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Melissa112
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Post by Melissa112 »

I am here, have no fear!

DH got home this weekend, and he had the home laptop with him, since he is working on the home computer that left me with no access to YOU!

But I am here, and my toe is doing SO much better, I am actually wearing my cute boots today! :lol:

I know I have ALOT to tell you and respond to... I promise I'll get there, but I actually HAVE to get caught up on work, and hopefully my lunch will be here soon... maybe I'll go home and respond tonight....

But just so you know, which I don't know if you do, but for Lent I have up being mad at God for DH and I not being able to have kids natually. And this weekend I had a newly strange sense of peace, that it's okay... I know, it's probably just that we have another month until we meet with the new RE, but I don't know I guess after waiting so long - I am starting to be okay with everything. :roll:

I'll talk to ya'll soon!

Love,

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Mel- that is so funny because I gave up saying "I should have" for lent. I am queen of making a decision and then saying "oh, I should have done this" or "I should have done it that way instead" Dh suggested for lent that he is sick of me second guessing myself and could I just be happy with the decisions I make, and live with it? I said I would try. It really has been more peaceful for me too. Then in church this weekend (r u catholic too?) I was saying my usual prayer when I first get to church and I always pray for God to give me my baby. I had a light bulb moment and thought no- I'm not praying for that anymore. I'm going to start praying for the patience to wait peacefully and be happy with my life UNTIL I get my baby. And I WILL get it! It felt SOOOO much better to say that. I feel like all I do is complain about my infertilty and beg God for a baby. :?
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Jenn: the 80's party sounds... like... RAD. As for your bowling score... if i remember correctly, my all-time high was 41 :lol: As for my rant... here is the short version: my bil is an idiot, dh family is living in a parallel universe and we have serious stress (stress, stress!) going on here. I am trying to distance myself... (and, btw, if i do say so myself, doing a fab job the last few days :D )

Meg: Happy bday to you. Happy bday to you. Happy bday dear meggo.... Happy bday to you!!! woohoo! Hoping you ate a ton and bought all sorts of superficial things with mother and sis.

Angie: ahhh, as for the "did i wait too long in order to ttc" question... dh and i have been married for (almost) 13 years. Everyone in my family gets preg just looking at their dhs, so had no reason to think i would be different. We didn't start ttc until after i finished residency... about 5 years ago. Thought for sure i would get preg right away, so wanted to wait until we were good and ready. Trying to be responsible and all :roll: Had i known then that it would be so difficult for me to get preg, i definitely would have started much earlier. Oh well, nothing i can do about it now...

Amy: now it seems to me, that the AG should have "people" to do her wheelbarrowing for her! As for your dh's watch.... i have one of those!! I WAS a runner, and was really into it, running half marathons and all--- my last was about 8 months ago. Ain't no way i could do it now... but i do miss the runner's high!

Wanna: ahhh, i think i will be like you. Can't keep good news secret very long. I always have the best of intentions, but i tend to wear my emotions on my sleeve....

Fee: as for dying hair... my hairdresser (went through ART herself), said that the wash she uses on me is not a problem. I don't get highlights, just an all-over wash to cover my grey (ouch!) and give my color some depth. It is semi-permanent. Anyway, according to her most are fine, there are just a few dyes that are a problem in pregnancy.

Patie: I am SOOOO sorry about Fayssal. that sucks. Maybe we can have a virtual wake for her (him?). Poor missy. I am also sorry about your friend's father. There is probably no lawsuit, though (at least there wouldn't be in the us) unless you could prove that he got the infection because they were negligent, or that they failed to treat it correctly and that is what led to his death. Unfortunately this happens occasionally. That is terrible though, especially as he seemed to be recovering ok from the surgery.

Melissa: I think it is great that you have found a sense of peace. there are times that i feel that way (today is one of those times) and i think it is a real blessing. Since you are religious... i will share with you one of my favorite quotes..."Sometimes the Lord quiets the storm, and sometimes He allows the storm to rage, and quiets the child." This reminds me of my IF struggle. I try to focus on feeling the peace within the struggle.

