Oct 05 Cycle Buddies

[Jen1d]

YEEEEEEEEEEHHHAAA all my Buds back finally

Littles - Its great to hear from you at last.
Model Octopal??Mad at you?? NEVER. We all need some space at times and we understood thats what you were doing, although we did miss you-----i can only post to myself so often
Anyway you hang in there babe. Am so glad you have decided to have a chat with a councellor and are showing your true Octochick courage by kicking ass and going for your next cycle.
As for the infections, its a shame for you but too much info lovely
Try not to stay away so long, we are here anytime for a chat.

Loops - How you doing on your medi? What are you and dh feeling about cycle no 4?

Steph - Back to work so soon, its must be such a wrench to leave Faith, bet you are dreading it? Good news for us though as we get to chat more when you are skivving at work

Walshy - Big hug to you babe, hope your ok xx

So the first injection came and went with a few heated words and lots of anxiety. I was so nervous for about an hour before then we had the hassle of mixing all the solutions together and arranging the needles, bring back the simple pen i used for the other cycles pleassssseee. However we eventually got it all organised and just as dh was about to shoot----he laughed----as you can imagine i nearly thumped him then yelled how difficult it was for me and it would be different if he had to do it etc etc. Finally the injection was done and it NIPPED LIKE HELL as there is double the liquid to go in this time. The area was then swollen for about an hour and i felt so sorry for myself So we decided to go to the cinema but i had to take my nasal spray and do this in the cinema as its all timed---anyone who saw me must have thought i was on drugs

So another day is over and i am, oh god i just looked at the time and realised i did not put my Emla on, ok am back with Emla firmly in place, so will just do the injection a bit later. This is NOT fun, i hate it

Will let you know how i get on tonight and log in tomorrow to see how everyone is.

Love Jen x

[lolajones]

Hey! Its like we’re all back together! So lovely to have everyone back!

Steph – can’t believe you have to go back to work in 3 weeks! So short! Am secretly (well, not so secretly now perhaps) pleased as we’ll get you back – wooo and hoooooo!
Your friend is arriving in a London almost spring-like. I guess she is all set up? If she needs a friend in London or help with anything I’d be happy to help – I know how difficult it can be starting in a new city. My email!!! It is the same address but it had deactivated itself – now resolved – please re-send the photos!!! Or if any of you guys still have my address – please forward the photos, also please all send your email again as the account has been erased of all past mails. Hope little Faith is doing well – can’t wait to see her!!!!

Littles – it has been a long time but we understand. This is hard, too hard at times and time away is the only way to cope then. Good news you are seeing a counsellor. You need to process whats happening and sometimes that’s too overwhelming to do alone or with family. Good to have you back! When will your ET be? We can cheer you on!!!

Walsher – so glad you came back, we’ve missed you. I’ve been thinking about you a lot. Have you ever thought about adoption? I’ve been thinking about it more and more lately but I suppose I’m a lot older than you. Never thought it was something I could do but the more I find out about it the more it seems like something that would be great. It is a long hard process but still. Stay strong youngster – you’ve sent your dh to a counsellor – what about you? Are you being looked after?

Sweet Jemla – we’ve all come back to cheer you on in the 4th time liferaft!!! So – scan went well, injections…..I find it helps if you swear a lot as the needle goes in – I recommend it to all my patients. GO JEN!!!! So when is transfer – I am still utterly lost. I know what you mean about those unthinking losers who say at least you have eachother – are you kidding me??? Violence Jen, that’s only language they understand.

So yes, thanks to Jen and her jack booting my booty I am a few days in to cycle 4: Revenge of the Embryo. Feel fine, work stressful as per but off on short holiday next weekend to country retreat and spa – relax a bit and sleep sleep sleep.
OK, I’m off.
Take care my multinational beans
Love, Lola
xxxxx

[Jen1d]

Hi Lola

Not sure when transfer is yet. Scan is on Friday 9th then i usually have to wait another 1-2 days to let the follies grow more before EC. However as its different medi this time i might not have to do that, who knows. EC will probably be during the week of the 12th.

Hope your feeling ok? Am working tomorrow night them Tue early so will pop in Tue night and see how you are.

Love Jen x

[camilla]

Hello girls

Just had a v quick scan of posts and just want to say to Lola and Jen thinking of you and will try to check your progress. Much PMA and love to you both.

