thought it had happened

Claire · Post by **Claire** » Mon Nov 17, 2003 4:43 pm

Hiya, thanks for reading. I've just done a pg test having gone five weeks late and it was negative. I'm on the list for IVF, hoping to be called for treatment in march, but to be five weeks late, I really thought it might have possibly happened naturally! I don't know, talk about clinging to hope. In my heart of hearts I knew I wasn't but you just never know do you! I feel a bit disappointed although I've been here time and time before, but you never lose that glimmer of hope do you. Ah well never mind, just felt like sharing it with people who know how i'm feeling. Take care clairex

Becky28 · Post by **Becky28** » Mon Nov 17, 2003 5:03 pm

Hi Claire, Don't think I've posted to you before, but my heart really went out to you when I read your post, as I did exactly the same thing as you so many times, and despite knowing it wouldn't be positive, it didn't stop me feeling gutted when I saw the test stick staying resolutely blank. I've got PCOS and hardly ever have periods, so every now and then I'd get my hopes up for no reason (my DH has v poor count, rotten morphology etc etc) only to have them dashed. I'm glad to hear you've been referred for IVF - I'm sure March seems like a really long way off for you at the moment, I found the initial wait and uncertainty the hardest part - but (sure you're probably doing this already!) use the time to pamper yourself, get as physically fit and healthy and relaxed as possible, and (I know this is a bit of a contradiction!) enjoy the odd glass of wine over Xmas while you can. I really hope it all comes right for you - no reason why it won't!! If it's any consolation, the day you finally do see the blue line is the most exciting one ever!! Good luck and take it easy, Beck x

Hayley Wilkinson · Post by **Hayley Wilkinson** » Mon Nov 17, 2003 5:08 pm

Claire sorry to hear your post, did you only do the one HPT? I know how you feel, just before I started treatment I was late and I am never late but sadly that was negative too. Wish you luck with your treatment in March Take Care Love Hayley xx

michelle_in_scotland · Wed Nov 19, 2003 7:49 am

Hiya Claire, I've been through the same thing twice this year. The first time was in Feb and i was 17 days late (i'm usually always regular maybe 2 days late at the most) my Fiance couldn't stand it any longer and bought me a HPT, i knew deep down it would be negative but the hope was still there, it was neg and my period started a couple of hours after i tested. We just put it down to worry and stress of our upcoming first appointment at our local hospital. Then for the next few months i was regular as clockwork again until July (our first appointment at the fertility clinic) i was 14 days late on the day of our appt, they done a test there and neg again, period started that night when we got home. I'm now back to being regular again, but like you said, the glimmer of hope was always there. We too, like you, are on the list to start treatment, we were told last week it would be March at the earliest but possibly not until the summer. This waiting around for appointments etc is a very stressfull time and even though treatment hasn't started it still plays havoc with our bodies. Wishing you all the best for you upcoming treatment, who knows, maybe we will be starting around the same time. Take care Lots of love Michelle xxx

bubblymichelle · Post by **bubblymichelle** » Wed Nov 19, 2003 8:29 am

Hi Claire, I don't think I have ever posted to you to be honest but I know exactly where your coming from, I only used to be a few days late and then I would start to wonder if I was pg but then the next couple of days AF would arrive. Like the girls say have you only done the one HPT test? and have you seen AF now? if the answer is no you have not had AF yet I would recommend to do another test but clearblue. I had tmt (IVF) and I tested negative and then 24 hours later I tested positive and here I am 30wks pg. Good Luck. Love Shell. x

Jo Locker · Post by **Jo Locker** » Wed Nov 19, 2003 10:45 am

I know exactly how you feel - I couldnt believe how cruel mother nature can be - especially before we started our treatment I think I willed my period not to arrive so hard that it delayed it - as soon as I did the test my period would start very soon after, as if just to mock me, God those were awful times I'm surprised I didnt end up in a mental hospital!! Through all those years it was terrible - I can recognise exactly where you are. Even though you KNOW its not going to be positive, for the time when you are not sure, before you've tested, you feel this half-excitement of "if could be" and you even enjoy the feeling a bit. I just want you to know that IVF treatment CAN work for you - seems like a million miles away now but once you have a positive result (and you have to stay positive that you WILL get one!!)the pain of the early days just starts to melt away. Roll on March!!! (come to think of it, our baby girl is due on 17th March so I'm looking forward to it too - and it will soon be your turn). Lots of Love - Jo. XXXX

