The Sisterhood of the Blue Stilettos

[Angie65]

Hey sisters - just wanted to say hello but sorry have to rush to see my little chinese lady who is going to stick needles in me. yep Vicky I am on acu bandwagon too - 2nd time for me. Will write more over w/e.

Take care esp Sassy - your are totally justified to feel down for a bit - you would be totally wierd if you didn't. bye for now A

[patie]

Hello ladies...

I just dropped DH to the airport he's going away on a business trip... he'll be back on the 14th.... just in time for Valentine's day... but the house is so empty.. So i am going to my brother's house where my parents r staying to spend the next few days....

Wannababy, daydreaming about telling the posi news to our family is all i think of during the 2ww.... its crazy how i think of what to say to each person and how i imagine their reaction ... its mad.... but its what keeps me going!!! because mom and dad are not getting any younger and i want them to see my babies and enjoy playing with them and running after them....
Talking about the applie pie with vanilla ice cream made me drewl... yum!!! and good luck with the date (with dildo)

Amy, you are right...today i went through the list of tests i did so far, because my dr suggested i do cos maybe i already did the imunology test and i didn't know...well guess what... I DIDNT... I mean i am not that dumb...anyway i will do the test in the next couple of days...

Sassy, I am sorry you are not feeling too well.... i know what you mean... those sad gloomy days... and sorry about the Hawaii trip...

Mia.... Yippy! Twins that's great... i wish you the best of luck...congrats to u and DH

Angie, and Vicky nice going with the accu... I am thinking of trying it i heard it helps...do u recommend it???

Fee, looks like you have alot of work these days... Good luck

Meg... how are you? How's work with you??? did your long shift end???

hugs ladies...

[wannababyIVF]

Hi Ladies!!
I'll have to make this a quick post as I just got to work from my date (with dildo). He was rather rude, no meal before or kiss good night after. The nerve!

But anyway, my RE said everything looks on track. I have a few eggs but they’re not that big yet. The biggest one is only 11. RE said they will grow. He said they need to get to 19 or 20. GEESH!! Please say a prayer that my little guys (or girls) will continue to grow. Have to go back on Monday to see if they’ve improved any. ER is tentatively scheduled for Thursday. With last IVF, had plenty of follicles but not every follicle had an egg (think that’s how it went). Today my RE said that there SHOULD be an egg in every follicle. Told him I felt a lot of pressure and discomfort in my pelvic area. He basically told me the pain would just get worse as these little guys continue to grow. I can live with that if I can get some big fat healthy ones out of this. I’ll just be in sweats all weekend.

Not feeling like myself today at all. Kind of down and tired. And all this pressure in my pelvic area is not cool. I feel like I have to use the bathroom ALL THE TIME! It's even making me walk slow...and just think...it's only going to get worse.

Good Luck to everyone and I’ll be popping in here later to check on all of you. I know I will have a few personals after I read the posts that I missed. I think I’ll go research an acupuncturist now. All this talk makes me want to do it too. I'll try anything.

[sassynlv]

Morning all. Well, i just freakin' slept 10 hours . Knew i had been sleeping like crap the last few nights.... but still! SOOO glad i had this am off work. Feeling better now. Just a bad headache... which means AF should be showing today... Vicky... I already had a chat w/her-- told her not to show her ugly face here until she visits you !!!

Wannababy: oooo yest, i was going to respond to your thing about telling family about a bfp. Oh yes... i have dreamt about that for years.. and it only got worse with ivf. At times i had it planned out exactly what i would say, what their responses would be, etc. I was going to visit my parents for Thanksgiving last year, and had my beta 2 days before leaving. I lied and told them i was having it the day i left and wouldn't get results until i was already there... just so that if it was +, i could surprise them off the plane . So yes, i TOTALLY get that. have to admit... have already figured out that if these cycles work and i get a bfp... i will hit 12 wks just in time to send out christmas cards with the announcement .

Fee: ok, as for your "why 2pn" freeze question... i now actually have an answer for you (thank you, ghost!). when they thaw blasts, they don't have much time to make sure they continue to grow well after the thaw before transferring them. With 2pn frosties, they see which survive the thaw and then continue to grow well... therefore being able to transfer the ones that appear most viable after the thaw. oooo, ghost explained this much more eloquently, but i think you will get the drift. As for Hawaii... i know, it has become one of the favorite family stories! I have decided one of these days... i am going to conquer kilauea's lava, just to show it who is boss!!!

