Pain in the Buserelin!

[MissSunshine]

Hello, new to the site, am on day 13 of taking my buserelin, Not a fan of the injections, or the crying at silly things.. or the pain I am in from the bleeding that I am now having, apart from the obvious does it get any better?
I feel like I am an emotional wreck!

[charlie78]

Hi Miss Sunshine

Welcome to the nutty train! I went through my first IVF in January and unfortunately for us it was unsuccessful. I have to say that it is a very emotional time, particularly the dreaded 2 week wait - but you just have to have hope and pray that it will work. There are so many lovely success stories on these boards and so many lovely people who are in 'the same boat'. Everyone is really supportive and someone can always answer your questions - usually quicker than your Doc! So don't be afraid to ask questions or use it for a good old vent of frustration - we all do at times!
Do you have a date for egg collection yet?

LOL Charlie x

[MissSunshine]

Hello Charlie,
Thank you for your encouraging letter!
I have my first scan on Thursday, My egg collection date has not been confirmed yet, sorry to hear that it did not work for you, are you having another go at IVF soon or will you wait for a while?

[arizonakiwi]

Hi Miss Sunshine (What a lovely name !!!!!)

I am sorry you are having hard time with the buserelin - I think everyone reacts to the medication in a different way.
The best advice I can give you is to try and see it as part of the process and make sure you take plenty of time to indulge yourself a little. It will be tough at times and you will feel grunpy / hot / cold / scared / excited / frustrated and 100's of other emotions during the next few weeks. This is totally normal with the medication. Don't give yourself a hard time about the way you are feeling and reacting - remember it is the medication they are feeding you that is making you feel this way - it is not your normal self reacting and feeling this way.

Plan a little indulgance at the end of each week (a facial, your favourite dvd, your favourite magazine, a day away for the two of you - what ever is good and special for you. It will give you something to look forward to at the end of each week.

I also found drawing up an A4 sheet with each day listed on it and crossing off each day. It also said 2 weeks down 7 to go, 3 weeks down 6 to go etc. I started with the date I started the BCP's and it was to end with final blood test. I found it useful to see the whole process on a single page and as time went by it was also good to see how far I had come down the page.

I hope the side effects ease a little, treat yourself with care.

Arizona Kiwi

[MissSunshine]

Thank you so much for these words, what a way to start the day, Thank you!
I think i was having a bad day yesterday, just grumpy and tired I spose.
I am not having it so bad! I really cannot wait you know, so many people around me are a) just about to have a baby b) got them c) just found out they are pregnant!
I am so happy for them of course I am, but a tiny part of me cries when question myself... why me? why can't I just find out that I am pregnant, just like that, Its so hard in that way. I just want a baby so bad, but you know when you dream of things... I cant dream of this because i dont think it will happen... see off I go again! I need to stay positive, facials, massages, shopping!!
Thank you so much.. on with the day.. just had my 14th injection... ouwch! why wont the needle go in the straight away!!

[arizonakiwi]

Hang in there - 14 days closer to your goal.

Have a good day - you must be on the other side of the world - it is 11.15pm here and I'm just off to bed !!

Arizona-kiwi

[charlie78]

Miss Sunshine

Good luck for Thursday - let us know how you get on! Me I am starting my first FET (Frozen Embryo Transfer) at the end of March/beginning of April - so fingers crossed!
Like arizona said - don't give yourself a hard time - we have something on these boards called the 'ivf defence' where you can blame any irrational behaviour on the meds!
I know what you mean about everyone else around you either being pregnant or just had babies and it is hard not to feel a tincy bit jealous! But you just have to have faith that you will get there!!!!


Keep in touch

Charlie x

[charlie78]

Hi Sarah

Welcome to the rollercoaster ride. I love the PMA!!!!!!
Good luck with your treatment!

Charlie x

[arizonakiwi]

Hi Sarah,

Welcome !!! This website is great - it makes you realise you are not the only one going through all this, also everyone is a great sounding board and has a wonderful nack for making you feel a little better if the going gets a little tough at times.
I love your PMA. Have you started ivf yet or are you still waiting?

Miss Sunshine - I've sent you over some New Zealand sunshine. We have had 4 weeks of perfect summer weather, today is cloudy and over cast - so I figure the sunshine has left us to come over to your side of the world specially to brighten your day !!!!
Also remember you are another day closer than you were yesterday to your goal.

Take care,

Arizonakiwi

[MissSunshine]

Hello Charlie, and Arizonakiwi and Sarah !
All is good at the moment, the sun is shining, I am about to go for a swim, my scan is tomorrow and i reckon I will be starting the FSH soon after, see what they say! I am feeling really happy and confident thanks to you girlies!
We will all have a babe in arms soon x I can feel it in my bones!
I do have a question though, does FSH have mad as a hatter side effects?
and I have been given a pen to inject this with.. does it hurt?
Look forward to some positive feedback on this!!
Hope you are all well x

[arizonakiwi]

Hi Miss Sunshine

Glad you are feeling better today - could you swim a few lengths for me!!

