February Has My Heart - February Cycle Buddies Wanted

[CarolynB]

Shantala

I hate seeing the sad face beside your name. It is so unfair.

Message me if you need anything at all.

Although that you will be hurting lots now, it does ease as each day passes. Promise.

Huge hugs
Carolyn
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Wanna - so please for you +2. Take really good care. Another 2ww until your next scan - does it never end

Jen - too early to tell anything. Hang in there. Hoping so much that this is your turn sweetie. Everything is crossed

Angie - have a great weekend away. I am praying that AF stays well away for you & Jen. She is not coming

Nerms - great crop hun. Let's hope that lots fert for you

Steph - not long now. Hang in there hun

Reach - good luck for tomorrow. Will drop in tomorrow to see your news

[REACH-AEJ]

Hi girls,

Shantala ~ I'm so sorry to hear your news. You sound like you have such PMA though - very inspiring. I hope you can start again as soon as you're ready. You're very strong and sounds like you have a great support system.

thanks for all your notes - the retrieval went OK today, 7 eggs...we thought it would only be between 6-8, but I prayed for more and thought maybe...just maybe! I am now praying for a better than average fertilization rate! since we are wanting to freeze everything..the quality is going to be soooo important (not that it always isn't - but just feels like more pressure!). If we can't freeze ~ we will do a transfer...but I will go into it knowing the chances are slim for BFP.

I sound so gloomy, but it's the anxiety talking! I keep remembering the first time having NO fertilization with 7 eggs....I'm just praying not to repeat...long night ahead of us!

Hope you guys are doing well and Nerms hope you embies are dividing away! Jen, hang in there...I just know those twinges are a postive thing ~ just your embies snuggling in deep and getting comfy for the 9 month wait!

XOXO,

[wannababyIVF]

Hi Ladies,
Been in here reading and checking up on you guys. I haven't gone anywhere.

Caroyln--Glad to see you are still in here with us. I am still so upset about your results. It sucks when bad things happen to good people.

Shantala--I'm so sorry sweet. Same thing to you...sucks when bad things happen to good people. But I am glad to hear that you are ready to get started again. You have so much PMA!! That is great!

REACH--Sorry you are feeling gloomy. But glad to hear your ER went pretty good. I can't wait to hear about your fert rate.

jen--I had AF feelings, twinges and pulling during 2ww. As a matter of fact I still get it from time to time. Mostly now I just have the cramping in my uterus. I just hope it's the baby's growing. I dont have as many symptoms and more which has me worrying.

I dont have another u/s until week after next but I think I want to go back next week just to check again. YUP....I'm paranoid.

Hello to everyone else!! Hope you all are doing good!

Love, hugs, kisses and baby dust to all!

[Jen1d]

Hi girls

Shantala - Big hug being sent over to you, hope your getting stronger

Carolyn - Thanks for your support, it must e hard for you just now but you keep us all going, thank you, your a star

Wanna - Thanks for your help, its good to know i can feel like this and still get a BFP. Also, you have every right to feel anxious about your twins, if i was you i would be having every scan possible. Everything sound fine iwth them so try to relax a bit and enjoy them growing although i know it must be so hard. Even after a bfp i don't think us girls will ever relax until the bundle of joy is here

Nerms - Hope you ok and your embies are doing well.

Reach - Ok i left you until last as you need one of my tough chats I know you are upset and worried, quite right too but as i have learnt from past cycles it doesn't help at this stage of the game. 7 eggs is great and i know you have had poor fertilization in the past but take a deep breath and think positive thoughts. You have to believe in yourself and stay strong. I will be here all night if you need a chat or a vent. Cuddle up with dh and we will keep everything crossed for your little eggies I want to be able to feel those positive vibes zooming over to Scotland--big hug to you

I feel much better today although still have a few flutters in the tum and have started feeling a bit nervous when i need the loo I feel a bit bloated with some twinges but not sure if this is good or bad??