Patie: sorry dh out of town, nice that you have family to go hang with in the mean time. Yeah, w/5 bfns under your belt, immuno testing is worth a shot (not that i know anything about it , but can't hurt can it?).

meg: oh yeah, i do watch Grey's Anatomy, although i find it annoying as all the residents are sleeping w/attendings----not realistic. Find it more annoying that they still call them interns in their second year of residency.... oh, don't get me started. BUT, i find myself watching over and over . So sorry re: missing 1st episode of survivor. SOOOO, just did a little research for you... you can watch the full episode if you go to cbs.com . Sorry you have been feeling yourself lately. Maybe all the work? Having m/s? Anyway, when is your next us?

Angie: hope work isn't killing ya'. Hope you enjoyed acu

You guys are dears to listen to my whining . Hawaii would be nice... we would have a place to stay, but plane tickets now would be real pricey and we could be using that $$ for cycling (hmmmm, what % of a cycle would that be?? heeheehee Yes, everything is now related to how much of a cycle it would pay for). At the same time, a wk of laying on the beach and scuba diving (plus a chance to "best" the kilauea lava... would be done the LAST day instead of FIRST day ) would be a great relaxer. Deciding to not decide until tomorrow. As it is, my first transfer (at the EARLIEST), would be end of July... seems like forever!

Have a great day, all!

Wannababy: you popped on while i was writing... glad to hear you have lots of follies growing... yeah the pelvic fulness isn't fun. Sorry to hear it is so bad this time. What, are we all in a funk? Hope you are feeling better later today...

[wannababyIVF]

Okay, as I was getting out of here I saw your post sassy. lol

I feel like crap today. I wish I could sleep for 10 hours. I too, have a major headache. I'm sure it's due to this DAMN hormones. I am so ready to go home, put on some comfortable PJ's, eat some ice cream, get in the bed and get back on the forum. lol

Okay, I'm really leaving this time.

BUT..I'LL BE BACK!

Smooches!

[meg12]

I think the Sisterhood is all in a funk. Now, how can we turn that into funky instead?

Sassy, I am having morning sickness. Only, it's more like all day sickness so it's really a pain. Feeling better so far today---I've found that as long as I eat constantly I feel better. Maybe that's why I've already gained 5 pounds? (All my books say you should only gain 3-4 pounds in the first trimester---I might just eat the damned book to prove a point.!) Anyway, I just really feel detached from myself. It's the weirdest feeling---I think maybe it's the hormones. Oh, the hormones. We definetly need to have a song dedicated just to the hormones in the Reproducers! Maybe we could have the Blue Man Group perform it....sorry, that was bad. Anywho, I go in for my next us next Thursday.

Wannababy--I think we've all dreamed about how we would tell everyone. For me, it's been a little anticlimatic because as soon as I tell anyone, I freak out that I've jinxed myself. Seriously, I get all shakey and even sicker to my stomach. So, I've stopped telling people until I'm farther along (see, just jinxed myself by typing that....) It just goes to show that there really is no end to the worry in this process.....Still, I think it's totally normal to dream about things like that. We might have fertility issues, but we're still human, damn it! (Sorry about the cussing, just can't stop!) I'm hoping your eggs continue to grow and that it's not tooo uncomfortable.

Patie--So sorry that DH is gone. Bummer. Hope the week goes quickly!

Well, I've got to go. We're having an office party and the other girls are yelling at me to come eat! Chips and dip, meat and crackers and Cake! Woo-hoo!!

[amy]

Girls - I insist we turn those frowns upside down... for this day I dedicate Rascal Flatts - Bless the Broken Road. We all have to go through these trying times to succeed!

oh and for Vicky - "Since You Been Gone" for her AF.

I will write more later, but HAVE to work again! Dangit!

[wannababyIVF]

Hi Ladies!!! Where is everyone??

