message for Traci

alypraying · Post by **alypraying** » Thu Dec 04, 2003 5:45 pm

Hi Traci How are you doing?? Have you spoken to your cousin? Do you think you will try another donor or are you going to try with your own eggs?? Have decided to try IUI again next year before we go fo the donor, My DH doesn't want to give -up. Actually he has started getting pretty upset about the whole thing. I guess I've come to terms with the fact that it might not happen (known I've had problems since 18) but he is only just getting used to the idea. He is a few years younger than me (I'm 34 and he is 31) so wasn't really concerned until now, I'm feeling pretty guilty and wonder sometimes if I should just leave so that he can find someone else, silly but things like that cross your mind all the time. Anyway sorry to keep going on, just wanted to say Hi and hope your OK. If it doesn't work with the donor eggs I may try again with my own but go to the ARGC as this seems to be a rwally good clinic. which clinic are you with? Big hugs and I know 2004 will be our year! Aly xx

Traci · Post by **Traci** » Thu Dec 04, 2003 8:53 pm

Thanks aly well I am going to ask my clinic The Three Shires in Northampton either try DIUI new protocol with my own eggs be put on the Donor Egg list get tested for Killer cells as my TSH was detected high see if that has an effect on infertility or short protocol or a long one but with Menopur as I only had Gonal F 350iu were as I can have 450iu of Menopur. So far this is my history DH vasectomy reversal now 10% motile good quantity and quality FHS 16 or as low as 6.4! nothing else wrong! 1st ICSI 8 follis 5 eggs 4 good enough 3 fertilised 2 grade a's put back 2nd ICSI 3 follis nearly abandond 4eggs 3 fertilised and 2 grade a's put back 3rd ICSI donor eggs 14 follis 11 eggs 7 good enough 4 fertilised 3 grade 2 and 3's put back I was Married before and had IUI twice we were unexplained but only had FSH tested once and it was 6.4 who knows it could have been 16 another month back then but I'll never know! he has just had a little boy so I know now its not him !!!! . This is why I want to be tested for killer cells. Weel soon know when we go on the 18th not long now to wait! WE WILL GET THERE ALY its great the your DH has the determination , hang onto that . Trace x

alypraying · Post by **alypraying** » Fri Dec 05, 2003 5:06 pm

Hi Traci If you don't mind me asking how old are you? does it worry you that waiting for a donor can take so long and yor running out if time, I think about things like this! I know I can get pregnant I had a M/C when I was on Clomid, it was very early but I had a positive test so it can happen, would really like to know about FSH levels and will ask my Doc about this when I go back, mine was very low only 2.5 but my embryo's were pretty poor only 1 4 cell on day 3 and lot's of fragmentation but I did manage to get pregnant once. I hope you get some answers from you clinic I'll be thinking of you. I'm not going back until the end of Jan thought I needed some time off. Hope you have a great Christmas just think of the positives we can have a drink at Christmas! take care Aly xx

Traci · Post by **Traci** » Fri Dec 05, 2003 7:19 pm

I am 37 in March and Dh has just turned 46 (old git!!!) and yes it does worry me but hey could get run over by a bus tomorrow !!!! its the here and now that matters , I think I am so optimistic cause one of my girls got menangitous 3 years ago she was so beautifull anyway she was in a coma for 12 days and lost both legs from the knee down and all her fingers on her left hand and her thumb on her right and she is scared from the kneck down from skin graffs she was only 16 when it happend so when I look in the mirror and see flabby tummy or arms I just think of Keira and I stop moaning to myself, She could have been a model . I dont think she will ever have children now either as it has made her sterile , at least I have my health and a chance that it may work for me . but some days I do just crack up and cry all day !!!!! As for FSH levels I only know about the ones that are high!! Hope you are well Trace x

alypraying · Post by **alypraying** » Sat Dec 06, 2003 1:30 pm

Hi Traci Well that's put it all into perspective, wow, I feel quite selfish and am pretty humbled. Like you I have so much to be grateful of, wonderful DH nice home and a loving family. I think I will count my blessing this christmas and stop feeling sorry for myself! let me know how you get on on the 18th take care Aly xx

beckym · Post by **beckym** » Sun Dec 07, 2003 7:36 pm

Traci Thanks for posting for me on the other side during my recent crisis - or should I say double-crisis now!! Just wanted to wish you all the best for your appointment on the 18th. looking at your results from the first 2 ICSIs egg wise they were pretty consistent weren't they, good grades and you only need 2. both times you ended up with the same amount of embies we ended up with this time even though we started out with more eggs. have you asked about having a hysteroscopy to check the lining of your womb for polyps that could be removed that might be stopping implantation? also I think the hysteroscopy helps them to decide where to place the embies safely to increase chances of implantation. as you know ours were stuck up right up the top of the uterus far from anything !! better than them just stuffing them any old where. if you don't get any joy out of The Three Shires go to the ARGC and see Taranissi. Although at the moment I am pissed off with Mr Gorgy for not trying hard enough to find my embie the other day, they certainly got me preggers and i can't fault them for that! all my love to you and dh and I really hope you have a very, very successful 2004 (ps I am convinced you will join me on the other side). all my love beckym xxxx