Ok have been busy today and am going to chill tonight. I am so excited when another day is over, am wishing my life away

Love Jen x

[mumtojazzie]

hi guys sorry i havent had the chance to reply but yes we got a BFP i am 6 weeks pg,i have had a couple of scares with clotting and bleeding but everything has seemed to settle down now...fingers cross.my first scan is on the 2nd April.Our weddind day was lovely and no we havent been on our honeymoon as yet,my dh is thinking in the nxt long weekend in June as he is too busy with work he went back to work 2 days after the wedding i have a fair bit of reading to catch up with and see who is where with what
Take care

Debbie

[mumtojazzie]

[CarolynB]

Mumtojazzie - Congratulations. That is fab news. Thanks for sharing the photo too. You all look fab. What a terrific wedding present. I would forgo the honeymoon if it means that you can get a BFP. What more could you wish for

Steph - so hope that you'll be joining the BFP crowd tomorrow. Everything crossed for you. Wondering if you have given in to the hpt or are you staying well away? So hope that tomorrow will be yourday

Jen1d - I am glad that you are feeling a bit better today. Know what you mean about wishing your life away as we so want time to pass. I hate myself for doing it but it is impossible not to. You must take it easy. I know that I am a right one to talk! And keeping busy so helps take the mind of things but you have to let yourself relax and your little ones grow. So hoping that this is your time. Will give me hope for my try 4 I am not responding to any of your questions about donors or Barcelona in the sincere hope that you will not need to know about it. If you need info then very happy to share but hope with every bone in my body that this will not be the case.

Reach - As Jen has said. 7 is a really good number. I so hope that the fert fairy is at work and that you'll get some good news today. Have everything crossed for you

Shantala - So hope that you are being kind to yourself and that your dh is looking after you well. May be we can be cycle buds next time!?

Wanna - I'd make them scan you again next week. If it puts your mind at rest then get them to do it. Given the amount that we pay - a scan is not much 'extra' to ask for.

Angie - so hope that you are having a nice weekend away and that it helps pass the days for you. Really hoping that it is 3rd time lucky for you hun especially after the longest cycle ever 3-8 still sounds young to me

Nerms - how are your little ones doing. Hope they are doing well. When will they be back where they belong

Hugs to everyone else. Hope that you are all having a good weekend - beats working

I am ok actually. Quite surprised at how quickly I recovered this time. Think that it was because I got my head (mostly) around it the day of transfer. Have lost a few pounds too (without trying too hard) which I guess was water/bloating which has made me feel a bit better in myself. Went to see my niece in her school's performance on Wed. She was the lead role and fab. Was looking around feeling too old to be a mum & that maybe my/our time had passed. When we got home told my dh that I felt that councelling might help me. There are some ladies attached to my clinic. Not been to see them before. Was surprised that my dh said immediately that he thought that it was a good idea and that he would come too. He nevers makes decisions that quickly so may be he really feels the need too for both of us. Have called clinic but waiting to hear back. Gp and consultants review are both this Thursday. A little concerned that he is going to tell me that my eggs are no good but almost getting some definite answers might help me make decisions about how many tries to have and when/if to think of the donor route.

Enjoy the rest of the weekend. So hope that this week will bring BFPs for Steph, Jen and Angie.

Lots of Love
Carolyn
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[Jen1d]

Hi guys

Mumtojazzie - Welcome back, you look fab, so glad you had a great day and congratulations on your bfp, you must be on Cloud 9.

Carolyn - Its amazing how quickly our body and mind seems to jump back but i'm glad your feeling better and hope and pray you get good news on Thursday. Those eggies are still going to be plump and ripe

Steph - Good luck for tomorrows test, can't wait to hear your good news

Nerms and Reach - Hope everything is ok with your both

I'm feeling lots of things at the moment. One hour i'm ok then the next a bit bloated or some shooting pains, although they are not sore. My back is a bit sore but i'm praying its only AF symptoms and they disappear soon Have been chilling out all day and going to friends for a couple of hours tonight.

Jen - 2ww, Test 30th March
Steph - 2ww, Test 25th March
Angie65 - 2ww, Test 2nd April
Shantala - Big hugs to our buddy
Carolyn - Big hugs to our buddy Review 29th
AEJ - Stimming, ER 22rd
Nerms- Stimming, EC 21st
Wannababyivf - BFP Twins
Mominwaiting - BFP
Wisconsingal - BFP
momtojazzie-BFP Scan 2nd April
Jenn - BFP, Blood Test 16th ??
Dexter - FET April

Hope your all having a great weekend

Love Jen x

[REACH-AEJ]

Hey girls,

I did not get good news.... just as I feared.
They called on Friday and said 4 fertilized and I was happy with that...however, they called back 2 hrs later and said they weren't doing well and didn't think any would make it. The doctor called me Friday night completely perplexed b/c the eggs and sperm looked fine as far as they could tell.

They are not touching them again to check until Sunday morning.
I will get a call tomorrow to confirm that they did or did not make it. The doc said not to get my hopes up b/c it does not look good. If, by some miracle, even one makes it to day 3, we are going to transfer. Even though that was not the plan---everything has changed. I pray a miracle happens, but I have to be realistic.