Meg—ohhh, your office party sounds delicious. Yummy! Hope you ate continuously and didn’t feel nauseous. That’s a great reason to eat a lot. Can’t wait to use that excuse. How is your little one? So sorry to hear about your all day sickness. I agree with you about Grey’s Anatomy. It’s so entertaining but not realistic. I heard a rumor that a new cast member will be joining this month. I’m excited about that. Tired of being so involved with the same resident and attendee drama. Yang and Burke are really started to piss me off. Lol And Meredith, what’s with her incident in the tub…strange. I watched it last night and I am sitting here watching the rerun tonight. Lol I can’t wait until next week.

Anyone watch Desperate Housewives?? That’s another favorite of mine!

Patie—Enjoy the time with your family!! That’s great that DH will be back just in time for Vday. I’m sure that will make it really special.

Amy—Sorry, you have to work. I agree with you, we need to turn these frowns upside down. I need some of your wonderful humor. I am really down right now and I have no idea why. Well yes I do. I guess it’s because I’m starting to worry about this cycle because of what RE said today. I am afraid this cycle will end up like the last one. Had small eggs, lots of fullness, almost HSS and then..a BFN. So I’m a little nervous. Worrying about matters I can’t control. It’s a sickness of mine. I need to let it go. One of my favorite says…let go and let God (handle it). Now if I could only take my own advice.

Fee—yeah, I had slight OHSS. I had really high estrogen levels. I mean really high. I think I had my RE in a panic. He had me coming into the office everyday for blood work. Then he had me skip the meds for a day and then use the trigger so we could go straight to EC. I honestly think that’s why I didn’t have more eggs and bigger ones. I believe I had 10 follicles and only 8 eggs out of those. Then only 4 fertilized, then only two were “good enough” to put back in. Not a lot to go on if you ask me.  Today, he said there were a lot but still very small. He said they still have time to grow. I’m praying on Monday they will be bigger. I pray I don’t have the really high estrogen level again. That’s where it all goes wrong. Nope, didn’t reduce the meds at all. Just changed my trigger. Weird if you ask me, but hey, I’m not the one with the medical degree. I would hope that piece of paper would give them more knowledge than me. Lol By the way, I’m anxiously awaiting your Vegas story.

Vicky—No painting the toes for me. But I did put on some cute socks. Lol What about flavored water? Or water with lemon. I’m not a big fan of water either. I have to force myself to drink it. I try to drink flavored water (without the sugar). Or eat something really salty (like chips or sunflower seeds), which probably isn’t good for me either. But hey, whatever it takes to drink more water. What’s the latest on AF? I’m still praying for you. Hope everything works out for the best.

Sassy—I went through the same thing after my BFN. I remember crying when AF appeared. I never even got a chance to do a prego test. About 10 days or so after ET, I had cramps and then on 11th, there was AF. I cried and cried. I’m not sure how long it took me to snap out of it but I was excited to get started again right away. I had to wait a month to begin again. It’s okay to grieve, it’s natural. You are human. You’re your time. Don’t feel the need to rush the grieving process or make a decision about the next step. One thing at a time. I am glad you are here with us though. Your story about Hawaii was amazing. I can’t believe that. I think you deserve another trip to Hawaii and to give that mountain a piece of your mind. Something like that happened to me on my honeymoon. DH and I went water skiing (for the first time in our lives) on the first full day of our honeymoon. He hurt his knee badly. Now we are in another country and he refused to go to the hospital. But we did visit the nurse at the resort. She gave him ice, an ace bandage and Tylenol. Long story short we spent the rest of our honey moon mostly in our room ordering room service. We laid by the pool a couple of times and went to dinner a few nights. But no site seeing, long walks, extracurricular activities nothing. By the time we got back home, knee was really messed up. He had to have all sort of x-rays, therapy, and meds. It was a really bad sprain or torn ligament or something like that. I forgot. But sometimes it still bothers him. I think I deserve another honeymoon. Lol I too, am an acu drop out. I went for a month or two when I first found out about the luteal phase defect. I went for acu to get my cycle (particularly ovulation) in order. After a few months and the ovulation didn’t improve and the cramps were still bad…I stopped going. After this I went to see RE and here we are…

I have my first acu appointment tomorrow. I was wondering, how often should I go? My EC is tentatively scheduled for Thursday and then the transfer 5 days after that. I think I’m going to fit a massage or two in there also for good measure. Anything to get me to relax, or get these eggs to grow and implant.