Love you all girls and a hello of course to Littles, Steph and Walshy.

Camilla xxxxx

[camilla]

Hello girls

Just had a v quick scan of posts and just want to say to Lola and Jen thinking of you and will try to check your progress. Much PMA and love to you both.

Love you all girls and a hello of course to Littles, Steph and Walshy.

Camilla xxxxx

[Jen1d]

Hi girls

Camilla - Thanks for your good wishes. Hope you are enjoying every second of your little bundles of joy.

Loops - How you doing? Are you on the same medi this cycle? Any dates for a scan yet?

Littles - How you feeling about your next cycle, its not far away now. Bet you are in Switzerland now though and enjoying that lovely view, lucky thing.

Walshy - Hope you and your dh are feeling a bit stronger. How is the councelling going?

My injections are ok so far but boss wouldn't swap my late shift on monday for an early so had to get dh to pop over to work and do my needle there. All was fine until a yp at work pushed into my tummy, i was furious but am fine.

Thinking of you all, catch up tomorrow

Love Jen x

[lolajones]

oi oi Jemla

Good luck tomorrow for scan - can't wait to hear your numbers my sweet! Come on octos!!!! How're the injections now? Any better? Did you try the swearing thing? Thanks for sending the photos lovely.

Hello everyone else! Hope the hard core are doing well.

I have nil mucho to report. On the down regs, got af yesterday, had acu today, scan is next Thursday and then hopefully start patches - worship the patch for she is a godess....

Y'know how we always have a moan when other people (always OTHER people) get up the duff and we get all down. Today I got the usual news and instead of feeling upset I was just furious! Furious at the unfairness and anti-karmaness of it all. Have only just calmed down 6 hours later gggrrrrrr

Anyhoo, positive! We deserve it, it will work. 9 months time we'll be posting photos of our particularly gorgeous babies and moaning about lack of sleep and nipple soreness - bring it on!!!!

OK, so keep us posted, I'll be (prob) off line for a bit, going away for long weekend of sweet lovin so as usual much leg shaving to be done

Love, Lola
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[Jen1d]

Hi Loops

Thanks for your good luck wishes for my scan. I don't feel too much going on down below so am a bit concerned about how many follies i have but hey nothing i can do right, just have to wait and see.

Patches eh, what do they do? Is this different from other cycles or the same as before?

Know what you mean about unfair---one of the yp's Mum in my unit has just announced she is expecting her 9th baby She has not been allowed to look after any of them and has no parental rights, they are all removed in the hospital as soon as she has given birth----makes me so mad Why is it they can all get pregnant so easily even when they are abusing substances and alcohol. We give up everything and are scared to move and the little embies don't attach

Ok, back to being positive again. For some reason this time i feel chilled. I haven't even done acup but i just feel if its going to happen then it will, whats the point in getting stressed----you can all remind me i said that during the 2ww

Am on a sleep over tomorrow then having 15 people over from work on Sat for a wee party ---we can't drink though so will catch up on Sat if possible

Love to you all as always

Jen x

[Jen1d]

As i thought i cant feel anything because there is not much there.
The Dr could only find 3 follicles, size 21, 11 and 8. The chances of them finding any eggs is slim and the chances of a bfp are even slimmer.
We are devastated and so upset, i cant stop crying.
We were given the choice of stopping the treatment but the consultant feels strongly that we should keep going as we might get an egg and as they keep telling me, it only takes one. Plus we always have a great record of fertilization os if ther is one, who knows.
Have to go in Monday for EC, but just feel numb and cant go on with this crap anymore.

Sorry to be so sad, i dont want everyone els to be brought down because of me.

Love Jen x

[lolajones]

Oh jen I'm so sorry, I know how disappointed you are sweetheart. I know it doesn't really make things better right now but the doctors are right - it does just take one. We can put all our concentration into that little one and how many people have we seen on these here boards where one was all that was required??? LOADS. Keep believing my strong trouper pal, this ivf game is so random you just never know.....

Love, Lola
xxxxxxx

[Jen1d]

Well girls tomorrow has come around so fast and i'm dreading it. I have not been sleeping well and am terrified the Doc is going to tell me there are no eggs and that means i won't be able to have my own child EVER. It just breaks me up inside thinking about it.
Am just praying they can find 1 egg, at least we still might have one last try but i know there is the problem of it being fertilized AND of a good grade. There just seems too many steps and with only 3 follies my chances are very slim
Will let you know how tomorrow goes, please say a little prayer for me and thanks for all your support

Love Jen x

[Walshy]

Oh Ms Jen - my heart is breaking for you. I was reading it out loud to my Dh and was nearly crying for you. I can feel the pain in your post. I wish I ould say something that would make it alright but I have no words left.

