February Has My Heart - February Cycle Buddies Wanted

[nerms]

Reach...we haven't heard from you...is everything ok?

Nerms
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[Jen1d]

Hi gang

Angie65 - I've had some tingling in one of my boobs but then nothing else in that dept. I am starting to feel a bit nervous and just want this 2ww to be over.
Now you keep positive and try not to think of this week a right off, i know its hard but keep your chin up, i'm about all the time if you need at chat

Wanna - Brilliant news about feeling so sick it means everything with the blueberries are fine. Enjoy every minute of your sickness as your little bundles of joy are growing

Steph - Are you still on Cloud 9----silly question

Nerms - So how you feeling after ET, when is your Test date?

Well am ok so far but its still early days and can all end within a matter of minutes so am just being thankful for every hour that passes without any event. All still well when i visit the loo but have been having some twinges in the last hour but higher in the tum area rather than the bikini line or on the left hand side only, more like a small thob for a few seconds Hoping this is just my embies growing and not AF on the way If the pessaries do their job right then i should not bleed but who know, will just have to wait.
DH is starting to feel the pressure and is very cuddly. He is scared it doesnt work as he knows its going to devastate me. Bless him, he is quite worried but i just keep reminding him to be positive and take it one day at a time
Was sitting out in the garden in the sun today and cheekily thinking bout doing a hpt as the hosp make me wait so long and after 13days i could defo find out if its neg or pos-----------BUT i stayed away
I have such mixed emotions - i have felt different through this cycle and keep thinking this might mean it worked but then i quickly pull myself back down to earth as if its neg then the fall will be futher and harder to accept. In the next breath i worry if it neg as its my last chance and cant even think of this as it hurts too much
PMA all the way girls

Jen - 2ww, Test 30th March
Angie65 - 2ww, Test 2nd April
Shantala - Big hugs to our buddy
Carolyn - Big hugs to our buddy Review 29th
AEJ - Stimming, ER 22rd
Nerms- 2ww, Test ??
Steph - BFP, 27th 2nd Test
Wannababyivf - BFP Twins
Mominwaiting - BFP
Wisconsingal - BFP
momtojazzie-BFP Scan 2nd April
Jenn - BFP, Blood Test 16th ??
Dexter - FET April

Hi to everyone else and love as always.

Love Jen x

[Angie65]

Hi jen - my fellow 2ww'er - we sound like we are in the same boat.

Every day without AF is a good day as far as I am concerned, as last 2 times I got her even using progesterone . I still have a few twinges and sore bbs - if these symptons stay until test day next Monday, may be just may be I will feel a bit more confident.

Now, the HPT question. You have done so well not to succomb as you are nearly there. Hang on in there - I am going to try too. Still keep remembering our friend Wanna who got the BFP and didn't do an HPT.

Hi to everyone else - Nerms - will you be joining us on the 2ww too?

OK today is Tuesday, I am determined to be more productive today!
Hi to everyone.

[REACH-AEJ]

Well....they didn't survive.
We are sad, but it's almost like I am not dealing with it yet.
My DH has tried to keep us so busy from the minute we got the call that I haven't really even cried yet. I'm sure I'll have a nervous/mental breakdown at an inconvienent time soon.

I talk to the embryologist and doctor tomorrow to find out what they saw ...bad eggs? bad sperm? what happened? Remember we had this happen our first try....no explanation...then we had a fabulous run...and now a repeat of our first nightmare. Just a bad month again? I'm sure we'll never know.

I think we need a little break from the pressure though.
It's been overwhelming this past year...as you all know!!

Thanks for all your sweet notes and for thinking of me. It has meant a lot.
I will be watching for all of your BFP's these next couple of weeks!!!

[Angie65]

Reach - I am very sorry to hear that. I do hope they are able to give you some kind of answer or suggestions for next time. You deserve it. Take some time and treat yourself to something nice. A

[nerms]

Hi! I thought I was going crazy this morning and i was only on day 4 of the wait..can't imagine how jen and angie are coping!!! Feel better now...force myself to be positive! My test date is 6th April.

Reach I'm so sorry about your news..i do hope the doctors can do some more investigations and try and establish what is going wrong. In the meantime spoil yourself!

hello to everyone else!

nerms
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[CarolynB]

Dear Reach

I am so sorry to read your news. I am sure that you are suffering delayed reaction & it is being kept at bay by being busy. You need to allow yourself time to feel sad. I hope that they have some answers for you today when you speak with them. We all want answers which sometimes they have but sometimes they don't have at all.