I’m in the bed now with my PJ’s. The pelvic fullness is sooooooo not fun. I’m very tired and emotional. About to start crying while watching Grey’s anatomy…mind you I saw it last night. What the heck is wrong with me. Argh….have to shoot up soon. DH is out with his friends so I have to do it tonight.

Hurry back ladies, I miss you guys.

[sassynlv]

meg: so sorry to hear your m/s is "all day sickness". If i were you, i, too would be eating all day! I remember hearing ginger helps... don't know if that is real, or a old wives tale...
Vicky: so what happened????

Wannababy: You DEFINITELY deserve another honeymoon! So is your next us and bw on Mon? or do you have one tomorrow? I'm not sure on the acu (being an acu drop out ), i think people are usually there once or twice a wk and then most acus do just prior and just after ET. Sorry to hear you, too are in a funk. of course, with stims, i always become emotional and start crying at everything!!!

Not feeling very funny yet (mostly due to this horrid HA.. should be gone by am), but almost back to myself. Much better tonight than last night! I decided to go for March stims. Kilauea will have to wait! i feel real good about it (although part of me is wondering what the h*ll i am doing this again for!!!, and is dreading the 4 injections a day). I went in today to meet w/my ivf coordinator re: march schedule and when she walked into the room she said something like "i was so happy to see you were coming in today. I am so glad to see you still have faith and that you haven't given up." That made me feel so good and it was a little pick me up. We got a discount on our next 3 cycles (or my "mega cycle" as Fee called it... i think i like that!), which financially makes things much easier.

Anyway, wishing you all a great wkend!!!

[patie]

Hey Ladies.... How r you??? Hope enjoying the weekend as mine ended and i am back to work


ladies... I must be too depressed... but i googled blue stilletos... and I found these perfect ones as our sisterhood logo...check out the link below !!!
http://www.acclaimimages.com/_gallery/_ ... -3354.html

Wanna... Good about your follies.. I hope they'll develop fast... I am sorry u r not feeling very yippee... well the bloating and the frequent visits to the toilet arent a blast at all.... its an annoying phase!!! but it means things are kicking... which is great...
btw u totally deserve a second honeymoon... DH promised to take me to watch U2 live someplace in europe... but guess what! they won't be having live performances in 2007.... that's BS

btw i heard that the artificially flavoured water is not so good... Its better to add few lemon drops... I'm not a water fan myself.... but i always keep a bottle in front of me and take sips every now and then....

Sass... I also slept 10 hrs last night... it was sad... I was watching TV with my parents and suddenly i couldnt open my eyes... it was crazy... I had to drag myself to bed and i actually slept at 9pm
btw i think there's something wrong with me but after my BFN i didnt cry yet... maybe because i did a lot during the 2ww??? i dont know i feel a hudge void inside!! btw i am glad u decided to resume the cycle in March... we are all here for you babe....

Meg... how was the party???? lots of yumy food....hhhmmmm. I am sorry about the morning sickness, i am sure it will get better soon.

Amy, you are absolutely right... we have to change the mood... how about some funky and cheesy tunes... hmm like "fame...i am gonna live forever... " i love that movie/series....

Vicky...how's Aunty doing??? she 's surely messing with the wrong people...

[FionaA]

Well ladies, in keeping with the sisterhood funk I have turned into a psycho today. I am a very angry smurf indeed. Not sure why!! Feel like slapping someone.

Sass thanks for your feedback on the thaw, makes sense to me! Next time I may ask them to freeze mine earlier....Good on you for getting back in the saddle so to speak. I had a feeling that you would go that way...Roll on mega cycle!!

Patie, sorry to hear DH is away... not long to go till he's back though..Nice shoes by the way!!! I have found another pair of blue shoes that I am eyeing off in town. Can't have too many blue shoes...

Wannababy, sorry to hear you are feeling like Cr@p. That lower abdo pain absolutely sucks, I remember not being able to walk without being in pain from the feeling of my foot hitting the floor, nevermind going over speed bumps in the car! Sorry to hear about your OHSS, that scares the sh*t out of me. I guess they know a bit more about how you react to drugs this time, which is a good thing... Good luck with the follies and look forward to a progress report on Monday Loved your holiday story, definately need a second honeymoon...I'll tell you about Vegas when I'm in less of a psycho mood!!