Amy's aquatic frog problem reminded me of a breakdown i had a few months ago. I started growing basil a few months ago. Although i am interested in gardening, i have always been upset that i have a black thumb. Soon after, i had my last bfn imminent. One day we came home from church (day before beta) and i was very emotional having been surrounded by preg women and small children. I walked over to my basil plants to water them, and found they weren't doing well and were all limp (i had failed to water them for a few days). Dh, trying to cheer me up, and having seen me walk over to the plants, said "Don't worry honey, look how good you have done with the basil." I busted out bawling as looking at the plants all wilted and yellowing, i was just sure that everything i touch dies (including my own embryos), and i would never have a child. :cry: Looking back now, it is kind of funny that my wilting basil plants meant to me that i would never have children.... but when hopped up on hormones.... btw-- those little struggling basil plants are now big and strong... anyone want fresh basil? :wink:

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Oh man, i am really chatting up a storm today, no? this is a VERY long post... and just about to get longer. Had my us today... and it appears my little follicles have had a growth spurt (!). After being lazy buggers for days, they seem to have woken up. Still not nearly as many as last time, but they are at least growing at a decent rate all the sudden. Probably in for 3 days more stims before trigger... but as i was thinking i may be stimming for several more days... i am not complaining. Just weird as the same protocol with same doses.... and i stimmed for 9 days before trigger last time and had a bumper crop of eggs. Weird.
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Sass - The egg progress sounds great. What are they thinking for a retrieval date?
As for the AG and manual labor - well unfortunately even the AG can't get people to work for free so for the sake of IVF - I busted a move with the wheelbarrow. I LOVE to garden and like to think I have a green thumb. I would love some basil as I don't have any growing yet. Moral of that ramble is that green thumb = infertile. (at least in my case) Can't make a connection for you.
Great work on distancing from the family. It is all you can do to survive. Right now we need to focus on follicles and basil. Follicles and basil... follicles and basil.
DH trains for the half ironmans. I am pushing for a full just so we have a reason to go to Kona, but don't want to kill him. He has the other half of our potion you know.

Mel - Nice to know that you are back and not being trampled by a bridezilla... speaking of which - try spilling some dirt on some bridezillas. I always love a good irate bride.

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sassynlv
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Amy: follicles and basil....follicles and basil :lol:

girls i REALLY need some help... and quick! I have decided to have a blog. My only problem is what the hell i should call it. I am thinking "Reproducers" as a nod to our lovely musical. Any creative ideas for me??? I have to decide right away.
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oooo, what do you guys think of these?

Recycling: Musings of an IVF Addict
The Devil Wears Scrubs
Sassy Wears Blue Stilettos: Musings of an IVF Addict
Rotten Eggs: My Adventure on the IVF Rollercoaster
Rotten Eggs: Musings of an IVF Addict
The Art of Turkey Basting

I'm guessing it is the hormones (or even if it isn't, the hormones are getting blamed! :wink: ), but i am feeling an unnatural and unncessary urgency to get my blog up :roll:
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Good news! good news! I think I am on track now - 2nd batch of follies have grown and he is pretty confident we will get to EC. It may be Sat or early next week. Sassy - we could be swapping EC stories very soon. :D If EC is next week it will quite possibly be the most incovenient day of the year for me, due to the fact I am supposed to be meeting with a large number of important overseas visitors to the university - but what can I do? I am not going to stress - just thinking follies and basil. I actually have to urge to go home and water our plants as they too have been wilting and it's going to be a hot day today.

Btw has anyone made strawberry and basil tea ?- it is delicious. Just mush the 2 together and brew -mmmm!
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sassynlv wrote:oooo, what do you guys think of these?

Recycling: Musings of an IVF Addict
The Devil Wears Scrubs
Sassy Wears Blue Stilettos: Musings of an IVF Addict
Rotten Eggs: My Adventure on the IVF Rollercoaster
Rotten Eggs: Musings of an IVF Addict
The Art of Turkey Basting
I love them all, but my favorite is: Rotten Eggs: My Adventure on the IVF Rollercoaster
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Recycling: Musings of an IVF Addict
The Devil Wears Scrubs
Sassy Wears Blue Stilettos: Musings of an IVF Addict
Rotten Eggs: My Adventure on the IVF Rollercoaster
Rotten Eggs: Musings of an IVF Addict
The Art of Turkey Basting

How about a combo:
The Art of Turkey Basting: Musings of an IVF Addict
amy
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Post by wannababyIVF »

Sassy--I like all of them. ButI think my favorite might be...