I wish that there was more that I could say/do to help you. I feel so much empathy for you. Three tries and no success for both of us. It feels so dam unfair.

Sending you huge hugs. Take good care of yourself.
Love
Carolyn
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Jen1d, Angie and Nerms - The 2ww sucks and it gets better and worse at the same time with every day that goes past. But let's hope that there is a rainbow at the end for each of you. So hoping that this will be your time girlies & willing AF to stay well clear

[Jen1d]

Hi girls

Reach - Oh this is crap news, i was praying and sending positive vibes that this would not be the outcome. I'm so sorry babe, have a big hug with dh and try to support each other while getting stronger.

Angie65 - Have stepped back from the hpt, its safely in the cupboard. How you feeling today?

Nerms - Its crap waiting eh? Just try to watch as many films and chill, easier said than done. People keep saying to me "do something to keep yourself busy and it will take your mind off it", they dont realise every second we are thinking about it especially if there are any twinges etc

Steph - Hope you have brilliant news at your scan today, will pop in later to hear any news

Carolyn - How you feeling my old mucker, your ready to sort that Doc out on the 29th and get some answers?

Wanna - How you feeling girl, is the sickness getting better?

So i got past the night and today is nearly over. Its terrrible, one minute i feel positive then the next i don't, guess thats where they get the rollercoaster bit from eh
I have a bit of a sore back again but dont know if thats because i'm sitting on my butt more. I am so relieved when i visit the loo and everything is ok but then worry that its the pessaries doing their job and might get to Friday and still get a bfn
IT HAS TO BE POSITIVE PLEASE

Jen - 2ww, Test 30th March
Angie65 - 2ww, Test 2nd April
Nerms- 2ww, Test 6th April
Shantala - Big hugs to our buddy
Carolyn - Big hugs to our buddy, Review 29th
AEJ - Big hugs to our buddy
Steph - BFP, 27th 2nd Test
Wannababyivf - BFP Twins
Mominwaiting - BFP
Wisconsingal - BFP
momtojazzie-BFP Scan 2nd April
Jenn - BFP, Blood Test 16th ??
Dexter - FET April

Ok will catch up with you tomorrow. Am meant to be going back to work on a late shift but depends if everything is ok.

Love Jen x

[pep23]

Reach- So sorry to hear your news. I hope you and DH can take comfort in each other and take some time to heal. We're here is you need us. (((HUGS)))

Jen- I'm getting so excited for you! It sounds like you have so many of the same 2ww symptoms as me!!! Not too much longer!!!

Angie- Excited for you as well!! I think that avoiding the evil HPTs is the way to go. Worked for me and Wanna and I hope it works for you too!!!

Nerms- Replied to you on the March thread.... the 2ww IS torture. Try to stay busy!!! I rented LOTS of movies and tried to always have plans for when I was not at work. I think it helped...

My update is that my second test results came back at 263 which is over double the 98 I had on Sunday!! We are thrilled!! I did have a little light brown spotting last night so was in a panic all morning. I'm very relieved now that I know the results.

DH and I leave first thing tomorrow morning to go to Florida on vacation so I may not be online very much over the next week. But I will pop in to check on all of my 2ww girls!! Anxious to see some BFPs in the near future!!!

XO
Steph

[Jen1d]

Steph

Brilliant news, i was thinking about you all day and am so happy to log on and see your fab news.
Lucky girl bfp and Florida, hope you have a ball, you deserve it.

Don't be away too long, i might need my cycle buds shoulder to cry on

Love Jen x

[pep23]

Jen!!!! There will be NO crying!!!!! Stay positive for that BFP in your future. You deserve it!!!!

I will log in from the beach to check in on you

XO
Steph

[Angie65]

Well done Steph - great numbers - have a wonderful relaxing time in Florida.

Well 24 hours on - still the same - no spotting, no real twinges and bbs slightly less sore for me. So far so good. If I can avoid actually buying an HPT I'll be Ok - but once I have it in the house it will be just too tempting. (A bit like chocolate really)!

Carolyn - good luck with your follow up appointment - I think it's this week?