I found the unknown worse than the reality of each stage. I was worried about using the pen as I had heard it was more painful than the needles for the burselin. In reality I found very little difference between the two of them and having the blood tests that I ended up having daily were a lot more painful. For me the daily injections hurt less than using a pair of tweezers to trim your eyebrows!!! Think of the injections as giving your eggs some food every night so they grow nice and healthy over the next couple of weeks. The nurse also suggested taking it out of the fridge 10 min before you use it and remember to leave the needle in for a few seconds before pulling it out to make sure all the medication is out.

As for side effects - I think it really depends. I was really lucky and didn't have any side affects at all for the first few weeks - in fact I wondered if it was doing anything. With the FSH (egg food!!) I felt fine for the first week but after that I started to feel a little tender (as if AF was about to start) I did get a little bloating.

Towards the end I felt very tender and was rather bloated but I am sure some of that was because my esterogen levels had risen to double what they should have been. I tried to keep they way I was feeling in perspective and saw it as a process and the discomfort I was feeling was just all my eggs growing an doing what they should do. For me picturing what was happening inside my body helped me understand and put any discomfort into perspective. It is scary not knowing what to expect - but I found this board really useful in helping me to see what I was feeling was "normal" and my body was doing and reacting the way it should to the medication.

Another day has past and you are closer again to your goal - keep that PMA going !!!

Good luck with the scan tomorrow - let us know how it goes.

Charlie - I am sure March will fly by and you will be having your FET before you know it.

Sarah - hope you are having a good day

Catch you all later
Arizona-Kiwi

[MissSunshine]

Thank you! I have just read, and r e-read your mail, you have totally made me feel A-OK!
I am going to be super fine. FSH injections will be ok, I will look at it as fish food, (I am already calling it my fish injections) I will let you know how the scan goes, I am sure it will be fine.It is only a scan and I have had much worse down there! (as in scans and other womanly stuff...and of course the normal activity!)
Sometime i wonder why I am feeling so alone and even searched for IVF, as the NHS is looking after me just fine, Every thing has gone so quickly I wonder whether I am blessed in some way,Finding people like yourselves who, for no other reason apart from the goodness of your heart you make others feel better about themselves, Things are going to work out for the best for all of us. hormones or no hormones, I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Thank you and I am off to have one glass of wine and a long hot bath.. Pampering myself, before I have to get up really mega early for my scan.
x

[arizonakiwi]

Glad you are feeling good - I hope the bath and the glass of wine was lovely and relaxing.

All the best for the scan tomorrow (today?) not long before you start your fish food.

Have a good day,

Angela

[MissSunshine]

Thanks Angela,
Had the scan firsh thing this morning, I get the results later on today.
Just wondering, did you get really scatty when you were on this?
My day so far!
I came out of the IVF clinic and was supossed to go and pick up my FSH food from the pharmacy in teh hospital, instead I just went to work.. then when i got to work I realised I had forgotton, and had to walk all the way back to the hospital, (I could of caught the bus, but I was to upset!) only to find out that the hospital did not take cards, it had to be cash, I had no cash, had to walk to the nearest garage, which was a fair bit a way.. not to far, but I was in heels...who didn't have a cash machine, so I got back to the Hospital and cried.I know the lady felt sorry for me, she was pregnant, (isn't everyone!!) and she said that I could take my fsh food home with me and because i will be in again next week I can bring the money in then.
scatty.. yes... mad.. yes... I am at work, I want to go shopping and spend lots of money to make me feel happy!
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[arizonakiwi]

Hi Miss Sunshine,

Sorry I have been MIA for a few days - How are things going - I loved your story at having to go back and fourth to get your medication - I must have driven you nuts at the time - but I hope you can smile and laugh at it a little now!!!! If you are like me I hardly ever have cash on me - and it is always surprising when you can't use your card to pay for something!!

As for having a scatty brain at the time - I found it really hard to focus and felt really tired at times - I remember having a conversation with someone at work and felt like I was firing on only one cylinder - they must have thought I was acting really so spaced out and dumb.... It is now I am finding the side effects worse (a week after I completely stopped all the medication!!!) They had me stop taking the stimms on the 17th Feb and cancelled my cycle 5 days later but I had to keep taking the bruselin for another 2 weeks. Since I have stopped it I have been feeling really tired and I am have 5-6 hot flashes every day!!! (I didn't have a single one while I was on the medication). Weird......
I have a scan on Friday - I think they are going to check everything is ok after what happened during my first cycle. I'm looking forward to and I hope it will be a bit of reassurance as I am scared it has done some damage. We alway thought it just getting sperm that was the problem - not problems with both of us... sorry to sound negative, sometimes I wonder if this is ever ment to be - I am sure I'll feel better about everything in a couple of days. I think I just need a good night’s sleep and an energy boost of some sort.

Any way enough about me….. How are you feeling - I guess you have started your egg food over the weekend - I hope the injections weren't too bad and you took some time to have a nice weekend with DH. Did you get out shopping - I hope you found something really nice to treat yourself !!!
Just think within a couple of weeks your little baby/s will be heading back home to settle in for the next 9 months - you must be getting excited - that it is getting closer.

One of the best things over the next couple of weeks is having the scans and seeing all the eggs starting to grow.

Have a really good Monday, I hope you are feeling good and any side effects are small,

Take care,

Angela