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[Angie65]

Morning/evening everyone - Jen you are nearly there - hang on in there. You have done well to hold off from the HPT.

Well another 24hrs has passed for me - no change which is a good thing as far as I am concerned. Bbs still a bit tender, no real twinges and no spotting. I think I said that yesterday too! I am trying to stay calm. I have given myself the day off tomorrow and I am going to go shopping - may be buy some new boots. I must stay away from the pharmacy though as I must not buy an HPT!

Ok must go and do some work - I am going to try and have a productive day.

[nerms]

Hi girls...

Hi Wanna...Thanks for your words of wisdom...i could just picture your chat with the Doc...it made me smile! Yes i do think you're being paranoid You have to accept it...you have two beautiful babies in your tummy who will pop out to say hello in just under 8 months!

Ange Jen...how are you girls...not long to go now!! Jen hold off HPT today! I wish you all the luck in the world! Will be praying hard for you today.

As for me, i was niether super positive and in some respects I didn't feel anything, but I didn't feel negative...that was until last night...i had the worst nightmare...well like most of us i've pee'd on those HPT's and seen negative too many times...so i tell dh i can't bear to see the result...so he looks at me then says..it's good news it's positive..we're both so happy but then suddenly there was blood pouring out of me!!! It woke me up..i was just so upset. Everytime i tried to go back to sleep i could just picture all this blood everywhere...really shook me up Anyway feel a bit better now...been feeling a little paranoid because I keep looking for symptoms...but there are none...the twinges have now passed and the bloating has subsided...is that the same for the other two 2wwers. I have had no spotting, boobs are a bit tender but only to touch...i've never had tender boobs even before AF so not sure if it's painful without touching or tender to touch??? Am I being para???? or am i just going crazy?

Carolyn...hello..when is your review with old clinic? Thanks for all your
well wishes.

Steph..hope you're having a fab time in florida...

Nerms
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[CarolynB]

Nerms

What a nasty dream. But it is only a dream hun. We all go loppy in 2ww. One minute you think that all is well and you are pregnant and the next you think that there is nothing there.

Try to do something nice to take your mind off things if you can. Each day is a day closer to your end goal.

My review is this afternoon at my 'old' clinic. Thanks for asking. Starting to chew my finger nails and apprehensive about what he has to say. That said I will feel better able to move on to new clinic after we have seen him. I want to know why my great embies stopped growing on D5/D6. I wonder if he will have any answers. I fear now but you can only ask....

Sending you hugs. Hang in there. We all know how hard it is and are all here for you.
Love
Carolyn
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[nerms]

Thanks Carolyn...i truly am so grateful for this site and all of you lovely ladies for all the support you offer.

Good luck with your clinic today...you know that's what makes me wander the most about your case...because I remember the day before ET you wrote about how doc was so confident and you would be going in the following day (sorry if i am recelling it wrong) but there was a general air of confidence..so what went wrong there...and i wander if it is worth doing PGD...to determine what went wrong on a cellular level??? It is also quite bizzare how it's always day11 for you..i wish you all the best..you need some answers. I know argc seem to do every test under the sun, so i'm sure he won't leave any stone unturned and you will (fingers crossed) get the BFP you so deserve.

All the best

Nerms
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[Jen1d]

Hi gang

Well another day nearly over, thank god and it looks like i will get to my test date for the very first time (shouldnt speak to soon). I must say i have been more relaxed on this 2ww and felt happier as i have been taking the pessaries right through. Now i'm worried that they are stopping me bleeding so will still get a neg never happy eh?
I'm hoping all the twinges and bloated tum last week was my AF passing and now i'm on the way to lovely pregersVille but somehow i just feel very negative today---think thats what your body does to prepare you for the ineviatable

Carolyn - Hope you had some of your questions answered and pray you can one day get the bfp you deserve

Nerms - Wow that was a belter of a dream, no wonder you couldn't get back to sleep. Its such an emotional time and our minds are working overtime--its exhausting.
I'm exactly like you---towards the end of the first week i had bloating, a little bit of tingling in the boobs and felt like AF was coming. Then over the last week a few twinges in the tum but now in the last two days i have felt nothing. I am praying AF has gone by but am scared the pessaries are stopping this. My friend who has 3 kids said she had lots of feelings then nothing but who knows. All our bodies are different and i suppose the dreaded test will tell me tomorrow

Will let you know the info as soon as i get the courage to do the hpt tomorrow. I feel anxious already as i so desperately want this and if its neg i hate the guilt and seing my dh face full of sadness.

