Oct 05 Cycle Buddies

[Walshy]

Dear Ocotos,

Just quickly to pop in to wish Jen the best and know that I am thinking of you constantly hoping that this is your cycle. This is it my friend your getting your BFP if it is the last thing we do. Vinnie and Gazza are snuggling in ready for the next part of their journey.

Good luck Lola with your scan...

Hugs to everyone else.....

Will pop in later, Walshy

[little R]

Hey there Octochicks....

So I am playing the waiting game...waiting for the big O... it's all good news. Through my natural cycle, my follicle is 21mm and endometrium is 10mm...so I am basically waiting until my body decides when to ovulate. Unfortunately I have been waiting for the past 3 days and still nothing. I think it will be tomorrow...
The bad news....sorry, don't know who else to vent to as don't want to hurt my family's or DH's feelings. It sucks as I am going to have to do the ET (if I am LUCKY enough to have it) all alone... it's probably on the 28th!DH leaves on the 28th (early morning) and returns late evening on 30th..basically, he's gone for 3 days when I need him the most.
I HATE his job sometimes...it sucks...
I am not sure how to deal with the stress if he's not there...he's the only one who knows how to calm me down during the ET and before... I remember well what state I was in when waiting to hear the news that they had survived or not..
If the embryos don't survive the thaw...I don't want to go through that experience alone...
Sorry, just needed to get it off my chest...

I'll end with some positive news: got my marks back from my e-course yesterday... and got a "distinction"..so am pretty chuffed

So Lola... you've had your scan today or given that you are 4 hrs behind the UAE...you WILL be having it today. Fingers crossed that all is brilliant! Sounds like your baggage is a bit like mine

Jen love, yippee....soon there and twinges sound very promising... I demand that this be YOUR time You take care, especially at work and tell them where to get off if they give you unnecessary grief! You're so close to the 30th!

Walshy, you sound better...but are you simply being brave? I haven't seen you online lately..

Steph, countdown for you, you poor thing. I trust that Octofaith is thriving!

MUCH love to you all... talk to you soon,

Littles

[Jen1d]

Hi gang

Littles -Ok smarty pants well done on your results, you will now be officially know as the Octobrainy Chick
Its brilliant your next cycle is so close---this is going to be the 1
It must be so hard for you to do ET without DH, is there not a friend or family member who can support you, know its not the best but better than being alone?? I will be here everyday for you if you need a chat or send dh's plane via Scotland to pick me up for a week

Walshy - Thank you so much for your kind words, your fab, just wish i could help you some way. How are your feeling, is the councelling helping?
You know you can email me anytime if you want a chat. Big hug for you.

Loops - RESULTS PLEASE. How everything is fine with the scan, will drop by later for info.

Steph - Hope your not feeling too nervous about work?

Me - Well this was my last day of work and am off until Wed now. I have been feeling ok but today i have quite anxious and have been checking things out in the loo thought that wouldnt happen until after the weekend. I have felt so bloated today as if AF was going to appear although by the afternoon was a bit better. If its not worked AF usually comes 2-3 days before the test, not so soon.
Can't help feeling worried but am going to rest over the weekend and pray hard

Love to you all

Jen x

[lolajones]

Hola ladies

just a quick one - off out.
Had my scan this morning and uterine lining bueno bueno lap of luxury for all embryos. Next scan Monday and they may bring ET forward to Wednesday - same as you Littles! I feeling really positive today - tres unusual!

Jemla - I'm still chanting for you!

I'll post at the weekend

lots of la la love to my favourite girls
lola
xxxxxxxxx

[Jen1d]

Hey Loops, great news about your scan. Cant believe you will be on your 2ww soon.

I feel much better today although still have a few flutters in the tum and have started feeling a bit nervous when i need the loo I feel a bit bloated with some twinges but not sure if this is good or bad??
How did you feel on your first cycle during the 2ww, did you have any symptoms or feel different from cycles 2 and 3?

Ok have been busy today and am going to chill tonight. I am so excited when another day is over, am wishing my life away

Love Jen x

[lolajones]

Hey there

Jemla how are you feeling today? Hanging in there not going crazy yet? The 2ww is endless sometimes. Your questions.. not really. All my cycles have felt sort of similar. The last one I did though, I sort of knew I wasn't pregnant, it felt, I don't know, empty? Its weird, I remember sitting at work and getting a strange twinge and felt immediately that i wasn't pregnant anymore - probably all in my head. Who knows? Anyway - all symptoms can mean all outcomes so I'm afraid you just have to wait it out..... you've always been really good and not tested early - nerves of steel!!! I so hope this works for you my sweet.