Jen and Nerms - my fellow 2 ww'ers - how are you going? It's a great help to share this time with you. Not long for you Jen.

[Jen1d]

Hi girls

Well got throught another night but didn't sleep so well
No AF yet and the pessaries seem to be doing their job but am now scared i will get to Friday and it still wont work I wanted to take the pessaries right the way through so i didnt bleed but now i dont know if i should have stopped them and AF would have arrived if it has not worked. I am so full of mixed emotions and terrified to do the test incase its neg
I dont seem to have much twinges as the moment so feel a bit neg today

Nerms and Angie65 - How you both coping? Are you as mixed up as me?

Steph - You lucky girl, down there on a gorgeous Florida beach. Enjoy babe

Carolyn - Good luck for your review tomorrow, hope you get some good news, you deserve it.

Am in work this afternoon then tomorrow morning as long as everything is ok. Will catch you Thursday night---i will be climbing the wall by then.

Love to you all, am in a dash

Love Jen x

[wannababyIVF]

REACH—I’m so sorry to hear the news. We were all hoping for a miracle for you. It sucks when you don’t have an explanation as to why this has happened. I pray that your doctors can offer you some hope or explanation in the near future. I am so happy you have such a wonderful DH to keep your spirits up.

Angie—Not long now! Monday is when you test, right? It will be here before you know it and you will get that BFP! I have a good feeling that you are going to get a BFP. Just stay away from the HPT.

Nerms—Not long for you now. I know you and Angie both will have a BFP! Stay positive and keep singing to your little ones. And stay away from the HPT.

Jen—The 30th is my cousins birthday. He is like my big brother (I only have sisters). So I know that day is going to bring you some good luck. Stay positive and keep singing to the little ones. And also, stay away from the HPT. Dont worry yourself! Relax, relate, release.

Steph—Great numbers!! How many did you put back? Have fun on vacation! I wish I were going somewhere. I need a vacation badly. But I have to keep my days for maternity leave.

Carolyn—When is your follow appointment with the new clinic?

I can’t believe so many of you are on your 2ww. This just amazes me. I pray that each one of you will get your BFP! I know the 2ww is torture but it will all be worth it in the end when you get your BFP! Try to stay as busy as possible. I had something planned for every night of the week after work. And when I didn’t have something planned, I slept to pass the time. lol

AS for me, I didn’t get that extra scan that I wanted. I called the doctor and told him about the pain I was feeling and the worrying. He basically told me there is nothing wrong and that he’ll see me next Tuesday. He said as long as there is no spotting then everything is fine. He said that I am carrying twins and I’m going to feel all sorts of pains and twinges. It’s my buddy growing. I don’t know why he’s being so darn selfish with the ultrasound machine. Can’t see much on that ancient thing anyway. lol So now I just have to wait until next Tuesdays scan where I will be 8 weeks and 2 days…I think. He did however give me some medicine for the nausea. I haven’t taken it yet. Afraid to. I know they said it was safe but I don’t know if I want to give my little ones any meds. I can live with the nausea for now. If it gets really bad then maybe I’ll take something. But I don’t want to find out 1 year from now that research found that the medicine I took causes kidney failure for babies while invitro. You just never know. Yes, once again….I’m paranoid. lol

[CarolynB]

Wanna - I am sorry that he would not scan you again. But he must feel confident that all is well. I probably would not take the medicine unless the sickness is really bad. So hoping that your scan next week is going to be perfect. Follow up tomorrow is with 'old' clinic. We have already been to 'new' clinic & just need to call them when my next AF approaches and they will start a 'monitored' cycle

Steph - Great numbers. Congratulations. Florida and a BFP. What more could a girl wish for

Jen1d - Thinking of you every day and doing the BFP chant. The 4th time life raft just has to be the one for you & Ms Jones

Angie - cannot believe that my cycle seems ages ago and we bantered about you being ahead of me! I am so hoping that AF stays away and it is third time lucky for you

Nerms - same for you. Hope that the wait is not too unbearable and that you are doing some fun things to distract you

So gp tomorrow to see if she will help us out with some free blood tests and more critically back to our old consultant to see what he has to say about 3 -ves. Scared about what he might say and half hoping that he is quite direct so we at least know where we stand. I'll let you know.

BFP - BFP - BFP for Jen, Angie and Nerms. Please!

Night Night
Carolyn
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