Thank you so much for all your support, its been fab.

Love Jen x

[Angie65]

Morning girls,

Hi Carolyn - I hope your follow up went well. Also you must be excited about starting with the new clinic - new approach, new tests - that would make you feel very optimistic I'm sure. I hope you are also finding the time to do nice non IVF things too.

Nerms and Jen - my fellow 2ww'ers - well here we are another day on. Jen you are so close now. Well done on refraining from the test. I am going to the HPT on Sunday morning which is the day before my blood test. But I am not going to buy it until Saturday so I will not be tempted. Last time it was horrible as, for a few days before, I kept waking at 4am and then doing the test then, and then of course when I got BFN I couldn't get back to sleep. And DH would wake up and we would both be sad - so NOT doing that this time.

My symptons are subsiding too - don't really feel anything. We are all different though - last 2 times I have still bled even with the pessaries but this time, no sign so far, so I am taking this as a positive sign....

I have the day off today - hitting the shops and meeting DH for lunch - it's going to be a nice day.

Hi to everyone else - will check in later.

[Jen1d]

BFN

[wannababyIVF]

Oh JEN!!! I am so sorry to hear that sweetie! I was really hoping for a BFP for you and the others! Are you sure? Did you take a HPT or a blood test? Sometimes the HPTs are wrong. Please let us know how you are doing. I know this can be devastating. But please keep your head up. I know you will be a mommy one day.

[Angie65]

Jen - so sorry mate - I really am. Not good news here either I 'm afraid - AF well and truly arrived yesterday. Carolyn - we have the same problem - just can't seem to make it to the end of the 2ww without AF showing. Me and DH are gutted, deflated and empty.

[Jen1d]

Girls thank you for all your help and support.
We are devastated but to make things worse my dh spoke to the Doc yesterday and she said i can NEVER have my own child now as i am not responding to the medication or getting enough eggs. I am distraught especially for my dh, don't know how i get over this guilt and can't seem to pick myself up. Our only hope of a baby is by donor or adoption but i just keep thinking, its not my baby then. Plus i don't know how to find out about it all or where to go. I just dont have the energy and cant get motivated to get going again. I dont even want to talk or see people, which has never happened before.

Angie65 - I'm so sorry babe and completely know how you feel. I only got to my test date because of the pessaries. If you want to chat vent away or email me. My email address is in the profile but change the three numers from 123 to 246. Big hug for you.

Wanna - We always do a hpt and never bloods. The hosp make us wait for 16 days so there will definately be no false results.

Thanks for all your support, i will pop in soon but its just to painful just now, hope you understand.

Love Jen x

[Jen1d]

Nerms- 2ww, Test 6th April
Jen -
Angie65 -
Shantala -
Carolyn -
AEJ -
Steph -
Wannababyivf -
Mominwaiting -
Wisconsingal -
momtojazzie-
Jenn -
Dexter - FET April

Nerms - Good luck for the 6th

Love Jen x

[CarolynB]

Oh I am so upset. Saturday morning comes around and I think that I shall go and catch up with my bestest pals..................

I cannot believe your news Jen. I have PMed you. And then dear Angie, I think of cheering you on and then read your posts too.

I have tears pouring down my face. Why. Why can't this work for us. Why on top of everything do we have to go through this multiple times and it still not work.

I feel so much empathy for you. Angie - I know exactly what you mean about not even reaching test day. I cannot get there. I have never got there either. I asked my consultant about that and will PM you with what he said just in case it helps you a little.

Massive hugs for Jen and Angie. I just wish that we could all meet and have a group hug and a good cry together. It is hard for other people to understand just how this feels.

We are here if there is anything that we can do to help you.

Love to you both.
Carolyn
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[wannababyIVF]

Angie and Jen--I'm so sorry ladies. I'm sitting here in tears. This is so difficult. I hate this. I'm at a lost for words. I'm not even sure what to say. Nothing I can say can make you feel any better. But I just want you to know how sorry I am that this has happened to you ladies. It's so not fair. Please take time out for yourselves. We will be here if you need to talk or vent or anything. But if you need time away from the board that's understandable also.

Love you both!

[Jen1d]

Just wanted to say good luck to Nerms for the 6th, hoping there is a BFP waiting for you.

Love Jen x

[CarolynB]

Here here. Let's finish this thread of with another

Nerms so hoping that it will be a BFP for you hun. Going to parents for Easter so will not be able to check your news probably until Monday. But I will think of you and hope that it is your time.

Loads of Luck
Carolyn
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