As expected my positive mood disappeared a day later - I'm putting it down to the hormones but I'm feeling a bit low. My SIL just got pregnant and for some reason I have found it really difficult. I am most definitely not being the big person here. Hey ho Anyways kick that into touch and get over ma bad self. I have only one more day at work before 2 weeks of lovely leave - woo hoooo. Need to plan treats to keep me busy.

How are the other octovados?
LOVE like a train
Lola
xxxxxxx

[camilla]

Oh my God!! I've missed so much!

Jen - Am crossing everything for you darling. Feel bad I haven't checked in lately. Am thinking and praying for your two little embies and hoping they are getting nice and comfy in there. Will definitely keep a check on you now, roll on the 30th (test date?). Would love to see you with a BFP.

Lola and Littles - Next week is your week too then! Good luck with your ETs. Relax and imagine the perfect home for your embies. If you stay calm you'll release the right hormones for implantation. It's REALLY IMPORTANT, and you Jen!!

I want you girls to succeed so much. Much love to you all. And yes I will be checking in this week now!

Hello Steph and Walshy. Steph, I'm sure you'll soon settle back into work and you have an incentive to get your work done and get home. Walshy - You've been so supportive to everyone and I'm glad you didn't disappear.

Camilla xxxxx (I always do one for each of you)

[Jen1d]

Hi girls

Loops - Hope your feeling a bit more positive today. I think it gets harder the more times we go through this, right? I keep telling myself that if its meant to be then its meant to be but god damn it IT BLOODY BETTER WORK. I am trying to relax and so far the weekend has been fine but as you know its this week i dread as during every cycle its always over 2-3 days before the test day. Just praying hard that the pessaries stop me bleeding
Must be hard for you with your SIL, this is probably why your feeling a bit low. You know where to find me if you want a chat or a vent, lovely bud

Camilla - Good to hear from you and thanks for the good wishes and x
Hope everything is going well with you??

Littles - Haven't recieved my ticket yet My Mum is visiting Dubai next week, bless her she offered to hold your hand at ET, told her its too early so she will have to book another holiday

Walshy - How you doing babe? Hope your feeling stronger and able to think about your next step?

Steph - Hows little Faith doing and how you dealing with going back to work?

Love to you all

Love Jen x

[lolajones]

Buenos Octos

Hey Camilla - good to hear from you, hope you're ok.

Lovely jemla - how are you doing? 4 days until test day!!! Man, are you nervous? I am nervous for you!! Have all things crossed for your BFP!!! COME ON!!!! Demetrio is doing his little bfp dance for you - it is not pretty...

Steph - when are you back at work??? We await your return with hearts a flutter!

Littles - good luck for wednesday! And pop in a bit more - thats an order!

Walsheroo - you're things with you?

Well, had scan and bloods this morning, all well and ET is Thursday - hoorah!!! This cycle has gone pretty swiftly but sure the 2ww will drag like a monkeys knuckles. PMA!!!! PMA!!!!! Going to have acu again - give it the full works eh?
This can't happen soon enough now - arghhhhh

See you later

Lola
xxxxxx

[little R]

Dearest Octobuds...a quickie as DH is home and I want to enjoy it before he scoots off to NYC!

Jen, you certainly sound positive and chirpy! GOOD for you..I have really good vibes about your little ones.. they are clearly fighters. I trust that your "good" twinges are continuing. Your Ma is SO sweet (thank her for me)... tell her I live on SZR (Sheikh Zayed Rd) in one of the skyscrapers. Where is she vacationing? I have finally found a friend to accompany me..I haven't known her for long and hope she doesn't mind if I have a melt-down! Will still miss DH for the following 3 days...

Walshy... what is your news? How are you feeling lovely lass?

Lola, bring on Miss Positivity... I am sure she's in there somewhere...I know what you mean about "empty" feelings during your last try. I knew last time that it hadn't worked too..I just knew... BUT this time, Lola... it's YOUR time and you will "feel" what you need to feel I hope you're smiling... tough one SIL (is she nice at least? ) I am sure she is...I am dreading the day my brother says that he's going to be a father... it will crush me if I am still "barren"! Anyway.. positive thoughts... and so when is your ET, same day as mine?--- I only hope that I have something to transfer...

Steph - back at work yet? How's the Little Faith doing? I am so envious.. you must feel distraught having to leave her though... so less envious of that feeling YOU take care...looking forward to reading your news... I will be watching Alias, Season 5 during my 2 ww (in French unfortunately...not the same thing). I will be thinking of you though...

Camilla...love to you

LOVE TO YOU ALL....