Claire · Post by **Claire** » Wed Nov 19, 2003 11:07 am

Thanks for your replies girls, it's nice to hear your stories. I haven't posted on this site for a while now but I check in frequently to see how everyone's doing. I just felt like sharing my yet more negative news with everyone... we don't half go through it don't we! We've been ttc for about 6 years and have unexplained infertility - although I have low progesterone and and I was once told I had PCOS (but then another consultant said I hadn't!)and I started using this site at the beginning of the year when I was supposed to be going for pritave treatment. But then the clinic found I had a polyp which needed removing before they would treat me.I had to go on another NHS list to have it removed. That took until August so I scrapped the private treatment idea and decided to wait for the NHS go. Anyway I haven't had a period now since September 13. I don't know. I'm nearly now six weeks late. I have only done the one test, but surely if I was pregnant I would have had some symptoms by now. I've had nothing, absolutely nothing at all not even a sore boob! I think I'm just mega late, it's happened before, but I must admit this has taken the biscuit! Being a fortnight late is nothing for me, or even three weeks, but six weeks is pretty unusual. Maybe I'll do another test. Good luck to all of you Becky - thanks for your reply, what hurdle are you at at the moment. Are you pregnant? Hayley - are you in the middle of your treatment? Michelle - March is probably a bit optimistic for me too, it's more likely to be towards the summer, I hope we are cycle buddies, that would be nice. And Bubbly Michelle - 30 wks - wow! I hope everything goes just perfect for you and your little one (or is it two?). Jo - you hit the nail on the head when you say that the bit in between being late and actually doing the test is like a 'mini pregnancy feeling'. Even though you know in your heart of hearts that you're not, you actually enjoy the feeling of 'I might be'. It took me five weeks to do a test, because I knew as soon as I did it the 'possiblity' would be gone. What am I like! Good luck with your pregnancy, it's lovely to read about the success stories. Take care Claire x [Edited by Claire on 19-Nov-03 03:12]

Becky28 · Post by **Becky28** » Wed Nov 19, 2003 11:22 am

Claire, Thanks for being interested - yes, I'm 19 wks pregnant with one baby and feel very very lucky. It does sound to me as if you might have PCOS you know, your cycle sounds pretty erratic like mine was (although 4 or 5 mths without a period wasn't unusual for me - there are varying degrees of severity). A small consolation I know, but if it turns out you have, then my consultant said women with PCOS often respond v well to IVF - producing lots of eggs and a great womb lining. And I was really fortunate in that ICSI worked first time for us, so I believe her! Don't despair, it sounds as though you've been through an awful lot of waiting, but you will get there. Beck x

GB · Post by GB » Wed Nov 19, 2003 1:35 pm

Sorry to hear that Claire! Never loose that glimmer of hope though, it'll happen for you one day! Take care. Gila.

Claire · Post by **Claire** » Wed Nov 19, 2003 4:50 pm

Hiya Becky, I'm so pleased to hear that it's worked for you. It's so lovely when it does... and it gives others hope too! How are you feeling? Did you have morning sickness or anything? I bet your blooming with a big grin from ear to ear! Have you had your scan yet or is that at 20 wks, I'm not sure about the specifics. It must be truly amazing to see that positive blue line - you really really think you'll never see it. Talking to you all this past couple of days has given me a lift actually. I stopped posting because there was not at lot to report on, but there doesn't have to be really does there? It's just nice to talk to other girls in the same boat and it makes the time pass quicker! Being infertile is like another world - unless you've been there you don't really understand it properly. It's one of those things that has to be experienced to fully comprehend. As for the PCOS, I might have it, who knows. To be honest I've seen that many different consultants who have told me so many different things I hardly know what's wrong with me now! All as I know is I can't conceive and that's that. But there's always hope.(sorry to be so negative, but you get fed up in the end) Let me know how your pregnancy is going, I would love to hear about it! Lots of love Claire x

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