I still had to do the progesterone shot today just in case...I cried a lot b/c it just reminds me of what is not going to happen.

[nerms]

Hello my feb buddies!!!! Thanks for all your messages....i'm so sorry i've left it so long to post, but yesterdy we went for ET and when i came home i just felt an overwhelming tiredness!!! I even slept in this morning...so unlike me!! I think it was a sense of relief that my babies are back with me and i just feel so much better and calmer...of course i feel anxious too, but not as much as i expected. For statistical reasons i would have preffered day 5 transfer...our chances are apparently better, i dare not admit it before, but i was really hoping for day 3 transfer..my gut feeling was for yest and so it was! We replaced two embryos...both were gd2...one towards the higher end (nearly gd 1) and the other simply gd 2, I did think it would bother me that they weren't grade 1, but they are a part of me and actually from what i have read you just never can tell which are going to take and which are not...so i think lots of positive visualisation and prayers and if they are meant to be they will hopefully be my beautiful babies one day and if they are meant to be the property of God then i guess i won't get to share them. But i won't focus on that...more on how my lining is thickening nicely and how my lovely embies hopefully are dividing and growing and snuggling in!

I went for accupuncture 30mins before and after ET and she told me something interesting...if you place your finger on your fulcrum (under the tip of your nose and above your lip) and meditate with positive visualisation it helps...i have tried it and it certainly helps visualise!

SO how are you all?

Reach.. I am so sorry that you're going through all this stress....i guess with the time difference it's about time you must be getting the call from the clinic to see how if your little embies are doing well...i am praying as i am writing...all the very best. Waiting to hear from you.

Jen1d...i guess the anxiety must be getting a bit much now..but hang in there and keep positive...zita west says you should say out loud i am pregnant and this is working! Happy chilling!

Carolyn..glad to hear you feel ok and have accepted what has happened...wishing you all the best for thursday's appt with gp and consultant. How sweet of DH to agree to counselling so easily...men usually aren't good at that sort of thing...that's really sweet. I know when i went to my first accu seesion she did a mini-consultation which felt a bit like counselling...opening up and talking to a complete stranger was actually quite reassuring and i felt better. I think it's a great idea.

Mumtojazzie...what a lovely picture and congrats on your bfp! Good luck with your first scan!

Wanna... You really are paranid...i can't say i blame you though!

Angie...hope your having a good weekend away! Go anywhere nice? How are you feeling. We came to Melbourne and syndney for our honeymoon...we travelled on the great ocean road and stayed at the boomerangs...it was beautiful...i really loved melbourne...we popped into "ramsay street" but didn't see anyone famous!

Steph...all the best for today...waiting to hear from you.

Shantala...how are you? See you've joined may/june thread...good for you girl!! Keep up the PMA!!

Hello to everyone else!

Nerms
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[shantala]

hey ladies

thank you all so much for your thoughts!!!! i really do appreciate it!!

nerms - woohoo on bringing your embies back!!! i wrote to you on the march thread...

reach - have they called today??? you might well have 2 fighters so try not to give up hope!! let us know as soon as you know what the situation is today!!! thinking of you xx

jen - not long to go now..you must be about half way through now!!!

carolyn - sorry didnt see your message on here....but we've caught up on the may/june thread now so it's all good. cant wait to be cycle buddies!!! (and thanks for reassuring me the hurt gets easier! xx)

mumtojazzie - hi, we havent met before but congrats on your BFP and your wedding. you looked beautiful!!

wanna - thanks!! yes, trying to keep up the PMA and look forward not back!! oh, i'm sure you must be anxious. i'm not surprised...will they scan you again maybe if you explain how worried you are??

hi to everyone else...sorry if ive missed anyone!!

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[pep23]

Hi ladies!!! Just wanted to pop in and share the good news. DH and I just got the call...BFP!!! My level was at 98 9dp3dt. I will go back in on Tuesday for my second test.

DH and I are going to go to a nice dinner tonight to celebrate!!!

I promise I will do personals tomorrow once I can see straight!

XO
Steph

[Jen1d]

Hi gang

Oh it brilliant news about Steph's bfp, let this run of bfp's continue for us girls----please

Reach - Thinking of you, stay strong, sending a big hug.