Mego sorry to hear about the morning sickness. Eating sounds just the antidote, keep it up - you're eating for two (youre eating on my behalf as well- I'm still on a damn diet, why can't I eat whatever I wanta???) So eat away and think of poor starving me when you do it!
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Vicky what's happened with AF???

Amy, can you think of a song to turn me from psycho to normal(isH)??? I'm hearing ""Psycho Killer" by Talking Heads at the moment... I think I need something a bit more mellow! By the way, was out on my bike and Hit Me with Your Best Shot came on radio, cracked up laughing....

Fee

[vicky77]

Hello ladies!!!!, sorry, been MIA yesterday, but had to leave everything ready at work for my vacations next week....

Patie.....oooo those blue stilettos rock!!!, I was trying to paste them here, but I couldn't figure it out..., Ange maybe you can ask your IT guy ...., about your DH, not long til he's back, it is nice anyway to play daughter once in a while, being pampered by mom and dad

Sassy.....Don't worry about being down, it is normal, but the fact that you are back on track again is so amazing!!!, I am also kind of down (let me tell you, what is going on with us Sisters!!!)....

Fee.....talking about psychos, you think you are psycho?, probably nothing compared to me, this morning I started crying because we have to take my doggie (Sanson, that's his name) to the vet where they are going to pet sit him for the week that we are on vacations. I couldn't stop crying at the idea that he might think we abandoned him.......how psycho is that?????????....my DH was saying, "don't worry, the moment we leave he will start playing with the other dogs and he will even forget that we left him there"...hope he's right.... (as you can see, I have the "don't have kids so have a hairy baby instead syndrome".....)

Meg...how was the party?, haven't heard from you since, should I assume you are lying with your belly up still trying to digest all you ate?? ......how is your little one doing?, when is your next scan??

Wannababy....thanks for the water alternative ideas!!!, for now I am drinking sparkling water, I like it better than regular water. Probably in a couple of days will start withdrawing from Diet Coke.....

Amy.....loved your theme "since you been gone", for my AF

About me. AF still didn't show up, I hate that b**ch!!!!. Don't know what to do anymore, had acu, drank lots of red wine (someone told me it could bring AF, so I sacrificed and did it ), etc, now I think I am going for a jog, maybe that could help, who knows!!!. But if she doesn't arrive today, then I guess I will be cycling in April instead of March , but as many of you said, maybe I should see it as one more month that I can pamper myself........
Hope you are all doing ok.......talk to you guys later!!

[Angie65]

Vicky - you are a cheeky one! Have no more problems with IT guy now as Erin on the other thread taught me how to delete my internet history - saved my bacon well and truly.

Hope you all having good weekends.

Fee - big day for you tomorrow - hope it all goes well - what time will you have to get up to start getting ready? Takes a along time to adorn transfer attire especially if you include sparkly toe nails a la Sassy.

Well we've been looking at houses again this w/e. It's such a dilemma to choose a suburb but we have decided to stay inner suburbs. That way it will suit us either way. Do like my latte lifestyle , cafes and bars but the house we are looking, although not big, will still suit if we are lucky enough to have a couple of kids.

Just can't bring ourselves to go right out of the city and live in the "family suburbs" just yet. Anyone else have that dilemma? We want to be a funky urban couple (well try to be anyway) as long as we can. However the house we have our eye is very close to a primary school. Is that a sign do you think???

Still mellow from my down regging and looking forward to shooting up next week. Have been eating lots of cakes to prepare a roll of fat in my stomach to absorb the pain. Just had a lemon and lime tart with caramelised pears on top - mmm!

Have a great Sunday everyone.

[vicky77]

Hey Ange, so you ended everything with the IT guy?, aawwwwwww, he must be so sad ...hey, I'm just kidding!!!. I understand the "searching for houses" thing, DH and I have also been looking to move, we live too far away from where we work, and are now hating the commuting....., hope your search ends soon!!