Rotten Eggs: My Adventure on the IVF Rollercoaster

---by the way, mabye you should mention that you have to be a certain height to ride the IVF rollercoaster. :roll:
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OK I have to be quick coz have to get some work done (yesterday was a write off)...

I like the Recycling one. Look forward to reading your blog!!!

And you all have my solemn word that I will not wear a "due in" T-Shirt. Even if someone gave me one as a present I would use it to clean my toilet.


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HRH Fee - That is why we support you and keep you as royalty... not that you would be lowly enough to clean a toilet.
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Sassy--I agree with the others about the Rotten Eggs one---too funny. I will definetly be a loyal reader. I kill every plant I come into contact with. I can just look at a plant from across the room and it drops dead, so I've got that going for me. Unfortunately, my MIL is master gardener and so that is another area where I just don't live up to her standards. Whatever. Great news about the stimming...we already have one record breaker around here (Angie, I'm not pointing fingers...) so I'm glad to see things are back on track.

I also promise never to wear a Due date t-shirt. Hell, I don't even know my due date. We seemed to never get around to talking about that whenever I was at my doctors....I mean, I know the one that I came up with based on what the internet told me, but I have no official one. I feel like such a loser whenever anyone asks me when I'm due. Whatever.

Amy--I laughed about you wanting your dh to do the full ironman so you can go to Hawaii....We just had a friend compete in that last year. Crazy sport! But very inspiring! And OMG, I laughed about your Tab and wine coolers question. I haven't had a wine cooler in ages. How about a Zima with a jolly rancher dropped into it for color...Anybody else ever do that?

Angie--I'm so excited that your eggs are finally back on track. Those little devils sure are making you work for it, huh?

Wanna--How are you feeling? I'm happy to report that the last two days have been sooooooo much better for me, so hang in there it does get better. People kept telling me that, but it just made me want to punch them in the face, but then again I am a horribly violent person, so ....

Fee---Congrats on the great blood test results. I can't wait until your first us...that is such a moment.

Jenn--I'm very jealous of your 80's party. I did Pm you so I can hopefully peek at your pictures. I like to live vicariously through other people's pics...

Okay, I'm exhausted from this long post. I'm sure I missed a ton of you, but you'll just have to be understanding sisters. I'm going to go to bed now, but I'll see ya all in the morning!
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Good morning all... (i know some are already snoring.. :oops: )..thank you all for your kind words for Fayssal... well missy is fine!!! i dont think i will get a companion for her... she'll be fine!

Sass...the blog titles are very nice!! I have to agree with the girls...The rotten Eggs: My Adventure on the IVF Rollercoaster ... is great!
good luck with the blog.
I am glad for your follies...wohooo its getting closer to D Date... hugs!
btw i used to have basil in my garden but i was too lazy to care for them and they caught something and died!!! well my DH studied agricultural engineering... but he has no clue how to garden!!! u should see him w the scissors trimming our bonzay (which also died)... so needless to say we have a Fat Black Thumb... my mil though had a very green one... so whenever she comes around (once a year) she refreshes things around...

Meg...how was lunch and shopping w mom and sis??? hope u had some yummy stuff!!

Angie...wohoo...follies are growing... congrats lovely lady... the wait is almost done!!!

Amy you aquatic experiences are funny....

Jenn I am glad the party was nice or may i say Groooovy

Fee...what's up! btw is there "baby on board" tshirts??? i always thought it'd be funny...not like the due in...thingy

Mel.. I can understand how you feel about turning into a patient and more tolerant person... You know I had to train myself to being patient by growing my hair as whenever I see its long i'd cut it!!! so now i have "repunzel" s hair....(i am not sure of the spelling of her name!! but u get my point

Coco and Vicky are you???
PS...it has been some time we didnt tune in to a funky song... hmmm any suggestions????

how about "twist and shout....come come come baby now...you've got to work it all out... oh u twist so fine...twist so fine...."
sorry i got carried away...i just reminded myself that i am at work....

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Meg - Many of us did the Zima with grenadine... kind of like a shirley temple. Never tried the jolly rancher. Sounds like a great idea. We should throw a virtual 80's party to launch sass' new site.
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