April/May cycle buddies

[mizma]

No problem mom20 and 032323! I am glad to help even though it's just a little.

I think all of us go through the feelings of that it will never happen.. maybe it's because we want this so bad. I go through feelings of it will happen to it will never happen about 100 times a day. I have been crying everyday since the 14th. Sometimes it's just bad luck when we get a BFN. My frozen blast had a 5-8% chance of not surviving the thaw and it didn't. I had a 50% chance of getting pregnant the first time I did IVF- but I got a BFN. But I try to think that I deserve to be lucky at some point. All of us do.

Mizma

[Lee]

Hi Everyone

You are all soooo positive, please pass some my way having a bad few days. I know what you mean mom when you say another month gone by when AF comes. I am a foster carer and have looked after other peoples children for a long time and expected to just get pregnant when we started trying. I have children come in and out of my home with some horrendous backgrounds and am trying very hard at the moment to not be angry with all those parents out there who treat their children badly because of their own usually awful situations. I will get over it and be back to my normal self in a few days, I guess we have to allow ourselves to feel sorry for ourselves at times. I also feel that it is never going to happen for us but I guess I am protecting myself as well. I came across another friend today who was asking me questions as she has started to have problems with getting pregnant. I guess the good thing that has come out of this is that I have met all you guys who I never would have spoken to and have started to make some close friendships with people who have gone through the same thing even though I have only met them or realised they have had similar experiences in the last couple of months.

I had some accupuncture taday and she decided to work on my kidney points as kidneys play a major role in fertility. As you can guess they were incredibly painful, so I guess that makes sense. Going back for more you never know she may clear me long enough for the next lot of IVF to work!!

Sending out lots of positive vibes to you all.

Lee

[mom20]

hi how is everyone doing well nearly end of Feb and another month closer to our start dates cant wait hope everyone is well
mom20

hi lee and welcome i really admire you being able to do that looking after someone else children having to give them back must be painful for you. Me and DH are looking into this fostering but not for a few years yet when we get our own house (we live in a flat) Im a nursery nurse im currently out of work but im looking for a job.

mom20

[rebeccaj]

ladies, can I join your link? I was on the february forum but found out yesterday that none of my eggs fertislised so my cycle was cancelled. I have a follow up appointment with the doctor on Friday and I'm hoping that he will say that I can try again in April.

My story - 2 years of trying, 3 failed IUI's; started 1st IVF in January - they started me on a low dose of follistim and I didn't really react, they then up'd the dose and my oestrogen levels started to rise. Unfortunately there were then two waves of follicle growth, 4 eggs had started to mature from the low dose follistim and another 21 from the second. they couln't risk allowing any of the 21 to catch up for fear of hyperstim. so of the 25 eggs retrived only 4 were mature enough, had ICSI on all 4, 1 lysed and the other 3 failed to fertilise. am so disappointed and spent yesterday in tears. tring to be more positive today and anxious to start again as soon as they'll let me although need my veins and ovaries to recover (still in a lot of pain from the ER).

hope you'll have me as would love to share my second try!

sending all the luck in the world to you all

Rebecca X

[mom20]

rebeccaj you are more than welcome to join this thread i am sorry that no eggs fertilised and understand how you must be feeling at the moment just tske time for you and DH to get over this and im glad you are trying to be postive and are excited to start again good luck with your next try

mom20

[Lee]

Hello everyone

Just checking in to see how everyone is doing. We are all getting closer to our start dates! Have decided to enjoy my free time right now instead of stressing about not earning any money at the moment. We have decided that I am not going to start up working again until we have done this cycle and put the fostering on hold as well. We will start up again once we have gone through the IVF and either decided not to do it again or hopefully have a BFP. Mom 20 it can be very hard giving the children back but it is nice to see them recover from their pasts and move on to a better place than what they were in before. Fortunately for us we still see most of the kids we have had in our care to so we can see how they are getting on.
Sending out lots of good thoughts to everyone, stay positve!

Lee

[hrobinson]

I have been wondering how everyone has been doing. May seems so long away to begin things. However, I know it will be here before we know it.
I am scheduled to go in for a polisectomy (sp) next Friday, April 9. Not real sure what all is going to happen, or what to expect. That will get things rolling though. I know I will need about 6 weeks of recovery, then start Lupron in May.
Hope everyone is doing great:)

[smallhorne]

hi is anyone starting IVF April/May if so looking for cylce buddies to start the journey with all welcome

mom20

I am new to IVF. my first cylce failed I found out yesterday I am a liitle numb and not quite sure of my feelings. I went to my loal OB/gyn had an U/S and saw gestational sacks of my twins. My HCG dropped down to less than 2.
I am getting myself together for my next cycle which will be in April.
My clinic is in Barbados. Very relaxing and laid back.