Fee....wish you the best for tomorrow!!!, have a great tranfer, it has to be a "Reproducers" like transfer, with blue stilettos and everything!!! , you will be close to your pregnancy test by next week when I come back from my cruise, so I will be crossing my fingers for you while drinking some Pina Colada's.....

Hey everybody else, where are you!!!, this forum doesn't give you the weekends off you know!!.......really, I miss you guys, and today is my last day I might be posting until next week. I am leaving today to the cruise, coming back next Saturday. I do have internet on the cruise, but have to find out if it is expensive or not, might check once in a while. My AF didn't show up yet, so now I am praying that it comes on or after next Thursday so it gives me time to come back for my bw and scan, so stop jigging for now....bye, see you guys soon!!!, au revoir !!!!!!

[sassynlv]

Fee: WOOO HOOOO! the day has arrived!!! oooo, gotta post when you get home and give details. As a good sista, i am expecting that you at least picture the scene... but don't start laughing that would be high risk behavior with a full bladder! Do you need my sparkly blue toenail polish?

Vicky: if my dh was in on this conversation... he would say "just pinch it off". that's what he tells me if i REALLY have to go to the bathroom and he doesn't. Awful crude, but funny nonetheless. So, in other words... i am wishing you a wk (or at least 5 days!) of no AF. Not only so that you can cycle this next month... but also so that you can lay on the beach and soak up the sun not having to worry about those d*mn tampons . Enjoy! If you can check in, please do, o/w enjoy a fab cruise w/dh (!) and we will be looking forward to your report when you return.

Angie: ahhh, the question whether or not to become true suburbians. Yep, well, dh and i went to grad school in Denver. It has a great city feel and we had a REALLY cool little condo in a 80 yr old renovated home right downtown. LOVED IT. Now moved to vegas. I'm thinkin' Mia can back me up here... "downtown las vegas" is nowhere you aspire to live (although, they are building a bunch of high rise condos... but when we moved here they didn't exist). Everything here is pretty much suburbs... just varies by how far out of town you are. Yep, true suburbanite here. Gotta say, though, i really miss that 'funky urban couple' feel. So good luck on your decision... sounds like you have a pretty good range of choices there... sounds like the place you are looking at is cool. If i read you right... it is in the inner suburbs, near a primary school and has room for your babies? hmmm, sounds tempting.

Meg: have they unchained you yet???? If not, ask your boss really, really nicely to unlock those leg irons they have on you so you can come out to play . Hope you are well.

Well girls... woke at 2am last night in a COLD SWEAT PANIC that i hadn't done my PIO the night before. WHAT? i haven't been on PIO for a wk now! Ahhhh, ivf truly fries your brain

oooo, didn't tell you guys yet... mil has her 60th bday on Monday... so i offered to have the whole fam damily over for dinner today (sun) to celebrate as we usually get together. Well, one sil and her family just moved back into town w/their 2 kids so that would make 12 adults and 6 kids. So then my brother called yest pm.... he will be in LA visiting his girlfriend and they were thinking of coming up sun pm and leaving on mon (my bro is one of my fave peeps...). So had to run back out last pm just as the stores were closing to get more salmon and other food stuffs(its a religious thing for us... we don't go shopping, out to eat, etc on sundays...). ANYWAY... so if bro arrives, will be quite the shin dig... 14 adults (luckily that is the most my table will accomodate ) and 6 kids. Sheesh! Church this am, then i will be in the kitchen all afternoon! I love to cook for family and friends... especially healthy stuff, so although this is more than normal, i LOVE it! So here is the menu... Spinach and spring mix salad with red apple, toasted pecans, green onion and a mix of feta and gorgonzola cheese, french bread (ah, i am known for this... it is slightly sweet and best with jam... homemade of course!), "crispy" salmon served over a bed of warm french lentils and drizzled with a balsamic reduction. Then my sil talked me into making my orzo pasta which is done with lemon, cherry tomato and fresh thyme. Seriously carb heavy (i know how many loaves of bread these people eat!), but on mil 60th bday... gotta give the people what they want!

Well, i am up early as dh is trying to get himself a Wii, so went to go stand in line... i am going to go set the table!

Fee, i will have my computer in the kitchen and will check on you inbetween kneading the bread!!! Good luck!