I really hope they find a few follicles for you today/tomorrow and that one of those little suckers sticks. It does only take one and I hope that you get your one soon.

IVF SUCKS this rollercoaster sucks............

I can not believe how strong you are to keep going through this shit. I am so angry that you seem to have one hurdle after another with no light at the end of the tunnel. Please know that I am thinking of you and have everything crossed here for you. Please god let this be the one for you. Take care of yourself. I kow exactly how you feel as this is what happened to my throughout my last cycle. I didn't get any eggs either. If for some reason you do not get any eggs maybe with the next cycle you can try acupuncture to increase the eggs? Is there anything we can do to get eggs of our own?

Hi and hugs to you all will log on later to see how Jen went. Love Walshy

[Jen1d]

Oh girls the rollercoaster is still rolling

OMG i can't believe it we got 3 eggs.

Over the weekend another two follies developed and we had 5 in total but 1 was empty and 1 had blood in it but the other three had an egg. The embryologist took my dh aside and warned him our chances were slim and they thought we would probably find none but WE GOT THREE and i cant believe it. They had to put me on an antibiotic drip for an hour just to prevent infection due to the blood in 1 of the follies but who cares i just lay there and cried with happiness.
Now the next hurdle, they will call tomorrow about 10am and let us know if any have fertilized. The Docs sound positive though as we always have a good success rate when it comes to the fertilization but who knows as you can't take anything for granted in this ivf game, will just have to wait and have another stressful night

PLEASE LET MY LITTLE FIGHTERS FERTILIZE

Walshy - Thanks for your kind message. Its just so unfair and unbearable what us girls have to go through, love to you and your dh too.

Away to relax as my tum is swollen and i'm so tired but happy i still have a chance (so far) to have my own baby

Love Jen x

[lolajones]

WOOOOO HOOOOOOOO!!!!!!
3 is great!!!! 3 chances more than you thought sweetie! Now little swimmers do the do and then 3 top notch embies!!!
Y'see, I think this will tip the karma balance. You have been through so much crap its time for a little give back from lady luck or whoever is pulling the strings here in ivf-land. A word in the right ear, a few reminders of who needs what and ..ta da!!! you'll get your bfp that you deserve - and you really do deserve this!!!!
So, you'll get the call tomorrow, is that right? I have all crossables crossed for you Jemla - let us know how it goes!!!

How're the rest of the buds? Send positive vibes to the test tube for our Jen!!!

As for me, just had 4 lovely days in a spa, feel very relaxed. Having the usual hot flush caribbean moments and down reg scan is on Thursday morning. If all well, looking at transfer in 2 weeks. Lots people i know are getting pregnant, is it just negativity to think there's just not enough baby voodoo to go 'round? Hey ho, we shall see.

I'll check in tomorrow for news
Love

Lola
xxxxxxx

[Jen1d]

I don't know if my little heart can take anymore stressful waiting.

The embryologist just rang and we have 2 eggs fertilized out of the 3, so the wait continues. 1 of the embies looks better than the other but he said they are still ok. He does not want to comment on the 1 that doesn't look so great as he has seen embies develop overnight, which they thought would never get anywhere. So there is still hope we might have 2 but even if there is 1 i will be grateful as we never expected to get this far and as we know girls, it only takes 1
They will call me at 9am tomorrow and if all is ok then ET will be at 11.30am.

COME ON EMBIES PLEASE KEEP GROWING------FIGHT FOR MUMMY

Am feeling ok today after a massive sleep yesterday afternoon, which i never do. I then went to bed and slept all night just not like me one bit, the stress must be knocking me out My tum is a bit swollen but not sore, am just going to chill in the house and dread taking my lovely pessaries instead---yuck. The good thing is they have given me enough to take right through to the preg test date, which means i don't have to be continually worried about going to the loo and should make it to the test date without bleeding (that will be a first ) then just do the test, this way i can be a bit less stressed out and go to work to take my mind off things.

So what's new with you guys?

Will pop in later to see if anyone is about

Love Jen x