[geckogirl]

Smallhorne - I am so sorry to hear of your failed cycle especially when you had gone so far as seeing fetal sac on U/S. I am sooooo very sorry. You are in the right place. Everyone here knows what you are going through and will listen and help if they can. Hang in there. It is awesome that you are getting right back up and trying another cycle.

How is everyone else doing? Looks like we will have a great bunch all going through this together. Makes it easier somehow, no?

I finally got a call from my clinic with the dates of my next cycle. I start stims around April 20th and retrieval will be the first week of May. I am so excited to be trying again. I did very well on the first try (for my age). I got 7 eggs (3 mature and 4 not), 4 fertilized with ICSI but when we went back to transfer the lab had made an error and thrown out three of our four embryos by mistake! Heartbreaking. The one survivor was a grade 1 - 7 cell embryo but it just didn't stick.

I am going to be on the same protocol as last time as the doctor was happy with my results. I know I can make some good embies! I just hope they stick this time.

Wishing everyone the best of luck!

In the meantime, my DH is taking me on a cruise next week so that we can forget the sadness of our first IVF cycle and concentrate on some adult fun. Looks like some poolside reading, lots of yummy food and a few martinis for me!

[mom20]

wow the numbers are getting hi here thats what i like to see
welcome smallhorne geckogirl
smallhorne - sorry to here of your failed cycle but im glad that you are trying again straight away i understand what you have been going through hugs to you and good luck

geckogirl - glad to here you have got your dates look like we will be starting around the same time i start 23 April good luck and enjoy your cruise (is there room in your suitcase for me lol)

hi to everyone else
mom20

[StephanieD]

I'm going to be going through my first IVF with ICSI cycle in April/May! I'm just waiting for my period to start (never been so excited for my period to start) so I can start the month of birth control pills. I'm very nervous and stressed; worried about taking time off from work after the transfer (I'm a nurse, so there will be no rest there). I'm also thinking of doing acupuncture in conjuction with the cycle!
Good luck to everyone out there! Think babies!!

[Angela37firsttimeivf]

Hi everyone, I am due to start IVF in May for the first time and am wondering if anyone else is in the same boat and how they are feeling. I know that my greatest fear is about it not working. I don't really know how many times I'll try. I'm in Germany and the health service pay half of the costs up to three times so I don't know whether I would carry on after that. I've been trying for nearly two years and had two ectopic pregnancies. I've had one tube removed and the other is damaged, so have been advised not to try naturally again. I'm worried about the damaged one interfering with the IVF now I've read all this stuff on leaking fluid. I do think it's hard seeing everybody else getting pregnant, or already with kids and I haven't really thought about life beyond IVF, if it doesn't work. Would be glad of some feedback if this strikes a chord with anyone.

[doddo72]

Hello,
I am Donna. I am starting my 1st IVF Cycle soon. I just finished doing the Chlomid test and had a saline ultrasound. I have 4 children from a previous marriage. I had my tubes tied and was unable to get them untied.
Once Aunt Flo Starts (around March 30), I start the BC pills, two weeks into the pills I start taking Lupron...and hoepfully ER and ET will be done by the second week in May.
I know my story is different than others since I already have 4 kids. But My hubby and I really want one together.

So far, the Dr's said his sperm are fine and that my uterus is in excellent shape. I really hope it works the first time. I fear that my eggs won't get fertized! Then If they do, I wonder how many should we tranfer.
I am 34 yeears old and DH is 30. He did have some antibodies in his sperm, Will that affect fertilization?

Good Luck to Everyone!

Donna

PS Baby Dust to ALL of you!

[hoping4kds]

It is good to be able to talk to people going through the same emotions. I started my Lupron injections on Wed the 7th of March and was told by the doctor to contact him with any questions i might have. He called me on Friday to ask how I was doing and if I had any questions. I also received my meds (Bravelle, Repronex and HCG) and the needles . I am a scared of being too ptimistic since I am 38 and my dh is 37 so I know that chances of the first time taking is low. I am also starting to have nightmares and the journey has just begun. Best of luck to us all .

[geckogirl]

I'm glad to see so many of us here! I am scheduled to start BC once I get my period this month and I should start stims on April 19th. Wooo, hooo! I can't wait to try again. I just know I can do this!

I was so depressed after my last cycle resulted in a BFN so my husband took me to Mexico on a cruise. What a great guy! Anyway, we ate lost of food that was off limits during cycle and had lots of tequilla - yum! We just got back and I am feeling better after getting away from the whole situation for a while. Now I have to get back to the health regiment - no coffee, alcohol, salt etc... and get back to the gym.

I am wishing everyone lots of luck! Keep positive!