Great to read everyone's news and see so much support on this list. When I read these lists, I can't help but want to cheer us all on and remind myself and everyone how damn courageous we all are!
I'm in the second week of my 2ww. We transferred eight embryos, but of those, the good ones were three blasts and two or three 3-days. It sounds like a lot. You would think I'd be on the edge of my seat with excitement but...I'm starting to get anxious. There have just been so many months of bad news. I have no symptoms and even though I've been pregnant twice (and miscarried) and each time got no symptoms, I can't seem to let go of the idea that I should be feeling pregnant by now!! Nuts!! So because I'm not feeling anything (except sleepy from the progesterone shots) a part of me has concluded it's over for this cycle. I feel guilty about that becasue I'm prematurely abandonning my embryos
I was doing so well last week but am really working hard this week to remind myself to keep an open mind and not get hopeless. It's just so hard to get the space to see the big picture when all this is going on...Plus, I am at a week long conference and my ex (who ended our relationship to marry a friend of mine, now his wife!) is here with said wife and their six month old baby! It's an annual conference where everyone knows each other and all meet in one room -- only one baby here -- theirs, and every time she googles you can hear her across the room! Fortunately, I have a wonderful husband here and the good sense to realize that comparing myself to this woman is a wicked form of self punishment. Hard to deal with, nonetheless.
Other than that, a few words for some of you on the list, but lots of good wishes to all, even if I don't respond to you here:
Sat14
You ask if accupuncture has been helpful. I would say yes, although I don't have evidence to say it has helped us get pregnant...of course. On the up side, there are studies that say it increases your chances with IVF success (can't remember if you're and IVFer) and it certainly helps me to relax before and after the treatment (advised). Unfortunately, it took me four accupuncturists until I found one I liked, but I wouldn't do this without accupuncture. Must say though, with the shots and the needles, us ladies really turn into human pincushions through this process!!
Pep23
Thanks for your good wishes on our embies. I am hoping one sticks. Even two -- I'd love to have twins at this point. And thanks too for asking about the massage, it went well. Very basic instruction on Thai massage. Now all my husband and I need to do is find the time to practice! Hope your accupuncture went well. I know you were excited. Was it your first accupuncture experience?
WannababyIVF
Funny. Just today I told my husband that the shot I tried in my leg felt like someone had punched me there the next day. He said, "I wish I could take some of these shots for you. I'd do that in a heart beat". So sweet. I thought of you and your DH. We are both lucky. I totally cracked up when you shared about your DH saying he could fertilize a cow.
He should be proud. How many of the embies did you transfer???Dex
I read that things are looking like you may get a -tive this month. I'm sooo sorry. I know you don't know for sure yet, so I'm not throwing the towel in. Nonetheless, I know how crushing these days can be. If you need to vent in a personal message, please feel free to do so. Good to have a plan started up for the frozens though. Plans are a LIFESAVER in this process. You sound so brave. Hugs to you!
Julie
Blown away you have an accupuncturist who giving you free sessions. What a sweetie!!! That's sooo nice. I wish I could fly her out here! It's been hard for me to find an accupuncturist who's heart is in the process but who also has the maturity to know what this process is like. Anyway, glad you've found someone who rooting for you!
Aunt Pebbles
First, I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE your emoticons. They make me smile...and I need that -- we all need that-- so thanks for sending your playful hugs along. Secondly, I totally know that feeling right before you test where you pretend it's positive. I've given myself about 24 hrs of "just maybe, in case I am..." and it's been delightful to feel that. Even if I get the -tive the next day. Anyway, I think you're testing today or really soon. Sending my best, best wishes. Thanks for all your good cheer and support on this list -- it's been a pleasure for me to read your emails.
OK, that's it folks. Could test on Thursday, but am waiting until Monday for a bunch of reasons I won't get into. If anyone's got some good words for any of us in the latter part of our 2ww, would love to hear them around now
Best wishes!
kswan[/b]
Good luck lovey. It's hard sitting that last week out I know but do whatever you can to take your mind off it..yeh right ey. Thinking of you.