Nerms - Good news about your ET. Your right, i try not to worry about the grade too much as you hear of people who have brilliant grades getting bfn and others with poor grade getting bfp Just try to chill, i will use your relaxation technique and hope it works for this last week

Have been having a bit of backache and a few little shooting pains but nothing else. I am really not looking forward to this week and pray the pessaries stop me bleeding

Love to you all

Jen - 2ww, Test 30th March
Angie65 - 2ww, Test 2nd April
Shantala - Big hugs to our buddy
Carolyn - Big hugs to our buddy Review 29th
AEJ - Stimming, ER 22rd
Nerms- 2ww, Test ??
Steph - BFP, 27th 2nd Test
Wannababyivf - BFP Twins
Mominwaiting - BFP
Wisconsingal - BFP
momtojazzie-BFP Scan 2nd April
Jenn - BFP, Blood Test 16th ??
Dexter - FET April

Love Jen x

[wannababyIVF]

PEP---CONGRATS!!! YIPPEEE!!!!!! I'm so happy for you!!!!

Jen--Stay positive! I'm sure those pains you are feeling are just your little ones snuggling in nicely. Also, you are probbly having the same concern I am or was having...If my AF is coming would the pessaries stop it from coming? I ask myself that now. But then I read somewhere here that someone's AF did come although they were taking the pessaries. So, I'm going to assume that if AF wants to come she will pessarie or not. So stay positive. No AF means....NO AF! Which means you are possibly pregnant. Stay positive! Keep up the PMA!

Momtojazzie--CONGRATS!!! I'm so happy for you. BTW, your wedding picture is fabulous! You look to beautiful. I'm going to assume thta's jazzie in the picture with you. She's a cutie!!

Shantala--How long do you have to wait until you can jump back on the IVF bandwagon???

nerms--Happy to hear your little ones are back where they are suppose to be. Take care of yourself and stay positive. Relax. Visualize. Pray. All that good stuff. Also, dont forget to sing to your little ones. I will be praying for you. Last but not least, stay away from the HPT. That's an order.

REACH--I'm so sorry to hear your news sweetie. I pray by the Grace of God that you get a miracle. It's not over until it's over and embies have been known to do some strange things that the doctors do not expect. So dont get down. Anything can happen. I will be waiting to hear your news. Good Luck to you!

Caroyln--How are you sweetie?? I think you're right. I might go in next week, just to put my mind at ease. Hey, I'm the one paying for it right. It's not like I am putting them out of there way. They get paid to do this.

As for me. I've been feeling like crap lately. Very sick. Friday night DH and I went to dinner at one of my favorite restaurants. We had to leave early because my appetizer and two bites of my main course ended up in the toilet. Came straight home and slept from 9pm until 9am. Yesterday felt a little better. Was able to eat something. Today felt sick again. Slept most of the day. I dont want to eat anything...well nothing good for me. I have serious food aversion. I have been eating fruit smoothies. THat's the only thing I can tolerate. This is the worse.

Hope everyone else is doing well. I will be back to check on you wonderful ladies.

Have a good one!!

[Angie65]

HI girls - steph - that is wonderful news - big congrats.

Jen in Scotland - how are you holding up. I am now into my 2nd week and this is where it gets hard. I hate this part My symptons are sore boobs and a slight tugging feeling down below and of course a crazy head.

Carolyn – so glad you are feeling better about things. An initial counselling session is obligatory here and then we are able to have as many as we like during cycle. I always forget to book though and then they are booked up for weeks! But I have found it extremely useful – my counsellor is lovely and it’s really just like unloading everything to a sympathetic ear. DH has been a couple of times too – he’s a bit reluctant but he opens up when we are there.

Reach – I hope you got some good news.

Nerms – good luck over the next 2 weeks – welcome to the ride. I am glad you loved Melbourne – it is a great city.

Wanna – sorry your little blueberries are making you sick but I am sure you will forgive them!

My w/e away was nice and relaxing – group of us rented a house. A mix of couples and singles (no children) We sat by the pool, went for short walks (didn’t over do things) and had a beautiful lunch at a winery. The only the downside was the evenings when DH’s good friend’s wife was conspicuously not drinking when she ALWAYS does . So there we were, the 2 of us, wondering and speculating about the other one – me coz I’m on the 2ww and she because she must be preggers. And it did my head in so I sulked off to bed early both nights. So we’ll be preparing ourselves for their announcement soon – there’s been a bit of lull in “announcements” recently but sure to be some more soon.

OK – here’s where I have to tell myself may be we might be one of those announcements. I am trying to keep PMA.

Better go do some work - I am sure this week is going to be a write off!

have great Mondays all.