her I was on heroin or something, and even told me that Diet Coke, and everything that has sweetener (Splenda, Equal) is very harmful, worse than alcohol when you are trying to get pregnant ......so I guess I will have to start liking the idea of drinking water...(so boring )....

[FionaA]

Hey Vicky

forgot to give you a shout out in my last post!!! Sorry, when are you going on your cruise??? So much pressure for AF. Your acu sounds interesting, I can't believe that stuff about artificial sweetner, I was drinking heaps of diet coke and chewing lots of gum last time I stimmed. Hope i haven't buggered things up! So many things that we can't do!! Fee

[sassynlv]

Mia: such good news!!! Hope you are ready for twins! I would love to have twins.... done and over with!

vicky: yeah, i too thought the needles were a bit more bothersome than i expected. only did it a few times... i am an acu drop out. I am hoping that it helps your AF along for tomorrow. As for lost... this is the first season that we are actually watching it on tv... dh just couldn't take waiting this year!

Well ladies... i think my hormones took a precipitous dive today. Feel like sh*t all day. Only slept 2 hrs last night, kept waking up with anxiety re; one facet of ivf or another. Then in something like a deep depression today. All emotional again... and it seems like for no reason, so i am blaming it on the hormones... was on PIO, oral progesterone, estradiol and 3 estrogen patches at a time and off cold turkey about 48-72 hrs ago. If i remember right, this same thing happened w/my last bfn. dh is now suggesting maybe we hold off and just start cycling again in april instead of march... i think he just doesn't like seeing me so down. The bonus would be that we could join his family on Hawaiian vacation. But just don't know ... not sure i want to wait a whole other month. Now i am figuring today or tomorrow are not the days to be making any decisions considering the hormone dive... think i will wait a few days.

Are you ready for a story that is totally non IF related? Just a total tangent on the Hawaii topic... the only other time i have been to hawaii was 3 yrs ago when inlaws took everyone there for christmas. the first full day there, we went to climb out to the lava on kilauea. if you haven't been there.. there is no path at all, you just climb over slabs of lava tilted all different ways. it was dark... note to self--- do NOT climb out to lava in the dark . Halfway out (about 1 hr), it started raining. Note to self... do NOT climb out to lava in the rain... very slippery!. So i slipped, and fell 6 ft. couldn't see anything, put out my arms, but missed a slab that was tilted... and i landed smack dab on my R cheek bone. Yep, my FACE broke my fall (what kind of idiot lets their face break their fall ). it took 90 minutes to walk back out in the rain as i couldn't see out of my R eye due to the swelling, and i was bleeding badly from both arms, and i had trouble climbing as i was shaking due to shock. Then another 90 minutes to the nearest hospital. xrays, and CT scans later it was determined i had cracked facial bones, but no surgery needed. So i spent my week in hawaii sleeping, drugged up on percocet, bathing my multiple wounds on face (all skin taken off of R cheek) and arms in sterile water and slathering them in neosporin. As my face was TOTALLY swollen on the R, but normal on the L, my 5 yr old niece started calling my L side "normal sassy", and the R side "scary sassy". heeheehee. I did get some pictures of my injuries... but that is all i have to remember my only trip to hawaii by. Ok, ok, enough boohooing for the wk. Thanks for listening to my lack-of-hormone-induced-pity party. Expect i will awake in the AM back to my ol' "sassy" self! Thanks, guys.

[FionaA]

Hey Sass

Sorry to hear you are down. I think it is totally natural to have down days after a BFN. I know I had a few myself. Plus I reckon the hormones have got to play a huge part in our moods. And lets not forget that you've been on a massive sugar/ chocolate high for a few days now... maybe you need to withdraw from the chocolate pie thing slowly - so it's not such a shock to the system....

As for the anxiety, I think I told you guys I spent a few good nights tossing and turning about all the crap and the uncertainty with IVF...Again perfectly understandable...

I know I snapped out of my depression quite quickly (after a few days of wallowing in misery..). I agree perhaps it's not the best time to make a decision about when to cycle next although Hawaii seems damn tempting! It also seems like a wait to April is an eternity!!!

Now even in your depressive state you can make me laugh. That last trip to Hawaii was an unmitigated disaster! Nice work falling on your face on the first day!!! the details made me absolutely cringe!! OUCH! I love a good holiday disaster story....remind me to tell you of my Vegas episode one day...

Fee

[meg12]

Hi ya'll....I've gotta tell you, there have been some great posts lately. You guys are definitely outdoing yourselves. I'm a little behind in the postings (I know, usually I never shut up!)...just haven't really felt like myself the last few days. I have been reading diligently, though, so I am fully abreast of all the latest developments.

Amy--I'm hoping your ebay sales are looking up. I have a lot of stuff around here I'm willing to donate to the cause, but I have no idea how to do anything on ebay, so I think I'd have to leave that up to you. Surely we can do better than .99 cents! (Although that does buy some delicious fries at Wendy's!....sorry I'm very food oriented these days!)


Fee--I about busted my fat gut reading about your boss. Holy cow! I can't believe that schmuck! Too bad you have to worry about getting the vacation time---just make sure you're making note of all he says so that when you're nice and pregnant you can put it to him and he can't retaliate (some good laws protecting expectant mothers!!!)

Vicky--I'm soooo hoping everything works out so that you can go on your cruise and have a nice, worry free vacation. Please Auntie Flow, help our sister out!

Sassy--First of all, I love Lost! It's so great. How about Grey's Anatomy? Any of you watch that--I just finished watching tonight's episode and cried through the whole damned thing. Then again, I cry pretty much constantly anymore. I had tried to record Survivor tonight, but had set the stupid VCR to record the wrong channel (I keep telling my husband we need digital cable so I can have a dvr but does he listen to me??????) and of course when I popped it in to watch it and saw the wrong thing, I freaking cried. I cried because I missed the first episode of Survivor. That's sad.
Wow, how did I get on that tangent? I'm sorry that you're hormones are all fritzed out---honestly, the joys of ivf really never end. I think it's a great idea to give it a few days before you make any decisions. And a fractured face, huh? Very impressive. Anyway, are you officially off the pies now?

Mia--Twins are soooo cool. My hairdresser had twin girls in August. They are so special. You can tell the relationship they have with each other is already amazing and they're only 6 months old. I'm so happy for you! (And such good growers...way to have overachievers!)

Well, I suppose I should drag my big butt to bed. Hope everything is going well for everyone....If I missed anyone, I'm super sorry but I am a major space head any more (I mean, how hard is it to program the VCR???? Sorry---still bitter!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)