Littles

[Jen1d]

Hi girls

Loops - Oh god i cant believe how fast your cycle has gone, roll on the ET and 2ww, you will be closer to your BFP

Littles - So glad you have found a friend to take but not happy about my hol to Dubai Will just have to visit someday, my mum is continually telling us how we would love it. She goes to stay with friends every year, will find out the area for you.
Good luck with your app, sure it will all go smoothly

Me - Well am ok so far but its still early days and can all end within a matter of minutes so am just being thankful for every hour that passes without any event. All still well when i visit the loo but have been having some twinges in the last hour but higher in the tum area rather than the bikini line. Hoping this is just my embies growing and not AF on the way If the pessaries do their job right then i should not bleed but who know, will just have to wait.
DH is starting to feel the pressure and is very cuddly. He is scared it doesnt work as he knows its going to devastate me. Bless him, he is quite worried but i just keep reminding him to be positive and take it one day at a time
Was sitting out in the garden in the sun today and cheekily thinking bout doing a hpt as the hosp make me wait so long and after 13days i could defo find out if its neg or pos-----------BUT i stayed away.

Hi to everyone else and love as always.

Love Jen x

[Jen1d]

Littles

Have just spoken to my mum, she visits Jemeria but the couple do not have an address just a box office number but she says its near Beach Road. The friends are Dr Keith Nicholl who has a private paediatrician clinic.
If your feeling lonely, need a chat to break up the day and want to meet for a coffee send me an email and i will let my mum know.

Love Jen x

[camilla]

Hello girls, see I said I'd check in!

Little R - So your ET is Weds! Good luck and a heapful of baby dust and PMA to you. Good you have a friend with you, if you don't know each other very well now, you will after this!

Lola - Again love and wishes for your ET on Thurs.

Jen - Only a few more days. I won't say anymore as the last few days are a killer. However, don't dwell on any negative feelings as so many times people have been wrong on the outcome, all those hormones rampaging round your body!

Will try my best to check in as much as I can and definitely for Jen.

Love Camilla xxxxx

[Inhale, Exhale]

Girls!!!! am back.
so much happenin hot stuff with our little group....

Loops, Jens and Little- Good luck smack on the bums! hmmm... i feel all around giddy about outcome of our group trip to BiF land. am feeling strong vibe for detours to BFP's for Jens, Little and Loos. Fingers and such crossed. As am back at yoga, flexibility has returned, so extra strong luck!

Well, I returned to work officially yesterday. I had a crap load of e-mails to sift through.. many very important and work involved. So I did the only logical thing and read all jokes and forwards first! So I guess today will be a day of organizing.. I feel like I wasn't even off from work. I swear if I didn't have pictures of Faith surrounding me I would think it was all a very long, very pleasant dream. It was quite hard to get out the door yesterday morning. Luckily hubby starts work later than I do so he is in charge of dripping of babes at daycare... I got to miss that gut wrenching experience. Hubby said that there was a lady in her car crying when he got there.. it must have been her first day back too. I was very impressed with my self control.. I only called the daycare to check in once. Of course it helped that I had meetings all afternoon and unable to get to a phone They said she did really well for her first day.. I keep telling myself we will all get used to it.

Littles- now that I am back I will be able to send a pic of Faith to you. Of course, I have never seen a picture of you! you will get a picture of me when i see one of you.

Jen- how very impressed that you avoided the pee stick! that a Octo! stay away, it only brings evil.

Loos- have not seen mention of magi bubble?? has Demmy slacked in his duties? will have a chat with him.....

Camilla- hi! long time, no talky. hows babes? are you a lucky one and a stay at home mom? if so, you have my dream job. Why didn't I marry for money?

Walshy- miss ya.. come back!

Ok luvah beans..
have a happy day... and a POSITIVE one
steph

[Jen1d]

Hey buds

Littles - Good luck for tomorrow, will be thinking of you as always.

Loops - Hope the nails are all sorted out and the legs shaved? Forgot to tell you, when i had ET 4 nurses came in to inspect my nails as i had french manicured them. At first they thought i had "stuck" them on cheek of it. Then they moved down to my toes then asked if i was a beautician----i informed them i wasn't ---can't be with a belly like that
Good luck for Thursday if i cant log on tomorrow.

Steph - Glad your trip back to work wasn't so bad, it must still be hard though. son't work to hard and try to sneak out early to play with Octo Faith

Walshy - How you feeling babe? Come back for a chat soon, we miss you.

Camilla - Thanks for your support, every prayer for our BFP's is a help

So i got past the night and today is nearly over. Its terrrible, one minute i feel positive then the next i don't, guess thats where they get the rollercoaster bit from eh
I have a bit of a sore back again but dont know if thats because i'm sitting on my butt more. I am so relieved when i visit the loo and everything is ok but then worry that its the pessaries doing their job and might get to Friday and still get a bfn IT HAS TO BE POSITIVE PLEASE

Ok will catch up with you tomorrow. Am meant to be going back to work on a late shift but depends if everything is ok.

Love Jen x